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OH- HI. It's been a year!

Thursday, January 02, 2014

So, it has been a whole year since I've even blogged. Actually, in all honesty.. since I've really even sparked at all.

I've gained back all the weight I lost with SP, plus an additional 15. I swore I would never be here again. But, here I am. Back to almost 2oo pounds. What the heck happened?

I could dwell on it. OR, I could get off my a*s and do something about it. I will do the latter.

I've been working on my sparkpage on and off today when I get a second. I have made it my resolution to spark more- to set new goals and stop beating myself up for being overweight yet again.

I will stick with it. But I need your support. I feel like I'm lost all over again. And, this sinking feeling isn't going away on its own. I really hope I can do this.

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MEA6785 1/3/2014 12:52PM

    Thank you guys so much. It means the world to me to have support :) I hope you all have a happy day! emoticon

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SCOHANATOR 1/2/2014 4:52PM

    You got this! We all fall off the wagon, but getting up and dusting ourselves off is the important part. Don't beat yourself up about it, instead embrace the choices that got you here and focus on making positive change. I know that sounds so sappy but it works for me! I lost 20 pounds on Sparkpeople but then I gained 10 pounds back. Instead of focusing on how much I gained, I am thinking about how my body is ten pounds lighter than it was last year. That's the weight of a new-born baby OFF of my body. You got this, welcome back and keep it up!

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AKHEIDI 1/2/2014 3:48PM

    We're here for you! You have the motivation, now run with it! Oh, and welcome back emoticon

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EELS4PEELS 1/2/2014 3:13PM

    Welcome Back! I'm the same way when it comes to beating myself up for what I think are my failures. Don't do that! Just strive your best to conquer them and prove to yourself that you can do this again and even better than the first time!

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Bathing suit season motivation.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

It's only January, but as I was perusing Pinterest today, I saw this and it struck a cord with me. Thought I'd share with you all! Get to work. Bathing suit season is right around the corner!!

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LISA_SUMNER08 1/30/2013 11:53AM

    Good point! Love it! Thanks!

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CAGMUAHFO2 1/30/2013 9:59AM

    Thansk for sharing. That is motivating

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    :) Love it, thank you for sharing!

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Busty Girl Problems 101

Friday, January 18, 2013

Well, I could go on and on about how I've been depressed lately. About how I need to do this, or want to do that. But ya know what? I'm not gonna!

I put on my big girl panties last week and sucked it up and started working out again. It feels wonderful. Why did I stop doing this and let myself go, AGAIN? I don't know.. that's for another blog.

So, back to working out today. I did my "Hip Hop Abs, cardio sculpt" workout for 30 minutes today (and if you've never done it- I highly recommend it if you need to switch up your workout every now and then. SO FUN). Not only was I ALL over the place, but my "bazoombas" were as well. You're laughing, ok I am too, but it's a serious matter! emoticon

So, my question for all you other busty SP women is: What kind of sports bra do you wear that fully supports you and your 'girls'?? I mean, I'm talkin' DD + and isn't going to cost me a fortune because I am currently on unemployment.

Have a great weekend ladies!

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NUTKINNB 1/22/2013 1:13PM

    I just happened to see this post and as someone quite busty (36H), I couldn't help but share this webcomic!

I invested in an Enell bra ( probably 5 years ago and am actually still using it. It was $80 at the time - by far the most I've ever spent on a bra - but I think the length of time that it's held up (though I wasn't working out every day/week) made it worth it. If you can find a sale on them, I highly recommend it. I don't love jumping jacks in it, but that's bc I changed & need a different size, but don't want to invest in another one until I'm farther along in my journey.

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MEA6785 1/22/2013 9:00AM

    Thanks Mady! I will give anything a try at this point... lol

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MADYZ360 1/22/2013 1:20AM

    I know what you mean Mea! What works for me is wearing a bra (an old one you dont wear anymore and that you will throw away) and then a sports bra on top of that (and if you need extra, then double up on the sports bras). That usually helps support mine pretty well. Im a DD too, so maybe it will work for you as well!

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MEA6785 1/19/2013 9:05AM

    Thanks girls. I appreciate your input!

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SPICEMWE 1/18/2013 3:46PM

    Sadly I haven't found any that really work for me. At Kung Fu I just double up on cheapy Walmart sports bras (no wire). It sounds stupid, but it works for me. I lift the girls up when I put the first one on and then put the second one on over top to keep them there. For the most part they are secure. It's a tad uncomfortable at the end of my workout, but it's better than them bouncing all over the place.

