Thursday, February 13, 2014
Good morning, all of my sweet Spark Friends! The sunshine has finally come back into my life (both metaphorically and literally)! After many weeks of being in a deep depression, the cloud has finally lifted and the sun is shining through. My husband kept telling me that just because I couldn't see the sun, it didn't mean that it wasn't there. He was trying to help me hang on to hope, and of course, he was right. Thank you to all of you who kept checking on me and praying for me, even when I wasn't able to check in with all of you! You are the best!!!
The good news is that while I was depressed I lost about 12 pounds because I was not able to eat. The bad news is that, now that I feel better, the appetite has returned and I want to eat everything in sight, so I have gained 10 of that back already! Now, if I could just find some balance... Oh well, I know that it will come. I am just so glad to be feeling better again!
In other news, I was contacted by Spark People, to be one of their Spark People Success Stories! The first time, was when I was in the middle of my depression and I couldn't even think about it. Now, they have contacted me again and I am still not sure. If they had contacted me a few months ago when I was blowin' and goin' full force, I wouldn't have given it a second thought. But now, I have been stuck for so long, that I really don't feel like much of a success. I have not given up though, so I guess that in itself counts for something. I have maintained most of my 70 pound loss, although I fluctuate up and down about 10 pounds. You have all been so very encouraging in all of your comments and suggestions about it, but something is still holding me back. Am I afraid it will somehow jinx me and I'll gain it all back and make a fool of myself? I don't know. Maybe it would do just the opposite and motivate me to keep moving toward my goal? I know I don't want to go back! I'll just have to think on it some more.
This is totally off the subject, but I just finished another project that I wanted to share with you! My DD1 loves t-shirts and has more than she knows what to do with, so since I started quilting, I thought it would be really cool to make a t-shirt quilt for her so she could have them on display and not just stuffed in a drawer somewhere. I finished yesterday and it turned out better than I hoped. She loves it and has already been sleeping with it for the last 2 nights (she actually slept with it before I finished it!). It is not what I would call beautiful, but for my sentimental 21 year old daughter, it is perfect!
Here is the front:
A lot of the t-shirts had writing on the back that she wanted to keep, so I used the back of the tshirts for the back of the quilt. That's why there are just randomly spaced wording on the back side:
She posted the picture on facebook and I have already been contacted to see if I would be willing to make some for others. It might be a great way to support my new sewing habit (material is expensive!) Oh, by the way, this quilt only cost me $8 to make (the cost of the thread)! Since I used the back of the tshirts for the back of the quilt I didn't have to buy any additional material. I also used some leftover flannel that I had for the batting, so it worked out perfect! Gotta love a good deal!!!
Well, back to work for me! I will try to start checking in with you more often, and hopefully can get back on track again! You mean more to me than I could ever express! I really do love you guys!
Monday, January 06, 2014
I have pretty much been stuck for the past 6 months! Not stuck in the sense of a plateau, but stuck because I just can't seem to stick to my healthy eating! I've become rebellious. I don't WANT to eat healthy. It's not fair. Why do I have to do it when all these skinny people around me seem to be able to eat whatever they want? You get the picture...whine, whine, whine. Well, enough is enough already!
I don't know the answers to these questions, and it doesn't really matter. I just know what I have to do. I have to get back to doing what I know to do. Doing what helped me lose 70 pounds. I can't backtrack or make excuses anymore.
***I need to eat to nourish my body, not to comfort my soul.
***I need to exercise to get and stay strong so that I can do the active things that I want to do. I'm not going back to living on the sidelines anymore. I have more mountains to conquer!
***I need to track my food and exercise.
***I need to stay connected to my support system here on Spark.
These are the things that helped me to lose 70 pounds on my journey so far, and these are the things that will get me to the finish line.
I am not going to be perfect, and that is ok. I am going to be kind to myself. When I mess up, I will jump back in where I am and not let it get me down. I will try to focus on healthy living, and not just the scale.
I'm ready to get out of this holding pattern and start moving again! Afterall, enough is enough!
Monday, December 23, 2013
We celebrated Christmas at my parents yesterday with my brothers and their families (about 25 people!). We had a wonderful time with lots of Christmas traditions so I thought I would share a few with you. Since about 1982 (when I was 12), we have been writing and sharing Christmas papers with the family on Christmas day (or whatever day we happened to be celebrating). It is just a summary of the highlights of our year, and makes a great family journal. In fact, I had the papers bound into a beautiful hard cover book for my parents' 40th wedding anniversary. That was 16 years ago, so it is about time for a 2nd edition!
Another tradition is the Christmas program. We all sing, or recite poems, or share whatever talent we have with the family. We make up a program and everything! It always ends with Grandpa (my dad) reading the Christmas story to the family. Here is a picture from Saturday with my Dad surrounded by all of his children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren.
It is a very special time for everyone that we will always remember!
Another tradition is family pictures in front of the tree so here is mine and my parents!
I also wanted to share a couple of pictures of projects Itty Bitty and I have been working on. Here is another Bible Bag we made for my 4 year old niece.
We also made these cute little gift boxes out of some left over Christmas cards that I had.
This is the inside of the box. The message showed up nicely inside.
Here are a few others. They are the perfect size for gift cards!
I probably will not be blogging much this week, so I wanted to check in with you before all the busyness sets in. Tomorrow will be house cleaning and last minute shopping, and then on Wednesday, we will be having my parents and my husband's mom over for Christmas dinner (brisket - lol!)
I hope all of you have a very Merry Christmas and enjoy precious time with your families! I'll check in with you next week!
Thursday, December 19, 2013
First of all, I wanted to show you my new hair style. I haven't had it cut or colored since I started my journey on Spark, so it was way past time. I was trying to wait until I reached goal to get it done, but then I finally decided I didn't need to wait until I was the "perfect" size to do something special for myself! So, here it is! I didn't really change the length that much (going to try to pull off the long hair look for as long as I can - is 44 too old to have long hair?). I did add highlights and they gave me a wonderful scalp massage while washing my hair! I felt pampered and loved and like I was taking care of myself! Here is the result!
Not really good at selfies (don't even know if that's how you spell selfie - lol!), but this is me in my natural habitat (office!) and I wanted you to see my hair! I feel so much better and have gotten so many compliments! Don't wait until you reach that dream goal to take care of yourself or do something to make you feel good...do it now!
Now for the food part! Holy cow! I have never seen so much food! Food, food, everywhere!!! Every time I walk in my office, more treats magically appear on my desk! Our PTO did a hot chocolate/dessert bar for us yesterday, we had a breakfast today, and nearly every gift I have received has been food related (except for the lovely scarf I am wearing in the picture)! I feel like an alcoholic who is forced to work in a bar! Don't get me wrong, I am so appreciative of all of my sweet coworkers who are thoughtful enough to give me gifts. It is just really hard for me to be around all of this food . I am sorry to report that I have not been very strong(is that a spec of chocolate on my chin?) . I am amazed by those of you who are able to resist all the temptations of the season! You are amazing!
I am not discouraged, though. I still have hope. I will be able to overcome and get back on track. The journey is not just about one day or one season. It is about life. It is about learning the lessons that will help me be stronger next time. It is about learning to make the choices that will bring me health and happiness, not sickness and despair. It is about learning to overcome my addictions, one day at a time, and never giving up. It is about new beginnings and second chances.
I refuse to give up! How about you? Let's do this together, friends!
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