Wednesday, February 25, 2009
As you probably already know, I have been having a hard time with the numbers spark is giving me. I keep thinking that 1550 -1850 calories per day is way too much for someone my height. Every time I raised my cardio they raised my calories needed. Everyone said they are right and I need to eat that much. I've been doing it, but reluctantly. I haven't been losing weight though - 2 pounds in the last month. So this morning I decided to fiddle with the numbers a bit and made a discovery. I am eating too much. I was right. What I did was checked my goal weight and date. I had put down Dec 31st as my goal so they were calculating my weight loss on that date. Therefore, they were calculating a slower weight loss. I want 2 pounds a week, which is healthy. I changed the date to Nov 15 and my calories needed changed to 1300 - 1650. This seems more reasonable to me. I think I have finally found the problem. I know if I wanted to could cut down my cardio a bit (I'm trying for 90 mins 5 days a week) but then I would have to cut down the calories as well. I like to do the cardio because it makes me feel like I am really working hard towards this goal. I want to be healthy and strong. I want to go hiking this May without having to worry about my knees and shins and feet. I can't do that without getting off my butt and working on it. I feel much better about 1300 - 1650 than I did the previous numbers. I don't feel like I am cheating or bingeing.
I did tons of cardio yesterday. I was feeling low so I just kept getting back on the bike. I still felt low, but at least I felt like I was accomplishing something. I need to work on more core exercises. My stomach is bloating so much that I feel fatter than before and that is not encouraging. I am hoping if I strengthen up those belly muscles it might help the bloating a bit. I don't really know though. Does anyone know if you can get an exercise ball in a really small size? The ones I have found have been 75 cm, 65 cm, and 55 cm. The smallest one said for under 5'3". I am 5 inches under that so I am worried that it will be too tall for me. I have no balance at all so maybe a ball might help. Does anyone know anything about them? I don't know a thing about them.
I am alone today for the first time in a week so I am planning on enjoying the peace and quiet. I love my family with all my heart, but every once in a while a person needs some alone time. I haven't had alot of that in the last 15 years. I am going to finish up some laundry, prepare some lasagna and a salad for dinner, do my cardio and then take it easy for the day. Maybe read a book or have a bath. I need it. I am sure all you people with small kids know what it is like trying to have a bath alone. It seems like every time you close that bathroom door the kids come running. I figured it out a few years ago. They think if the door is closed then something good is going on inside and they don't want to miss out. They are inquisitive little creatures.
Something remarkable happened yesterday. We have three cats and three kids. One of the cats is in love with my oldest son and one of the cats is in love with the middle son. The other cat has always liked me best. My youngest gets very upset because he isn't any of the cats favorite. For months I have been lying to him and teling him that Rocky sleeps in his room while he's at school. This made him happier. Anyway, Rocky is a very old cat (20 this summer) and very stubborn. He is not a playful cat at all. he likes to be left alone. He will let people pat him, but he will scratch and bite if you touch his paws. Yesterday, he let my youngest son old his paw in his hand. It was amazing to see that this fierce creature trusted Adam. Adam was thrilled by this and is now proud to say that Rocky likes him best. I believe that animals are very intuitive. When I am sick, Rocky won't leave my side. If I am upset he lies beside me and purrs. With my pregnancies he was my constant shadow. I don't know how they know these things, but they seem to. I guess now that Rocky is Adam's cat will have to get another one to look after me when I am sick. LOL
Monday, February 23, 2009
I got on the bike first and did 43 minutes slow and then 17 fast. I usually try to do 30 medium and 30 fast, but today I was too tired. Mondays seem to be that way for me. I then had to shovel snow which took 20 minute so I added that as cardio and then I did a DVD walk of 1 mile. 920 calories burned. I will try to add more bike later. I know this is going to sound weird , but it doesn't feel like exercise unless I am dripping sweat. The shovelling kills my arm muscles so I know that it is good and the walk used some different muscles that I don't usually use to it was great too. I just don't stink enough after them. LOL
I am feeling a little emotionally drained today. Obviously the inlaw visit last night did a number on me, but its more than that. I don't like the person my husband becomes around them. He turns into a spineless jellyfish. If he would stand up to them we wouldn't be living with such a bad situation, but he won't. They have too much control over him. He was so grouchy yesterday that the whole family was miserable. He was constantly yelling at the kids. It was not a good day. I didn't want him anywhere near me last night. it is just such a frustrating situation. I would like to spend the day in bed crying, but its not an option for me. Adam is home today and there are things to be done.
My fruit challenge is stumbling today. I have been trying to eat one piece with breakfast and onewith lunch. I ended up making french toast for breakfast so missed that fruit. I guess I will have to fit it in somewhere else. Dinner tonight is pizza. We just had it, but Gord requested it again since he has to snowblow after work and wants a relaxed easy dinner. I love pizza, but the calories mean I have to be extra careful all day.
As you have probably guesses, it snowed AGAIN. I am getting tired of all the white stuff. We got about 5 inches last night and its snowing lightly now. We already have at least 4 feet out there. I am beginning to doubt if we will ever see grass again. Now this is really going to sound strange, but one thing I am looking forward to when I lose weight is the summer. I get heat stroke very easily. One of the boys is the same. It doesn't even get that hot hear but it will make me sick. I am hoping that if I am lighter I will be able to handle it better. I guess the good thing about living up here is that I don't have to deal with too many summer months. The mosquitoes are bad though. We live in the country so they can get really thick. They love me and two of the boys. They leave Gord and Adam alone. I have no idea why. Maybe it has something to do with blood type. I like the fall - its not too hot and not too cold and all the mosquitoes are gone. Now if I could find somewhere on this huge planet where is is always fall I would move there in a heartbeat. Anybody know if there's a place like that?
Okay I just made up my mind. For lunch I will have my two fruit (an apple and an orange) and some celery with cheese whiz. Maybe a bowl of cream of potato soup to round it all out. I can't fail on my challenge this early in the week. Maybe some chocolate pudding too if I have enough room and enough calories left. I think I spend too much time thinking about food. I guess that is why I am fat.
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