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From Crutches to Cardio - and the battle of the scale

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I know I haven't been around much this past month (two months??)... Once I got off bed rest and started working I just felt like a hamster on a wheel - always running but never getting anywhere. Then there was the rest of life... daughter returning from Switzerland, son graduating HS, family coming into town, graduation party... you know, life.

So many of my dear spark friends have popped over to my page to ask me how I'm doing, how my healing is progressing, what's next for me... and I haven't been able to properly respond to them or catch up with their lives. So I figured it was time to blog, to at least bridge the gap from my end so to speak.

I started weaning myself off crutches after I saw the Dr. June 2nd. It took me nearly 3 weeks, but I am officially done with them now!! I still wear my boot full time and I have a fair amount of pain and swelling by the end of the day but I am celebrating this progress as a major milestone in my recovery. No crutches means the start of cardio again!! So on Monday at PT I got to do 15 minutes - 10 on the elliptical and 5 on the bike - and was told I could build from there but to take it slowly. I also did some squats with a TRX. Have any of you ever used that system? Its just straps and handles hanging from a bar and you use your own body weight as resistance while doing exercises. Seemed easy at first but I'm still struggling with getting on/off chairs and its been two days now!! I had hoped to work out again every day this week, but it looks like I need 2 days rest before I try again, so I'll do some more cardio tomorrow.

As of today I am also trying to wean myself off of my boot. I have the green light to wear a running shoe (not an easy thing to get into!!) for 30 minutes, 1-2 times a day, with crutches for support. I put my sneaker on this morning with great difficulty and proceeded to walk around the house withOUT the crutches. I mean, what's the point of weaning off them if I have to go back to using them?? I'd rather walk less without them than walk more with them, even if this is going to take awhile...

Now for the downside of recovery... I have been gaining weight since I got off bed rest. Seems like as long as I was stuck in bed I was vigilant about my eating (maybe vigilant is too strong a word, but I was maintaining my weight at least). Once I got up and moving and went to work all restraint fell by the wayside. Since I wasn't getting a workout in I started to gain again. Bad eating habits took over and I now find myself up 7 lbs. from my pre-surgery weight. Ugh!!

Today I am going to try to get a handle on this bad habit of self indulgence and see if I can't turn things around!!

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DEEJ4FITNESS 7/13/2010 9:48PM

    Hiya Tammy! I know to you it seems like this is a forever process; not that you didn't realize it would take time but living it each day has to be a challenge and that's okay to acknowledge. But I've gotta tell you honestly I was blown away to learn you're already allowed to try on a running shoe & actually wear it! Albeit 30 mins!!

Considering the procedure you had, it seems to me you're doing amazing and making some wonderful, positive progress.

Every journey is made in steps and as someone just dropping by to read about the steps you've taken so far, I see you much further along this path than I ever thought one would be at this stage of the game!! Hang in there my friend :) for all of us here at Sparkpeople who care about you, for your family and mostly for you!! The runner who refused to give in and WON the race!! Can't wait to see you cross the finish!

Love and admiration!!

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SORGIN 6/29/2010 6:00PM

    YAY! YAY! YAY! It's time to have a crutches BONFIRE!

Congrats on being able to put on a real shoe and and do some walking! That is awesome. I know it feels like it's slow going but you have made some incredible progress in a short time! I love your title - from crutches to cardio. That is your journey and you are getting there!

As for the eating part, I sure wish I had magic words on that one. Just know a fellow eater knows what it feels like. One day we will figure out how to make food our fuel and not our friend. In the meantime, we'll just keep trying over and over again. Giving up is not an option, right?

Congrats again! Time to light up those crutches!

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JUSTTRIING 6/26/2010 5:00PM

    Take it slow. Get yourself back to your "good ole self" and then we can all beat some sense back into you when it comes to nutrition. You are still recovering and I think once you get moving again, you will fall back into some routine.

I have complete faith in you. You will get your cardio endurance back AND your eating under control.

I am just happy that you are coming back emoticon

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LW8843 6/26/2010 2:21PM

    I am excited to hear the crutches are gone! But try and give your self a break. even if it is a little one, and don't be too hard on yourself. That 7lbs will be gone in no time!

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CRZYRUNRGRL 6/26/2010 11:11AM

    Sounds like things are on the up and up! Off of crutches, getting cardio in, can wear a running shoe and 7lbs is not much, you will get that off in no time!
I'm glad to see you back on spark!
Yay! Keep up the great work and blogging!

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CTUCKER225 6/25/2010 10:10PM

    Glad that you are recovering well. Good luck coming out of the boot.

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    You are so amazing, Tammy. I knew you would just be totally DRIVEN to heal. Congratulations on being crutch free (and nearly boot free)!

