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BL 5th Week Challenge a.k.a Putting Me First!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

This is a fun challenge!
Thinking about giving to myself or doing for myself first does not come naturally. I think all of you can understand that.
But I persevered and came up with a list of things I would like to see happen in the next 5 weeks, before the end of this BL challenge.

1) I would like to get my car cleaned inside and out. It has been more than a year and it really needs it.
2) I would like to buy myself new workout shoes.
3) I would like to have a watch.
4) I would like to get a stability ball for core exercising.
UPDATE 1/14/12 : I purchased a ball, but for some reason I am feeling intimidated by it and it is still in the box. hmm. emoticon

5) I would like to read a book, haven't read one in 6 months.
6) I would like to try 2 new vegan recipes
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7) I would like to add 5 new songs to my IPOD workout music collection.
Making this list for the challenge feels like I might actually accomplish some or all of this! If I do, I am going to be a very pleased gal in 5 short weeks!

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THE-MORE-GIRL 1/14/2012 8:14PM

    These are great things! Let me recommend my favorite vegan recipe blog --

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LGAR519 1/12/2012 3:18PM

    Very seldom do I put myself first. Time to make a list and work on it!

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COPEMA 1/12/2012 1:33PM

    I see a trip to Wal-Mart or Target in your future! Not to mention the car wash, the library and the grocery! Seriously, it sounds like a nice, do-able list to me. I would guess it's way past time for you to put yourself first! Have fun!

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TABBYJO88 1/12/2012 11:34AM

    That is a great list. I think it is good you have found things that you want to do for you and put it in writing. That means it is more likely to happen and you deserve everything on that list to happen for you. I wish you the best in completing this list and hope you have fun doing so. emoticon

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GEORGIA_KAY 1/12/2012 8:20AM

    Great list! I'm like Kate in that I thought I was kind of stumped for ideas for my own list, but after reading yours I do see that they don't have to be world shaking events, but things that are personal to your list and I know you'll manage them all nicely. :)


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RONDINI2 1/12/2012 6:06AM

    Definitely looks like a can do list..Have fun. Can't wait to see your outcome at the end of your 5wks. Gives me something to really think about and maybe try.
Very, very hard to rethink and do for myself...
Anyway have fun Belinda..can't wait to hear how your coming along.


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_KATHY 1/11/2012 11:10PM

    I thought I'd put that list off for awhile because I just had no idea. Your list has given me direction. Great take care of yourself list Belinda.

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DIFROMWYOMING 1/11/2012 8:30PM

    I agree, it is hard for me to think of myself first. I usually would rather do for everyone else around me first...and then I never get around to me! I think we're all like that to some extent, which might be part of loving myself not enough? Hmmm...something to think of.
But...I'll break down and do my list soon, too! Yours sounds like something very do-able! emoticon

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SKY2012 1/11/2012 7:31PM

    wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww that seems like FUN....

what a WONDERFUL idea!

high five! yahooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Re-evaluating is O.K.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Recently I have been feeling like I do not want to do my cardio and ST. I have been feeling tired, grumpy and I feel myself losing interest.
Normally this is where I would throw in the towel and quit. But I don't want to give up on myself again, which is my usual pattern.
Instead and uncharacteristically, I took a look at what I think might be going on with me.

I think I have been over doing it. I have accumulated an awful lot of information from 'experts' about length of workouts needed to lose weight, intensity of workouts, incline level of treadmill, what and when to eat,different types of ST needed to build muscle, number of reps required in ST, etc. because I am trying to do this 'right'.
However, I am finding myself in pain every day. My workout time is no longer enjoyable because I am pushing myself to other people's standards. Plus it has become somewhat boring. I don't like exercising like this. I need to go back to what was working for me in the past.
I am going to cut back to between 30 minutes and 1 hour total for cardio and ST for a while, depending on how I feel, and see if I still continue to lose weight.
I have to figure out how to make this a positive change in my lifestyle if I am going to be able to maintain it.
I know that I want these changes to continue.
This journey has been hard, but I am not giving up.
I am not a quitter, and I like who I see myself becoming. I just need to figure out how to make this work for me.

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PATRISNA 1/14/2012 8:09PM

    I think you are doing the right thing. The main thing with any activity is to make sure you like it and the fun factor is a must. It can't be boring or painful.

I was using the treadmill last year. I loved it. But I kept trying to increase my speed and length of time. I was doing 3 miles a day in about 70 minutes when I ended up in pain. My over doing the exercise aggravated my plantar fasciitis. So I quit doing the treadmill for a while.

I started walking with some local SP ladies at the park and that was a lot better. We all got busy this winter so I haven't met with them in a while. I walk Ginger everyday at least once. I stopped going to the park because she was too wild. I just walk her down to the end of the street and back. When DH gets home from work we walk her again. I try to get two walks a day. So I get 15 to 20 minutes each walk.

