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I just wrote this down but I've thought it many times- 
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ROUNDTOWNMOM
1/16/2011 8:13AM
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It's amazing how many times we forgive others but forget to forgive the person in the mirror. Wonderful words!
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THEMRSH
1/14/2011 8:04PM
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Wise and lovely words to remember.
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KALATHIA
1/14/2011 6:21PM
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Ah . . . Forgiveness. It sounds so simple and yet, it can sometimes seem impossible. I must keep working on this. Thank you for the reminder, Elizabeth. Kath Report Inappropriate Comment |
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ANEPANALIPTI
1/14/2011 6:06PM
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Elizabeth, thank you so much for sharing this!! I am writing it down! :D
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DITZYCHICK
1/14/2011 4:13PM
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Nice...so happy to have come across your blog, because I really needed that today. Deep breath...let it out...ahhhhhh THANKS for the inspiration! 
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CINDYWAGNER1
1/14/2011 3:36PM
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Forgiveness is powerful! Beautifully expressed!
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SEPTEMBERSPIRIT
1/14/2011 4:34AM
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FORGIVENESS is a great gift to give yourself and you SO Deserve it!
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NEW-CAZ
1/14/2011 3:10AM
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beautiful words Elizabeth.  
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_CYNDY55_
1/14/2011 1:42AM
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Thank You ★Elizabeth * 。* 。*。 • ˚ ˚ •。★Nice Thoughts And 。* 。*。 • ˚ ˚ •。★Words By *You* 
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ALONELYLIONESS
1/13/2011 8:51PM
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Nice. I'm going to write that one down for myself. Thanks!
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MIMICOTO
1/13/2011 8:24PM
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Beautiful - like you
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OLDBIKER
1/13/2011 8:22PM
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Powerful!Elizabeth.A way with words to start the mind! 
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DEBBIEANNE1124
1/13/2011 8:00PM
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HELLENIC
1/13/2011 7:46PM
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Very powerful. Stay the course Elizabeth. This is your life and you deserve to be healthy and happy. We're all here to help you in that endeavor. Hugs- Alyssa Report Inappropriate Comment |
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MESSENE
1/13/2011 7:12PM
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 blog 
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FRAN_CVLRN
1/13/2011 7:11PM
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I totally agree! You're a wise one.
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OURELEE1
1/13/2011 7:07PM
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A great blog.
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MARTY19
1/13/2011 6:48PM
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WOW! This is certainly food for thought. Marty Report Inappropriate Comment |
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CINDYWAGNER1
1/13/2011 6:47PM
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Amen! Thanks for sharing.
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DOOBRIE
1/13/2011 6:42PM
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LALASLAND
1/13/2011 6:42PM
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How excellent! Elizabeth!
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Today is a snow day and, 
in honor of my Sparkaversary this week, 
I gave myself the gift of spending as much time as I wanted to print off all of the SparkSummary Calendars for my entire Spark career
(DH says it sounds like a cult when I start putting Spark in front of every other word- I told him to shut his sparkin' mouth about my SP!) 
and sit down with my trusty calculator (Lucy calls it my 'puter')
and really see if I can figure out what the heck is behind my over-a-year-now plateau. 
You will have to believe me, or go back and read the hundreds of blogs I have written, that I have tried every plateau-busting tip ever given me here, on my teams, by sparkmail (there I go again) or on the message boards.
I have tried eating less
(after a visit to a dietitian who had me try 1200 calories per day for a month- I had to give that up after THREE WEEKS of headaches every single day -some of my old friends will remember that awful time- last July),
eating more (my personal trainer's big fat idea),
calorie cycling (which I tend to do naturally- in reviewing I see I eat anywhere from 1100 to 2100 calories fairly consistently),
more ST-less cardio,
more cardio- less ST,
you name it- I have tried it for at least a month.
I eat plenty of F&V, fiber and protein- drink 10+ glasses of water plus tea a day. I gave up my daily 1-2-3 glasses of wine Oct 1st, 2010 and now have 1-2 glasses a month, so far- thought that would make a big difference but, nope.
I eat very little processed food, eat at home 95% of the time, watch my sodium, take a multi and a fish oil capsule.
I very consistently workout 60-90 minutes 5 or 6 days a week, switching things up every month or so (kettlebells are my current passion). 