You know, not to make excuses...but, you've been under a fair amount of time and task pressure lately and, if you're like me (and you are...twin), my food choices get crappier the less time I have to plan and prepare my meals. With the limitations imposed on you, the lack of daily support, AND the work load...yeah, I'd say a weight gain isn't totally unexpected.

You are so going to get a handle on it though. It'll come off, especially now that you're able to get some workouts in. Hang in there kiddo...and thanks for the update. I've missed you!

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250STRONG 6/24/2010 10:57AM

    It is so hard to work through recovery withOUT having a gain. Be kind to yourself. :)

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2WHEELER 6/23/2010 10:50PM

    Missed hearing from you, and I am so glad to hear you are getting back on your feet. You've been through so much over the past months. Those extra pounds will come off--you have a great foundation for taking care of them. Really, 7 lbs.--that's not bad at all considering you've been completely inactive. Focus on your rehab and remember that your overall health is more important than the number on the scales. emoticon emoticon

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MENT2BE 6/23/2010 8:12PM

    It's great to hear from you glad you've 'graduated' from the crutches. Be kind to yourself and don't get hung up on numbers on a scale. This is a process and it's just going to take time but I know you're going to be a force to reckon with when you're BACK!!!!

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GMEAN2055 6/23/2010 5:14PM

    Glad you are done with crutches and working on getting out of the boot. Take it slow....I am looking forward to getting my boot on in 2 weeks and out of this cast. I haven't been using crutches. I used a scooter from rolleraid. Good luck with the walking.

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40PLUSANDFIT 6/23/2010 3:35PM

    Just read your blog. Your surgery sounds very intense. I have done 3 rounds of crutches only bedrest for up to 8 weeks, so I understand your frustration with inability to get to the gym, boredom (I read 30 books the second surgery) and inability to sleep at night. Two hours I think was my maximum sleeping for about six weeks. Good luck on the healing and continue to listen to the doc. I YAY just got released totally unrestricted (surgery was in December 2009 after the previous foot was done in January 2009) on my feet

Foot surgery just sux!!! I had bunions and hammertoes which were causing me problems with my ankles. So first foot surgery was kind of a beating.. SECOND WAS HORRIBLE . He did some new technique. I never was out of pain. I even told him to up the pain killer dose. So.. that's my horror story and that's the short end.

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    I am so happy for you being off the crutches. If your foot is too swollen to fit into your running shoes with the traditional lacing. Relace the shoes so your foot can fit comfortably. Consider not walking yet in the shoe. Put it on and see how it feels - stand some, then if it is feeling good a couple of steps then sit down again. Remember it is better to go slowly then quickly.

Try starting to log your food again - I know it is tough....since getting back out of the boot I gained 5 pounds...I think I felt it was my reward for dealing with so much.

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Two steps forward, one step back... but try not to put any weight on that foot while you're steppin

Thursday, May 20, 2010

I saw the surgeon yesterday for my 4 week (post cast) checkup. The last couple of days my foot has been aching where my bones were broken so I was glad that I was getting a checkup. The last time I was there I got my hard cast cut off and starting wearing my walking cast (my "boot") and using crutches. I was told at that appointment to start putting weight on my foot, up to my tolerance, while using the crutches. I saw this as progress and had hoped that yesterday's appt. would mean the start of PT for me!

Alas, that was not to be. In my sincerest attempts to be a model patient, I have been gradually increasing the amount of weight I bear on my foot while walking, even walking without my crutches from time to time at home, such as around my kitchen or in my bathroom. When I arrived yesterday the Doctor's asst. asked me how I'm doing and I told her that my foot had been aching the past two days, but otherwise I'm progressing. She checks the chart and says "You're only putting weight on it while standing, right?" Quick mental rewind to my last appointment, where I got physically ill from the pain of trying to walk right after having the cast cut off... at that time she told me just put weight on it while standing... but my mental replay definitely included walking with weight on it, to my tolerance (Uber Doc even demonstrated how to do that with crutches!)... so I answer "No, I'm walking on it with my crutches".
OOPS! I guess that was a no-no, and now she says I might have re-broken it? emoticon

Off to Xray I go, and luckily all appears well in spite of not being totally healed yet. Apparently I've been doing too much and the increased swelling is interfering with my healing, so I've got to go back to toes-above-nose for awhile, at least intermittently during the day. No PT orders yet, and back for a recheck in 2 weeks. If the swelling isn't under control by this next visit, its back to the hard cast emoticon

I'm obviously highly motivated to get the swelling down but I no longer have a bed downstairs, in front of the TV and next to my laptop, so lying around is sort of a punishment rather than a respite in my day...

I was really upset yesterday but today I'm optimistic again. I just need to keep putting my recovery first - ahead of my job, my family, my housework, even my weight loss plans. Health first, then everything else.

Time for the next step forward...

