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Drinking + River =Binge Eating

Sunday, August 24, 2014


Yesterday a group of friends and I went kayaking all day. SO much fun; one of my favorite things to do during the summer. It could be a healthy way to sneak in exercise, only, we drink all day long too. I ate a healthy breakfast (a big one too, since I knew I didn't want to eat junk). And, I packed some healthy snacks- some cheese, grapes, and sliced cucumbers. Awesome, right?! Well, it was until we got home and we were all STARVING (which I am pretty sure we weren't, we were just dehydrated). So, my friends ordered pizza and you better believe I had 4 pieces. FOUR.

If that weren't bad enough, I went home a couple hours later and swung by McDonald's and ordered a burger and fries with a pop. Ate all that too!

So, today, I am feeling like BLAH. I do not feel good. I do not feel good about myself. I feel really, really guilty because I have been doing SO great for the past 2 weeks. I will get back on the "wagon" so to speak today. However, I am scared to step on that scale tomorrow. (I've been weighing myself every Monday).

I seem to always do this-sabotage my hard work. Even when I try so hard to prevent it!!


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WOUBBIE 8/25/2014 11:55AM

    How about using this experience to make plans for the next time it comes around. Like, order wings instead of pizza? Or eat the toppings off the pizza and ditch the crappy bread? Get a double burger and eat it without the bun? Vow to order a soda and lime between each alcoholic drink?

You'll still have fun, still be social, and still feel good the next day! Life's all about learning from the past!


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Fellow Lady Sparkies-- take a look.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

I'm getting ready to go to bed. I was perusing the internet and stumbled across this website. I encourage ALL of my fellow Sparkie women to take a look. It's a little graphic (some nudity), however there are so many wonderful pictures....

Take a look and remember, no matter what size you are, let's love ourselves. Let's love eachother.

Have a wonderful night loves! emoticon


Day #2

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Today was day #2 of Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. Whoo I'm feeling it. I was really tired when I got out of work, but I stuck to my guns and forced myself. I'm hobbling around the kitchen making dinner now.. low carb zuchinni bake. Yummo.

I'm having a glass of wine with dinner. This put me just over my calories today. But, I'm not depriving myself. I will drink it and enjoy it. I'm going to add in an extra cardio day this week to make up for it.

Slow and steady. One day at a time. Just gotta keep telling myself that.

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WOUBBIE 8/13/2014 12:32PM

    One day at a time for sure! Hope today's a good one!


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Starting over for the 65457 time.

Monday, August 11, 2014

This may be the umpteenth time I've started over. But, this time WILL be the last. I actually took official "before" photos this time. I want to post them, but I'm too chicken at this time. I will, but I'm not ready just yet. They were hard to look at, to say the least. I've created a folder in my email and every week I will post new pics along with my weight. Eventually, I will do this here..when I'm ready.

So, I tracked everything I ate today. I also did the Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. Man alive! I will be sore tomorrow! lol.

A lot of things have changed over the past few months. I left my boyfriend of 6 years. I'm starting over. I have my own place, doing my own thing again. It feel liberating. Now, it's time for this last bit to fall into place. It was hard to leave my ex, but I did it. This proves to me that I can do anything I set my mind to. This includes my weight loss.

I want to stay positive. I want, scratch that, WILL stay accountable. That's all I have now.. me and my amazing and supportive family and friends AND of course, you Sparkies out there. You understand more than anyone how hard this journey is.

My journey is a long one. I have about 80 pounds to lose. But, small goals for now, right? My smaller goal is to be down 35 pounds (starting today) by Christmas. That's roughly 2 pounds a week. I think it's totally attainable and realistic. But, more than pounds, I want to focus on my self-esteem, and inches -how my clothes are fitting. That will keep me going more than that pesky scale!

I feel good. I feel it's right this time. I can do this!

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MEA6785 8/13/2014 11:05AM

    Great advice, Woubbie! Thank you so much! :) emoticon

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WOUBBIE 8/12/2014 6:54PM

    Welcome back!

Try not to make the mistake that most people make when "starting over". Don't try to do too much all at once and do none of it well or permanently. Pick just a couple of things that you're going to do every day, every week, every month from here on in. Yeah, yeah, I know, you want big dramatic results. Or do you want results that last?

Commit to 10-15 minutes of some kind of exercise every single day unless you're sick, rather than killing yourself with a program that you drop after a few weeks.

Pick your two worst eating habits: soda? fast food? eating on the run? late night snacking? Focus on those two, figure out how to fix them, and then, when you have those down, pick another one. And another one. And another one.

You wouldn't build your house on sand, so don't build your habits on willpower.

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MEA6785 8/12/2014 9:06AM

    Thanks gals!

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SPICEMWE 8/12/2014 8:20AM


We're here for you!!

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OH- HI. It's been a year!

Thursday, January 02, 2014

So, it has been a whole year since I've even blogged. Actually, in all honesty.. since I've really even sparked at all.

I've gained back all the weight I lost with SP, plus an additional 15. I swore I would never be here again. But, here I am. Back to almost 2oo pounds. What the heck happened?

I could dwell on it. OR, I could get off my a*s and do something about it. I will do the latter.

I've been working on my sparkpage on and off today when I get a second. I have made it my resolution to spark more- to set new goals and stop beating myself up for being overweight yet again.

I will stick with it. But I need your support. I feel like I'm lost all over again. And, this sinking feeling isn't going away on its own. I really hope I can do this.

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MEA6785 1/3/2014 12:52PM

    Thank you guys so much. It means the world to me to have support :) I hope you all have a happy day! emoticon

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SCOHANATOR 1/2/2014 4:52PM

    You got this! We all fall off the wagon, but getting up and dusting ourselves off is the important part. Don't beat yourself up about it, instead embrace the choices that got you here and focus on making positive change. I know that sounds so sappy but it works for me! I lost 20 pounds on Sparkpeople but then I gained 10 pounds back. Instead of focusing on how much I gained, I am thinking about how my body is ten pounds lighter than it was last year. That's the weight of a new-born baby OFF of my body. You got this, welcome back and keep it up!

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AKHEIDI 1/2/2014 3:48PM

    We're here for you! You have the motivation, now run with it! Oh, and welcome back emoticon

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EELS4PEELS 1/2/2014 3:13PM

    Welcome Back! I'm the same way when it comes to beating myself up for what I think are my failures. Don't do that! Just strive your best to conquer them and prove to yourself that you can do this again and even better than the first time!

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