Monday, December 09, 2013
I am so sorry that I have not been there for you the past couple of weeks. I have had a little setback. You see, after several months (possibly years) of being free of it, depression has once again reared its ugly head. I have been free of it for a long time. In fact, this is the first time since I began my journey that I have had to deal with it at all. Anyway, when this happens, I go into what I call my "survival mode." I do what I have to do to get through the day and that is about all I can do. When I am in the middle of it, it is all I can do just to function, so I am afraid that Spark went by the wayside. I have tried to keep up with reading your blogs, but just have not been able to comment like I usually do.
I know I should have reached out to you sooner, but just couldn't do it for some reason. I know I would have gotten all the support and understanding that I needed, and it probably would have been more considerate to all of you rather than just falling off the face of Sparkville! Thank you to those of you who tried to reach out to me. I am doing much better now and trying to get things going again.
I did have about a 10 pound gain, but have now lost 5 of those. It is just so easy to gain when we are not diligent. Anyway, now that I've caught you up with all of that, I thought I would share a few pictures from the past week or so.
I finished up one more sewing project. This is a large bag that I made to carry all of my quilting supplies in. It is hard to tell in the picture, but it is quilted and about 24x30. It turned out beautiful!
Itty Bitty was a reindeer in a little Christmas program at school, so here are a few pictures from that.
(this was at my worst - I am really good at putting on a happy face!)
We also made a little gingerbread house. Itty Bitty loves helping with all of the little projects we do at Christmas - just wish I felt better while we were doing them!
Well, I think that just about catches you up with everything. Thank you for not giving up on me while I was absent! I am feeling so much better now, and will try my best to get back to Sparking! I really need all of you in my life - it makes all the difference in my world!
Monday, November 25, 2013
Sorry I haven't been on much this week. I've been thinking for a long time that I have really gotten in to a rut, so as I told you earlier, I decided I need to find some kind of hobby. I wanted to find some balance in my life. For the last year, my life has pretty much consisted of work, church, and Spark. So, when the opportunity came, I took a sewing class. Sewing wasn't something I have ever been interested in learning, but it just happened to be the first thing that came up, so I grabbed it. Anyway, turns out that I love it! It is so much fun to create something with your hands!
So, as I told you in the title, I was trying to find balance in my life by adding some kind of hobby. Turns out, balance really isn't my forte - lol! I have spent every waking moment that I was not at work, sewing! No tv, no cooking, no cleaning, no computer, no Spark, no nothing except sewing! Ugh!!! I guess I haven't come as far in my all or nothing attitude as I thought I had. In trying to get some kind of order in my life again, I went out grocery shopping Saturday, but then I came home and cooked ALL the meals and froze them so I would have more time to sew this week while I am off from school! Ugh! So much for balance - lol!
The good news in all of this is that, while I didn't Spark much this week, I did continue to maintain, so I didn't let the food get out of control while I was so hyper-focused on something else.
I'm going to try the balance thing again this week, so I'll let you know how it goes! Hope y'all have a wonderful Thanksgiving week! Here are a few pictures of some of my creations this week!
This is how I found Itty Bitty this morning! (yes - I made a quilt too!) She picked out the material for the bags. The big blue and green she said is to carry her build a bear in (that's the leopard that she's sleeping with). The little blue and green is to carry all of his accessories in (she picked more masculine colors since he is a boy - lol!)
This is my favorite! This is a Bible bag that I made for her on Saturday (after I went shopping and cooked al the meals for the week). I even put pockets inside for her to carry her pens and hi-lighters!
Here is a close up of the quilt. It, of course, was the most time consuming, but also the most fun to make!
I'm sure I will be making many more in the months to come! I cannot believe how much fun it was, and I haven't had fun in my life in a long time! I will, however, try to find a little more balance, so that I will still have time to maintain my home and Spark with all of y'all!
Sunday, November 17, 2013
It's Sunday! Sundays are usually a hard day for me. For one thing it's a very busy day. I get up at 6 to be at the church by 7, play the 8:00 service and then go home to wake up Itty Bitty and get her ready for church. Back at the church by 9:15 to teach my 3rd and 4th grade Sunday School class, then play the second service at 10:30! Whew! I'm already exhausted by noon!
