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Starting Again

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Iíve had a rough couple months. Iím sorry to everyone I let down by disappearing. All I can say is that life happens. I was briefly unemployed, I was briefly planning a move to Australia and the I ended up back with the same employer and not moving anywhere. Iíve also had some health issues (stress related, maybe? Naaaaah). And, if you can imagine, somewhere in there, I actually met and started dating someone. So now heís around being a distraction Ė a very nice distraction, but a distraction nonetheless.

And donít get me started on how Iíve made excuses for my workouts (I donít have a form of cardio that I look forward to. Iím sick of the elliptical. My knees and hips hurt when I run. Swimming is a hassle at the gym. And I never did buy that bike). Or how Iíve been hiding behind a picky eater boyfriend (he doesnít like cooked veggies). So I end up cooking more and not as veggie heavy as I would for myself.

Iíve gained anywhere been 8 and 10 pounds from my thinnest (recently at least). Iím now at a weight that I havenít seen in over a year. The scale aside, my clothes arenít fitting and Iím generally feeling flabby and gross.

I refuse to go bust out the larger sized clothes (hidden away in storage). And now that things seem to have settled down some, Iím back. Once again, just trying to pay attention to the basics. Iíve discovered Iíve even gotten lazy on getting enough water, which used to be one of the easier ones for me. Itís going to be a long, tough road for me!

But hereís to starting again!

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SANDICANE 11/26/2014 5:42PM

    Ok, I believe you can do it, in spite of anything else that's happening in your life...where are you and how is it going?


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CLEARNIGHTSKY 9/20/2014 1:15AM

    You can do this, and you have lots of us around for support, no matter the detours.

You are worth this!


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ROCKPORT9 9/18/2014 12:06PM

    You can do this! If boyfriend doesn't like veggies, just fix yourself a side salad. emoticon

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SPATTEN2001 9/18/2014 11:58AM

    Looks like you have faced your enemy .... have a plan of attack .... get to it! You can do it! We are all here beside and behind you for encouragement!!!

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Pink Slip

Friday, July 25, 2014

I had a really rough week.

Work has been slim at my company lately and we've started letting people go here and there. We are a construction company and live project to project. I was working on the proposal for major a project that we really need to stop further layoffs.

Monday morning we learn that we were not selected for the project. We were disappointed and stunned. Wow, that's a tough break. Not a good day, right? If you can believe it, things actually went downhill from there.

Pretty much bottomed out with an uncomfortable conversation with an HR representative who told me that they don't have a job for me and my last day with the company is August 22.

Say, WHAT?! Talk about being blindsided. No where did it occur to me that because we didn't win the project I would be one of those people out the door. I figured there would be something. Somewhere. Oooor not.

I'm scrambling to figure out what to do next. I'm confident that my skills are unique enough that I will find work again at some point. Hopefully sooner rather than later.

So I'm sorry for dropping off SP this week. And I'm sorry Tiger Monarchs for not being a better participant in the summer 5% challenge. Unfortunately, tracking and the gym have gotten lost in the chaos this week.

Here's to a great weekend and MUCH, MUCH better week next week.

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NHES220 7/28/2014 3:40PM

    So sorry for your news! Hopefully you will finding something matching your skillset quickly!

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HIKING-4-ME 7/27/2014 7:08AM

    emoticon I'm sorry to hear what you are going through, unfortunately i am going through the same thing. I was told yesterday that my position has been eliminated. All the best in you job search

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PBAILEY06 7/25/2014 11:25PM

    I am so sorry, on the plus side, at least they gave you decent notice. When I saw your title I was afraid it was a "don't come back Monday" type of thing. hang in there.

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ROCKPORT9 7/25/2014 4:21PM

    I am so sorry. I hope you are able to find another position. What about the company that did get the contract? Sending hugs and prayers, Laurel emoticon

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JAMIRBLAZE 7/25/2014 4:19PM

    Sometimes, the end of one thing spurs a great new beginning. Hope that you find something soon!

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Man, I Feel like a Woman

Saturday, July 12, 2014

I had a lousy weigh in this week. It was partly that I didn't do great with my eating last weekend but I know it wasn't 3.5 pounds worth of eating. It's mostly water weight. I know this. I'm still disappointed.