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DEEJ4FITNESS 6/21/2010 9:52PM

    Decided it was time for my Tammy check :) sounds like you're doing great girl! So glad you got back to the Doc in time to get this info & slow down so you can ultimately heal faster!! I love your attitude & know everything is going to fall into place in the right time; you truly wouldn't want it any other way as with the right timing, you're going to be better & stronger in the end (which will be the beginning of another beautiful chapter)!!

Stay focused on your mission Tammy! You're going to achieve fabulous results!! One careful step at a time, continue your journey...


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NAVYMOM133 5/30/2010 3:15PM

    Very glad to hear there's no break! That's really the main thing out of this crossed signals on the post-visit instructions. Do what you need to do - let the rest go!! You went to the best surgeon, do exactly what he says to do during recovery and sounds like that means double-checking everything they advise before you leave.
The wonderful end will justify these days of some restriction.

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OSUBUCKI101 5/22/2010 8:08AM

    Tammy - think of this as a great time to work on your arms. Keep some light dumbbells around and work the bi's, tri's, chest and back. Your legs will catch up quick when you are healed. You can do it and remember it is most important to follow the doctor's orders!

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JUSTTRIING 5/21/2010 4:41PM

    Keep moving forward...with no weight of course. You are right, it is health first.

I am sorry that you didn't get the report that you wanted but you have better direction now and will be a model patient.

Keep your chin up!

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FINDINGMEIN2012 5/21/2010 2:50PM

    Oh no, Tammy! I'm so sorry! We are running into some of the same thing with my son...I tried to write everything down the doctor said, but sometimes what it means to him and what it means to me are two entirely different things!

I agree that you definitely need to put your healing first. First things first and everything else can wait or will be fine.

Take care of yourself! I hope the swelling will cooperate and go down quickly!

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KJHOUSTON 5/21/2010 1:08PM

    Take care and heal fast!

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PAMTHEDREAMER 5/20/2010 10:30PM

    Oh maaaaannn. I'm sorry. Sheesh. Yes tho-Recovery first! emoticon

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JENNIFER124 5/20/2010 7:45PM

    i am very sorry Tammy --- i have no doubt that you have heard this news and will take it and really put the pedal to the medal.. its really like training.. training to heal... and you are one of the most serious people i know when you are shooting for a goal.. you will do this !!! xoxoxo--Jen

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SORGIN 5/20/2010 7:28PM

    Tammy, I am SO sorry! That news must have been so heart breaking and I know it's not what you wanted or expected. I am very glad it wasn't broken but I'm a little peeved that the doc and staff aren't on the same page in terms of your rehab. But I suppose Uber doc means you had the best surgery possible and in the end, that's what matters. Your title is so apt: two steps forward and one step back. It sucks but it's still progress (even if it's frustrating and you want to yell at the doc and staff. I know I do!)

So now you have a new goal - get rid of swelling. And you have a time limit. Two weeks is doable. Will you be able to do that with your crazy work schedule? I sure hope so. In fact, I know you will figure it out. You are good at taking difficult situations and figuring out the best way to navigate.

Maybe it's time to get in lots of anti-inflammatory foods - fish, lemon, blue berries, etc. Or maybe take fish oil at the very least. I have no idea if that would help but it's just a hunch.

In any event, I am SO SO SO sorry! I do love your attitude because after all - what can you do? Follow the doc's orders, that's what you can do. I know you followed them the last time which is perhaps what caused this little setback but I bet this time you made sure they told you the right thing so there are no setbacks on the next round.

Hang in there and know I am sending you lots of warm thoughts! (Cast-free ones where you are in the midst of PT.)

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AUNTIE65 5/20/2010 6:01PM

    I am so sorry Tammy!! I hate it when they give you instructions, just to find out that it was not really what they want! I'm praying for the swelling to go down quickly!!

You are very right - your first order of business is healing up!

Hang in there my firend....

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CTUCKER225 5/20/2010 5:59PM

    I am soo sorry that this is happening. I hope that toes above nose helps. Good luck

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    I am so sorry for the minor set back. Now remember no more walking on it. Just when standing and start at the beginning of pressure again and don't increase it til the swelling is down. We want you healthy and in 1 pieces.

Rest up is your job almost done,so you can really elevate the foot through out the day?

I know you are disappointed, but you will get there - I betcha in 2 weeks it will be ready for PT.

Please keep in touch - I miss hearing from you.

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Can it really only be 9 weeks post-op??

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

I feel like I have been recovering from this surgery for-EVER!. I find it hard to believe that its only been 3 weeks since my hard cast came off, because I feel like I'm moving at full speed even though I'm on crutches. Problem is, I don't mean that in a good way...