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PS. I hate ST but I try to do resistance activities. Tugging on Ginger when she is trying to chase a motor cycle, car, bike or person works. emoticon

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TABBYJO88 1/11/2012 2:07PM

    This is a great blog and you are absolutely right. You need to make this work for you and not try to make it to the standards of others. I am somewhat learning this myself right now. And sometimes re-evaluation is the best thing you can do. I am so proud of you for not giving up. Keep up the good work and remember that you should never try to work up to someone else's standards unless they are your own and they work for you. emoticon

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GEORGIA_KAY 1/11/2012 8:09AM

    Re-evaluating yourself for what's working, and what's not is the ONLY way that anyone can stick this (or anything else) out long term. How many people take the time, or have the ability to be totally honest with themselves in order to do that though? Not many, I'll bet.

I know you'll find the right way(s) for you to keep an exercise plan. You are absolutely No Quitter! Your determination is apparent in every word you wrote here.

I'm rooting for you.

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RONDINI2 1/11/2012 6:27AM

    I think your doing a fabulous job..and maybe a couple changes
would help for you. Not quitting is awesome, but change is good sometimes. Check out some different options. I'm sure that will be helpful and maybe even fun.
I love how you stopped and looked at yourself and noticed that you needed to do something for you..and didn't quit.
Your going to find a solution that works for you and you will get through this...and your body will like that you took care of it and you...You just need to take a minute and smell the fresh air and flowers from those wonderful ideas you have waiting for us...the ideas will come..
The excitement will come with the new fresh ideas you make for yourself...I love you and keep up the great job..
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SKY2012 1/11/2012 12:59AM

    YOU are suchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh an INCREDIBLE inspiration.

just amazing!!!!

I read your post and I was like WOW! She does a LOT of exercise dang! and here I am with my ten minutes a day of walking, smiles.

The point is that at least we are moving our bodies, yeh!!!!!

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_KATHY 1/10/2012 10:19PM

    3 weeks was always my time limit before I quit. I quit quitting. Today, I used my peddler for almost the entire movie "The Help" My DD gave it to me for Christmas. Great movie and I got 120 minutes of peddling (hands and feet) in without being bored. Sometimes you just have to do what you have to do... Keeping things simple helps me. I can't have too many choices. But, that could change. One never knows. The only thing for sure is Don't Quit

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DIFROMWYOMING 1/10/2012 8:37PM

    Might be helpful if you can spend some time exploring things until you find one that you ENJOY. I think that's more important than anything, because if we don't like what we're doing...we'll have trouble sustaining it. Can you take some classes at your local rec center? Try cross country skiing (not sure where you live?) or zumba or ?? I'm glad you're not quitting...and I know you'll figure this out.

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COPEMA 1/10/2012 8:13PM

    I'm so proud of you. You've looked inside yourself and saw that A.) You're not going to quit.
B.) You're hurting and you need to do something about it.
C.) You're bored and it's not working for you.

Yea, Belinda!! You've figured out that even if the pounds may not come off quite as quickly as they have been lately, this has to be a lifestyle that you must enjoy long-term or you won't want to stick to it long-term. And I know that this time you and I are both in it for the long haul. Slow and steady (and enjoyable) wins the race. And we are gonna win this race!! Yea us!

Hugs and more hugs,


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    I'm glad you are not a quitter either emoticon

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Pride and Hope.

Friday, December 30, 2011

12/28/11 was my first anniversary with Spark.
I have met the greatest group of supportive friends here.
I want to thank all of you that stood by me and helped me back up on my feet each time I stumbled.

I would like to be able to say I was diligent and consistent with food and exercise this past year, but I wasn't. Not by a long shot.
My first year's goal was to lose 104 pounds, half of my over all goal to reaching a healthy BMI.
For a brief moment when I weighed myself that anniversary day, I felt disappointed with myself because I had fallen 9 pounds short, having lost only 95 pounds.

But then I realized that I am really very proud of myself.
According to the Spark progress tracker, I have walked over 500 miles this year.
My BMI has gone from 60.6 TO 44.3.
My daughter remarked that she has never seen my shoulder blades before and that they looked strange!
I have learned to like the taste of food without using a salt shaker.
I completely stopped buying soda several months ago.
I can use a car seat belt without needing an extension piece.
I have dropped from a size 5X to a 2X and can buy clothes right out of a local store instead of having to order online and hope it fits.
I am completely off all medications.
My cholesterol is way below the standard norm (160), as is my blood pressure.
I was easily able to climb on a chair the other day to get something down off a top shelf in my cupboard instead of asking one of the children to get it down.
I am no longer considering bypass surgery.

My husband has seen me make this attempt several times in past years, so I don't think he truly believed I had it in me to keep going.
He never said a negative word when I would backslide.
He is also proud of me. He told me he thinks I am really going to pull this off.
If I do, there is a trip to Las Vegas to see Cirque du Soleil that has been promised to me.

Each day is still a struggle and I have to do a lot of self talk to make good food choices and get my butt up on the treadmill or stationary bike.
I have an agreement with myself to do the very best I can in any given moment, and not beat myself down if I fall short of what I expect of myself.

