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Weigh in #3 countdown and Venting & Hey There Delilah

Monday, December 15, 2014

Ohhhh GOD only 2 1/2 weeks left in the year and I am not even close to reaching my goals. In fact, Iím moving further and further away from my goals as each week passes.

Iím so disappointed but no matter how hard I try I canít seem to make any progress. Itís like an uphill battle trying to eat well and deal with all the craziness in my life.

I had already decided that with everything going on I wasnít going to do these blogs anymore and sometime when my life settled down Iíd come back and pick up where I left off.

But I already know that doesnít work. I need to keep at it week after week, day after day and keep myself accountable. Also, maybe venting and being able to get it all down on paper (so to speak) will help me deal with the issues that seem to cause an overload of anxiety that leads me to eat.

I want to be healthy and a big part of that equation is being able to handle stress and anxiety and the unexpected twists and turns of life in a healthy manner.

So not to make this blog a complete bummer Iíve decided to include both the bad and the good. Although its so easy to focus on the bad and the negative and berate myself for my "bad" eating, itís impossible for things to be 100% bad. Sometimes you just have to look for the silver lining. Sometimes itís pretty hidden or a stretch but you can find it.

Bad: I ate a lot of bagels and donuts

Good: I snacked on apples, bananas and blue berries

Bad: There are tons of sweets at work today and most days. Typical Monday morning

Good: Iíve avoided the sweets. They are not even tempting

Bad: I ate a lot of Taco Bell

Good: I made healthy dinners too

Bad: I ate deep dish pizza

Good: I ate only 2 slices

Bad: Iíve been drinking this like itís going out of style

Good: Iíve also been drinking tons of this to compensate

Bad: Iím still not cleared to workout and itís been over 3 months since my surgery. So flipping frustrating

Good: My boyfriend knows I miss Zumba so he got me this. Chair Salsa! Who knew this exsisted. Itís hilarious! I have a good man

Bad: Iíve only gotten between 3-5 hours of sleep on average for the past two weeks

Good: Being awake allows me to keep this little miss trouble maker out of our Christmas tree

Bad: Iíve been working 60+ hours a week on average

Good: The overtime on my paycheck helped pay for most of the Christmas presents

Bad: TOM againÖ

Good: TOM is now over!

Bad: My brother. I cannot explain. You must just read this text conversation with my little brother that happened last Wednesday

Bro: Hey guess what?
Me: What?
Bro: Youíre going to have a niece today?
Me: Whhhhaaat????

First of all my brother had not told me he was having a baby or even mentioned a girlfriend or anything at ALL!

Bro: I canít talk sheís about to push!
Me: Are you joking? This is not funny! What is going on? Whoís pushing?

I was utterly confused. Then he sent me two pics of his new daughter

Bro: Her name is Delilah. 7 lbs 11 ounces
Me: Sheís adorable. I love her name!
Me: Seriously though why didnít you tell me you were having a baby? You had 9 months to tell me?
Bro: Oh I thought I had mentioned I got some girl pregnant
Me: UhmÖno. I would remember that.
Me: So whoís the mom, whatís the deal, how do you know her, are you dating whatís her name?
Bro: Her name is Jenny, I met her 11 months ago, we never dated, weíre not dating now, but she seems cool though.

WTF little brother? Seriously WTF? My mom would be turning over in her grave right now if she knew what was going on. ďShe seems cool thoughĒ? Thatís a response a 15 year old gives not a 29 year old. I want to strangle him!

GrrrrrrÖso irresponsible

Good: I have a beautiful new niece to spoil and it was fun buying pretty little girly baby stuff for her. Canít wait to meet her!

Weigh in #3 Countdown (I did not weigh in last week)

Starting countdown weight: 222
Last weekís countdown weight: 218.5
Current weight: 222(+3.5lbs.) I hope some of this is due to TOM and the epic amount of sodium in my system right now.
Total Countdown Weight Loss: -0

Ugh, Iím back where I started 9 weeks ago. But at least I feel some relief from being able to vent and being able to find the silver lining in everything. Iím sick of eating bad and feeling bad and Iím going to make as much progress as I can in the next 2 Ĺ weeks. I just have to keep focused and make decisions based upon how it will help me get to my goal. How it will make me feel at the end of the week.