I go to my second home in the Caribbean once or twice a year for 2-3 week visits, where I eat as much fish as I can, walk an hour most days and do gentle water exercises for 1-2 hours every day. I do drink too much booze when I'm there.
So, in summary (anybody still awake?):
Jan- June 2009 -aver. daily cals -1533 lost -19 lbs 
July-Dec '09- av cals 1440 -lost 6-7 (started to yo-yo)
Jan-June '10 - av cals 1600 lost 0-(up-down 1-2 each month)
July-Dec '10-av cals 1450 lost 0 (have crept up 3 or so)
I will never-ever give up- I feel too good and am down at least 25 pounds from Jan '09 but I am only halfway to goal and flirting with the obese category again.
Plus, I feel like I am letting my two new teams down by gaining weight.
***omg- tears just came to my eyes- I had to walk away from the computer after typing that- I didn't realize it was so important to me- I think it's embarrassing for me, too- I feel like I'm failing at something I'm trying so hard at- see the power of journaling?
Let me think about what to try next.
I'm open to suggestions.
We just got plowed out and my gym is 24/7 so I'm going to work out and think some more- I know I'll feel better then.
thnx for listening.
Hope I don't sound whiny.
I'm not just making excuses.
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KAUAI-CAROLANN
1/16/2011 2:08AM
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Read this blog today and though it doesn't have answers, it does provide a ton of inspiration! http://www.spar kpeople.com/mypage_public_journ al_individual.asp?blog_id=39264 73#comments Report Inappropriate Comment |
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FITAT50
1/16/2011 1:23AM
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Hold on there Sister, first, YOU ARE NOT LETTING YOUR TEAM DOWN!! Elizabeth, I don't want you to think that again! Are you participating in challenges, YES, are you posting 3x a week, YES! Having a weight loss is only part of the challenge. By being an active participant you are doing your body and your team good! We love hearing from you good days AND bad! The only people that would let the team down would be the person who is not putting anything into the challenges and posting. I also was wondering if you've had your thyroid checked?I hope you find the key to get over you plateau, never stop trying. Report Inappropriate Comment |
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DOOBRIE
1/14/2011 5:43PM
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Just a thought - maybe it would be worth investing in one of those Bodybugg type things. I think there are some other makes that one or two of the Spies have. You could ask them for their opinion. You've tried everything else!
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PATTICAKES08
1/14/2011 4:41PM
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Elizabeth, Far from letting anyone down, you are such an inspiration to so many of us. Your spirit is so catching! Maybe you should try whining???? (Not wine-ing though). Maybe talk face to face with a nutritionist? Hang in there. 
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MYLIFE4LIFE
1/13/2011 8:18PM
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Elizabeth, first let me say I was ROFL at your comment to your hubby. Lollololololololololololololol!!!!< BR> 2nd, you rock! I know you are going through a tough time right now but let me just say that you inspire me mainly because you stick with it and because you are ALWAYS checking in on me even when you haven't heard from me for months! I am so thankful to have met you! In my eyes you will NEVER be a failure because I know you love yourself too much and your family to give up. I pray that you find out something soon so that you will have some peace. (((HUGS & LOVE))) Report Inappropriate Comment |
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TRENTDREAMER
1/13/2011 7:57AM
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"***omg- tears just came to my eyes- I had to walk away from the computer after typing that- I didn't realize it was so important to me- I think it's embarrassing for me, too- I feel like I'm failing at something I'm trying so hard at- see the power of journaling? Let me think about what to try next. " * I am sorry to hear. I've recently faced the fact that there's something in my nutrition life that I am taking in excess. It's not what you deal with, I know. At the same time, is there a food group that you are generally eating too much of? Is there one that you're not eating enough of? Is there one that you are eating unhealthy versions of? Is your BF% relatively low? If you are really healthy, then the BMI may not be giving you the right health assessment. I personally am 20 pounds overweight but relatively healthy and functional. I think after the smoke clears I will probably be 10-15 pounds overweight if I get my diet right and exercise and hour a day. I'm OK with that. I dunno. I'm just throwing stuff out. I'm really sorry to hear that you are dealing with this frustration. I really appreciate your comments on my blogs and page. And yeah, to someone not familiar with SparkPeople it sounds like when the smurfs used to replace every first syllable of every adjective with "smurf" (e.g. that's Smurf-y!!!!) Report Inappropriate Comment |
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MIMICOTO
1/12/2011 10:16PM
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Oh sweetie - you are anything but a failure....and you are not letting ANYone down. You are a constant source of inspiration, wisdom, humor and love to all of us who know you in this spark-space. The vast majority of people would have given up by now - but as you so wisely point out, that would have left you in a much worse state...back where you began or worse, and without the incredible fitness base you have built for yourself. 90 minutes a day or more of exercise tells me you are one incredibly fit lady. I wish I had the answer to this as it really is baffling - but like Caz, the only thing I can think of that you 'maybe' haven't tried is a short period of active rest (although when your hip was bugging you, you rested....so ???) BTW I am incredibly grateful that you haven't given up...and that you don't intend to give up...my sparkiverse would not be the same without you.
