Friday, July 20, 2012
I've been to the doctor's almost daily. They made several tests and except for some blood-pressure issues, they found nothing. He suspects fibromyalgia and I've been doing a lot of reading. There seems to be a connection between perfectionism, blood-pressure-issues, pain in different locations.
I was so happy to read your kind and loving messages it meant the world to me, though I was almost paralyzed and could not answer.
Tomorrow we will leave for a two weeks vacation, I'm not sure how I feel about it. I'm determined to take care of myself, not feel responsible for everybody's mood and to take a break whenever I feel like taking one.
I tried to write a paper for university and I could not finish it. I wrote to the professor an hour ago, that it is not finished and asked if I could deliver it after our return. It will be ok, if he does decline it, I had enough time to finish it :-)
So, this is in short, what is happening over here, I'll be back in a fortnight!
Take care everybody!
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
These past weeks I've been struggeling with constant pain in changing locations. Most of it I attribute to the condition of my back.
Now something new arrived, abdominal pain and I just let it be checked. I have some unpleasant ideas what this might be and am trying to keep stoic.
I had to drop out of the Cat-Challenge. Sorry for that.
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Ok, things I read and learned recently seem to point into one direction. Western civilization, as good as it is, leads to a mindset of getting more and more and that immediately.
We live our life and something is missing, so we buy something or eat something and try to fill the emptiness. Oh yes, we can pay with our creditcards, we can have it all - NOW.
But, what happens?
Our homes become cluttered, our bodies heavy and obese.
What do we want? A simple and instant solutiion. NOW.
But this doesn't work. In most cases there is no instant solution or instant gratification.
We have to work towards our goals, enjoy our rewards, go slow, step by step. Only this way we can be proud of ourselves.
Postponed reward, not because we are poor or can't afford it, but out of choice!
Just a question: Do we really need strawberries in January? What need will be fulfilled? What about waiting till it is their time and we can savor their flavor and know, that we waited for it and waited for the perfect and natural time. What a reward, what a joy!
Tuesday, May 08, 2012
A week ago I decided to give the concept of "Act as if ... " a chance. What would happen, if I acted as if I was a healthy, active, creative, organized, successful businessowner? Vigorous !(thank you Lifewalk for that great word!)
Ok, here is what happened.
Two days after that resolution out of the blue I was asked, if I was interested in leading additional seminars in 2013 - Yeah! Of course I am! It was like the Universe answering!
I did some administrative work, finally.
I made some major decisions about the direction I and my business will take. I had too much ideas and no idea, where to start. Now I reduced it to two fields. That is a direction, isn't it?
I started to really throw away things. No longer keeping them for "the day when I might need them ..." Either they are used or they are loved, when neither - away with them.
I stayed in contact with everybody I wanted to, this often falls to the back, so that is an achievement.
I had a nasty cold, that deactivated me to some degree. So no major accomplishments exercise-wise.
And eating,... I don't want to write it down. Neither here nor in the tracker. I don't want to know ... But I know
Ok, so far I think, that "Act as if ..." is going well, especially in business-things. Eating and exercising have to reenter :-)
So - off to the next week of "Act as if ..."
Tuesday, May 01, 2012
Currently I'm reading an interesting book, written by somebody who earned a living being a manager and now he is an actor. He says, that being in business is like being on stage, as both people have to engage their audience. This is an interesting point of view. (The book "Act like you mean business")
Then - as we often tend to live in the future or in the past, saying, that once it was better or live will really start when ... (we loose that weight, do or have something) - there is the idea of "acting as if ...". This is not what that book is about, but a way to lead one's life.
What I want to accomplish:
Live a healthy life, nurture my soul while in nature, finish that BA-degree, and expand my business.
So what would happen, if I acted like a healthy, active, creative, organized, successful businessowner?
I will give it a try. The idea is to do this until the end of June, but at the moment I only want to commit to it for this week.
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