I'm definitely making progress, and for that I'm grateful. What I'm most frustrated by is the fact that I'm well enough to go to work, to drive a car, to go to the store (although I need someone to push my grocery cart or get my stuff for me), but I'm not well enough to go to the gym, to ride a bike, to walk across the room using my foot normally. I've admitted it before, patience isn't my strong suit, and I've been working on that. I patiently counted off the days of bed rest and cast changes. I've been following my doctor's orders and using my crutches and my boot, even sleeping in it for 2 weeks. But now my patience is wearing thin. I want to start PT, I want to see my toes move again, I want to be able to put weight on my forefoot like a normal person. I want to do cardio so that I can lose some weight again! I had resolved to drop more weight before my birthday in August and I find myself stagnating yet again.

I'm full of excuses - I can't stand for long periods of time in the kitchen cooking, cutting, mixing, etc., I'm tired from working so I'll just grab what's handy, I have a headache from using the crutches so I deserve wheat thins... - like I said, excuses. What I need is a plan that I can live with until my status changes again. What I need is more energy, and more hours in the day so that I can come here and get the support that keeps me on track. What I need is patience, because I'm powerless over so many things right now...

I really miss being online; I've gone from lying in bed with my laptop next to me to barely being able to boot it up once a day. That has been tough! I know my friends are still out there, I know I'm not forsaken -- but I also know that I NEED to be here to be successful.

Once again, time's up and I have to go. At least I've put this out there, and can try to stop stewing over it now...

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SORGIN 5/17/2010 9:41AM

    For what it's worth, I think patience IS your strongpoint. Nine weeks (now ten) is a very long time especially when your whole life has been upended. And it's not just the surgery, it's everything else that comes with it. Simple things like grocery store trips, cleaning and making meals require a whole new way of navigating. It's frustrating because it WAS easy and now it isn't. And you're in pain and nothing feels right. So, I hope you give yourself a break here and realize you ARE VERY PATIENT.

Not many people could go through what you've been through with the grace that you have. Life has gone on for you. You picked up a new job! You are preparing your son for college! You've continued to be a source of support and inspiration for so many people on this site! On top of that you've continued to run your household. I think that calls for a celebration. You are THRIVING in a pretty crappy situation. Who does that?! YOU do!

As for developing a lifestyle that fits with your temporary post-surgery self, you are already doing that. I think you are keeping yourself in check in terms of food. Sure, you indulge but you are mindful of it. It would be different if you gave yourself complete license all day long. You're not. I define that as success, especially given your injured status. Also, you know that stress makes us hang onto weight. Enough said.

In terms of exercise, you are getting a workout by trying to get around with an injured foot. That requires muscles you don't normally use. PT will be here before you know it. You were an extremely active person prior to your surgery - biking, half and full marathons, your first tri. Your body is not going to let you down. In fact, it's all that prior activity that is allowing you to rehab and get through these 10 weeks. Just think what this process would be like if you didn't have that base! Yikes!

As for Spark, it will always be here and your sparkbuds will always be thinking of you even if you can't get online. I know I am here less and less and I feel out of sorts if I miss a day of checking in and tracking. But I know Spark will always be here. You've got to do what you've got to do, so just rest assured knowing that Spark will always be here and your friends will be too!

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CTUCKER225 5/14/2010 9:27PM

    Good luck with everything. I hope that it starts getting better and that you find some patience. I feel your pain with that part. Just know that we are all out here.

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EVETROY 5/13/2010 5:13PM

    I'm sure this much inactivity must be driving you bonkers! But this too shall pass. Just hang in there. emoticon

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    Look how far you've come, Tammy! I totally feel your restlessness're feeling better (and mostly pain free, I hope) and so, now of course, you're going to want to look forward and start MOVING. The wait is going to make the PT so sweet. I love that you're thinking in terms of making a plan. You know me...always breaking things down into plans of attack. That's the one way you can gain control over a mostly out of control situation....plan, plan, plan.

You've had some good advice here...focus on a nutrition plan first. It sounds like that's one area you can start to control. Do you have a day off where you can have the guys help you stock grab & go foods?

You'll find your way through this. Its really only been a couple of weeks since you started working right? It took me nearly a month or more to get myself organized....and I wasn't sporting a rehab boot and crutches!

I'm going to be thinking about you alot this next week...stay tough, friend.

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LW8843 5/13/2010 7:07AM

    Tammy~ I would be having a hard time if I were you as well. I can't imagine how hard this is for you. But in time you will be better and walking and eating right. I just know it. It feels slow now but one day you'll look back and say wow that was so long ago and it went by so fast. I know that frozen meals aren't the best for you but maye you should check those out so you only have to pop them in the microwave and then you have something a little healthier? I recently tried the Michelina's lean meals and really like some of them. Just a thought.

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GRYPHON55 5/12/2010 11:27PM

    Oh, Tammy, hang in there on the PT and don't rush things too much. I did with foot surgery and my impatience to walk on it meant I had to do another surgery for the scar tissue. Us runners always think we know better than the docs and PT but they are good so trust them.

