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What's the matter???

Monday, September 06, 2010

I was utterly shocked yesterday as I got to know about my dance course's new schedule.
I read on the site that from 6.00 - 8.00 pm they were moved to 8.00 - 10.00 pm.
I could not believe my eyes.
It's almost impossible for me to get tho the gym at 8.00 pm.
Less buses around, I'd be back home at around 11.00 and my classes in the morning are scheduled at 8.00 am.
Impossible.
But my dance classes are the backbone of my activity routine.
So I was in utter despair - but suddenly I rememebered I had planned a visit to Virgin gym today at 6.00 pm.....I was thinking of adding a few sessions to my usual dance class, for variety and muscle development.
This was really something important, I might as well register with Virgin - even it's far from where live - and later add some dance classes... emoticon emoticon
ps what's really incredible is that I'm trying most fashionable gym in town...yes I 'm worth it

  
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BJUMPINGFORJOY 9/6/2010 5:02PM

    You are so right you are worth it. You are doing so great.

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THREEE 9/6/2010 1:55PM

    lOOk at you!!! you talked your WEIGH thru to a solution...you didn't just moan and give up...THESE are the victories i believe TRULY need to be celebrated... emoticon emoticon

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PLAYBLUES22 9/6/2010 11:15AM

    Sweetie, self-worth is very important, I am happy to read that you feel the same, best of luck with your classes

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AJEAN_56 9/6/2010 10:13AM

    That is late but its good that you realize that you are worth the most fashionable gym in town. You go girl! emoticon

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KLEONIKI 9/6/2010 8:54AM

    There is always a solution hiding in a moment of despair and discouragement!
Keep on desiring!

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SARAHTAIT 9/6/2010 8:51AM

    You are definitely worth it....hopefully this will work out for you and you will not have to be up so late....that is a rough schedule for anyone....
Hugs,
Sarah

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TRINITYROYAL 9/6/2010 8:21AM

    Yes, you ARE worth it.

I wouldn't be able to manage a workout so late in the evening either. I would have trouble falling asleep afterward. Hope the dance classes at your new gym are wonderful.

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RUBYCLAIRE 9/6/2010 7:02AM

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Good for you to realize that You ARE worth it!

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CYCLINGSANDY 9/6/2010 5:06AM

    8-10 pm is rather a late workout, especially if you have to go to school or work the next day. I hope you like your new gym. Yes, you are worth it!

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Fear of being Alone?

Sunday, September 05, 2010

One of the monsters I' encountering in this healthy journey (body & mind) is my fear of being alone.
I've suffered from it since I was a child and it got worse as I was a teenager.
It's been always hard for me to find the right people as I have always been a rebel and did not like to go with the crowd.
Now I've been letting people out of my life as this journey has gone on, partly due to their naturally disappearing partly due to the fact that now I'm so much more careful at avoiding negativity onto my life.
Taming this particular fear is something I'm trying to do and it's not easy.

Since I've started SP I've noted my life's getting more and more adventurous and the less people I meet the fitter they are to me- just like my clothes,,,,they're fewer but they seem to fit so much better.
Is this the same for you my dear SP???? - Is this healthy????
Btw occasionally I still entertain boring people & colleagues but I'm fully aware my heart is somewhere else... certainly with you.... emoticon

  
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1888MICHELLE 9/7/2010 8:36AM

    It sounds like you are realizing that you are special and deserve friends who "fit".

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TRINITYROYAL 9/6/2010 8:23AM

    It is not only normal, but very healthy. Now that you've started to treat yourself with love and caring, you can give yourself permission to only associate with those people whom you value, rather than hoping you'll fit in with the crowd.

I think the difference is:

Instead of thinking "will they like me?", you're thinking "will I like them?" It's a whole different mind set and a much better one.

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GRAN24BOYS 9/6/2010 4:43AM

    Oh yes, we need to always be alert and weed out the negativity in our lives, whether at work or home in our family life. I have family members who are so negative that I actually hate to see them come visit. Just mentally fighting the negativity they expound is stressful and tiring. Thank goodness they don't visit often. lol So, yes, you have plenty of company on this, dear. You are not alone!
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Also, you need to learn to like yourself more and you'll lose your fear of being alone, I'd bet!
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BBGYRL4 9/5/2010 7:29PM

    It's completely normal and needed if I must say so myself. We shouldn't keep people close to us just because there should be a reason and a good one at that.

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CJKOMODO 9/5/2010 7:20PM

    You are not the onl one to go through this. It is normal and healthy to weed out all the negativity.

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VICIOUS421 9/5/2010 6:50PM

    very normal emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 9/5/2010 5:49PM

    My brother and I are both going through this. Cutting out people who have no drive in life and don't want to be healthy or active. Its hard but its what is right for you!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 9/5/2010 4:35PM

    I totally understand and thinks it's healthy to weed things out as you are going through this process. You are not alone.

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CHOOWY 9/5/2010 1:36PM

    I'm undergoing a similar process right now. My focus is on being positive and figuring out what works. I don't have (much) room for people who drag me down emotionally. I used to be the ultimate people pleaser, and sometimes that meant going along to get along. Now, I'm letting go of some people who took me for granted or are chronic negative Nelly's.

I'm still trying to find the right balance, but I figure I'm on the right track, since I'm happier now.

I applaud what you are doing and I think it's a very healthy outlook! Thanks for sharing your blog!

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NEDERLUNG 9/5/2010 1:33PM

    This blog sort of hits home for me. I spend a lot of my time alone by choice, yet when I am out with friends, as I personally grow stronger (and healthier), I am more apt to avoid the negative people and not attempt contact with them (which was a prior guilt). I am being a good friend to me and my attempts at not abusing myself now include, not allowing others to abuse me. It is sort of freeing, isn't it?

