Monday, July 21, 2014
So Iím so happy I posted the stumbling blog at the end of last week. I really needed to vent and getting it all out helped me realize that the world wasnít falling down around me and I wasn't a victim. I had definitely really gotten myself deep into the victim roll and used food to cope with it. If I hadnít posted it and recieved such supportive comments I probably wouldnít have been able to turn myself around and get back on track. Thanks everyone for all your positive comments. Itís exactly what I needed at that time.
Three more short weeks until our 3 year anniversary get away. All right itís GO time!
Weekend Food blog:
Snack: I grabbed a banana on my way out the door to yoga
Exercise: Vinyasa yoga for an hour. I ended up burning 350 calories and it's 2 days later and my entire body still feels it. Great workout.
Breakfast: 2 eggs with hot sauce, 2 slices turkey bacon, 2 tortillas, cherries and coffee
Lunch: I made some chicken and white bean soup and had it with a slice of garlic toast
Dinner: Beef stir-fry with quinoa
Snack: Watching TV with Rich and got the munchies. We popped our own popcorn and added lots of spices (garlic, paprika, pepper and cumin). Delicious!
Breakfast: No waffle Sunday *insert sad face*. Rich had to leave early to run errands to left to my own devices I made my go to breakfast: Eggs with hot sauce, turkey bacon, torillas, cherries and coffee
Lunch: Aloo Gobi which is a vegetarian Indian dish made with cauliflower, potatoes and lots and lots of spices, yummy! And two corn toritllas
Snack: Munched on some chips and salsa
Dinner: Rich and I both didnít feel like cooking so we hit up Panera Bread. I got the pick two with the strawberry poppy seed salad and the broccoli and cheese soup and a baguette to dip in my soup
Exercise: zilch but did clean a lot
Weigh in #4
Starting Weight: 233
Previous weight: 220.3
Current weight: 216.6 (-3.7) Wow. I have no idea how this happened but Iím going to run with it and use it as motivation to get me back where I need to be to reach my goals.
Total Weight Loss: -16.4
Hereís some healthy motivation for yaíll this Monday morning.
Friday, July 18, 2014
I'm writing this post at 1 AM because I can't sleep. After a day filled with apple pie, to much diet soda and coffee, too many carbs and too much bacon and over indulgence on all counts I ended the evening with a night cap of 1/2 a little Caesar's pizza and 1/2 an order of crazy bread and two diet pops. I feel sick and guilty and ashamed.
The unbelievable part was that today wasn't even my worst day. It was just a typical day in what had now been two weeks of self-destruction. I would eat too much junk food and fast food and caffeine which would give me headaches, make it hard to sleep and make me feel plain lousy. My poor body having to deal with all this was too tired and run down and plain blah to have the energy to workout. All I wanted to do was zone out in front of the TV or sleep but sleep was hard to come by.
I was stressed and anxious mostly because of my finances. I was worried and fearful of how I was going to manage to pay all the doctor and hospital bills after my surgery along with an expensive car repair. I was resentful that I felt like I couldn't catch a break or get ahead. It felt like I was taking one step forward and two steps back.
So tonight I decided that instead of eating to deal with my feelings I was going to journal. I was going to deal with my anxiety and stress in a constructive way.
When I opened my journal it was to a page where I'd copied the following quote, " Worry will not strip tomorrow of its burdens, it will strip today of it's joy."
I randomly write down quotes that inspire me and this quote is exactly what I needed at this moment. I needed to remember that my worry and anxiety and stress about tomorrow or the next day or more accurately what I anticipate the future will bring was robbing me of being fully present and accepting of the joy in the little everyday things.
I wasn't present in my own life because I was too worried about what might come. I needed to be more present in my life and for that I had to tackle and acknowledge the issue that was causing me to eat instead of spending so much time and energy not thinking about it with food.
So I busted out my budget and rearranged a few thing and cut back on eating out and "extras" or "splurges" and I was able to fit in the payments for my surgery and the parts for my car as well as still put money into savings and keep paying down my credit cards. It was going to take awhile to get some items paid off but I had a plan to get there.
In 20 minutes I was able to get rid of what I envisioned as this looming doom. I saw myself scraping by with hardly any money for food let alone fun and eventually have my credit ruined when in reality this was not the case at all. Had I had the foresight to do this earlier maybe the past 2 weeks wouldn't have happened. Well better late then never. Lesson learned and time to move on
I finally weighed myself and I'm back up to 220.3. That kills me but I have only myself to blame and only I can put in the hard work to get back to where I need to go.
In 3 weeks (August 9th) Rich and I are celebrating our 3 year anniversary. I bought a cute new dress online that cost more than I wanted to pay but I couldn't resist especially for a special occasion. It arrived yesterday and I had been too scared and felt too gross to try it on. I finally did try it on and the band under the bust is way too tight. I can only inhale and that's with spanx on.
Here's a pic of the dress:
So with 3 weeks to go my plan is to hit it hard. Which means no eating out, which is hard, so I'm leaving my credit cards and debit cards at home so even if I am tempted to eat something I shouldn't I can't because I have no money. I'm only eating what I pack and put in my lunch bag which will be lots of fresh fruit, veggies, nuts and lean meats.