I myself am starting to believe I might actually finish this journey this time.
So my goal for 12/28/12 is to have reached a healthy BMI with a weight loss of 208 pounds.
We will see.
I feel very hopeful.
God, please keep sending me those Angels for support.
They have been so helpful.

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SKY2012 1/8/2012 8:59PM

    Each time I read this post... I literally have to fight back my tears because it is so touching and because I am soooooooooooooooooooooo very PROUD of you,

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SMARGED 1/8/2012 1:21PM

    Wow!! emoticon

Your weight loss is fantastic!! You deserve to feel really proud of yourself!

I loved your blog. You motivate me to stick to my plan and reach my goal, also. I haven't done as well as you!! But this New Year, I really want to reach my goal also.

Keep up the good work, and thanks for being my friend!

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PRINCESS1309 1/5/2012 9:45PM

    Wow!! You have a lot to be proud of. What you have achieved is amazing! You will reach your goals with all the angels helping you along the way! You are an inspiration to me and I hope to follow in your foot prints. emoticon


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TABBYJO88 1/3/2012 9:52PM

    You have every right to be proud of yourself you are doing an amazing job. You have come a long way in one year. Reading this gave me goose bumps. I am so amazed at what you have accomplished. I hope that some day I can share this great of news with everyone on here. I very much so believe that you will be able to complete your goal of getting to a healthy BMI by 12/28/2012. You are an amazing person and I am so happy for you and your accomplishments. Happy spark anniversary. emoticon

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    I am so proud of your accomplishment. Who knew what power we had right inside of ourselves to make these changes in our life that will allow us to ultimately be the healthy person inside and out that we knew we could be? WE KNEW! And then we DID IT!

My goal is to be the same weight on 12/31/12 as I was on 12/31/11--145 lbs. That represents a 183 lb. loss since Dec. 2009, from my high weight of 328 lbs. I have achieved normalcy, a normal BMI, a normal clothing size, a normal appearance, and that's all I ever wanted--to be normal. Like you, I can again do many of the things you talked about: seatbelts fit again, and my body now slides easily into restaurant booths. I can buy clothes from the stores, I can CROSS MY LEGS! The other day I discovered I can again stand on my tiptoes to reach something that is just beyond my grasp! My toes couldn't support those 328 lbs. before, but they have no problem with 145 lbs.!

I look forward to reading your blogs this next year and seeing how far you can go. Remember, if you don't make it to goal by next Dec. 31, life is a journey and just keep traveling--you will get there eventually! Hope it's okay--I added you as a friend.

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GEORGIA_KAY 1/2/2012 7:07AM

    What a wonderful year you've had, and you know what? This one will be even better! Great job!!

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SKY2012 1/2/2012 12:40AM

    how wonderful it is to have your mate be PROUD of you, yeh!!!

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DEC2DEC 1/1/2012 12:39PM

    Wow! What a terrific and inspiring list of accomplishments. You ARE going to do it!!

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SKY2012 1/1/2012 1:11AM

    and we are PROUD of you too! hugssssssssssssss

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DIFROMWYOMING 12/31/2011 5:14PM

    Happy Sparkaversary! I am amazed at your journey, your hope, your belief, your determination. I am SO very thankful to have found you and could not be happier to have you on this journey with me.

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_KATHY 12/31/2011 11:27AM

    You absolutely should be proud of yourself. You are doing an awesome job. You have so many of us on this path with you. We can do this!

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COPEMA 12/30/2011 9:08AM

    I cannot begin to tell you how impressed I am by your weight loss! Yes, you had some support from your Spark friends, but, at the end of the day, it was YOU who did the exercises, YOU who did the healthy cooking, and YOU who made the healthy choices! You should be so very proud of YOU! I have no doubt that you will reach your goal weight. I am honored to be your friend! You are truly an inspiration to all of your friends!
Hugs and more hugs,

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GRINGUITA 12/30/2011 7:53AM

    Congratulations! You have had a really successful year!

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RONDINI2 12/30/2011 7:44AM

    So "proud" can't begin to describe my feelings. I hear it in your voice, in your laughter and I've seen it in person..It's so wonderful.

You have not only changed on the outside but also on the inside and that is my witness, to a woman who has come so far and I believe will succeed next year through all the obsticles she faces...You are a fighter and your going to be a WINNER...And I can't wait...I am going to be there!!!
You have not only been a wonderful inspirational SP friend but a best friend (for me)...
You have helped me to see that we don't have to be a product of our childhood but a victorious conquerer today. We can eventually overcome our demons..We have our Angels, thats for sure.

Guess what, we can now share clothes...something we've never done..LOL

I will continue on this journey with you and pray along the way that we get to see our goals and also "soar as the wings of Eagles" to new heights, and what a blessed gift it will be when we get to see our dreams come true!!!
You truely are my Mentor and I can't say enough wonderful, sincere, loving words to Congrat to a "Job well done" Sis..

With much admiration and love to you...

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THE-MORE-GIRL 12/30/2011 1:48AM

    You will do this. You're a force of nature. Go get 'em!

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