What I need to succeed. I don't want to see this number ever again and I know what I need to do to make that happen.

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PAPER_WINGS18 12/17/2014 11:37AM

    LOLOL dyinggg at that text message exchange. "She seems cool?" WTF? LOL. Ohhh men! Love it. BUTTTTT she is adorable! Congrats on the new niece. :) Is he the father of Dakota as well? Or do you have multiple siblings? (Tori has a terrible memory)

I love this blog though- you had me laughing. I totallllly feel ya. Ugh.
I'd be happy to just maintain until the 1st of the year and then kick it into high gear!!

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WISHICOULDFLY 12/15/2014 9:10PM

    Oh my. What a way to find out that you are an Aunt!

I loved your blog. There are ALWAYS some positives and it is best to focus on increasing THOSE.

BTW, speaking of kitties emoticon and Christmas trees emoticon ; come check out my blog today. Funny pics!

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ERNOINACTION 12/15/2014 6:28PM

    I feel you with this blog. I'm all over the place...mostly up. But I love this because you focused on the good and the bad. So often we just focus on the bad and there was a lot of good here!! I'm glad that you're sticking with it too. It's hard but holding yourself accountable, as you've said, helps. Keep on keepin on!! Congrats on the new family member too!!

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CONFUSEDBIRD 12/15/2014 3:38PM

    LOL She seems cool. Well congrats in niece! I love her name. Please stay this time and hang with us Mary! I miss you and your blogs. I can come nail your boot to the floor if you need me to =P

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Weigh in #5 countdown and Weekend Food Blog

Monday, December 01, 2014

Last week was not good and I have no one to blame but myself. Leading up to Thanksgiving people were bringing treats in the office on a daily and with the treats next to my cube it was hard to resist. Not that I even tried to resist. I also ate too much food on Thanksgiving like everyone else in the U.S. and then munched on leftovers and too much pumpkin pie on Friday. Boooo!

I finally either froze the leftovers or tossed them and got back to healthy normal eating by the weekend.

This weekend I got back on track and I did pretty well calorie wise. Still no exercise but according to the doctor I may be cleared next week as long as the x-rays look good. Itís been 11 looong weeks so far. I just need to survive one more and then I can hit the gym again! Yay!

Weekend Food blog:

Breakfast: Eggs, turkey sausage, sautťed spinach, 1 slice of toasted topped with mashed avocado and half a grapefruit

Snack: Non Fat white chocolate mocha and a banana

Lunch: Homemade split pea soup with and apple and peanut butter for dessert

Dinner: Leftover split pea soup

Exercise: None yet

Breakfast: McDonaldís egg McMuffin meal. Gah, why are hashbrowns so good and so bad for me???

Snack: banana

Lunch: Homemade cheese pizza and some cheeries

Dinner: Leftover homemade pizza and added a side salad with light vinagerette dressing to get some veggies in.

Exercise: None, stillÖ

Weigh in #5 Countdown

Starting countdown weight: 222
Last weekís countdown weight: 216.3
Current weight: 218.5 (+2.2 lbs.) Booooo! Thanksgiving and the leftovers killed me!
Total Countdown Weight Loss: -3.5

Iím so frustrated and disappointed that I keep regaining and losing the same minuscule amount of weight each week. Iím yoyo-ing and I need to stop!

With 4 Ĺ weeks left my goal is to lose 6.5 pounds. I would like to be 212 on New Year ís Eve. Iím focused and committed. Less yoyo and more bad ass. New month, new beginning, new me!

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PRETTYPITHY 12/4/2014 6:04PM

    Wait -- you've gone 11 weeks without exercise (sounds like due to injury) and you're still losing and/or maintaining???!!!! emoticon

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ASHESS85 12/2/2014 11:07AM

    I can completely relate. I haven't even gotten up the courage to look on the scale but I feel like I gained. We just have to move on! We got this!

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PAPER_WINGS18 12/1/2014 4:33PM

    It's okay girl. You picked it up this weekend and turned the week around; the scale will reflect your persistence next weigh-in!! :)

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Weigh in #7-6 countdown and Weekend Food Blogs

Monday, November 24, 2014

Two, two, two weeks in oneÖblog.