The other issue is that I bring donuts for my class each Sunday (this tradition was started before I came and is something that all the classes do). Anyway, it is a struggle every Sunday to resist eating one. A few Sundays I have given in, but then realized that I can't do that, because then the cravings start and my whole day will be off. This morning was particularly difficult, though, because they had just taken the donuts out of the fryer (or whatever they cook them in) and they were still warm and smelled delicious! So, there they were, sitting in the seat next to me in the car, just calling out my name. I decided to have just one, since it is not every Sunday that we get warm ones. After all, this day was unusual. As I reached for it though, I remembered an article that I read the other day and the question that I had decided to ask myself every time I want to eat something. (more about this tomorrow)
This is how my little talk went: (seriously!)
"Oh, wow, this smells good! I have to have one because it is not every Sunday that they are warm. (reaches for donuts) No! Stop it! What are you doing? It will taste good for just a moment and then it will be over and you'll just want more. But they smell so good and I can feel the warm box. But, is this something that will nourish your body? No! Then, no, I'm not going to do it! But. you just had weigh in day yesterday. You have all week to work it off. But is that how you want to start your week? Well, no, but man, they smell good! Is it worth is? No!"
This went on all the way back home to pick up IB for Sunday School. I am happy to report that I finally talked myself out of it! I had a bowl of my kashi cereal with almond milk as soon as I got home and it satisfied me.
After church we met my brother and his family over at my mom's for lunch. This was another challenge in itself, but I had prepared for it. I told my mom ahead of time for her to hold me accountable. I gave her permission to call me out if she saw me eating anything that wasn't healthy. Just knowing she was watching was enough to keep me on track! Now, at this time, I would just like to point out that there was her homemade chocolate sheet cake, ice cream, and chocolate syrup involved, so this was quite a feat on my part! As soon as they started passing out dessert, I popped a piece of gum in my mouth, so I wouldn't even be tempted to sneak a taste, and it worked! So, I know I will have many more battles like these to come, but it nice to have at least won this one to get me started again! Hopefully, I will have many more successes to report to you this week!
I've noticed many of us are struggling right now. Isn't it funny how we all kind of go through similar things at the same time? Since many of us had a bad week this past week, I think we're all about due for a good one this week! What do you think?
Me too! We can do it, friends! Let's make it a good one!
Saturday, November 16, 2013
Well, I'm sorry to report that I had a bad weigh in today ~ gained 1 pound! Sorry, Starfishies!!! I'll try to do better this week. So since I had a bad weigh in, of course the logical thing to do was have a free for all food day (insert sarcastic eye roll here.)! Oh well, tomorrow is a new day! Beating myself up at this point would serve absolutely no purpose. I WILL do better tomorrow!
Now, on to more positive things! I've kind of gotten into a rut in my personal life, so I decided I needed to try something new. A very sweet lady in our church offered a sewing class today to teach how to make a tote bag, so I thought this would be just the thing I needed! Now, keep in mind I don't even know how to sew on a button! I borrowed my mom's sewing machine and Itty Bitty went with me yesterday to pick out the fabric (I decided to make the tote for her), and I went to the class from 10 - 3:30 today! I had a blast, and the bag turned out adorable! I am definitely going to make more of these for gifts this Christmas!
Here is the picture of the fruits of our labor today!
Isn't it cute! Itty Bitty loved it, and she already has her blankie and build a bear in it - lol!
Have a great night, friends!
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Another good day today! Maybe I will actually show a loss this week! One of the many things that I do as part of my job is manage the school's website, so I spent the morning playing around with that. It was a lot of fun and I got to come up with some cute graphics for the upcoming Thanksgiving holidays!
Poor little Itty Bitty woke up with a fever last night, so she had to stay home from school today. She was so disappointed that she messed up her perfect attendance record, but it couldn't be helped. Fortunately, I have parents who live close by, so she was able to spend the day with them being spoiled rotten. She was actually feeling much better when she woke up this morning, and didn't have any more fever, so she should be able to go back to school tomorrow.
I went to the grocery store after work today and stocked up on my healthy food for the week! I also had fun picking out little gifts to purchase for the Samaritan's Purse, that Itty Bitty's little missions' group is participating in! They buy lots of little toys and toiletries and wrap them in shoe boxes to send to poverty stricken countries, where they are distributed to children in need. It is the only gift that many of them receive for the whole year!
On the exercise front, once again, I forgot to take my shoes to work, so I did another Zumba video tonight. This one was the body sculpting one using the toning sticks. I actually enjoyed this one more than the one I did last night that was just dancing.
DH got the tv set up on my new media chest, so we are making progress in the furniture department as well! Overall, a great day!
Here are today's stats:
Calories - 1391
Fiber - 19
Freggies - 3
Water - 8
Exercise - 45 minute Zumba!
Have a healthy Thursday, friends!
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