Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Yep...I feel pretty good today. I followed my plan, weighed and measured all, and drank all my water... not too shabby!
Some days it all just comes together! Up early, exercised, ate drank, worked and spread the spark....yep, some days are just like that!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Tuesday is my weigh-in day, because I was not motivated to start SP on a Monday! Today I showed another loss, 1.3 lbs... simply amazing to me...but, little progress means my body is adjusting in other ways. My waist is much smaller, my hips are much smaller and so is my butt. I thought by now I would start adding muscle mass due to my workouts, but I don't sense that at all. by the end of June, I should finally be breaking the 200 lb mark. That is my next goal...but I am not worried about whether it will be sooner or later. Thank you SP... you have saved my life! uh oh, am I repeating myself?
Monday, May 18, 2009
So... just when you think you have the food demon soundly defeated, he rears his ugly head and tries his weakened best to drag you to the "other side"! It is still amazing to me that I was able to recognize the demon's "lash out' and with a battle...no scars left...was able to close the cage before dying that agonizing, guilt ridden, death!
Most of my weight gain came because I would sit at my computer late into the night and, while I played games, I would eat my favorite foods...cookies, pudding, ice cream, chips and dips. Yum...a lovely way to satisfy the demon and keep my lips and hips full and happy as well!
Thanks to coach Nancy_SP, who I heard speak at the SP Convention, I now know that I am a "Stress Eater". (I always thought I was an emotional eater...who knew?) I have never really diagnosed "stress" in my life, whether work or family related, it seemed to me that it is just the way you live, and interface, with the rest of the world, and being the passive aggressive person I am, life goes on while you balance your "feelings" with comfort foods... you know how that happens.
Here's what happened: After helping my sister with my nephew's graduation party Saturday, battling the food demon the entire time, I knew in my heart that it would be so nice to be just a passenger in the car coming home (50 miles) to relax and be ready to handle the company that was staying the night at my house before their continued journey home on Sunday afternoon. I had driven up early Saturday morning to the party, to help with decorating and set up. The plan was that my DH would carpool with my daughter and son-in-law and then we would drive home together...meaning HE would drive and I would be the passenger. After walking half a mile to my car in flip flops on a gravel surface, I got in the passenger seat and slipped on some socks for comfort and buckled in. While buckling his seat belt, DH announced that he had left his Driver's License in our daughter's car. ..sinking feeling... oh, fine... get out of the car and go to the drivers side... and swallow the scream that is about to exit my mouth.
Home that evening was wonderful and having Bishop running around was a joy! DH and I slept in on Sunday morning and then went to a later service at church and yesterday's blog listed the rest of my day. Until after ....
Suddenly, out of nowhere, the ugly demon reared his ugly head and I had the old urges to raid my cupboards and refrigerator! "Down Boy! ' I yelled (well in my head) Gratefully, I had cleaned out the cupboards and threw out the "crutches" that used to fulfill the demon's needs. Water, I drank water!... no...not going to stop the wave..."aargh... help me"... alternate...think!!! You have come too far to let him have his way!!!!.... Discipline... okay... so... what can I do?? yes... it is already Monday... since I had fallen asleep at my computer... okay... THINK!!! Okay... so the one tool that has been most effective against the demon is weighing and measuring my food....sometimes inconvenient, but always effective... I carefully measured out a serving of breakfast cereal and 4 oz of milk and slowly, very slowly, I ate the cereal, placing my spoon down between each bite...then water... sigh... the screaming has stopped...I think, in retrospect, that I was genuinely hungry. Since I did not have to get up in the morning, stayed up another hour logged my food for Monday, and went to bed. This morning I had a normal breakfast and a later lunch...I am calm...and ready to do my workout.
Score: Food Demon 0
Sunday, May 17, 2009
So today, I was up early with my Grandson, Bishop and we had an early breakfast of ceral with banana and egg whites...(he's 2 yrs old)... then off to church with my DH, home for mid morning snack, ... quartet practice for a couple of hours and then back to help with the babysitting chores!... I also went to the market and picked up dinner for the family and took a 30 min walk!... after chasing a 2 year old in between times...I am exhausted! LOL
Sunday, May 17, 2009
The graduation party, that is... what a day...helping with the decorating, and then all that food...oh my... but I stayed the course and ate only what I should have eaten... now I can see how easy it is to get off track! I decided that if I could not track the calories...it wouldn't go in my mouth... good decision!
Thank you, all you my friends who are so supportive, not only to me, but to so many others who need the help... you are amazing!
Tomorrow will almost be a "normal" day... almost...
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