Trying to eat well and be healthy in November has always eluded me. First of all itís my birthday month, it also hosts Thanksgiving which promotes the National pastime of gorging and binging. And finally itís cold and snowing and freezing and all I want to do is live in my flannel pajamas and sip hot cocoa by the fireplace.

The past two weeks have also been crazy busy for me at work. I work in benefits and open enrollment has been going on. Also, we have 4,000 employees and my boss and I are the benefits service center. Yes, two people to assist 4,000. Itís been non-stop phone calls, texts, IMís email and people just stopping by my desk.

Letís just say my eating was a little bi-polar. One day Iíd be munching on fruit or granola for snacks and the next Iíd be munching on chocolate and a box of Mike and Ikeís. My stomach was killing me after the 2nd week. Finally this weekend I was able to get it together and turn myself around. It was either that or by new bigger pants.

My goal this week is to eat as clean and healthy as possible. Thanksgiving I will eat in moderation and treat myself to one slice of pie but thatís it.

Weekend Food blog:

Birthday Brunch: My two best friends took be out for my birthday brunch. I got the fig omelet with fruit and an English muffin. Omg, sooooooooo good.

Snack: Apple with peanut butter

Dinner: Rich and I discovered the entire run of Dexter on Netflix and we are hooked. We were so enthralled that we ended up burning our veggie burger and Brussel sprouts. The veggie burgers were like hockey pucks and the Brussel sprouts were black and ashy. Boooo! We had started off with such good intentions. So, this happened:

McDonaldís crispy chicken bacon clubhouse. I forgot to take a pic so this is from Google images

Exercise: None but did a lot of shopping with my bffís. I had to put ice on my foot afterwards to get some of the swelling down.

SUNDAY 11/16

Breakfast: Protein waffle which I ended up topping with blueberry sauce and delicious scrambled eggs made by my honey.

Snack: Venti skinny iced vanilla latte at SB

Lunch: Cheeseburger from McDonalds. We were on the road to go visit Richís Mom and this seemed the easiest most convenient option at the time.

Dinner: Again we were starving by the time we were headed home and needs something quick and hopefully healthy so I can up with a brilliant idea. We hit up the Whole Foods hot bar. Omg, so many delicious veggies!

Exercise: None again. My foot was still hurting from all the walking I did the day before.

Weigh in #7 Countdown

Starting countdown weight: 222
Last weekís countdown weight: 217.5
Current weight: 219 (+.1.5 lbs.) GrrrrrrÖ.!
Total Countdown Weight Loss: -3

Leftover Halloween candy, stress, and fast food reminded me that there are consequences to my decisions. I canít just eat whatever I want and think I can deal with it later. Later is now. I have to think to myself ďWhere do I want to be at the end of the week? Is this candybar or McDonaldís going to get me to my goal?Ē ďWould I rather eat this junk food or see a smaller number on the scale at the end of the week?í I donít know about you but that smaller number makes me so happy and motivated me to do really well the next week. No contest.

Weekend Food blog:
Letís start at the beginning of this week shall we? My birthday was actually this Monday and my co-workers really went all out. There was sooo much food! My birthday Monday turned into a birthday week. Even on Friday there were still leftovers of cake and cookies and ice cream. All that sugar made me sluggish and remorseful. I mean, I knew I didnít have to eat it just because it was there but thatís what I did. Omg, the sugar!!!!


Breakfast: English muffin with peanut butter, coffee and strawberries

Snack: Banana

Lunch: Turkey Sandwich with kettle chips

Dinner: Chicken ravioli with tomato sauce and baby broccoli

Exercise: Did 20 minutes of an upper body workout from YouTube.

SUNDAY 11/23

Breakfast: Eggs with hot sauce, turkey bacon, tortillas, cherries and coffee

Snack: Strawberries

Lunch: Chipotle steak salad. Their vinaigrette dressing is to die for. Soooo very good!

