Sunday, May 17, 2009
The graduation party, that is... what a day...helping with the decorating, and then all that food...oh my... but I stayed the course and ate only what I should have eaten... now I can see how easy it is to get off track! I decided that if I could not track the calories...it wouldn't go in my mouth... good decision!
Thank you, all you my friends who are so supportive, not only to me, but to so many others who need the help... you are amazing!
Tomorrow will almost be a "normal" day... almost...
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
I am amazed at the wonderful comments on my last blog...The support here, at SP, is far beyond my capacity to absorb! So I began to think about my journey and the results that I know cannot be taken for granted. Yes, I do follow my food plan, I do exercise on a regular basis, I log and blog for my sanity in as much as I have to live with my choices, good or bad.
I am still amazed at how calm I feel about my food choices, in spite of the growing frustration with my shrinking body. I just want something to fit for more than a week OH NO! I AM NOT COMPLAINING!... I have never been on a diet, food plan or liquid fast that ever made me feel this "complacent" with what will inevitably come next... I am used to dealing with the "plan", the guilt, the cheating (oh, one little.. . whatever I chose to eat...won't hurt". It is a foreign concept to me that my food and exercise choices are mine, not someone elses. I just followed the plan SP outlined for me the onus is on my shoulders, there is no one else or nothing else I can shift the blame to if I fail or make those bad choices...
So, the question is, where does this "inevitable peace" come from? What is so different, this time, that was missing with the other hundreds of pounds lost and gained programs I followed? Is it because I realize now that there never will be a magic pill or tea for weight loss? I know, though, that SP has saved my life and I will be forever grateful!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Now I have passed the 2 month mark with SparkPeople.... Part of my brain says..."already?" and the other part says... "wow, you made it through 2 months and you're still excited about the program and website".....still there is that little food demon who sneaks in and tries to tell me "8 weeks is enough to be good..."you deserve a day off!"... but that little demon is buried somewhere out in Siberia...
I did have a day off today... only because I had to go shopping for something to wear to a function with my husband tonight and other errands requiring me to be on the run and to enter the world of "fast food" for the first time since I started with SP. I ate a normal breakfast to begin the day and downed my first 16 ounces of water... walked 30 minutes, showered and changed, went to get a hair cut... then to the post office, drug store and then clothes shopping... For lunch I went to McDonald's and opted for their fruit and walnut snack, knowing I was dining out for dinner (unknown menu, grrr) I continued to drink water and chew gum as I tried on clothes at Kohls...found only a couple of tops... and then to Lane Bryant. I did manage to find a pair of pants that have an adjustable waist band, and a couple of bras, thanks to SP for the article on the proper fit of same... Dinner was a semi buffet type with hors d'oeuvres tables function... I had the beef tenderloin; the piece much smaller than a deck of cards, dinner rolls (yes, 2) and about 2 oz of roasted turkey breast. For dessert, one extra large strawberry... they offered no veggies and only fried somesomethings that looked to be a bad choice, no matter what and I steered away from the assorted sauces and condiments, as well... I hated to be so good, but I also hated to have to calculate the calories if I indulged any further than I did... Overall, I felt pretty good about my day.
Oh. yes... shopping results...
In Feb, 2009, I bought 2 shirts at Kohls, they were 3X and all the pants I owned were 22/24 and one pair of size 20 to "grow into"lol.... my "skinny" pants!...
So... today, weigh-in I was down 25 lbs from my start date and weight with SP... Tally today, 2 shirts...1X and one pair of pants 18... two bras... in the right size! Woo Hoo... We will see how I shop come July...
Sunday, May 10, 2009
When my mother found out she was pregnant, once again, with me... she made a decision that she would consider herself "blessed" to be given such a gift... one more time. I wonder how she felt 11 kids later!
All my life, growing up in such a large family, I never doubted the love my mother had for me, or any of my siblings. She loved each of us as only a mother could, in her own way, to make us each feel special, in our own way. When she died, the world around seemed to cave in and the loss was so painful...the family all joined together, reminiscing about the times we had together, laughing one minute, and crying the next...still, each of us had our own special memory, unique to us. After 18 years, you would think the feelings would be gone and the celebration of Mother's Day would be only current generation... but no...
Thanks, mom, for saying yes... thanks for telling me no when I needed it, thanks for teaching me to respect others and to always do a job to the best of my abilities... Thanks, mom... for helping me to try to be a good mother, as well, and for the joy I have in seeing my own children be the mother you would be proud of, if you could see them, today!
Thanks, MOM... I will always love you and I know you're watching over all your children, even today.
LTLY, which means Love To Love You.
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