There are a lot of great things about being a women. Being able to bring new life into the world and high heels come to mind. One of the less great - actually incredibly frustrating - things about being a woman is hormones. In my case, I know that there are times that hormones cause me to retain more water than others. But there's still nothing worse than stepping on the scale and seeing it go the wrong way. Uuuuuuuugh

Here's to a better week next week!!

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CLEARNIGHTSKY 7/16/2014 10:37AM

    Oh, do I relate to having an emotional response to a number that seems unsatisfactory on the scale.

I have people in my life who tell me to look at other markers of health and weight loss, not just that number (measurements, how my clothes are fitting, mood, etc.)

Hang in there!!! You/we/I can DO IT!!!


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RAYNBOWCHASER 7/12/2014 3:42PM

    I know just how you are feeling Martha. Today was a bad one for me also. I know that my eating has not been the best with the holiday. Actually, ever since the holiday I have had trouble with eating more "junk" and going over my calories every day. I have still been exercising and pushing to get the max amount of time in for the team. That is probably what saved me from having even a larger gain than I did. I hope we both have a better week!
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FITWITHIN 7/12/2014 3:14PM

    Better days are on the way. A new week is coming. Just pick up the good habits and keep moving forward. emoticon

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MOMTO6CUTIES 7/12/2014 3:09PM

    Happen to me last week. AFter I had done everything right. :( It was dumb AF for me.

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Active if not Exercising

Tuesday, July 08, 2014

I had the great privilege of traveling to the greater Washington, DC area for the Independence Day weekend. (I was actually in Virginia). I even took a couple extra days off from work so I had four full days to explore.

If you've ever been, you know that you can get just about anywhere via public transportation and a good walk. Over the 4 days I was there, I admit I didn't do well with my eating. I didn't even "exercise" per se, save for one day when I ran enough to get my heart rate up and then did a little strength training.

What I did do - even without running or "exercising" - is shatter my records for most steps. I hit 14,000+, 15,000+, 16,000+ and my last day, I was over TWENTY FIVE THOUSAND steps. Personal best! That's over 11 miles!! When I'm at the office, I'm lucky to hit 8,000 steps in a day (not counting a workout).

By the end of that last day, I thought my feet were going to fall off. To all of you who regularly walk that much - rock on because it is hard!!

But I'm hoping all that activity makes up for going over on my calorie range. Or at least helps a little.


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NHES220 7/9/2014 10:39AM

    That is a lot of walking, good for you!

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KATELJM 7/9/2014 8:49AM

    D.C. is great to walk around!

Once I amped up my walking, suddenly hot baths sounded so good!

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    I have not been to D.C. on the 4th but I have been during the cherry blossoms. It is a wonderful place to be anytime you can and how great that you got a chance to do some exploring. Congrats on all those steps!
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ROCKPORT9 7/8/2014 9:14PM

    I love being in DC over July 4th.There is nothing like reading the original Declaration of Independence at the Smithsonian and then seeing the fireworks over the Washington Monument at night! emoticon emoticon

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Back in Action!

Sunday, June 22, 2014

I've been trying to decide when exactly it was that I started going off the rails? I was 7 pounds (and a couple inches) smaller this time last year. At that time, my weight loss was noticeable enough that even my father even commented (and he's hardly the most observant person).

Then it all went to hell.

Was it because I changed jobs and I stopped seeing daily someone who was really motivating? Was it because the new job is straight up, out of control busy? Moving and the new house (aka, my GIANT MONEY PIT)? My injury that kept me from running? I don't know. But the Me of last year would not be happy with the Me of today.

I've always said professionally that people can say whatever they want about me, but they will never say that I don't work hard. Why do I not expect the same of myself personally?

So starting the summer 5% challenge, not only am I hoping to lost the weight, I'm aiming to get back on track. So when I look at myself in the mirror, I can say: I am doing the best I can right now.

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    So glad you're back!!

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RAYNBOWCHASER 6/23/2014 9:07AM

    I know exactly what you are saying and can relate completely! Let's focus and kick it up a notch!

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ROCKPORT9 6/23/2014 8:47AM

    Sometimes, life gets in the way. Great! You are getting back on track!

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    Yeah to summer challenge and to where you want to be

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HIKING-4-ME 6/23/2014 6:41AM

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KATIBUG49 6/22/2014 10:45PM

    Your story reminds me of me! So together we can do it!

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