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BEGONIAC
1/12/2011 10:04PM
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ARGHHH!!! I don't know either....and I don't know why it has worked so well for me this time. I'm grateful tho. All I can send is my support & hugs!
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BUNNYCATS
1/12/2011 7:56PM
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When was the last time you had your thyroid levels checked? My doctor checks mind once a year. Just a thought. 
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FRAN_CVLRN
1/12/2011 7:26PM
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Please, please don't ever think of yourself as a failure. You've done all the right things and have tried switching it up so many different times in this 2 year period-I have no suggestions for you-just love and support! How did I let this day go by!!
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HIPPICHICK1
1/12/2011 7:11PM
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How many calories do you burn? If you don't know for sure, I suggest a heart rate monitor.
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NEW-CAZ
1/12/2011 6:17PM
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Elizabeth I am as puzzled as you and please don't be down on yourself you are doing everything by the book. There is only one thing I can think of-stress and over working your body. http://www.sparkpeople .com/resource/wellness_articles .asp?id=434- if you're worrying over this it could be affecting you. Also you might be over training- as uncomfortable as it might be have you tried complete rest for 2-3 days....maybe longer. Don't give up hun, you've come so far, maybe as Helene says step back and let go a little. For what it's worth my DH has a similar view to yours but he also notes how much good SP has done. Take care babes xxx Report Inappropriate Comment |
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MRSBENNETT2
1/12/2011 6:01PM
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I can feel your frustration coming through this blog loud and clear! I wish I had some concrete answers for you. I am in the same boat right along with you, though. Weight loss is incredibly hard for me too. I do everything right and it still sticks on my poor ol' bod, or it comes off at a miniscule pace. So easy to get discouraged! Just focus on all the other healthy changes you've made to your lifestyle...those are probably far more important than what the scale choses to tell you!
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SEPTEMBERSPIRIT
1/12/2011 5:52PM
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You are not letting anyone down Elizabeth... I just wish you can find the solution or the right 'formula' if you will (and I know you will). You are doing everything right... perhaps you need to step back and let go a little. Journalling is certainly powerful and I'm glad you shared this with us. We're here to support you through this and I'm so happy that you are not giving up!
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MARTY19
1/12/2011 5:40PM
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You aren't whinny and you certainly aren't a failure. Bite your tongue. I have no advice to offer. I went back to weight watchers which I know from past experience works for me. Some members swear by eating more - some eating less. I can't figure it out. Did you sparkmail one of the coaches or a dietician? Maybe they have some ideas. Marty Report Inappropriate Comment |
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WINFIELD28
1/12/2011 5:28PM
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It sounds like you have been really working hard and doing what conventional wisdom would have you believe - is helpful. You are so accountable with your record keeping. You have looked for professional assistance - dietitian, personal trainer. You have changed your routines..by the book, you are doing everything right. I too, wish I had some answers for you. Don't give up! Keep searching, keep reaching. I hope your time at the gym was helpful today.
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LALASLAND
1/12/2011 4:43PM
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Yes, I know how hard you've been working on this, too! I am so glad you have NOT given UP! Have Sparktacular day! (yeah, I know)
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KALATHIA
1/12/2011 4:40PM
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I wish I could help you, Elizabeth. I know how hard you've been trying and you've been open to so many new ideas. And you're certainly far more dedicated than I could ever hope to be! If anyone deserves success, it YOU! As for your DH and calling SP a cult? Well, maybe it is! But it's a good cult!!!  XOXO Kath Report Inappropriate Comment |
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DEBBIEANNE1124
1/12/2011 4:32PM
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Tiy deserve the best you time ever. Love you before you love others. LOL @ your husband calling it a cult. Report Inappropriate Comment |
Elizabeth - it's certainly helping me!