Dinner: BBQ chicken with potatoes and asparagus

Exercise: None but I did clean alot

Weigh in #6 Countdown

Starting countdown weight: 222
Last weekís countdown weight: 219
Current weight: 216.3 (-2.7 lbs.) Yay!!!!
Total Countdown Weight Loss: -5.7

Packing my lunch and pre-making dinners saved me this week. I knew from last weekís fiasco that I would be too tired and stressed to make healthy dinners for the week so Rich and I, last Sunday, grilled enough chicken for the entire week and made cilantro lime quinoa and roasted broccoli and cauliflower. I also made breakfast burritos that we could keep in the freezer and just grab and go and a huge pot of beef stew we could eat for dinner. This really saved us both even though I indulged on 2 cookies and a small piece of cake on my birthday. Not having to think about what we were going to eat was a life saver. It made our life much simpler and from what I see on the scale it worked!

I canít believe there are only 5 1/2 weeks left in this year. I really need to dig deep, focus and do the work. I got this!!!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ERNOINACTION 11/26/2014 1:51PM

    November is a hard month for me as well. It's not my birthday but I hear you about Thanksgiving and the cold hibernation thing. I think the whole foods hot bar is a great easy idea. I forget about it a lot myself. They really have some good options with a lot of veggies and whole grains. Something I need to do more often too. Eating while on the run is difficult, I struggle with it too. You're keeping yourself accountable and that's important. Have a good thanksgiving!!

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ASHESS85 11/25/2014 1:19PM

    Happy belated birthday! Looks like you got it together the 2nd week! Congrats on the loss! Hope you and Rich have a fabulous Thanksgiving!

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PAPER_WINGS18 11/24/2014 5:16PM

    Way to kick it into high gear, girl! Awesome loss this week!!

OMG, you are going to give me a panic attack. Are there really only 4 weeks left to the year???? Yikes.

My weekend was kinda rough. I made the best decisions I could, but I am still terrified to weigh-in Wednesday. Mike got up early Saturday morning and ran to a local bakery and got us a dozen(yes, DOZEN) donuts. MMmmmm. I stopped myself at 1, but then later went back for a 2nd one. I tracked it though, soooo progress.

We got this! Let's start our new year feeling great!

Also, we have to get together soon! I want to take you out for your Birthday meal!!!

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Weigh in #8 countdown and Weekend Food Blog

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

I ate really, really well all week and tracked my calories and avoided the office candy & random sweets that show up on a daily basis. I felt really smug going into the weekend.

I still have not gotten the green light to workout but at least Iím out of the boot and in a shoe now. Progress is slow and yoga is calling my name. Boooo!

Then the weekend came and my TOM of showed up and all I wanted to do was eat, curl up into a ball and moan.

I hate when I get in a rhythm and it gets thrown off by my TOM. Being a girl blows sometimes.
Well my weekend eats were pitiful and the last two days have been less than stellar but today is a new day and I am to get back on track.

Weekend Food blog:
Brunch: Greek omelet with fruit, coffee and an English muffin. Started off ok

Dinner: Carnitas Mexican dinner with a mountain of tortilla chips with lots of guac which are not pictured

Exercise: None unless napping counts.

Lunch: Woke up late and decided to make some spaghetti for lunch. This is plate #1 of the 3 platefuls of spaghetti I ate. Grrrrr!

Dinner: Subway turkey sub, Cheetos and diet coke

Exercise: None, unless moaning really loudly that my legs hurt or being angry counts?

Extra: Ate lots and lots of leftover Halloween candy. I kept justifying in my head that it was all mini sized but when you eat 5 minis itís no longer moderation.

Weigh in #8 countdown

Starting countdown weight weight: 222
Last weekís countdown weight: 217.5
Current weight: 217.6 (+.1 lbs) Oh well it could have been much worse.
Total Countdown Weight Loss: -4.4

I need to get my attitude in check, stop focusing on my mistakes during the weekend and just keep my focus straight ahead and on accomplishing my goals! Hereís some motivation for myself.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ASHESS85 11/17/2014 12:40PM

    Glad you're finally out of the boot. I did the same thing with the halloween candy! Hope your Monday is going well!

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PAPER_WINGS18 11/17/2014 11:45AM

    Cracking up at the PMS pictures you posted... All so very true!!!

