Tuesday, May 05, 2009
Well, it's the moment of truth. Although I am not near where I want to be in my weight loss journey, my husband and I are officially trying for that new baby. It's a combination of emotions from excitement to scared to death. It's been a long time since we've had a baby in the house and it will bring a lot of change to the routine, but that's okay. It's something that we are looking forward to.
I am still struggling to see the pounds come off, but I'm still plugging away at it. I still go the gym nearly every day and I am still being conscious of what I am eating. The problem now is that I find that since I am frustrated with the diet part of it, part of me just doesn't even care any more. I can do so well during the day, but then the evening is just a bust. And not just once or twice a week now, almost every night. It's so easy to say "Plan your meals" or "Cut down on your portions" or all of those things that make sense and should be easy to do, but they are not easy to do. The fact of the matter is that when I get home from work and I have stuck to my diet all day long, I am HUNGRY!!! I try to eat things that have lots of fiber in them to help me stay full, but they just don't last. I don't like most vegetables, so I'm pretty much stuck with fruit if I want fresh produce to snack on, but even that has a lot of calories in it. I am seeing some progress, I've lost nearly 4 inches off of my waist, but I just want the number on the scale to go down and stay down. I'm tired of losing the same 3 or 4 lbs over and over. Will I ever get where I want to go?