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Gym Bag

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

I am getting over being sick. I'm heading into work tonight, despite a little stuffy nose. I am thinking of going to the gym in the morning after work, which is no small feat for someone who works 12 hour shifts. But, I don't have to work tomorrow night and I have a few errands to run anyway, so I'm hoping it works out okay. I am just hoping I won't be too tired in the morning to go!

I need to pack a gym bag tonight. I really need to get back into having one in my car at all times so there is no excuse. What do you all put in your gym bag?

I haven't worked out in awhile though, and this is the heaviest I have been, so I need to go try on some exercise clothes and still see what fits. Eek!

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MARTA_M 12/17/2014 1:20AM

    I also keep an iPod nano and headphones in my bag. It seems like a lot of stuff, so I went for a nice bag with lots of pockets. Another option is to put stuff in stuff sacks or cosmetic bags. Feel better soon!

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MARTA_M 12/17/2014 1:12AM

    Bully for you, planning and packing ahead! I usually wrap gym and pool time in with shower and moisturizing time. I keep GoToobs of all my favorite toiletries in a mesh bag, flip flops, and deodorant in my bag. I even keep a bottle of Chanel Chance to feel pretty. I keep an REI pack towel, bra, and panties in case. Feeling presentable after I exercise helps. I am training for a triathlon, so the gear change daily. Shorts, socks, shoes, swimsuit, goggles, cap are all regulars in my bag.

Make a pretty new gym bag a reward!

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Sick Day Question

Monday, December 15, 2014

I've lost a little weight already, but I'm pretty sure its because I'm sick and really not eating well (i.e. very little). I thought I was feeling better so I had some ginger soy sesame salmon, which was good, but afterwards I felt ill again and the only other thing I could stomach through the day was cranberry juice and some granola with milk. I like to think of it as a success, however, that I could get in some protein.

In the past, I had used sickness as an excuse to not continue a healthy lifestyle. I know, it sounds so backward but let me explain. The first time I got sick after losing a lot of weight I decided to just rest my body and be gentle to it. I was sick a few days and got back into the game. Then, I got the same illness again and tried to do the same thing but it was harder getting back into exercising. This started to become a cycle so I saw my doctor and had been diagnosed with mono. She told me not to exercise. Literally. So I used it as an excuse not to exercise. For months. I had mono for months. So then, getting back into exercise was almost impossible. During this time, I had my wisdom teeth removed and had to eat a special diet for a week or so and used this an excuse to eat ice creams instead of yogurt, for example. After a week I was totally put off my regular healthy eating habits because I had tasted the sweet life.

I know we shouldn't over exert ourselves when sick, but what exercises do you do when you are sick to keep you in the game? Do you simply take time out to stretch, do meditative yoga, etc? What works for you?

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RHOOK20047 12/15/2014 6:56AM

    Welcome to SparkPeople. We are all here for the same reason, no matter what our personal story is. We are here to help each other to get to that healthy point we want to be in our lives. It is not going to be easy, but it is attainable. I have found that changing things up is the way to start weight loss. Make small goals and they will lead to big successes. You have to make you #1 and tell yourself that you are worth it. If you don't take care of yourself you can't take care of anyone else. I think your idea of stretching and yoga are perfect exercise when you are not feeling your best. You can do it! We are here to help! Welcome and get active on this site. emoticon

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New Beginnings and Fears

Sunday, December 14, 2014

So, here I am. At it again. But, I'm not going to berate myself or even talk about my "previous journey" of weight loss in this post. I'm here to journal because research has shown that writing your thoughts down can help you lose more weight than not.

On my hiatus I learned a great many things. I learned that I really can be content whilst fat. I learned that me losing weight to look thin is only a comparison game. I only want to look thin because other people look thin and I feel they judge me. This thought process really doesn't help my mental health, which I really need to baby. I am currently on depression/anxiety med which I probably should have been taking for the past 14 years but that I am glad I am on now. However, a combination of my depression and my depression medication has made me fatigued, so on doctors orders I really need to get back into exercise to help boost my energy level. I'm a few months past due on that order. But, today is a new day with no mistakes in it.

If I'm being fully honest, I have a lot of fears about this new start. Let me count the ways:

1) That I will fail like I failed before. I will lose a large amount of weight only to become frustrated with not meeting a goal weight that makes me "average" in the eyes of the medical community (garr BMI!) and I will make a lot of slip ups that will eventually cause me to gain back the weight and more. I need to remind myself when those times come to go see a dietitian and relay my concerns. I need to have a heart to heart with all my physicians about it.

2) I will lose steam before the journey even starts. I will make excuses, convince myself that a vanilla chai tea with milk here and a kit kat here won't hurt and I won't see progress and I will become frustrated and go back to my old eating habits. I need to remind myself that 9 months to get back to where I was before will be totally worth it. Its just 9 months. Each month will be hard work. Each week will be hard work. Even each day may be hard work, but the closer I stick with it the sooner I will arrive and the sooner I can go beyond to a place I have never been before!

3) I will become obsessive like I have in the past. I will convince myself that to get over this plateau that perhaps I should cut out sugar, or add extra calories or remove some calories, or workout harder or less, or or OR. I certainly fear that this time. I need to remind myself that every food is important to me...whether physically or mentally. NO MATTER WHAT PEOPLE REPLYING TO MY BLOG say, I don't need to cut anything from my diet. It is all important and has its place, in moderation.

4) I worry about comparison. I like to compare myself to others when they started losing weight at the same time I did. When they pull ahead by 10, 15, 20lbs I get discouraged. This time I need to remind myself that they may be denying themselves certain things or doing certain exercise that only make me lose interest in losing weight. My plan will get me there eventually.

All in all, my goal is not to look hot in a bikini. My goal is to get back to where I was and to appreciate it for all it was, and prepare myself on the way to fight those stumbling blocks I met when I was there.

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PURPLEGIRL22 12/14/2014 6:16PM

    It is hard. This is my 2nd attempt. My 16 year old finally spurred me into action. I, too, want to be thin, but I realize that it may not happen. I just want to be healthy. It sounds like you do, too. You sound like you are motivated and your heart is in the right place. Just keep moving forward. It is a journey and not a race. You can do this.

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