I hope your PMS is in check today! It is theeeeee worst when you are just a bottomless PMSy pit, and no matter what you eat it doesn't seem to hit the spot.

Butttt I think you did pretty well in the grand scheme of things! Coulda been much much worse.

Let's rock this week girl!!!

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ERNOINACTION 11/14/2014 5:27PM

    You are keeping yourself accountable and that's awesome! I need to start doing the same thing. Keep working at it!

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MRICKARD776 11/12/2014 2:16PM

    I like the way you set up this blog, and don't worry about the .1 I'm sure it's all because of lady time. Keep pushing, I'm routing for you.

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Weigh in #9 countdown to the new year and Weekend Food Blog

Monday, November 03, 2014

This year has been rough! I feel like I keep popping up here every few months proudly proclaiming Iím back and ready to rock and roll and then reality slaps me in the face. Not cool reality, not cool.

So far this year Iíve had two minor surgeries and a nasty infection that knocked me on my @ss for about a month. After all that, Iím finally feeling mostly back to normal. Iím still stuck in a stupid boot for 2-4 more weeks depending on what the doctor says. He better say only 2 more weeks or Iím throwing my boot at him.

So last week was the first time I exercised in months. Probably since August when I started getting all the foot pain that led to my surgery. I was able to do about 20 minutes of upper body weight training and I tried doing Zumba. Yeah, wearing a big giant boot is not conducive to the single, single, double or booty shaking. My lower half was just teetering around like a robot walking a tight rope. All I accomplished was scaring my pets in the process. I was very unstable and they were hiding under the couch probably worried mommy was about to fall on them.

Anywho there are 8 1/2 weeks left in this year and I plan to make the most of it. Iím counting down from week 8 to 1 in preparation for the New Year. This year may have made me fall and thrown road block after road block at me but Iím ready to make the last 8 weeks the best 8 weeks so far!

So with 8 weeks left my goal is to lose 16 lbs which is totally doable!

Weekend Food blog:


Breakfast: Dunkin Donuts turkey sausage sandwich with hashbrowns and a lite iced latte

Lunch: Steak wedge salad and a pomegranate margarita at Long Horn steakhouse.

Dinner: Still felt full from lunch so I had an apple and almond butter and cinnamon

Exercise: None we were running errands and visiting family.


Breakfast: an egg, two tortillas and some avocado

Lunch: Panera pick two with broccoli cheddar soup, a turkey sandwich and an apple.

Dinner: Subway turkey sub, chips and water

Exercise: 20 minute upper body workout. Iíve been experimenting with different workouts on youtube. So far so good.

Weigh in #9 countdown

Starting countdown weight weight: 221.5
Current weight: 217.5 (-4 lbs) Wow, I was not expecting a 4 lbs loss. I literally stepped on the scale hoping for any sort of loss even a .2 would have been good. The loss really motivated to get my butt back in gear.
Total Countdown Weight Loss: -4 (Iím already a quarter of the way towards reaching my goa!)l

Yippeeeee, like I said this loss really motivated me to keep up the good work and keep making the changes I need to succeed.
Although I did notice I ate our waaay too much. Time to get in the kitchen and whip up some delicious meals at home.

Here's some Monday motivation for ya'll.

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ASHESS85 11/17/2014 12:39PM

    4 lbs!! That's awesome! This gives me inspiration that I soooo desperately need right now. Keep going Mary! emoticon

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QTPIE32387 11/4/2014 12:46PM

    Hey looks like I am on your on again off again rotation as well! I am thinking these last 8 weeks should count! I am headed on vacation the second week of January so that is a great motivator to be down 20 pounds! Lets do it!!

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PAPER_WINGS18 11/4/2014 12:04PM

    Glad we are both back here. We can do it! I feel like we cycle the same way with our on again off again SP. Let's keep each other in check!

Yummy eats from the weekend girl! Proud of you for getting back to it, despite all your obstacles this year.

Let's make the most of these 8 weeks(holy cowwww this year has gone TOO fast!!!)

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MUFFIY831 11/4/2014 9:35AM

    I love the 8 week countdown!


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