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No more sabotaging myself! PLANS FOR NEW WEEK!

Friday, September 27, 2013

So I just had my weekly weigh-in, and guess what same weight for almost 3 weeks! emoticon
I realize I had 4 days out of 7 were I had a binge so THANKS TO ME FOR SABOTAGING MYSELF!
I have been very very busy this week! My eldest began school on Monday, I had 2 boring school meetings of 2 hours each on Tuesday and Wednesday, and to top it all I have decided to go back to work after almost 7 years on parental leave! So I had so much errands to do! emoticon
NO EXCUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Hope to meet my goals in order to be successful!
Have a great week spark friends! emoticon

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CCSDESTINY 10/1/2013 10:37AM

    It will be a whole new ballgame trying to balance working, and kids in school, and your workouts! I am here for you! Shout at me if you need anything at all! I have BEEN THERE - single mom, working full time, going to school full time, kids active in school and sports....was in the best shape of my life. It can be done!

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PHOXYM 9/27/2013 1:31PM

    It is always good to have a plan - you can do it!!! Have a great weekend!

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    Don't be discouraged - just keep on going until it works and the weight comes off !! You are doing great!

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Slipped and picked myself up

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Yesterday was one of those days where I ate and ate a lot of junk till I felt like throwing up! emoticon Everyone knows how it feels when you stare at others around you eating a lot of yummy food like sweets, chocolate, ice-cream etc etc emoticon
When I resist to the temptation I feel that I have won. emoticon
But yesterday I lost because I slipped a big one . emoticon
This morning I felt like crap, I felt like a failure!
But then I turned my mood and continued pushing towards my goals! emoticon

Today was a new day and it was a good one! emoticon
I picked myself up ate within my calorie range and did 74 minutes cardio emoticon
Hope everyone had a good day!
Wishing everyone a good rest of the week ! Wishing everyone good luck on there weigh in day! Mine is on Friday hope there is no gain! emoticon

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CCSDESTINY 9/17/2013 4:15PM

    I'm so proud of you!!! Everyone has those days, but not everyone turns that frown upside down as fast as you did!! Congrats on your super big WIN today!

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100% committed - I fell in love with physical activity!

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Yesterday evening I planned to wake up early today and go jogging! My husband kept telling me I was mad to go alone early in the dark! In spite what he said today I woke up at 4.45am and at 5am left home to go jogging, left my kids with my husband thank god they where sleeping! emoticon
It was dark outside and it felt a little cold, not a single person in the streets only me! emoticon
At first I was a little afraid it's been more than a year since I last went jogging this early in the morning and in the dark alone! emoticon
Last time I went I was with my headphones on listening to music and jogging and a man from behind me who was also jogging passed by me and I was scared to death. That moment my heart stopped because I thought he was going to harm me, or rape me! Thank god he was only jogging! After that episode I always went after sunrise. emoticon
Today when I was jogging I was thinking to my self I am not mad, to some maybe I am but to others I'm 100% committed! emoticon
When I jog I feel powerful and strong I don't know how to describe the feeling but who runs knows what I'm talking about! emoticon
I feel a rush down my spine several times while I'm jogging and every time I increase the time without getting tired I feel I want to do more and I say to my self " I can do it I'm capable! I'm powerful!"
2 weeks ago my little girl who's 4 years old asked me" why do you run mummy" If the question was made to me when I began running I would have said that I run to get skinny! That's what mattered to me when I first started to do physical activity! I was so not fit and heavy I could not jog for more than 20 seconds in a row and after only 45 minutes of fast walking I went home destroyed and I would be all the rest of the day tired! emoticon Not to mention afterwards I felt extremely sore for days!
But when she asked me 2 weeks ago I was already fit I was enjoying running and rarely felt sore! I was already doing 70/80 minutes combined jogging and fast walking plus I did also swimming, water aerobics, rope jumping, high impact step aerobics, and weight lifting! My answer was the following" I run to get healthy, fit and strong. When I run I feel I'm strong like a lion! Sometimes when I feel myself lifting from the ground it seems I'm flying like a butterfly" I told her!
Than I continued " I feel the wind on my face and in my hair and I feel light like a feather!" Than she smiled at me and told me that she wanted to be like me that moment my self esteem got high it was the second time someone told me they want to be as fit as me the first person who told me was my other son who's 6 years old!
I feel extremely proud that my children look up to me!
Nowadays it's not about being more skinny only, but it's also about being HEALTHY, FIT ,STRONG AND SETTING A GOOD EXAMPLE FOR MY KIDS!
They both enjoy sports very much this summer I took them to swimming and gymnastics 2 sessions per week at a sport complex while I did cardio and weight lifting sometimes I went jogging too! They enjoyed it very much!
Sometimes I go to a track where you can jog and I take them with me with their bike. Then they start jogging and tell me " look mummy I'm jogging like you!"
They keep me so motivated to keep going!
Life is so nice at this moment in my life no comment can hurt me, and no one can discourage me! I feel I matured in a way and I'm doing what's best for myself for once in my life!
Hope you all have the best in life spark friends!
Have a great weekend!

