Thursday, October 22, 2009
Well, last night I got so out of control that no amount of food was doing it. Roger is out of town and I just let the house go and got into the food. I talked to Roger last night and he really encouraged me to go back to Greysheet. He told me that up until now that he really didn't buy into this AA type of connection with food and needing all the support of GS. I told him that any diet would work if I would stick to it. He was raising his voice saying NO, GS IS THE ONLY ONE FOR YOU. Whoa, what a change of tune for him. He also told me something I hated to hear but was necessary for me to hear. That is that unless I do something about my weight now he said he could see Lifestyle letting me go as an instructor. THAT is what I think really did it for me. I even have my annual halloween party to go to in 10 days but I am planning by God's grace to stay abstinent and that will be a first. I told Roger that I was worried about going to his Christmas party which is at the Don Cesar (a VERY nice hotel on St. Pete Beach)on Dec. 5. He had a good point. He said "you are not even ONPLAN yet and you're already worried about going OFFPLAN". I'm just not even going to think about Dec. 5 right now. I have enough to worry about staying on plan today. Dec. 5th will have to worry about itself.
Why do I keep trying to reinvent the wheel? I know GS works for me and yet I fight it because it is so strict. I truly want my cake and eat it too, LOL. In the last 6 months I have spent hundreds of dollars on a diet doctor, supplements, a food coach and none of it worked. Yet Greysheet worked and I still ignore it. You have a sponsor and phone meetings along with tons of support by phone all over the world and best of all is IT'S FREE. Helllllllooooo, anybody home up there. Seems to be a no brainer.