I'm also headed back to the gym with the following schedule:
Monday= Zumba (1 hour) and River walking (1 hour)
Tuesday - Crossramp (30 minutes) and bike (30 minutes)
Wednesday - Yoga ( 1 hours)
Thursday - Zumba (1 hours)
Friday - Off but I will take Becca for a walk of the weather cooperates
Saturday - River walking (1 hour) and Yoga (1 hour)
I'm hoping if I'm on point with everything I can lose about 5 pound in 3 weeks so the dress fits better and I can feel beautiful and confident on our anniversary. I also hopes this is the jump start I need to get back to my happy and healthy lifestyle!
Weigh in #3
Starting Weight: 233
Previous weight: 216.5
Current weight: 220.3 (+3.8) Meh not happy about it but this will be the last time I see this number
Total Weight Loss: -12.7
Tuesday, July 08, 2014
I hope everyone had an awesome 4th of July!!!! I know I did but I also ate waaaay too much. I should have been more like the image on the left but ended up more like the image on the right.
I think my bad choices on the 4th were due to my bad choices Thursday night of deep dish Chicago style pizza, cheese fries and too much rum and coke. No pictures because at one point I was curled up on the kitchen floor spooning the refrigerator and freaking out the dog and the cat, lol. Ugh, #drunkgirlproblems.
Anywhooo, we got a new member of our family. Hereís the SP debut of Professor Mittens, Woman of Science, AKA mittens, AKA the terrorist. Sheís in this phase where she likes to jump out from her secret hiding places and bite our feet or scratch us or sometimes just jump on our backs. Ugh! She is a little terrorist. We never know when we will be attacked.
So last weekend I made it to the gym 2 times, did Zumba once, did yoga once and took Becca on walks whenever the weather was nice. Exercise wise it was decent. Food wise not so much
Weekend Food blog:
Breakfast: English muffin with avocado, 2 sliced hardboiled eggs and salsa. Also had some coffee (not pictured). Well it started off pretty good...
Lunch: Rich and I were car shopping most of the day. His car got totaled in a minor 4 car collision. Heís ok but his car didnít make it. Well we waited too long to eat and stopped at the nearest restaurant. We had 2 baskets of chips with salsa, appetizer of corn quesadillas and I got the Mexican torta with fries. I ate waaaay too much
Dessert: Skipped dinner since we were still full from lunch but close to 11 PM after the fireworks we got some frozen yogurt. I promise you there is frozen yogurt under all that fruit. It's not as healthy as it looks.
Breakfast: English muffin with natural peanut butter with strawberries and coffee.
Exercise: Skipped river walking since I woke up at 8:30 and checked my phone and it was only 61 degrees. Blah! I ended up hitting the gym for an hour long yoga session. The instructor in yoga was hard core and was doing a lot of power yoga moves. I burned almost 400 calories in yoga alone. Then I cooled down on the treadmill.
Lunch: Turkey sandwich on rye from my favorite deli with some kettle chips and pickles. Why can I never replicate this sandwich at home??? So unfair!
Dinner: Chicken burger on a sandwich thin with lettuce, onion, tomato and baked sweet potato chips and asparagus.
Dessert: Craving something sweet so I had an apple with almond butter and dusted it with cinnamon
Breakfast: Waffle Sunday. Rich made gluten-free waffles with banana and chocolate chip. Most of them fell apart because we were out of gluten-free flour and used almond and coconut flour instead. Sort of fail. This was the only waffle that was picture worthy. I put some natural peanut butter and agave maple syrup on top with Ĺ a chicken sausage on the side with ketchup
Snack: raw mixed nuts
Lunch: Grilled turkey sandwich with goat cheese and kale with a few leftover baked sweet potato chips and some mushroom soup. More like mushroom broth. It was not very filling.
Dinner: I was starving and decided to make spaghetti with meat sauce, topped with
nutritional yeast and have some mixed veggies on the side. Then I had 2nds. Not good.
Exercise: Took a walk with Becca Bo Peep
Weigh in #2
Starting Weight: 233
Previous weight: 216.5
Current weight: 216.5 (0) Well maintaining during a long holiday weekend is A-Okay in my book
Total Weight Loss: -16.5
Hereís some healthy motivation for yaíll.
Monday, June 30, 2014
Iím baaaaack. I may be a little banged up and bruised but Iím not giving up. Time to dig deep and do this!
At the beginning of June I had a myomectomy. Fancy way of saying they cut out a large fibroid tumor that was attached to my uterus. My doctor said it was bigger than her fist.
Gross and Iím so glad itís out because it was causing lots of pain and bleeding.
This past week Iíve gotten back to exercise and it has been PAINFUL! 2 Ĺ weeks of non-movement after the surgery made me lose any sort of conditioning I had. Just walking has mehuffing and puffing but I got to push through.
