Wednesday, April 09, 2014
Here at Sparkpeople, there are all kinds of motivational sayings - "Use It or Lose It" or my favorite "You can't out-exercise bad eating." This is the saying that weighs heavily (pun intended) on me today.
Because yesterday was a disaster of epic proportions - one ball rolling started another and another and so on and so on...until they all came to a THUD! at the bottom - as "bottom" as you can get when you know you're doing wrong but don't want to stop it - and seeing how excited and upbeat everyone is at the beginning of the BTS Q2 and you're not feeling it - and a delayed reaction to a bad medical diagnosis and having to tell my co-workers about it and their reactions - was all too much ball-rolling to handle. I was really down on myself last night, but that didn't stop me from eating did it? And then feeling worse and going to bed late and just generally awful-feeling.
Then today, in my morning Bible meditation, the leader wrote about "When You Mess Up Big Time" - about Peter's denial of Jesus and his feelings of self-loathing and anger at himself afterward. And the quote from Luke 22:31 - "And when you have turned and come back to me, strengthen your friends." (paraphrased) No matter how awful peter felt, no matter how much he wanted to go off and do damage to himself, no matter angry and upset the other disciples were toward him, Jesus had already forgiven him and had big plans for him - EVEN BEFORE PETER HAD EVEN DENIED HIM!
Then came the statement that tied this all together for me - "Have you made mistakes that left you feeling disqualified, left out of the game, sitting on the bench because of too many fouls?"
And that, Sparkfriends, is exactly how I feel today - "I don't belong here, I don't feel worthy to be here, I can't stop eating bad foods, I can't lose weight anymore, I should just give it up." Just like Peter must have felt for those 3 days before the resurrection. I can beat myself up, be angry with myself, and sit this one out. OR I can let my Sparkbuddies pull me off that bench, put me back in the game, and, like Jesus did, make me realize that you all have been there, that you all feel this way at times, that we all need to turn around and come back and be strengthened by each other. Why would they do this? Because, someday, this same thing may happen to them and they would look to me to "strengthen my friends." To dust the shame of messing up off and get back in the game of losing weight and better health.
So I'm thanking you all ahead of time and hoping you will give me that "push" to get back in the game and get motivated again. Like Peter, sometimes I need to be told to buck up, too!
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
"Un-Sparking"? What? Why would anyone un-Spark? How disloyal! How rude! How...
Now, wait, before you all start whaling on me, I don't mean I've un-Sparked myself! I love SP and will not be leaving any time soon.
But sometimes I feel like seeing what others are doing, out there in the wide, wide world (been reading "The Poky Little Puppy" to the 3YO grandson too much). There are lots of interesting articles and FB posts that I see, most of them here on SP. Every so often, I will get an email about articles around the Web that look interesting, sort of like a Pinterest page for healthy lifestyles. So I check them out...and find interesting factiods that make me think.
Like "The Nourished Life" blog, which I like and therefore receive a daily email from. And "Eating Well/The Daily Recipe" e-magazine. And "The Fitness Walking Guide". Each of these are interesting to me and I subscribe to them and read them almost daily.
But, in order to add these blogs about health and fitness to my daily reading list, I had to give up a few others. Like "2 Peas and Their Pod" ( cute couple, cute toddler, annoying write-ups about the fabulous places they were paid to visit). And "Bake or Break" (need I say anymore?) and "Cookies and cups" (ditto) and "Bakerella" (again?), and "Six Sisters' Stuff" (too many good recipes) and "Picky Palate" (ditto) and "In Jennie's Kitchen" (too sad about her DH dying so young, but enough already!).
Are you getting a theme here? Lots and lots of food-related blogs; too many food-related blogs! And too many with recipes that are definitely NOT healthy! and seriously - why would I want to make homemade GS cookies? or Cracker Jack? or Olive Garden soups? Why wouldn't I just go buy them?
But, see, I don't want to "just go buy them" anymore. Or just go, sit down, and order some. Because I know what's in them (thanks to these "make your own" recipes) and, just for fun, I entered the recipe for All-American Double chocolate Brownies into the SP recipe calculator. These brownies are supposed to be like the Starbuck's ones. People - 1,482 calories in a 3-inch square! 1,482 - for some of us, that's an entire day's worth of food! Why would I want to do that - for one brownie? Why would someone even want that? (well, okay, after all, it is a brownie, but still...) Why would I want to waste a whole day's worth of calories on one stinkin' brownie. Not to mention the fat, sugar, cholesterol, and complete lack of vitamins and minerals. Oh, sure, maybe sinking my teeth into one would take care of a craving, but it's not worth it! I can have a non-fat hot cocoa mug or a square of dark chocolate instead. Just as good tasting, but way better and easier on the calories!
So no more fabulous recipes, or all-expenses paid weekend getaways, or cute little cake pops for this girl. I've gotten some really helpful advice and recipes from healthier, better-for-me places and I would like to enjoy those "un-Sparked" places, too!
Monday, February 03, 2014
In our BTS challenge, one of the options for last weekend's challenge was to write a blog about what we like about ourselves. I thought this was a laugh - if I liked myself, would I be fat? If I liked myself, would I be on Spark?
But many of the people in the BTS are fighting depression, SAD, or just plain out-of-sorts. One of my co-workers tried to commit suicide last week. Winter is getting to all of us and this winter has been especially hard so far. Plus, perhaps we are not losing weight like we would wish to, or we are so close to that goal and just can't quite meet it. Whatever is the problem, we need to do something nice. So the more I thought about it, the more this idea of liking my best attributes seemed like a good thing. So here goes:
1. my bluer than blue eyes - they change with the weather - really!
