Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Beside thanking you all for your help in this moment of crisis, I am questioning what is really happening inside myself.
I have a body image which was created during my teens, I was a normal teenager with 7/8 plus kilos and always yo-yoing.
Therefore I entered the adult world with a negative idea of myself.
What really 'saved' me was meeting my athletics trainer - who obliged me to train every day.
I lost the 7 kilos and then regained them when I stopped training.
Many of you will just laugh at the idea, but here in my town people are extremely careful about weight - maybe more than in US - and even a few pounds can alter all your social life.
Now I don't want to fall into the same trap, and I know I have to change my negative image - my 'no' to life and to change.
So I've taken some strong decisions:
I'll stick to SP - whatever happens.
I'll try to get rid of negative people - sorry but I just can't stand them.
This is difficult for me as I am realizing the people I see every day seem to fall in this category, so I think I'll be by myself without a social life for a period, until I find the people I like, in the meantime I have the possibility of connecting to all of you, my SP friends.
I know it's going to be hard but I can se no other possibility.