So last weekend I made it to the gym 3 times, did river walking once, did yoga once and took Becca on walks whenever the weather was nice. Becca put on a pound of winter weight we need to get off of her. That might not seem like munch but 1 pound an 8 pound dog is too much. She was huffing and puffing too, lol.
Weekend Food blog:
Breakfast: 2 eggs with hot sauce, 2 slices of turkey bacon, cherries, coffee and 2 tortillas.
Exercise: 1 hr of river walking. River walking is a class at the water park where you walk against the lazy river for resistance. I had to walk with the lazy river the whole time. My legs were in too much pain to fight their way through the water.
Snack: Noosa rhubarb Swedish style yogurt with strawberries. This was delicious but has waaay too much sugar. Itís more of a special treat than an everyday thing.
Lunch: Went to the farmers market and picked up lots of delicious finds. Came home and made a sandwich using the bread, goat cheese, heirloom tomatoes, kale and balsamic vinegar I got at the farmers market. Added pickles, veggie chips and a farmers market peach.
Dinner: Craving some comfort food so I made tuna noodle casserole with a side of broccoli.
Breakfast: Waffle Sunday. Rich made delicious gluten free banana, cinnamon, chocolate chip gluten free waffles. I had 1 1/2 and added some almond butter and strawberry jam on mine and split a pink lady apple with Rich. And of course my delicious coffee.
Lunch: Made another farmers market sandwich with goat cheese, balsamic vinegar, heirloom tomatoes and baby kale. Also had some tomato soup with parmesan crisps and some cherries.
Dinner: I got 2 Chicago style hot dogs with fries. Iím not gonna lie it was delicious. Rich was craving bad food and since TOM had reared its ugly head I went along with it . Although after I ate it I made sure to prep dinner for the week so weíd have healthy meals ready that we would just have to heat up so this disastrous dinner doesnít happen again.
Exercise: A two mile walk with Becca Bo Peep. That tan blur on the bottom left hand side is her.
Weigh in #1
Starting Weight: 233
Previous weight: 217.8
Current weight: 216.5 (-.8) A loss is a loss
Total Weight Loss: -16.5 Going in the right directions.
What are you doing this week to help you live a healthy life?
Monday, February 10, 2014
Last week I averaged around 2,000 calories each day. And guess whatÖI lost weight! So to an old nutritionist who told me to live off soup and 1200 calories and several doctors who told me to cut back to 1200 calories a day to lose weight Iím going to say FU! I could not believe thatís the advice these health professionals gave me. I really donít know how anyone can live off of 1200 calories and I would be very sad and very weak if I had to do that, oh and very cranky. I like large volumes of food and I like to feel full. If I can eat a tray full of homemade kale chips for 200 calories or a measly ounce of potato chips Iíll pick the kale chips every time.
Yes, I eat 2,000 calories a day but I also work out 4-5 times a week doing cardio strength training and yoga and what I eat is mostly delicious, healthy, organic, unprocessed, unrefined fresh foods and tons of fruits and vegetables. This means that I can eat up to 2,000 calories a day and once in a while even have 4 pieces of pizza and sometimes eat McDonalds and still lose weight. 80% of the time I eat very well and 20% I treat myself. That my friends is called moderation and something I could not wrap my brain around before. I thought I had to deprive myself and be perfect to lose weight but thatís not real life, thatís not sustainable and thatís not healthy. So for me moderation is the key! Welcome to my weight loss equation moderation and take a seat because you are here to stay!
Weekend Food blog:
Pre-workout snack: I had a cup of puffin cereal with almond milk and my c4 pre-workout
Exercise: 1hr 30 min at the gym. Walked on the treadmill for an hour then killed my legs. They still hurt so badly. Stairs are my worst nightmare right now.
Lunch: Tuna salad made with nonfat greek yogurt, 3 wasa crackers, fresh pineapple and a diet coke
Snack: Apple and almond butter
Dinner: Sopa de fideo & corn tortillas (Basically a Mexican chicken soup. Reminded me of my mom but for some reason the pasta soaked up all the broth so it was very thick and less soup like. boooo! Still yummy though.)
Total Calories: 1750
Calories burned: -578
Net calories: 1172 (Woo hoo!)
Breakfast: I woke up starving!!!! Maybe because I worked out more and ate less the day before. I convinced Rich to go to McDís and pick us up bacon, egg, cheese bagel meal with no sauce. Ugh!
Lunch: Had fresh mozz that needed to be used ASAP so we made a pizza. I ended up eating 4 pieces. Díoh!
Dinner: Felt gross from my big lunch and also probably from my garbage breakfast so I just got some health snacks for dinner. Oranges, pistachios and string cheese.
Exercise: none, this was my well-deserved rest day
Total Calories: 2,465 (Went over my free day goal of 2,300. I have got to do better next time.)
Calories burned: 0
Net Calories: 2,465
Bonus: Look at all my beautiful organic fruits and veggies!
Weigh in #3 in 2014
Starting Weight: 233
Previous weight: 213.6
Current weight: 211.6 (-2) Heck ya!
Total Weight Loss: -21.4
20 pound loss, I have arrived!
Sunday not so much but I'm back at it again today!
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