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CIVIAV 9/5/2010 1:31PM

    You've indeed described something that's happening for me too and I've been tracking my energy levels and seeing a decided boost. Congrats on the fittingest friends. Nice feelings all around eh?
I know in my heart that SP is healthy for me so I will keep on just as you will.

We can do it!

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The Weight of Emotions

Saturday, September 04, 2010

I have to reconsider my emotions related to my yesterday experience - thanks for your comments.
Actually what happened was really 'neutral'. I have a job and -even if my boss seems to consider it as non-existent, I have to admit he can't damage it either.
He normally changes all my classes therefore I have to change my students every year. I normally consider it a misfortune but it's not, because:
1.I can reach every year about 120-160 teenagers.
2.I can try to connect to them and teach them something.
At first it's hard to tame them, and normally it takes me some months, anyway the whole situation once I reconsider it - leaves no opportunity for me to complain.
On the contrary:
I will experiment the book I've written .
I will try to have them enjoy while they learn.
Moreover, I personally have nothing against my boss and maybe he has nothing against me...even if I asked something he will never grant me.
I have to thank you my SP friends in helping me to identify emotions which would have driven me directly to the cupboard looking for something sweet.
Everything changes when I analyze what happens and my reactions and work on them. emoticon

  
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THREEE 9/4/2010 9:42PM

    the old 'turn that frown upside down' philosophy, huh? great...and you ARE right...you, by NOT getting to flow with the students, are exposed to and can influence that many more kids...and it sounds like you can handle it/them...thank you for your work... emoticon

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 9/4/2010 9:19PM

    Teaching kids and watching the learn new things is such a joy. I bet you are great at it.

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PHEBESS 9/4/2010 2:48PM

    YAY to you for working with teenagers!!!! I teach middle school, so I know how much work teens can be!

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FITTERLIFE4ME 9/4/2010 12:55PM

    I know exactly what you say about understanding our own reactions to people and things and I struggle sometimes. Knowledge is power remember that! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Awful Day

Friday, September 03, 2010

I'm glad these days don't come very often...back to work and long boring meeting with everybody just anxious to get to know their new timetable, almost forgotten as far as i was concerned to ask for my favourite ones.
In all cases, my boss who just doesn't like me has succeeded in giving me the worst job situation he could and as I told one of my colleagues I discovered he was even less fortunate than me.
He asked to talk to me privately and opened up about a big problem in his life he suffers a lot from.
I could not do anything but sympathizing....and feeling a bit awkward as there's nothing I could do about it.
Anyway it seems me a totally negative day, hopefully it's gonna be better tomorrow!!!!
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PS I'm not looking for chocolate anywhere in the house which I think it's such a big success.

  
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DANCEJONES 9/4/2010 4:09PM

    Remember, everything is temporary - even the bad times. emoticon

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 9/3/2010 10:18PM

    I commend you on you not turning to food when you are feeling so down. I know that you will do the job that you have been given and even if your boss doesn't appreciate it just think you are doing your best and you will be proud of what you are doing. You will be the better person.

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CMJONES77065 9/3/2010 3:00PM

    Sorry to hear about your terrible awful no good very bad day. The positive spin is that if your boss who doesn't like you confided in you, that demonstrates a pretty substantial degree of trust.

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NURSE333 9/3/2010 12:37PM

    as my uncle says time changes everything! hang in there!

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Not yet where I want to be

Thursday, September 02, 2010

To sum up everything, I can tell you I'm not yet where I want to be. I wish I could lose at least 5 kg. more and get a more professionally skinny body.
This is not just because I want to get a revenge - mainly , it's because I want to continue practicing contemporary dance and I need a slenderer body.
That's my main motivation, alongside with health issues and feeling better with myself.
I've been in a plateau for months but I've been noticing my energy levels are so high - even if here it's still 33C and I'm back to work.
I'm wearing the lowest end of my clothes (size 6 & (8) and in some cases even clothes I bought at the beginning of the summer fit better.
Therefore, I guess my muscles are getting stronger and I just feel so light...and I hope I'll get there even if I aim at it very very gently , no anxiety or stress. emoticon

  
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ADMULL100 9/2/2010 1:44PM

    Keep up the good work!!! emoticon

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PLAYBLUES22 9/2/2010 11:35AM

    Sweetie, you are doing so great, keep up the good job !!!

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GAMMIEOF4BOYS 9/2/2010 11:02AM

    keep up the good work, it will get there just be kind to your self. I like your attitude emoticon

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JOHNTJ1 9/2/2010 10:47AM

    You and I are at similar points in our journeys. I get very frustrated when things seem to be slowed down to a snail's pace. One question I ask myself is this:

"John do you want this to last forever?"

Yeah I do!!! I want to be healthy and happy. Think of all the "cure all diets" we have been on in our lifetimes and how we lost a bunch of weight in a hurry got happy, then got fat again. My mom always said that anything worthwhile is worth waiting for.

I also believe that during this time God is preparing us for something amazing

"I am bound to fight for you, to plan for you, to secure you a sufficiency of all within My Power to provide. Think how vast that provision can be. Never doubt. Such marvels are unfolding. Wonders beyond your dreams. They only need the watering of a grateful spirit and a loving heart to yield abundantly."

That was my meditation for this morning. Just thought I'd share

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THREEE 9/2/2010 10:32AM

    you are doing GREAT...and your attitude is still high...GOOD JOB emoticon

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DOTTIEJANE1 9/2/2010 10:06AM

    emoticon you are dong great a little patients and enjoy the journey.

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1888MICHELLE 9/2/2010 10:01AM

    Excellent!!! Enjoy the journey!!

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