Try to look back and say "one week ago, I couldn't..." and "a month ago, I couldn't..." and realize that now you can do that. Sometimes taking the long view back is the only was I see progress when I'm in rehab (foot surgery 2x, knee surgery 1x, hysterectomy 1x, (OK, that last one was OBVIOUSLY 1x but maybe it made you laugh :-)

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DONZO64 5/12/2010 8:15PM

    Oh Tammy, I'm so sorry you're going thru all of this. 9 weeks is a long time. It has to be so difficult for someone as active as you. You are being so smart listening to the doctor...You dont want to injure yourself.

I echo the nutrition goals. Work with what you can work with. Even if I can stand and chop....I dont - so I have go-to grab and go foods that work for my goals. Greek Yogurt, Kashi, peanut butter on a slice of whole wheat.

We can tweak ideas to fit you life. We'll figure it out.

You are going to lose that weight by August! You will. You will. You will!

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FINDINGMEIN2012 5/12/2010 7:57PM

    We sure miss having you around more too! I know it must be so hard and frustrating to not be able to do the things you want to do...yet have to do all these things that aren't so great. I'm sorry! Hang in there - this too shall pass. Be sure to take care of yourself so that you are ready for the hard work of PT when you get there!

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MARIADAWN1 5/12/2010 5:41PM

    Hi Tammy, I'm so sorry that you're going through all this! But like a few of your friends have said, I will echo by saying that this is indeed just going to be a small "blip' in your life and before you know it you'll be up and running again. The important thing is your foot healing properly! And I'm glad that you put how you're feeling out there because that is so very important! Hang in there....can't wait to meet you one day! emoticon Dawn

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JUSTTRIING 5/12/2010 4:51PM

    Okay, don't know why I can't navigate away from this page and my comments just keep re-posting. Sorry Tammy!

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JUSTTRIING 5/12/2010 4:51PM

    Ugh...comments, go away!

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JUSTTRIING 5/12/2010 4:51PM

    Well you are right, your friends are here for you!

I am sorry you are having such a hard time with everything. Please, be patient. You want to heal properly. You want to be able to run and walk for many years in the future. This is really just a short blip in time. You will be back to hitting the gym, losing weight and being able to get on line and get the support you need in good time.

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AUNTIE65 5/12/2010 3:35PM

    Oh sweet friend - please know we are here for you whenever you can get here to cheer, vent or whatever! For such an active person to be down this long must be hard, but you CAN do it!

Someone else suggested focusing on nutrition - I echo that! If you can have a path with the food - you'll be all set when the dr gives you the go ahead for some cardio!

Hang in there!

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JENNIFER124 5/12/2010 3:12PM

    I know what you mean about needing to be here.. it was a huge adjustment when my time was cut and i couldnt be here as much.. AND i really found out how much i need to be checking in and stay accountable.. we will not let you fall through the cracks.. NEVER!!!
9 weeks post op??? that is a REALLY long time even though i am sure recovery-wise its not long at all.. i think you have demonstrated lots of patience-- anyone would be frustrated with that type of inactivity.. i would focus on one particular healthy habit.. and work on that.. i hate tracking but its become a habit again and it took about 2 months for it to come back and in the beginning of my SP time it was the first thing that helped me lose weight.. i was 6 weeks post-- birth of Grace and in the dead of winter with no exercise base.. all i really did was focus on nutrition but it helped me get with the program.. YOU CAN DO THIS!! emoticon

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SMALLERSHEEP 5/12/2010 3:05PM

    Aww, Tammy, I can only imagine how frustrated you must be. I hope that you listen to yourself, especially that last part. It's out there now let go. These things take time (I know, you know that already, lol). Praying for you, for patience, speedy recovery and peace.


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YOOVIE 5/12/2010 2:56PM


You know the deal, you don't have to be a cardio machine to be healthy-minded.

Are you getting your water? watching your nutrition? stretching in ways you are allowed?

Back to basics never hurt anyone and by the time you are back at 100% you will be DYING to make up for lost time!!!


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    WOW I have missed hearing from you. You sound like this job is keeping you hopping. When does PT actually start? I know it is so frustrating, but take it from me - don't push it - foot surgery all of them are a bugger to come back from. It isn't like an arm or shoulder...where you can not use it 100% of the time, when you are using your foot it is being used big time. pressure on the foot is to difficult to judge - you can actually do more damage if you aren't careful. Call your doctor ask if PT can be pushed up, because you are feeling really well - aren't there some simple things you can do to start moving and utilizing that foot more. Please though listen to the doctor - believe it or not, he has more experience than you or I put together. It will be about 4 months from surgery from me when I try to first run 1 minute - it will be slow and steady to be sure.

emoticon know that I am here for you.

