Saturday, May 25, 2013
As of late, I have experienced more weight gain than any period in the 3 year span I have been on my current lifestyle change. I have had days where I was in complete control and the following I was completely out of control, this going on for 2 months.
I started back at school in April and I was finally 190.8, the lowest in 3 years. I have reached a size 12 dress, over 5 years since I was last at that. My husband and I have a business and I have my entire 2 story house, a cat and all the meals to prepare. On top of this my beloved grandfather is preparing for his own funeral. I have suffered back injury, infection and now am sick with a virus.
I have fallen out of an exercise routine, have lost control of my eating the majority of the time and am really stressed out. I had a panic/stress attack for the first time recently. My husband is pressuring me to lose the last 40 lbs by the end of this year to start a family. My family is pressuring me to stop losing , trying to force their unauthentic view for me as was customary in the past. I am extremely trapped in stress and hating the lack of control. This is the ultimate test and I don't want to fail.
At 113 lbs lost in 3 years and reaching at size 12, i am proud of all I have accomplished. It is evident that I have a very different appearance and I am capable of great things.
I want to complete this journey of weight loss and regain control. This is a test of emotional stability and of my ability to keep control. The outside pressure is great at this time.