Saturday, November 13, 2010
Today is Saturday...and this morning has been pretty productive, considering the contractors arrived at 7am to start putting my bathroom back together! I fixed breakfast for my DH, before heading off to Costco to pick up supplies for my MIL(Lupe) and BIL (Frank)... since neither of them have ever driven, or will ever drive, Gil and I try to get the "extras" they will need during our 'regular' shopping trips...This week, however, I did manage to avoid Costco, thus not having to put up the 'willpower' front... that is until today...
Every turn you make in Costco will produce another vendor, sporting a table full of tempting goodies, baked, fried, sweet, sweeter... juices, meats, taco pieces, acai blueberry bad stuff... you know how it is! I went in with a list, managed to stay on the outside aisles, picking up Lupe's Depends, some Oroweat Thins and then fruit...bananas, apples and blueberries. Then I had to head into the center of the store to pick up Frank's favorite, Acai Chocolate Covered Blueberry...
I was happy to see that my automatic 'blinders' went up as I passed the first vendor with sausage pieces assaulting my nostrils... then the pizza pieces... and then what looked to be a trail mix of sorts... then chips... "try this dip it is amazing!"... the samples abounded. I had made a firm resolution that 'grazing' would not be in order, since trying to record those 'tastes' would produce more of a major headache than the tastes would be worth! I just kept saying to myself..."I won't,...I won't...I won't!!!!... and guess what ...it worked!
So "willpower" is now out the window... it has been replaced by "WON'T POWER!!!" I must say, I feel so much stronger, as is my resolve... I have a new perspective... 'Won't' it be nice to have a smaller body, 'won't' it feel good to pat a little pat on the back and say...I did that!... 'Won't' the lady in the mirror be grateful that I was able to stand on my own strengthened two feet and say 'I won't have that right now...I can choose that later, if I wish"... ah... a new perspective!
Anyone want to join me on my "WON'T POWER" quest?
Friday, November 12, 2010
When I recommitted to my SparkFamily on Monday morning this week, never in my imagination did I think I would have written a blog each day, recorded my food intake, exercised or come close to staying within my calorie range!...Of course I HOPED that would happen and I did have a PLAN in place, a loose one, but definitely a plan. I was happy to resurrect my old check list for the 10th to see if I could still stay true... I even ate out two times this week and made the right choices...
I am scared of falling off, now that my big ol' butt is firmly planted on the actual wagon seat...and not hanging on by a thread... but with my SparkHabits in place, I find that I have a 'seatbelt' on, although just a lap belt, I am working to the shoulder harness level of security.
My commitment to log my food - honestly, I might add - has reeled in the loose ends that caused the edges of my program to fray... This time, I see this journey as a huge quilt that I am sewing... each good decision is a piece of the patchwork, a free form design, and SparkPeople tools are the backing and binding that will help me have a finished product at completion...As I start each day anew, I can use my SP quilt to help keep me on track as the winding road continues and snugly warm through the cold winter ahead.
My login points were 5 today... and I take it as another sign...Stayin' alive with a very high 5! I wondered if I were going to be blue with a number 2, but then I decided that if the number is two...it has a companion...1+1, if you will, so I would never be alone on my journey...
Today is a new day...I will make the most of it! Oh, BTW I can already sense my body changes happening... and that makes me smile!
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Ode to SparkPeople…
On this new day, as I commit to keep score,
I tell the food demon he has influence NO MORE!
As I struggle, and flail, I try not to fail;
I blog and I log and record each detail.
We move and we groove, we see basic progress,
Support here at SparkPeople? I see it, OH YES!!!
Month in and month out I have come to the (SP) well
And here I find strength from the stories we tell.
No need to worry, and no need to stress…
Could there be much more… to us seeing 'less'?
Today is the day I want to choose right,
The Demon is caged though he put up a good fight!
No number, no size is all that now matters,
If I want to wear clothes that my figure flatters.
This choice, my choice, no one else makes for me…
And when I make the right one…how happy I’ll be!
Now, I ask myself...is there more?... can I get through this day #4???
Wow, don't I sound like a poet? Yes, day three ended with my stomach growling and my demon saying "you've been good...have an extra treat...or two"... but I kept saying to him..."In a minute...I want to do _______ first!"... and lo and behold... I did not fall into the demon's charms!
Water WAS the clue yesterday... and I made sure I drank every time I sensed "hunger" coming over me. I even went to Pei Wei last night with a friend for dinner. I had the Vietnamese Chicken Salad Rolls... and there are only 80 calories apiece! I had two and some of the sweet chili sauce, as well! (70 cal oz) I never got the Wii up and running yesterday, so I had to walk last night...it was chilly, but I felt good and this feeling of calm about food is getting stronger every time I make a good food decision!
I am no where near perfection, but if I can keep this up for 21 days, it will become a habit... a very good habit. What obstacle could possibly get in my way? Oh, yes...THANKSGIVING!!! However, this year will be different, as nearly all of my sisters are on SparkPeople and the support abounds!
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Well, day 3...and the morning has dragged it's tail so much, it feels like lunchtime will NEVER come... but here I sit, reflecting on my "hunger" and thinking about how long ago I ate breakfast (4 hours)... and whether it is real hunger, or, am I lacking something else...
This is the point where bad choices can be made...I know that. I have promised myself that mindless eating will not happen! I have made myself a check list to determine what might cause "hunger"...and whether or not I should eat.
1. How long since your last meal?
2. How many calories did that meal encompass and was the meal balanced?
3. Did you log your food completely, including liquids consumed?
4. How much water have you consumed?
5. Will a stick of gum or exercise put your mind off the "hunger"?
This list has helped me in the past and I thought I would 'resurrect' to keep myself focused on my determination to succeed. Answers..for today...
1. 4 hours
2 480 calories - 63 - 14 - 15
3. Yes, noting that I have not had enough water as of this time.
4. 16 ounces... 4oz average per hour... oops!
5. Yes, gum did help, Wii workout scheduled.
Okay...so I think the culprit is my lack of water! I did have 2 cups of coffee, but I did not replenish my water after I drank the coffee! I now know that my 'hunger' is because my body is thirsty... I need more water to offset the coffee, (I think I read that in a SparkArticle), plus I should have consumed at least half of the required 8 glasses liquid at this point in the day, not to mention that when I do my Wii workout, I will need even more!
Tomorrow I will let you know if water, or lack thereof, was the real culprit or not!
I love being on track... one step in front of the other...and a plan in place!
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
I got another email today...not from the same person, but nonetheless, I know that the Spirit is guiding me along...I want to share this with you...
"Care is the glue that keeps relationships together once the novelty has worn off. This is as true in organizational life as in the personal domain."
I know that SparkPeople and all my friends here, care for me and that is what has kept me coming back...somehow I know the answers are here!
I feel like a baby...yet, a wise baby... starting new and wondering if I can keep up the tiny progress I made yesterday!
That quote, "Do not ask the Lord to guide your footsteps, if you are not willing to move your feet." just kept running through my mind...every time I weighed and measured my food... every time I went to log it on the Nutrition Tracker..The Holy Spirit kept nudging me along, reinforcing to me that that is the way the feet should move if you want to go forward!
I stayed in calorie range, balanced my carbs, proteins, and fats and my sodium... had a Skinny Cow Chocolate Truffle for dessert last night...and went to bed reasonably early for me...sigh... a new day today, and I am still committed to logging my food on the NT every day...
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