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Ground Control to Major Tom: Commence Post-op Phase 3

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I don't know why I was compelled to name this blog after the Bowie song, but maybe its partly because getting my cast off today was a bit surreal...

My friend Wendy drove me to the Uber Doc for an 8:15 appt., and we waited over an hour to go back to the cast room. His assistant cut the cast off and then left... more waiting... at 9:50 the Doc came in and started removing my sutures. Snip, pull, snip, pull... WAIT. He hurriedly confers with his assistant in hushed tones and then disappears. What the heck? There are still over a dozen stitches to go! What's up with that?

Turns out I need to have an Xray of my foot before he'll proceed. He thought it had been done already, but I guess the asst. never ordered it. I say that because the gal on the bed next to me had an 8:30 appt. and was taken to xray as soon as they brought us back to the cast room. So we wait some more for the xray... in the meantime, I was preparing for the pain of having the pin pulled out. I took Advil at 6:30 a.m. and took a vicodin at 8 a.m., thinking that would suffice. I was caught off guard by how much my foot hurt just sitting there and waiting, so in my anxiety I took a lower dose of another pain pill around 10:15... then the Doc came back in, before it could kick in and he finished removing the stitches.

When it came time to pull the pin he had me lie down (good thing!) and raise my foot in the air, resting on my other knee. He got some kind of tool (couldn't describe it, I shut my eyes!) and started twisting and yanking the pin out. OUCH! It didn't take more than a few seconds, but it felt awful. Then, to add insult to injury, he started to pull away the dry skin around the pin hole! That hurt worse than the pin removal... It took me a few minutes to compose myself after that, but he seemed quite pleased with my progress.

I am back into my walking boot, but unfortunately his instructions weren't very clear... he wants me walking with partial weight bearing, up to my own tolerance, and even sleeping in the boot for the next 4 weeks. Hard to imagine sleeping in something that I've worn walking around (would you wear your shoes to bed?!?) but its because the broken bones are not totally healed yet and he doesn't want it bumped during the night. I elected not to take crutches because I have a walker at home that has a seat and I figured that would be easier on me.

So... a few minutes go by and the assistant straps me into my boot, and I try to stand up... try being the operative word. Shooting pain in my heel on repeated attempts meant that I was back on my scooter to go check out. Next appointment set for 4 weeks, but then I nearly fainted! I got really nauseous and light headed, broke into a cold sweat and started shaking. I think it was due to shock from the pain, but it might have been that extra pain killer too... My friend suggested that maybe I should get crutches after all, so that I wouldn't have to put my foot down any more than I wanted to, so it was back to the cast room to wait. I thought I was going to leave them a little present, but I remembered my 1st aid and got my blood going back to my head... by the time I got the crutches I was feeling a little better . I'm talking to the assistant and saying how I can't possibly walk yet because of the pain in my heel, and she says "just start weight bearing when you're standing still, you aren't supposed to walk on it yet" emoticon My friend and I just looked at each other... obviously, the previous instructions were NOT clear...

As much as I'd like to say that I no longer self medicate with food, the truth is that I couldn't wait to go to my favorite fish taco place and eat lunch. I told myself it was necessary, after all - if I was sick from the meds, or too much caffeine, I needed food in my stomach, right? It was 11:30 and I hadn't eaten since 6:30, so there was some logic in that...

Lunch, then home, then a much needed nap. Whew! This healing stuff is exhausting!

I'm a little sad that I can't stand on my foot yet, and that I'll be using crutches for the next 6 weeks (at least!). I'm not ready yet for PT, but I go back in a month and maybe then? So, phase 3 begins today and will last for 4-6 weeks or more...

Major Tom to Ground Control: I'm floating in a most peculiar way... *

*David Bowie, Space Oddity

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DEEJ4FITNESS 5/5/2010 3:02PM

    Just popping in to check on you again :) As always, amazed with your attitude and wonderful spirit! I know you went into this with much thought and with no unrealistic expectations but I'm sure there are times when it's just DANG hard! My thoughts are often with you because I so much admire you as a fellow runner and fellow woman, period!

Hangeth thou in there Sister and feel free to write me if ever ya need to vent or just need a friend!

((HUGS)) ~Deej

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    Please forgive me for being so late in this comment. YIPPEE...I was gone to Chicago and couldn't get WiFi - sooooooo

This is so exciting. You will know when you can put any pressure on the foot - don't don't push it. I was excited that when I was standing with crutches I could just place the boot directly on the floor - I don't think I had any pressure on it. Get an old fashion scale and put your booted foot on it and slightly press down - you will see how many pounds of pressure you are placing on it. When I got my initially clearance (No bones broken) I was allotted 60 pounds of pressure to stand on it. That is a lot - you will be surprised.

I am so excited for you....just think you will get out of the boot and get moving then it is surgery time again????

