Monday, December 15, 2014
Ohhhh GOD only 2 1/2 weeks left in the year and I am not even close to reaching my goals. In fact, Iím moving further and further away from my goals as each week passes.
Iím so disappointed but no matter how hard I try I canít seem to make any progress. Itís like an uphill battle trying to eat well and deal with all the craziness in my life.
I had already decided that with everything going on I wasnít going to do these blogs anymore and sometime when my life settled down Iíd come back and pick up where I left off.
But I already know that doesnít work. I need to keep at it week after week, day after day and keep myself accountable. Also, maybe venting and being able to get it all down on paper (so to speak) will help me deal with the issues that seem to cause an overload of anxiety that leads me to eat.
I want to be healthy and a big part of that equation is being able to handle stress and anxiety and the unexpected twists and turns of life in a healthy manner.
So not to make this blog a complete bummer Iíve decided to include both the bad and the good. Although its so easy to focus on the bad and the negative and berate myself for my "bad" eating, itís impossible for things to be 100% bad. Sometimes you just have to look for the silver lining. Sometimes itís pretty hidden or a stretch but you can find it.
GOOD & BAD
Bad: I ate a lot of bagels and donuts
Good: I snacked on apples, bananas and blue berries
Bad: There are tons of sweets at work today and most days. Typical Monday morning
Good: Iíve avoided the sweets. They are not even tempting
Bad: I ate a lot of Taco Bell
Good: I made healthy dinners too
Bad: I ate deep dish pizza
Good: I ate only 2 slices
Bad: Iíve been drinking this like itís going out of style
Good: Iíve also been drinking tons of this to compensate
Bad: Iím still not cleared to workout and itís been over 3 months since my surgery. So flipping frustrating
Good: My boyfriend knows I miss Zumba so he got me this. Chair Salsa! Who knew this exsisted. Itís hilarious! I have a good man
Bad: Iíve only gotten between 3-5 hours of sleep on average for the past two weeks
Good: Being awake allows me to keep this little miss trouble maker out of our Christmas tree
Bad: Iíve been working 60+ hours a week on average
Good: The overtime on my paycheck helped pay for most of the Christmas presents
Bad: TOM againÖ
Good: TOM is now over!
Bad: My brother. I cannot explain. You must just read this text conversation with my little brother that happened last Wednesday
Bro: Hey guess what?
Bro: Youíre going to have a niece today?
First of all my brother had not told me he was having a baby or even mentioned a girlfriend or anything at ALL!
Bro: I canít talk sheís about to push!
Me: Are you joking? This is not funny! What is going on? Whoís pushing?
I was utterly confused. Then he sent me two pics of his new daughter
Bro: Her name is Delilah. 7 lbs 11 ounces
Me: Sheís adorable. I love her name!
Me: Seriously though why didnít you tell me you were having a baby? You had 9 months to tell me?
Bro: Oh I thought I had mentioned I got some girl pregnant
Me: UhmÖno. I would remember that.
Me: So whoís the mom, whatís the deal, how do you know her, are you dating whatís her name?
Bro: Her name is Jenny, I met her 11 months ago, we never dated, weíre not dating now, but she seems cool though.
WTF little brother? Seriously WTF? My mom would be turning over in her grave right now if she knew what was going on. ďShe seems cool thoughĒ? Thatís a response a 15 year old gives not a 29 year old. I want to strangle him!
Good: I have a beautiful new niece to spoil and it was fun buying pretty little girly baby stuff for her. Canít wait to meet her!
Weigh in #3 Countdown (I did not weigh in last week)
Starting countdown weight: 222
Last weekís countdown weight: 218.5
Current weight: 222(+3.5lbs.) I hope some of this is due to TOM and the epic amount of sodium in my system right now.
Total Countdown Weight Loss: -0
Ugh, Iím back where I started 9 weeks ago. But at least I feel some relief from being able to vent and being able to find the silver lining in everything. Iím sick of eating bad and feeling bad and Iím going to make as much progress as I can in the next 2 Ĺ weeks. I just have to keep focused and make decisions based upon how it will help me get to my goal. How it will make me feel at the end of the week.
What I need to succeed. I don't want to see this number ever again and I know what I need to do to make that happen.
Monday, November 24, 2014
Two, two, two weeks in oneÖblog.
Trying to eat well and be healthy in November has always eluded me. First of all itís my birthday month, it also hosts Thanksgiving which promotes the National pastime of gorging and binging. And finally itís cold and snowing and freezing and all I want to do is live in my flannel pajamas and sip hot cocoa by the fireplace.
The past two weeks have also been crazy busy for me at work. I work in benefits and open enrollment has been going on. Also, we have 4,000 employees and my boss and I are the benefits service center. Yes, two people to assist 4,000. Itís been non-stop phone calls, texts, IMís email and people just stopping by my desk.
Letís just say my eating was a little bi-polar. One day Iíd be munching on fruit or granola for snacks and the next Iíd be munching on chocolate and a box of Mike and Ikeís. My stomach was killing me after the 2nd week. Finally this weekend I was able to get it together and turn myself around. It was either that or by new bigger pants.
My goal this week is to eat as clean and healthy as possible. Thanksgiving I will eat in moderation and treat myself to one slice of pie but thatís it.
Weekend Food blog:
Birthday Brunch: My two best friends took be out for my birthday brunch. I got the fig omelet with fruit and an English muffin. Omg, sooooooooo good.
Snack: Apple with peanut butter
Dinner: Rich and I discovered the entire run of Dexter on Netflix and we are hooked. We were so enthralled that we ended up burning our veggie burger and Brussel sprouts. The veggie burgers were like hockey pucks and the Brussel sprouts were black and ashy. Boooo! We had started off with such good intentions. So, this happened:
McDonaldís crispy chicken bacon clubhouse. I forgot to take a pic so this is from Google images
Exercise: None but did a lot of shopping with my bffís. I had to put ice on my foot afterwards to get some of the swelling down.
