Friday, November 09, 2012
I am feeling quite depressed again. I thought I would have my son tonight. We usually have a pleasant time in the evening together, watching DVDs or walking the dog or reading. No excitement but no conflict, either, and there's a lot to be said for that.
Well, I had expected to have him, so I didn't plan anything else as I should have. Then his dad called at about one and wanted him to go to the movies and spend the night there. I always say yes to his dad unless there is a real schedule conflict, which there wasn't, so Danny is gone and I have no plans. I know I need to pull out of it. I am trying not to binge.
Oddly enough, after some time without sweets, I am finding that most sweet things are tasting too sweet, and I can't even finish them, let along binge on them. This is a very good thing. But what I am craving is rich, creamy, savory things - like the chicken and wild rice soup I made yesterday. One cup would be OK, but I want to have about a quart. Or potato chips and onion dip - one of my weaknesses. And not just a few, but lots and lots. I need a distraction. I think I will walk the dog, and hopefully snap out of it by the time I get back.
Thursday, November 08, 2012
Well, the stress I have been under over the election and my friend who was running has had at least one positive effect - I have lost 3 pounds since about a month ago. I don't get a chance to weigh on an accurate scale very often, so I can only check my weight infrequently. As I say, I lost about three pounds in a month, and I suspect most if not all of that loss was in the last week.
Not how I would choose to lose weight, but it's better than gaining weight because one is stressed, I suppose.
Tuesday, November 06, 2012
I thought itwas bad yesterday, but today I am so stressed that I feel physically sick. I feel as though I am about to throw up. The big problem is that a personal
friend of mine is running for office. I am so worried for him that I feel sick and my hands are shaking so I can hardly type. An incredibly wise and holy man once said, "Pray, hope, and don't worry." I am trying, but not succeeding too well.
However, I decided to fast today, so at least I am not eating everything in sight like I did yesterday. Thank goodness it will all be over tomorrow.
Monday, November 05, 2012
I admit it, I get way too stressed out before an election, hoping that my candidates win, and lying awake worrying about whether they will. Today has just been a terrible day for stress, and I didn't accomplish nearly as much as I needed to because of that.
I will be so glad when it is all over with tomorrow! Then maybe I can get back on track with my healthy eating and stop stuffing everything in sight in my mouth.
I obviously don't handle stress very well. :-(
Saturday, November 03, 2012
Well, if I had had access to my computer earlier, I would have entitled this blog, "Help!" because I was feeling very, very sad and depressed, and all I wanted to do was to eat everything in sight. Sigh. I just about did. The only bright side is that I did keep my vow to not eat any sweets - and I was just terrifically craving anything and everything sweet. Not only that, but there is a good bit of saved Halloween candy readily available, plus some delicious homemade brownies and pumpkin cheesecake in the freezer.
So, I kept my vow - or technically a fast - and ate no sweets. But, instead, I ate a bunch of potato chips, macadamia nuts (I love macadamia nuts), and cheese. I wasn't actually hungry, just depressed. I knew better. And I did it anyway. Sigh. I surely have a long way to go.
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