Sunday, November 18, 2012
I did something really awful the other day...so awful I have given up e-mail temporarily, and am spending a lot of time in introspection. Not sure if I will come to any grand conclusions, but at least I am spending time trying to figure out how to become the kind of person I really do want to be.
In brief, what I did was write something rather nasty and sarcastic about someone on a loop I was a member of. What I thought I was doing was forwarding my nasty comments to another person - really in order to get his opinion and comments. However, instead of hitting 'forward,' I had accidentally hit 'reply,' and my comments went, not only to the person in question, but to the entire loop. Ouch! Major ouch.
I was (am) so mortified. But nothing like sticking one's foot totally in one's mouth to teach a good lesson.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Last summer I saw a guy wearing a T-shirt that I just loved because I related to it so much. Of course, my memory is so blasted bad that I forgot exactly what the shirt said - only remembered that I liked it and it had to do with getting older. I kept meaning to ask my daughter, who was with me when I saw it, if she remembered what it said, but I never got around to it. I suspect she would have remembered, if only because, unlike me, she has a really good memory.
Well, today I was looking through one of those ubiquitous Christmas catalogues, and, lo and behold, there was the shirt! I still like it just as much, and I think I may just order one for myself for Christmas. It says, "The Older I Get, The Better I Was." SO true. And sad, too, because I used to hate my body and think I was a klutz who couldn't do anything remotely athletic. Sigh.
Anyway, my long-term goal is now to get to the point where I am better now than I was when I was younger. I don't know if it will ever happen, but I think it is something to strive for.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Well, it being the day Veteran's Day is celebrated (although everyone knows it was the real thing yesterday...the eleventh hour of the eleventh day of the eleventh month), I am going to try to post a picture of my father, taken during World War II, in 1944. He was a jumpmaster in the D-Day invasion, and he was also in the Battle of the Bulge and a number of other campaigns. He was one of those who liberated one of the concentration camps. He saw the horrors there and became physically ill.
He went on to fight in the Korean War, and also in Vietnam. While he was in Vietnam, he got sick and was sent home, where Stage IV pancreatic cancer was discovered. He died three months after the diagnosis. He was only 55 years old, and I was a young child when he died.
In his memory, and in memory of all who have served in the military, I say, "Thank You!"
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Well, today I certainly got my 10,000 steps and then some! Danny was invited to a birthday party at the Botanical Gardens, which is having a big dinosaur exhibit. We must have walked a couple of miles at least. Back in my younger days, I could have done that without blinking. But now, with bad hip arthritis, I can walk, but it hurts, and the greater the amount of walking, the worse the pain. But I did it. It was rough, but I got through it. And it was worth the pain, because the Botanical Gardens are just lovely! I truly enjoyed seeing so many beautiful plants. In addition, being out in nature was rejuvenating.
Afterwards, I dropped Danny off at his dad's, drove home, and realised I had to walk the dog. Boy, I didn't feel like it, but you can't tell that to a dog. So I took her for her walk and put in probably about 5000 more steps. I hope she appreciated it, because now I am afraid all my muscles are going to seize up and I won't be able to make it out of my chair.
Now for a nice long relaxing bath and early bed. I need a good sleep so I can work tomorrow without snarling at everyone I encounter.
Friday, November 09, 2012
I am feeling quite depressed again. I thought I would have my son tonight. We usually have a pleasant time in the evening together, watching DVDs or walking the dog or reading. No excitement but no conflict, either, and there's a lot to be said for that.
Well, I had expected to have him, so I didn't plan anything else as I should have. Then his dad called at about one and wanted him to go to the movies and spend the night there. I always say yes to his dad unless there is a real schedule conflict, which there wasn't, so Danny is gone and I have no plans. I know I need to pull out of it. I am trying not to binge.
Oddly enough, after some time without sweets, I am finding that most sweet things are tasting too sweet, and I can't even finish them, let along binge on them. This is a very good thing. But what I am craving is rich, creamy, savory things - like the chicken and wild rice soup I made yesterday. One cup would be OK, but I want to have about a quart. Or potato chips and onion dip - one of my weaknesses. And not just a few, but lots and lots. I need a distraction. I think I will walk the dog, and hopefully snap out of it by the time I get back.
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