Friday, January 13, 2012
My name is Melissa and I have been a Spark Member since October but was following SparkPeople for about a year on Facebook previously. I love the site because there is motivation, wisdom and valiant effort by all to gain wisdom to succeed and to put the wisdom into practice.
From the beginners on the healthy journey to the seasoned veterans, wisdom abounds and courage emerges. I believe that ALL of us CAN be healthy and fit and I want EVERYONE to believe that! If you are going to believe in someone....believe in YOU!
People fail programs instead of programs failing people, so work a program until you make it work for you! I believe that a healthy lifestyle should not force you to do drastic things such as surgery or starving yourself. You shouldn't have to buy pre-packaged food to know how to eat or have a personal trainer every day to tell you how to be fit. It is essential to seek the knowledge of professionals to understand the body's Nutritional and Fitness needs. But trust yourself that you don't need to be dependent on someone else every step of the way for your health. Take charge of your actions and thoughts with the advice you have been given and reach out for support!
Every day as I peruse SparkPeople, I am reminded of tidbits of knowledge I knew but might live it daily without realizing or had forgotten about it for some time. Some examples are: live like a kid every now and then-laugh from the belly, if the scale doesn't give you a good #-work harder, food is never as sweet as loving yourself , you can accomplish more than ever dreamed and you can enjoy fitness!
Keep up the great work and keep the Spark lit!
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
It is amazing what people will do and say to someone who is making positive changes in their life to be who they want to be. For those who don't use inner strenghth to be healthy, they make efforts to deter those who are making changes. They try to tell you what size you should be and what you should do.
As I have reached 217 lbs, the family is now saying to me, "Don't go to far". They know that before I weighed 159 in 2007 and they couldn't stand the healthy me. You have to wonder, "Who are they to tell me what size I should be?" and "Why does my aspirations come before theirs in their head?" I have a husband this time around for the current weight loss and I have someone to defend my healthy journey and destination. It is disgusting that relatives would impose their desires for your size and mentality of well-being.
I have the no care attitude to let the comments roll off my back and proceed to get healthy and love me!
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Just looking at myself, I know that my shape is getting smaller by the day. The scale hasn't cooperated with me the last couple days and I am 8 days into battling the flu. I just can't feel good about the lack of exercise and I really want to see continous progress on the scale. 8 days without exercise is like an eternity for me. I want to start Zumba classes again, the Social Dance classes and use my equipment at home.
With the ending of 2011 and start of 2012, I am very excited for lots of exercise and dropping the last 55 or so lbs to finally be ready to get pregnant! My husband and I want to have a family so bad and it has been a long journey to take off close to 100 lbs already! We enjoy the exercise we do together and the healthy lifestyle. Praying I am going to start back exercising and this flu leaves soon.
Sunday, January 08, 2012
Coming into the world, you encounter "family" and you "should" be loved, endeared, nurtured and built up to be an amazing person. From the very first cry, you wait to be comforted and adored. Family is supposed to love you for who you are and guide you to the best you can be.
I was born into the family of "dysfunctional" and I was not an adored child. As the first born to unwed parents who were still children themselves, I was one of the rebellious acts that defied their parents.
I was supposed to be the key to my parents being able to get married but the reality was much worse. I became the child who was "retarded" because I was my father's daughter, the downfall of my mother's future...All the family imposed negatives fell on me as a result of my parents actions.
Just by being born, I invoked all the negative emotions from family: jealousy, anger, envy....With all the struggles my family faced, I was one of the many.
My parents went on to birth 3 more children and their lives didn't get any easier, neither did mine!
As the oldest of 4 children, I was expected to help my mother with the other 3 children and the chores of maintaining the house. I lost my youth in the independence forced upon me at such an early age and my sense of responsibility was great.
A burden I carried for many years and still battle is excess weight. I had a 2 year period of attending a Weight Loss Center and 3 years at a gym. This point in time was the realization of will power and the vision of the "true me". In this time, I dropped 187 lbs and 74 inches and became the most fit I have ever been.
I was not the embodiment of what I "should be" in my family's eye's, despite the call for action that many so abruptly stated or implied by the fat jokes. I was physically the person I wanted to be but mentally, I wasn't. The issues I dealt with regarding family and many other jealous people including co-workers, lead me back to that unhealthy place I had always known.
My saving grace mentally, which has allowed me to "cope" was many years of Counseling and Reiki. I found people who truly understood me. Pretty sad when your own family doesn't know the "true you" but professionals do.
I am a survivor and I can succeed throughout the worst of situations. I currently have 97.2 lbs off in just over 2 years. The fight is ON again and I am working out those issues that pull me down.
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