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Two years have past ...

Saturday, August 30, 2014

I've just read my entry from July 2012.
That was the summer when things began to wither away. That vacation was interesting, the landscape was astonishing. But ...

My marriage finally showed massive signs of deterioration, that even I could not ignore.
In July 2013 we separated and I went into something like a mist of unconsciousness. It took me quite a while to understand what had happened, where I had simply been on the wrong path - and how that could happen. Until today I learn more and more about myself and the way my mind and my soul work.

There is still this inexplainable fluctuating pain in my muscles and joints, but it is much, much better. By now I think, that it mainly was triggered by my suppressed anger and disappointment. I have learned to live with it and see it as a sign, that tells me, when something is out of whack.

Today there is no day, on which I do not sit in amazement and gratitude and think - and say - how wonderful life is! What a joy it is to live free and without a person, that permanently draws away my energy.

I am decluttering, living as healthy as I can, love to move and feel my body, look for a new job, take some exams and have a plan where I want to be in five years from now.

All is well!

Big, big happy sigh! emoticon

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KALISWALKER 8/30/2014 3:23PM

    You've had a busy 2 years. Sounds like things are going better now.

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Friday, July 20, 2012

I've been to the doctor's almost daily. They made several tests and except for some blood-pressure issues, they found nothing. He suspects fibromyalgia and I've been doing a lot of reading. There seems to be a connection between perfectionism, blood-pressure-issues, pain in different locations.

I was so happy to read your kind and loving messages emoticon it meant the world to me, though I was almost paralyzed and could not answer.

Tomorrow we will leave for a two weeks vacation, I'm not sure how I feel about it. I'm determined to take care of myself, not feel responsible for everybody's mood and to take a break whenever I feel like taking one.

I tried to write a paper for university and I could not finish it. I wrote to the professor an hour ago, that it is not finished and asked if I could deliver it after our return. It will be ok, if he does decline it, I had enough time to finish it :-)

So, this is in short, what is happening over here, I'll be back in a fortnight!

Take care everybody!


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TUNERVILLE 7/23/2012 9:33AM

    Fibromyalgia...I have this also. Hard to diagnose. Good luck, I hope you find ways to give yourself some relief. I am feeling quite well at this time, and feeling thankful for it. It is difficult as it is such a vague condition.

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CANDOK1260 7/22/2012 1:01PM

    sirry you going thru thia hope you have a great vacation

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WATREKKIE 7/20/2012 6:52PM

    Have a wonderful vacation, Marie - sounds like a nice break is just what the doctor ordered...well, even if the doc didn't order it, *I* think it's an excellent idea!! emoticon Even if no beach is available, just taking some quiet time for yourself is emoticon for the spirit.

Sending lots of emoticon with you on your break!!

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Taking a break

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

These past weeks I've been struggeling with constant pain in changing locations. Most of it I attribute to the condition of my back.
Now something new arrived, abdominal pain and I just let it be checked. I have some unpleasant ideas what this might be and am trying to keep stoic.

I had to drop out of the Cat-Challenge. Sorry for that.

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BLESSEDBEING 7/11/2012 12:53AM

    Please send a steady stream of healing, loving energy and affirmations throughout your body. I'm sending them with my prayers by polar route so they'll arrive faster!
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Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon

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GETSALONG 7/10/2012 7:50PM

  emoticon emoticon emoticonSpark when you can... do what you can & try not to fret the rest or what might feel like a setback... (hugs)

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JEANUT 7/10/2012 1:49PM

    You take care of yourself, we'll see you back in the group when you feel better.
Hugs and prayers for healing.

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WATREKKIE 7/10/2012 9:53AM

    Sending LOTS of warm healing thoughts your way, Marie!!! Please take good care of yourself.... emoticon

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DANA564 7/10/2012 9:10AM

    We'll miss you but please take care of yourself and get everything checked out. We'll see you back soon! emoticon emoticon

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PILOTSLAIR24 7/10/2012 12:50AM

    Keep your chin up! I hope your pain goes away and you are well!

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Instant reward or deliberate waiting?

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Ok, things I read and learned recently seem to point into one direction. Western civilization, as good as it is, leads to a mindset of getting more and more and that immediately.

We live our life and something is missing, so we buy something or eat something and try to fill the emptiness. Oh yes, we can pay with our creditcards, we can have it all - NOW.

But, what happens?
Our homes become cluttered, our bodies heavy and obese.

What do we want? A simple and instant solutiion. NOW.

But this doesn't work. In most cases there is no instant solution or instant gratification.

We have to work towards our goals, enjoy our rewards, go slow, step by step. Only this way we can be proud of ourselves.

Postponed reward, not because we are poor or can't afford it, but out of choice!

Just a question: Do we really need strawberries in January? What need will be fulfilled? What about waiting till it is their time and we can savor their flavor and know, that we waited for it and waited for the perfect and natural time. What a reward, what a joy!

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A_WISE_WOMAN 5/14/2012 1:02PM

  Very wise, and stated very well!

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BLESSEDBEING 5/13/2012 10:58PM

    Another sad aspect of our culture is the widely held belief that we can gain happiness from things or other people. If we just buy the right stuff or change ourselves enough to attract the right person--then we think we will be happy.

And in reality, the only lasting source of true joy is inside us in every moment and in our connection to the cosmos and to Spirit. And we don't have to spend a penny to find it.

Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon

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Act as if - Week 01 Results

Tuesday, May 08, 2012

A week ago I decided to give the concept of "Act as if ... " a chance. What would happen, if I acted as if I was a healthy, active, creative, organized, successful businessowner? Vigorous !(thank you Lifewalk for that great word!)

Ok, here is what happened.
emoticonTwo days after that resolution out of the blue I was asked, if I was interested in leading additional seminars in 2013 - Yeah! Of course I am! It was like the Universe answering!
emoticonI did some administrative work, finally.
emoticonI made some major decisions about the direction I and my business will take. I had too much ideas and no idea, where to start. Now I reduced it to two fields. That is a direction, isn't it?
emoticonI started to really throw away things. No longer keeping them for "the day when I might need them ..." Either they are used or they are loved, when neither - away with them.
emoticonI stayed in contact with everybody I wanted to, this often falls to the back, so that is an achievement.
emoticonI had a nasty cold, that deactivated me to some degree. So no major accomplishments exercise-wise.
emoticonAnd eating,... I don't want to write it down. Neither here nor in the tracker. I don't want to know ... But I know emoticon

Ok, so far I think, that "Act as if ..." is going well, especially in business-things. Eating and exercising have to reenter :-)

So - off to the next week of "Act as if ..."

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LIFEWALK 5/9/2012 8:26PM

    emoticonWow, these are some awesome results & observations, despite being sick... I've come to finally understand that it is ok and good to adjust for sick days, take it a bit easier, nourish ourselves with good food & rest... and as our energy returns, we'll get back to full tilt boogie! Hope you are feeling better soonest!

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