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SAEABRYONY 1/18/2013 2:53PM

    What you need to do is to catch them when theyre on sale. I got my 42DD sports bra from lane bryant for $1. But I got it on sale when they were running the buy one bra get one for a $1.

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MEA6785 1/18/2013 1:43PM

    Reyningsunshine-- I know what you mean, girl! That is the issue I'm having exactly. Ugh..

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    There is no such thing.

I've been on a quest to find 32DD bras that aren't expensive, and I have not found a single place that carries them. Sports bras are awful because they come in two sizes for me- "smash your boobs and make them hurt like heck" or "be too loose around the band and offer no support."

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Wednesday, December 05, 2012

I like to drink.
I like wine.
I like beer.
I like alcohol period.

We all know alcohol lowers your inhibitions.
For me, this means it makes me not care about what I put in my mouth.
I will eat anything not good for me; chips, cookies, bread, anything processed and refined. And not just a little. A lot. I mean, A LOT, A LOT.

I keep kicking myself for re-gaining all this weight. I can blame it on not exercising consistently, having one too many "cheat days," or just generally being lazy. I could blame it on losing my job. Or not having a vehicle anymore.

No matter what I blame it on, there seems to be ONE single contributing factor for me. And, it's alcohol. ANYTIME I have just one too many glasses of wine, or one too many beers I eat. Not only do I eat, but I LOSE SLEEP. Losing sleep for me is even worse than the eating. Because then, not only do I eat the night of the drinking, but I wake up feeling tired, groggy, and sometimes hungover.. which makes me want to EAT the next day too!

SOOOO.. I needed to write this blog because I had to put this in writing. I had to admit to this, not just in my head anymore.

I'm not going to stop drinking completely.
But, I am going to cut down. I am going to cut up a bunch of veggies. I need something easy to grab. I am going to drink water every other drink when I go out.

I will stop not caring, and care about myself again. This, I think, is the hardest part for me. emoticon

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SUZEMARIE73 12/5/2012 1:28PM

    I also like to drink and I have found ways to do it without sabotaging my diet (I think). First of all, I used to drink vodka sprite but that's a lot of calories and sugar so I switched to vodka & soda. It's not as sweet so I sip it slower which means I drink less over all. Also, my favorite place to go doesn't really serve food so there isn't the temptation of extra treats and I make sure to eat dinner before I go. For the "hangover day" I make sure I have stuff pre-made for easy access (sometimes it's a can of spaghettios, but hey at least it's low cal right?).

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WOUBBIE 12/5/2012 9:45AM

    I'm right there with you.

The only thing that's ever worked for me in terms of cutting back is to make little rules. The ones that work best for me are time rules - no beer before x o'clock. I've also scaled back to the lowest alcohol beer around, MGD64. Took a few weeks to get used to but it's OK now.

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    I limit myself to no more than 1 day a week and here lately I've been trying to skip a week. I used to drink every day.

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I have nothing to wear.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

No really, I have NOTHING to wear. As in, NOTHING FITS ME.

Why, you ask? Because I let myself get as big as I was when I started this journey.

I almost cried. But, this is my doing. I would just put on a pair of my "fat" pants, but Noooo I had to get rid of all of those bigger sizes because I SWORE I would never get this big again!


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MEA6785 11/21/2012 7:33PM

    Thanks everyone emoticon

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WOUBBIE 11/21/2012 6:48PM

    Well, at least now you know just how Oprah felt. At least you don't have millions of other people judging you - just you yourself.


The "wagon" is stopping just for you - climb back on and off we all go!

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KATHARINEBRAY 11/21/2012 5:34PM

    Its Thanksgiving

so enjoy it. You know its a brand new start for you, Just take it. Forgive Yourself
I have been there . I had to start over emoticon

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MRSTABER 11/21/2012 3:35PM

    I had that wake-up call not too long ago! Good luck on your journey. You will get there again!!

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PHOENIX1949 11/21/2012 3:33PM

    I can clearly identify with you. Had a walk-in closet full of sizes 12 thru 24 a few years back that I gave up as I lost weight. Regained all the lost weight plus some and have been unwilling to buy many new clothes. We have a lot of consignment stores in town where one can get stylish clothes at a reasonable rate to not break the budget while getting back on the wagon toward a healthy lifestyle. SPARK on.

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