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CCSDESTINY 9/14/2013 10:26AM

    That is awesome!! It is always the best payback to know that our children ARE taking our decisions in and we are teaching them to be strong and fit and not fall into the trap of being unhealthy. My mother in law sent home two boxes of cakes with my husband last weekend. I had to throw them awake this weekend because they sat in the kitchen all week and NOBODY at them! Let it be known all of the bananas, grapes and apples are gone! **proud moments**

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JACKIE15108 9/14/2013 4:04AM

    Congratulations on your success with running. When it is dark and so peaceful, it is a great time for thinking and organizing personal thoughts. And you are setting great examples for yur children!
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This time around this girl is strong!

Friday, September 13, 2013

Hi, Today I had my weigh in and I lost half a pound in spite the junk I ate on holiday! emoticon
I'm finally under 70 kilograms or else under 153 pounds now I'm officially in the 60's and I'm very happy. emoticon
It's been 13 years since I have weighed under 153 pounds and I did not think I was capable to succeed and even people around me but I proved them all wrong! emoticon
The same people I am talking about always do bad and cruel comments to let me down and discourage me! emoticon
Most recent comments were: " YOUR FACE GOT UGLY", " YOUR NOSE GOT BIGGER", " YOU ARE MAD DOING ALL THAT PHYSICAL ACTIVITY", " YOU ARE SHRINKING AND YOUR BREAST VANISHED DON'T LOSE ANY MORE WEIGHT" "YOU SLIMMED DOWN BUT YOU WILL ALWAYS REMAIN A BIG FRAME" This last comment hurts me the most because since I was a child everyone told me I was big frame and then I could'nt understand but when I grew up I realized that I was the tallest and fattest in my family! My mother is 5 feet 2 and slim my biggest sister is 5 feet 1 and slim and my youngest sister is 5 feet 3 and very skinny "model type". So I was the giant 5 feet 7 and over 4 sizes bigger not to mention the weight difference! I hated myself for years for being tall and big I always felt left out even if I was not! I always felt I was huge even If I was not because I was only taller. Now I have realized over the years that I can never be as low in weight as they are and I can never be small as they are because I am taller and I have learned to accept myself as I am and love myself! emoticon
After all models are all over 5 feet 7 so who tells you "you are huge because of your height is stupid" The comments on my frame after all was made by a person who is only 5 feet tall! I think that she is short and and I'm normal because my height and my frame are considered average!
These comment hurt me so bad! But this time around I am not going to let them discourage me! This time around this girl is STRONG not only physically but also mentally! emoticon
The only two persons that have stayed by my side are my mother who is my rock and my younger sister who keeps encouraging me all the time!
My husband is a little indifferent because he does not realize how important it is to me to be skinny and fit! I don't blame him I think he acts like this because he is afraid I fall into an eating disorder like in the past! He tells me that no matter what my weight is, to him I will always be beautiful!
Have a great week sparked friends!

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CCSDESTINY 9/13/2013 9:21AM

    I don't know why people think it is ok to say nasty things! You do what makes YOU happy because in the end, that's all that matters!


You stay STRONG!

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Program for this week

Monday, September 09, 2013

Last week's weigh in I lost 4 pounds after 2 whole weeks not losing a single pound! emoticon
I saw 69.5 kilograms on the scale for the first time in years! It's been weeks of hard work to see that number on the scale! emoticon
I just came back from a weekend break, yes 3 days buffet eating so many unhealthy food! And today guess what, gained 3.3 pounds in only 3 days! By the way when I was on holiday I did at least 30 minutes water aerobics and 30 minutes swimming in the pool everyday and still gained weight! It's so unfair that it takes you 2 weeks to lose 4 pounds, sometimes you lose less and sometimes nothing and it only takes 3 days to gain it back! emoticon

But in spite of that, today I'm feeling positive to start a new fitness program and to track my food again. I have realized how bad is junk food for health not only because I gained weight but also because when I ate it I felt bloated, my tummy and stomach ached a lot, I felt very heavy and unhappy! It's very so not worth it to eat junk feel unhappy and gain weight but I was on holiday and my mind told me It's o.k to give my stomach a holiday too!
I was so wrong! emoticon

But today is a new day it's not worth it to beat myself up!
Instead I'm going to roll my sleeves up and work hard.
Maybe at least till next Friday's weigh in there will be only 1.5 gain not 3.3 pounds. Today I plan to do at least 80 minutes interval training! It's the best way to burn fat. Then I plan to eat healthy and within my calorie range! emoticon

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SLIMMINGSHAY 9/9/2013 11:17PM

    I so know what you mean about the bad food making you feel bad! I did it last week too! Awful cravings and such. Just makes you feel...blah!

Great job on setting up a new plan and ways to deal with your back peddling.

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    Way to focus on the positive and get back to a solid plan of attack! Happy Sparking this week!

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MAPPLEBUM 9/9/2013 11:46AM

    4 lbs is a lot to lose in a week, it probably has something to do with water weight. I've read that a person can lose or gain up to 10 lbs in a day due to water retention/hydration! I've never experienced it but it's something good to keep in mind. I'd be glad that I ate all that bad stuff and still essentially lost a pound. :) Sounds like you're doing great!

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