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ROUXZQ 4/23/2010 1:08AM

    Oh my! I loved your Bowie song reference. It was perfect after all! Sorry to hear about the near faint from pain...but again, your true warrior self comes out!

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JUSTTRIING 4/22/2010 8:17PM

    Well it is at least a step (no pun intended) in the right direction. I am glad the cast is off. Standing on your foot will come with time and I image that pain is to be expected.

I think of you daily and I know you are going to get through this. Someday this will all just seem like a bad dream:)

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JENNIFER124 4/22/2010 2:14PM

    that was soo detailed... i truly felt that pin come out!! ugh!! but you did and its done and you never have to do it again!! i am very glad you got those crutches.. you will go very light i know you will.. no weight bearing like he said or didnt say.. those doctors! emoticon

and yes, wear that boot at night.. he did make that clear..

i am happy Tammy you are at ground control... you have worked hard to get here!!! press on woman emoticon

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PAMTHEDREAMER 4/22/2010 2:03PM

    Perfect song for yer blog Tammy! Sorry for your waiting and pain. You're doing great tho and soon..that fairy tale ending "happily ever after".. emoticon

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EVETROY 4/22/2010 2:02PM

    emoticon Sorry about the pain. You deserved Baja fish!!! And it's way healthier than other things. Don't you wish doctors would take the time to be a little more clear?!? emoticon Take it easy on yourself.

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LAWRENDAK 4/22/2010 1:38PM

  So sorry for your pain. My thoughts are with you.

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KJHOUSTON 4/22/2010 12:32PM

    Hang in there! emoticon

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FIT_MELISSA 4/22/2010 12:04PM

    emoticon Bless your heart! What a long (and painful) process this has been for you. You are so close to a happy ending though. Let us know if we can help.
And congratulations!! You are one step closer to reaching your goals...

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SMALLERSHEEP 4/22/2010 11:22AM

    God love have been through the ringer! So glad to hear that the cast removal was a success. Also glad you got the additional instruction NOT to walk on it yet! Good grief. Still sending speedy recovery thoughts and prayers your way.

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FINDINGMEIN2012 4/22/2010 9:48AM

    Sounds like progress! emoticon

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DONZO64 4/22/2010 9:21AM

    Ouch! It hurt me just reading Phase 3! OUCH!

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NAVYMOM133 4/22/2010 9:07AM

    "Ground Control to Major Tom. Ground Control to Major Tom.
Take your protein pills and put your helmet on," because Phase 3 has commenced! Excellent news, Tammy!

Sorry the pin removal was tough, but it's OUT now, YIPPEE!! I have to agree with the gang, the screw up with the X-Ray and not getting clear instructions for phase three doesn't sound good. If it were me, I'd be on the horn this morning, with a clear and anxiety-free head, and would insist on written instructions being FAXed to the house. Period. You are paying for the Uber-skills of this doctor, it's imperative that you get clear, correct instructions while in recovery! Something along the lines of, his excellent surgical skills will matter more if they come with equally good post-op instructions and care. Sort of, "Get what you pay for" by demanding excellence in the recovery phase too.

How about a pillowcase over the boot at night?

Can't wait for the scooter pic, girlie!!! In memory of phases I and II...


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    Not too impressed with your doc, but "uber" impressed with YOU! Just try not to overdo - you will get there.

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MENT2BE 4/22/2010 12:53AM

    Great update....thanks for sharing and keep up your great sense of humor!!!
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LILHLFPINT 4/22/2010 12:40AM

    (i'm so glad to hear an update from you. ::hugs:: loving that attitude, girl. i'm proud of you.)

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AUNTIE65 4/21/2010 10:56PM

    Yah Phase 3!!!! You sooo deserved your yummy lunch after all you went through this morning! I can't believe that uber doc gave you such unclear instructions... so I guess it was good that you went back to get the crutches!

Now once all those pain killers wear off, you sit back and relax with a nice glass of wine!!!


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SORGIN 4/21/2010 10:31PM

    Oh, I wish I were there to give you a big hug (but not so big that it would hurt you more.) What a day! I can't believe you went through all that. You are one very strong woman. I cannot imagine the pain and I'm sorry the doc wasn't very clear in his instructions.

I am glad you are on your way to the next phase and that you can begin to put weight on your foot. I know this healing process is slow going but you will get there and be better than ever!

I am so glad you went to Baja Fish. I don't blame you and hope you enjoyed every single bite! The food is fresh, so if you're going to go overboard, that's a good place to do it!

Hang in there and know you WILL get there. Little by little, day by day, you are getting better. I so wish I could be there with you!

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BSTAKINGACTION 4/21/2010 10:00PM

    So, are we calling him "uber-dinko-doc" yet? Or how about "uber-airhead"....sort of has a nice ring to it.

Congrats on getting the cast off, though! Would've been nice if they would've explained what to expect, huh?

