Friday, June 24, 2011
It has been a quite while since I last blogged and I will admit that I am the world's worst blogger. Even as a kid, I could'nt keep a diary for longer that2 weeks at the most.
For the past 2 weeks, I have been eating almost everything that I could get my hands on. Well, not quite that bad - but close. I have been craving chips, sweets and can't seem to stick to just 1 healthy serving of anything. I am pretty sure what to the cause of my stress/comfort eating though.
June 15th would have been my daughter Jennifer's 29th birthday. I miss her terribly. Certain times of the year are more stressful that others. I know that she would be mad as hell at me for not following through in my goal to a healthier me, but I just can't seem to get back in gear. She would also be angry that I seem to be using that day as a reason to fall apart. One thing that Jenn never was was a quitter. She was a fighter until the day she passed away. Jenn lived every moment as if it were the most precious thing in the world.
I need to get my head on straight and do whatever it takes to get back on track, first for myself and second for all the she taught me. I hope that my SparkFriends can help with the support I need right now because I sometimes feel so sad.