Friday, December 30, 2011
12/28/11 was my first anniversary with Spark.
I have met the greatest group of supportive friends here.
I want to thank all of you that stood by me and helped me back up on my feet each time I stumbled.
I would like to be able to say I was diligent and consistent with food and exercise this past year, but I wasn't. Not by a long shot.
My first year's goal was to lose 104 pounds, half of my over all goal to reaching a healthy BMI.
For a brief moment when I weighed myself that anniversary day, I felt disappointed with myself because I had fallen 9 pounds short, having lost only 95 pounds.
But then I realized that I am really very proud of myself.
According to the Spark progress tracker, I have walked over 500 miles this year.
My BMI has gone from 60.6 TO 44.3.
My daughter remarked that she has never seen my shoulder blades before and that they looked strange!
I have learned to like the taste of food without using a salt shaker.
I completely stopped buying soda several months ago.
I can use a car seat belt without needing an extension piece.
I have dropped from a size 5X to a 2X and can buy clothes right out of a local store instead of having to order online and hope it fits.
I am completely off all medications.
My cholesterol is way below the standard norm (160), as is my blood pressure.
I was easily able to climb on a chair the other day to get something down off a top shelf in my cupboard instead of asking one of the children to get it down.
I am no longer considering bypass surgery.
My husband has seen me make this attempt several times in past years, so I don't think he truly believed I had it in me to keep going.
He never said a negative word when I would backslide.
He is also proud of me. He told me he thinks I am really going to pull this off.
If I do, there is a trip to Las Vegas to see Cirque du Soleil that has been promised to me.
Each day is still a struggle and I have to do a lot of self talk to make good food choices and get my butt up on the treadmill or stationary bike.
I have an agreement with myself to do the very best I can in any given moment, and not beat myself down if I fall short of what I expect of myself.
I myself am starting to believe I might actually finish this journey this time.
So my goal for 12/28/12 is to have reached a healthy BMI with a weight loss of 208 pounds.
We will see.
I feel very hopeful.
God, please keep sending me those Angels for support.
They have been so helpful.