And, I think you did well going to Baja Fish. I may have taken a stab at the KFC monstrosity everyone's been talking about.

One weight-bearing moment at a time, friend. It'll happen. You are doing so well that I have no doubt you'll be increasing that foot stamina in no time. At least the pin's out!

And think about the upper body strength you could build with those crutches...right? emoticon

Hugs, Tammy...wish I could make it all better.

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Who Me? Why, thank you!!

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

I learned today that I had been selected (elected?) as a Spark People Motivator, in the fitness category. I didn't know whether to be excited or humbled, but in the end I am both.

I am so excited to be recognized, because I have learned that staying positive and encouraging others is a key component to my own success. Not unlike 12 step programs, where sharing your story is a requirement of continued recovery -- investing into other people's success pays dividends into my own. Hello, my name is Tammy, and I'm living the Spark!

I am humbled, because all of the people who I turn to for support, encouragement, camaraderie, understanding, advice and laughter are themselves Spark People Motivators. It is truly humbling to think that other people thought of me the same way I think of these people. When I am struggling I look at Motivational spark pages to get my groove back. When I feel like I'm stagnating, I look to see where others have been successful. Just last week I had an "a-ha" moment because I had been reading other Spark Motivator pages and something clicked for me. To think that I will now have my page included in that company... Wow. Amazing.

So to everyone who voted for me, emoticon. I truly hope that I can continue to motivate, thereby reaching my own goals and living my best life.

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DRAFTLOVER 4/17/2010 7:22PM

    I like the idea of surfing the motivational pages for ideas and sugggestions. Thats what I was doing when I saw your page. Congrats!

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LAWRENDAK 4/16/2010 12:08AM

  Congrats Tammy! So proud of you, and you really are a motivator.

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ROUXZQ 4/15/2010 7:10PM

    Woooo Hooooo! You deserve it TAmmy! You are a warrior, survivor, and now motivator!
Congrats. Tho it comes as no surprise to me!

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ZIRCADIA 4/15/2010 5:20PM

    CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!! :D And to answer the question -- you slice all the way through, but I think the direction helps with the way the slices turn out instead of it being a ton if little rings or little pieces, I think it holds togeter a bit that way?

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GLOBALKEEWEE 4/15/2010 11:35AM

    You're my hero! emoticon

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RUN.OR.RUST 4/15/2010 9:50AM

    Congratulations! emoticon

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SINGLEMOM1960 4/15/2010 12:06AM

You do deserve the motivator award. I remember reading some of your blogs. You are very inspirational.


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MARIADAWN1 4/14/2010 12:55PM

    Congratulations!!! emoticon Way to go!! Indeed, your a very motivating person & I thank you for your posts! I'm so glad that you are also a fellow Corona Sparkler!! Yeah! Can't wait to meet you one day when you're up and able!! Love Dawn emoticon emoticon

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KJHOUSTON 4/14/2010 10:06AM

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    You are one of the reasons I stay with Spark! Congrats! emoticon

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2WHEELER 4/13/2010 8:01PM

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You are a terrific motivator! Congratulations.

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JUSTTRIING 4/13/2010 7:59PM

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FLORIDASUN 4/13/2010 7:05PM

    Hugs and a big "whoop da" shout out! We Sparkies all stick together and the motivation thing is a big benefit of our support and love for each other! Way to go Sparkie friend of mine...way to go! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SORGIN 4/13/2010 6:40PM

    Of COURSE you are a Spark Motivator! You certainly inspire me and give me lots of info. to help me on my own journey. CONGRATS TO YOU!

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FINDINGMEIN2012 4/13/2010 6:20PM

    Congratulations, Tammy! You definitely deserve to be recognized for this - you are such an inspiration!

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    Frankly, my dear...I thought you already WERE a Sparkpeople Motivator!!!! About time that particular honor was awarded to you!

I would NOT be where I am in my Sparked life without you beneath my wings...sending you big hugs and smooches.

I'm going to toast you tonight when I get home!!! emoticon Well...maybe not the bad, but you get the picture!

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AUNTIE65 4/13/2010 6:01PM

    So glad you were recognized for the incredible motivator you are Tammy!!! Congratulations!

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BECCACOATS 4/13/2010 5:44PM

    I'm with Jen. You deserve this.. you are a big Motivator and you deserve to be Spark People Motivator!!

I know I have benifeted from your life lessons & experiences

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JENNIFER124 4/13/2010 5:30PM

    you ABSOLUTELY deserve this and are an incredible inspiration to ME!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!! emoticon

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EVETROY 4/13/2010 5:21PM

    emoticon You are a great athlete!

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    You are my motivation in more ways than one.

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SMALLERSHEEP 4/13/2010 5:11PM

    Whoot! Whoot! You totally deserve it! Congratulations!

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