Monday, November 08, 2010
I thought I was asking God to help me in my program struggles... I truly thought that I was! I prayed for strength and I prayed for fortitude... I prayed for hope, I asked for faith in myself... why did I feel that there was a delay in getting an answer?
Today I received an email from a friend that was one of those "forward to 9 sisters in 9 minutes and a miracle will happen" kind of email... Of course, I was ready to delete the original, when I decided to forward the reply back to her...and then I read what was actually going to be sent! I was hit with a lightning bolt when I read the very last line of that email!
"Do not ask the Lord to guide your footsteps, if you are not willing to move your feet."
Reality set in...and I realized that I was hoping that God would do the "work" for me! Ahem... not me do the work for Him! I hope that God got a good laugh over that one, but I am grateful he sent the Holy Spirit to open my eyes and slap me up the side of my head!
I tracked my breakfast today, and I made a promise to my team members and to God that I will track my food intake everyday this week... I am hopeful that I will be true to that promise! I know that I am most successful when I am taking responsibility for what passes my teeth. Now I can go forward... pencil in hand, computer time for accountability, and make a difference in my life...using the Spark tool that is FOOLPROOF! Use it and you will be successful...I know that...and I will prove it to myself this very week!
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
November is a time of the year that makes me reflect on so many things, such as how did I do this year? Oh, I know that December is the LAST month of the year, but November is the one month that gives me a cause to pause.
The month begins with the Christian commemoration of All Saints...(Nov 1)all the people who lived the exemplary lives we all should strive for... and that is closely followed by All Souls,(Nov 2) the remembering of those we loved and lost in our lifetime...the ones who went before us to the great afterlife.
The examples of those before us, should influence our present lives...but... do they? Do we take the lessons they have laid out before us and use them to overcome obstacles or reinforce the good things they taught us?
Then just when I think that remembering the 'dead ones' is over...we have Veterans Day (Nov 11)and we give thanks for all the ones who defend and defended our right to freedom. Freedom ... a very big word. We can enjoy SparkPeople today because we don't have restrictions or media barriers placed in our lives! I am grateful for all the men and women who willingly give their time and talents for my right to live in freedom and be the best person I can be.
So, then, it is fitting that November should end with Thanksgiving Day (Nov 25) ... Now that we have drawn what we needed from those who lived before us, and honored the ones who keep us free, we give thanks to our God for all the gifts he has given us, and rightfully so.
Although I was not as successful this year as I would have liked, I did keep coming to SparkPeople to prevent the(my) flame from going out. Those embers which I pick up with each visit to this site gave me warmth and hope...and a determination to learn from both the wonderful information this site provides and the amazing people who share their stories of struggle and determination. Although it is the end of the year, I am renewed and ready to take on December and 2011... Is anyone with me???
I want to close with a quote one of my SparkFriends shared ...
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." - Maria Robinson
Friday, October 15, 2010
This morning I stood in front of my mirror, and suddenly, it occurred to me that I have been looking PAST that person and putting the blinders up to hide reality! How could I let that happen??? How could I start to ignore her and not even smile at her??? What's the matter with me???
When I joined SparkPeople, I learned that I needed to make sure that she (yes, the lady in the mirror) is a part of my every day "self blessings" oh, and by the way...that has gone by the wayside, as well... NO WONDER I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING!!!
I need to take that time and tell the lady who looks back at me how special she is...how beautiful she is...how loved she is!!! (DH keep your comments to yourself! lol)
I have learned that self affirmation is a fabulous tool that helps to defeat the food demon and strengthen the locks on his cage! How could I stop 'caring'? Where did that loving smile, directed into the eyes of my reflection, go? Why did I stop asking her to forgive my "slips" ? Why did I not recognize the symptom until now? Why? Why? Why?
My DH and I are taking a class to strengthen our faith, so to share it with others. Last night we reflected on the Our Father. A basic Christian prayer that addresses all our needs, including forgiveness of each other and our selves. "Forgive us our..." yes, for being human, with free will... and that means making bad choices once in awhile.
Perhaps I was not ready to embrace the lady in the mirror and lift her intentions to our Heavenly Father! Perhaps I did not deem myself to be worthy of His love and forgiveness!
Today I prayed for Forgiveness, Joy, Serenity, and the strength to make good choices. I prayed that all of my friends and family in "Sparkland" will also experience the strength that comes from loving ourselves and stop the self-flogging for our bad choices!
You do build strength as a team... and, yes, there is no 'I' in "team"...but... there are 3 of them in "responsibility"... Today I embrace my responsibility... I will stop trying to "fix" me... I am not broken... I just needed to evict the Food Demon!
Thursday, October 07, 2010
An Obituary printed in the London Times - Interesting and sadly rather true.
Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be long be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as:
- Knowing when to come in out of the rain;
- Why the early bird gets the worm;
- Life isn't always fair;
- and Maybe it was my fault.
Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies such as, look before you leap; once burned, twice shy, and the ever popular, adults, not children, are in charge.
His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition.
Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly children.
It declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer sun lotion or a paracetamol (British : acetaminophen) to a student; but could not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.
Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar could sue you for assault.
Common Sense further lost the will to live as the churches became businesses; and
criminals received better treatment than their victims.
Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to "realize" that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge financial settlement.
Common Sense was preceded in death, by his parents, Truth and Trust, by his wife, Discretion, by his daughter, Responsibility, and by his son, Reason.
He is survived by his 4 stepbrothers and one stepsister;
I Know My Rights, I Want It Now, Someone Else Is To Blame, I'm A Victim, and Greed.
Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone. If you still remember him, pass this on. If not, join the majority and do nothing.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
I got up this am and decided to step on the scale...I weighed in on Tuesday...and I posted my gain... and I continued to work my plan... today, however...there was a glimpse of hope... the pound number was down... okay, not a lot, but, still... the right direction...!!!
It was hard, climbing back on the wagon and gaining... but I did not throw myself back on the tracks... I just decided, that my body SHOULD know what to do, and if it could not get that message, then I would go to see the doctor, 'cause something else must be wrong... it took my body more than a week... but I think it is now responding ... I will wait until next Tuesday to climb on (the scale) again, but so long as this train is moving in the right direction, I will let the conductor and the engineer steer while I continue to hang on for dear life!
Happy that SP remains a contant ... secure, calming, supportive... entity.
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