Monday, May 06, 2013
Balance in our fast paced society today is one of the biggest challenges we face. A balanced diet, a balanced fitness program, a balanced social and work life.
Lately I have been very unbalanced in my life and I haven't been enjoying that. Since my back injury I had backed off from exercise to try to heal but haven't been successful in that. I was doing well on my nutrition until I started back at school part time.
I was at home full time to work for our business but I really need the French writing course I am doing now. Between work responsibilities, school responsibilities part time, making meals, cleaning the house and spending time with my husband, I have a juggling act that has gone wrong.
My diet has become unbalanced for emotional reasons from things said and from my busy schedule. I am feeling rotten after gaining several pounds and my husband getting on my case about it.
I am 112.4 lbs lighter after 3 years of weight loss and I am grappling with finishing this weight loss thing. My husband is ever so impatient to start our family and he refuses to start until the weight is off. He said that by the end of this year I need to have the 40 lbs left off. I am feeling so pressured that I am going haywire....
I had an emotional day with him, as mother nature is visiting this week, and things said have really gotten to me.
He straightened my hair for me while listening to my problems, took me out to dinner and a 2 hr walk in a park.
We had a wonderful time and I now realize that I will accomplish the rest of this weight loss in whatever time I need. My husband threatened me with boot camp and I am NEVER going there! I am going to do this on my own as I have already taken myself 112.4 down and I am more than capable. I lost 187 from 2007-2009 with L.A. Weight loss and it was a nightmare! Nobody will ever control my eating and weight loss again. Although I learned how to eat and maintain from that program.
I have been very upset with not getting out to take advantage of the gorgeous days we have had. Today was a great day to enjoy and we did!
Sometimes when you are at a crossroads, you have to take the road you know leads you to a sure destination. I am aware of what I need to do to correct the imbalance but emotional issues sometimes have to be worked out first.
Even in the darkness of problems, I can still muster a smile...
The park we walked in was a place I loved when I first visited in 2010. I am in much better shape now, 2 hrs was a "walk in the park".
It won't be easy pulling myself back to center but I have done this so many times before with success. Hoping the events of today will lead me back in the right direction to lose the gained weight and complete this thing!