2. my fingers that can play piano and make a living at it, too!
3. my ability to research - I work at it like a bulldog and never give up until I find the answer!
4. my willingness to take on any job, no matter how difficult (except closets!)
5. my loyalty to family and friends
6. my love for my grandkids
7. my weightloss so far - I am happy with what I've done and want to continue to work hard to lose more
I think all of us should try this "exercise" - it's a lot easier than planks!
Sunday, January 19, 2014
After re-reading the "10 Step Wellness Plan" blog I wrote, there are some things I need to do that haven't been done.
1. clean out closets/clean out my "life closet" - just like my Christmas closet, my "life closet" needs to be gone over and the junk thrown out. things in my life need to be moved around or put somewhere else. I can't close the door on wellness issues, hoping they will fix themselves or go away. I have to plan snacks into the meal planning - there can't be "hunger days" where I'm so hungry that I will eat anything! The numbers can't be constantly at the top end of the calorie range for the day or consistently letting the fats portion go higher. I have to have balance in everything - eating, fitness, ME time, and work.
2. I have to accept that part of the ME time is sitting at the kitchen table to read and that is how it is. I've tried reading other places - they are just not comfortable. So... one snack time will be late at night after I get home from work. I went back and read over my past trackers and, since I eat dinner at 3PM, it is too long to go until morning for my next meal. so part of #1 is the planned snack at 11PM.
3. I have done the swimming, ST, walking (even though the weather hasn't co-operated). so the fitness is going very well (wow - one good thing!)
4. have done team chats, FaceBook, and journal. 2 things right!
5. (refer to #2 - I have studied past tracking and worked out a meal plan)
6. ok-3 things done right!
7. I have not always done well on dinners out - and the scale has shown me up. this is the biggest setback and a tough one to beat when family members don't help much because they are not on the same journey as me. I have learned what I can do the next 2 days after and have done it. I don't like it, but I do it!
8. (refer to #1)
9. still compare how I have done/am doing to others. but I am always impressed by others' motivation and hope to channel some of that.
10. have done some of those things listed already.
it's only been 3 weeks and I realize some of the things that need to be changed, some things that cannot change, and others I have to change that I don't want to change. Those are the hardest to work on, but I plan on facing those obstacles and pushing them aside. I can't wait until the nicer weather happens to walk more outside and get ready for the 5K in May, can't wait to finish losing the 20 lbs. for the Alaska trip, and can't wait to start biking.
So buckling down and gritting my teeth and getting it done is the phrase for now.
Thank you to all the Pink Pirates for your help on the voyage of the Encourager. None of this would happen without you all!
Saturday, December 28, 2013
***please note - NOT a resolution plan!!***
On the Beyond the Scale team, we are cautioned to not make resolutions for 2014, but to make goals for the new year. Also, on my Start page on SP, there was an article to be read about making a wellness plan for 2014. This, to me, seemed to be the perfect fit for the BTS, so I did my wellness plan for next year. Here it is:
1. Write out SMART goals
- lose 20 lbs. by Alaska trip (June1,2014)
- lower sodium to 2800mg per day
- walk my first 5K in May
- finish all tracking by midnight every night
- make ST workouts 30 minutes long 3 times per week
2. power through obstacles by naming them
- have to learn to read at night in the living room and not at kitchen table
- close kitchen at midnight (get home from work @10PM)
- stop thinking "oh, just one won't hurt!" - because it will!
3. Plan your solutions to obstacles
- reading in living room after 11PM
- consider putting my feet up in recliner as a reward at night instead of eating as reward
- ST alternating with swimming (ST Tues., Thurs., Sat., - swimming M, W - walking Th., Su.)
- workout on Nautilus machines with my swimming buddy
- de-clutter all closets and get rid of junk - keeps me busy at home during day and out of the junk foods!
4. Journal everything
- have to buy a new notebook first
- blog here more
- keep up with team chat and FB
5. Accept where you are right now versus where you would like to be and work to bridge that gap
- change attitude about how long it takes to lose the weight
- go back on trackers and see what I did at the beginning - how did I lose 40 lbs. in 6 months?
6. One step at a time
- take weight loss slowly
- add more ST to tighten up loose skin and muscles
- add longer walking times
7. learn from setbacks and write them down. then turn them into positives!
- Christmas candy and cookies and party foods - oh my! give them away!
- don't be tempted by "it's only once" at dinners out
- eat half as much when eating out and bring the rest home for the next day
8. clean "house". which activities are not contributing to my overall purpose and remove them
- less computer time and less sitting
- get busier (see #3)
- plan, then execute that plan!
9. Stop comparing yourself to others
- don't think anyone is better because they've lost a lot of weight. how healthy are they compared to me?
- don't think I am better because I have lost 55 pounds!
- others may be more focused or their weight loss is at beginning and easier
10. reward yourself with non-food items!
- bath in Jacuzzi
- try on clothes in the Misses' dept.
- browse through my library
- buy and read a book on Kindle
- catch up on DVR'd shows
- craft with BFF
- window shopping with DD
- go for a longer drive in nice weather - look for new places to walk
- rest more to keep lungs rested
this sounds like a lot, but really is doable for the next year. I have done so much already this year and really feel I can do more in 2014. I have to focus and be determined and keep pushing myself to be a "NIKE" -
JUST DO IT!
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