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Sunday, May 25, 2014

Today I learned my neighbor lady died, due to complications related to obesity and diabetes. My mother lived the last 15 years of her life mostly in a chair or a bed due to complications of obesity before dying last week.
Food addiction has a powerful hold on the mind, even when we know we are literally killing ourselves with the food choices we make.
For me my Sparkpeople BL team is one of the best tools I have to fight my addiction. If it weren't for the Blue Sapphires support, I would be much heavier. I have learned so much researching food addiction, but it doesn't change the fact that I am still responsible for the choices I make.
My focus today is to get out of my chair and do a bit of yard work along with 3 good meals and a healthy snack this evening.
I need to think about the world outside my door a bit more too. Life has more of a purpose than just work and eating. This morning I bagged a meal for a homeless man and used my little Julia's flea medication to treat his poor pit bull that is suffering from fleas. Didn't know what I was going to do with Julia's medication after she passed a couple of weeks ago, but God found a use for it.
Just for today I will take care of my health both physically and emotionally , I will let tomorrow take care of itself.
I wish you peace.

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MICKEYMAX 6/6/2014 9:29AM

    what a beautiful thing to do!

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HEYITSLISA 5/26/2014 10:53AM

    Hang in there. emoticon

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MAGGIEVAN 5/25/2014 1:59PM

    You CAN DO IT. Just keep on keeping on. Small changes will add up!

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Right now, in this moment.

Saturday, May 24, 2014

I canít think of this as a lifelong dieting process. It gets too overwhelming and I feel defeated before I begin. I have to think of this as a ďRight now in this moment.Ē plan.
What can I do right now, big or small to make a positive difference for my health?
Choose water or soda?
Donít pick up the salt shaker?
Ask myself to wait 15 minutes before eating that little something I think I canít live without?
Take my dog for a 10 minute potty walk instead of letting her out into the back yard?
Maybe my positive choices helped me lose a bit of weight today, and thatís good.
Maybe my positive choices kept me from gaining a bit of weight today, and thatís good too.
All of these little Ďin the momentí choices add up to big changes at the end of the day for me.
And that is how I have to approach this.
Right now, in the moment.

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NICOLERZ 5/24/2014 11:32PM

    I agree with you. I can't think about doing this for the rest of my life. I just can't. I have to take it one day at a time.

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DIFROMWYOMING 5/24/2014 9:32PM

    I really need to focus on this more, because I get so discouraged when I try for something larger- my history is so poor...I never do keep the positives going. Thank you for sharing this. emoticon

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We should all feel this way

Thursday, January 30, 2014

This video is about a news anchor and how she responds when a viewer feels the need to let her know how fat she is.


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Sunday, January 26, 2014

This wonderful video put out by Sparkpeople will warm your heart.
You may even want to try it!

(A couple of you mentioned it made you cry. I must admit it got to me too! Hugs, B)


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DARBYGAL 3/6/2014 6:12PM

    That was fabulous!

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RENLLY 1/28/2014 1:28PM

    Thanks for sharing - sniff sniff

I also love that little virtual hug - cute

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NICOLERZ 1/26/2014 4:24PM

    It made me cry, too. Thank you so much for sharing that!

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ONEKIDSMOM 1/26/2014 3:31PM

    Would you believe that made me cry? Looking at the video, particularly of the phone calls! Thanks for publicizing it!

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Just for tomorrow.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Pizza, candy, ice-cream, mayo, enormous amounts of cheese, fried potatoes, butter, salted popcorn, heavy cream in my coffee, eating 5-6 meals a day.
I thought I had moved away from eating like this.
What has sent me spinning out of control the last several days?
Is it recovering from my 4th surgical procedure since July?
Is it the phone call and then mail from my employer letting me know what is expected of me when I return to work in early February?
Is it watching my health fail as I age and knowing that because of debt and lack of savings that retirement is not ever an option?
Is it the pain in my left shoulder, elbow and wrist that wonít allow me to even open a water bottle anymore?
Is it the anniversary of my deceased daughterís birthday coming up next week?
Is it having to increase my little pugís pain medication as the cancer moves through her body?
Is it worrying about my adult children and knowing I can no longer jump in and help like I used to?

Being home from work has been a mixed blessing and curse. I am away from a job that leaves me exhausted and too tired to do much but drop in a chair each evening, but now I have so much time to just think about what is and what should have been. Regrets that dance through my head. Anxiety and depression have taken over my mind.
I am sad and worried and scared.
I am eating to cover feelings I simply cannot deal with.

I know everyone has their own stuff to deal with, some of it much more difficult to deal with then my personal issues. I donít expect anyone to have any answers for me. I write this only to help me. To make some sense around what I have been doing. To calm my soul.

I start tomorrow not with plans to weigh and measure my food, not to count calories or watch portion size. Tomorrow my focus is just to eat clean, no garbage.
Even if I over eat, my goal for tomorrow is to eat food that is helpful, not harmful to my body. Just for tomorrow.
I will have to let Wednesday take care of itself.

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PATRISNA 1/29/2014 3:32PM

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NICOLERZ 1/22/2014 11:39AM

    One day at a time, my friend. Life can be so overwhelming. I, too, fear never being able to retire, so you are not alone in that. Take care, I am sending you a hug.

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WORLDSERIES11 1/21/2014 2:06PM

    baby day at at can do it!!
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RENLLY 1/21/2014 11:42AM

    That is a good first step. it can be overwhelming to get back on track if you try to do everything you are "supposed" to do at once.


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