Breakfast: Protein waffle which I ended up topping with blueberry sauce and delicious scrambled eggs made by my honey.
Snack: Venti skinny iced vanilla latte at SB
Lunch: Cheeseburger from McDonalds. We were on the road to go visit Richís Mom and this seemed the easiest most convenient option at the time.
Dinner: Again we were starving by the time we were headed home and needs something quick and hopefully healthy so I can up with a brilliant idea. We hit up the Whole Foods hot bar. Omg, so many delicious veggies!
Exercise: None again. My foot was still hurting from all the walking I did the day before.
Weigh in #7 Countdown
Starting countdown weight: 222
Last weekís countdown weight: 217.5
Current weight: 219 (+.1.5 lbs.) GrrrrrrÖ.!
Total Countdown Weight Loss: -3
Leftover Halloween candy, stress, and fast food reminded me that there are consequences to my decisions. I canít just eat whatever I want and think I can deal with it later. Later is now. I have to think to myself ďWhere do I want to be at the end of the week? Is this candybar or McDonaldís going to get me to my goal?Ē ďWould I rather eat this junk food or see a smaller number on the scale at the end of the week?í I donít know about you but that smaller number makes me so happy and motivated me to do really well the next week. No contest.
Weekend Food blog:
Letís start at the beginning of this week shall we? My birthday was actually this Monday and my co-workers really went all out. There was sooo much food! My birthday Monday turned into a birthday week. Even on Friday there were still leftovers of cake and cookies and ice cream. All that sugar made me sluggish and remorseful. I mean, I knew I didnít have to eat it just because it was there but thatís what I did. Omg, the sugar!!!!
Breakfast: English muffin with peanut butter, coffee and strawberries
Lunch: Turkey Sandwich with kettle chips
Dinner: Chicken ravioli with tomato sauce and baby broccoli
Exercise: Did 20 minutes of an upper body workout from YouTube.
Breakfast: Eggs with hot sauce, turkey bacon, tortillas, cherries and coffee
Lunch: Chipotle steak salad. Their vinaigrette dressing is to die for. Soooo very good!
Dinner: BBQ chicken with potatoes and asparagus
Exercise: None but I did clean alot
Weigh in #6 Countdown
Starting countdown weight: 222
Last weekís countdown weight: 219
Current weight: 216.3 (-2.7 lbs.) Yay!!!!
Total Countdown Weight Loss: -5.7
Packing my lunch and pre-making dinners saved me this week. I knew from last weekís fiasco that I would be too tired and stressed to make healthy dinners for the week so Rich and I, last Sunday, grilled enough chicken for the entire week and made cilantro lime quinoa and roasted broccoli and cauliflower. I also made breakfast burritos that we could keep in the freezer and just grab and go and a huge pot of beef stew we could eat for dinner. This really saved us both even though I indulged on 2 cookies and a small piece of cake on my birthday. Not having to think about what we were going to eat was a life saver. It made our life much simpler and from what I see on the scale it worked!
I canít believe there are only 5 1/2 weeks left in this year. I really need to dig deep, focus and do the work. I got this!!!
Monday, November 03, 2014
This year has been rough! I feel like I keep popping up here every few months proudly proclaiming Iím back and ready to rock and roll and then reality slaps me in the face. Not cool reality, not cool.
So far this year Iíve had two minor surgeries and a nasty infection that knocked me on my @ss for about a month. After all that, Iím finally feeling mostly back to normal. Iím still stuck in a stupid boot for 2-4 more weeks depending on what the doctor says. He better say only 2 more weeks or Iím throwing my boot at him.
So last week was the first time I exercised in months. Probably since August when I started getting all the foot pain that led to my surgery. I was able to do about 20 minutes of upper body weight training and I tried doing Zumba. Yeah, wearing a big giant boot is not conducive to the single, single, double or booty shaking. My lower half was just teetering around like a robot walking a tight rope. All I accomplished was scaring my pets in the process. I was very unstable and they were hiding under the couch probably worried mommy was about to fall on them.
Anywho there are 8 1/2 weeks left in this year and I plan to make the most of it. Iím counting down from week 8 to 1 in preparation for the New Year. This year may have made me fall and thrown road block after road block at me but Iím ready to make the last 8 weeks the best 8 weeks so far!
So with 8 weeks left my goal is to lose 16 lbs which is totally doable!
Weekend Food blog:
Breakfast: Dunkin Donuts turkey sausage sandwich with hashbrowns and a lite iced latte
Lunch: Steak wedge salad and a pomegranate margarita at Long Horn steakhouse.
Dinner: Still felt full from lunch so I had an apple and almond butter and cinnamon
Exercise: None we were running errands and visiting family.
Breakfast: an egg, two tortillas and some avocado
Lunch: Panera pick two with broccoli cheddar soup, a turkey sandwich and an apple.
Dinner: Subway turkey sub, chips and water
Exercise: 20 minute upper body workout. Iíve been experimenting with different workouts on youtube. So far so good.
Weigh in #9 countdown
Starting countdown weight weight: 221.5
Current weight: 217.5 (-4 lbs) Wow, I was not expecting a 4 lbs loss. I literally stepped on the scale hoping for any sort of loss even a .2 would have been good. The loss really motivated to get my butt back in gear.
Total Countdown Weight Loss: -4 (Iím already a quarter of the way towards reaching my goa!)l
Yippeeeee, like I said this loss really motivated me to keep up the good work and keep making the changes I need to succeed.
Although I did notice I ate our waaay too much. Time to get in the kitchen and whip up some delicious meals at home.
Here's some Monday motivation for ya'll.
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