Monday, January 02, 2012
With the media portraying women as young and airbrushed to slimness, we are supposed to fit the mold. As a woman, you are supposed to feel guilty that you don't fit that model. The people of Hollywood should feel ashamed for disgracing women for their age or their size!
As a woman, I have faced many obstacles that were detrimental to my self-esteem and worth as a person. From day one, in my family, being a woman was being a 2nd class citizen. The men are highly valued in the family and you should bow down to them.
At the tender age of 13, I was in a boat accident with the family and my littlest brother was seated on my lap. As the role model and oldest of 4, I was supposed to be the protector. When the boat went out of control, it threw my brother off my lap at 40 mph, he hit his face on the side and fell to his death, 14 feet underwater. My parents blamed me for that loss and I myself almost drown being thrown and another of my brother's landed on my head. I am lucky to be alive but the emotional pain of the tragedy is pretty bad.
At home, I was called "pork chop" and every holiday I was berated by my Great Aunt that I had "gained" weight every year. I was not safe at home, nor at school. When I went to school, the kids called me fat names and picked on me until I didn't want to go to school anymore.
When someone defines you, how do they tell your worth? I wish it was by the survivor spirit. I have survived multiples tragedies and many people have pegged me as "worthless".
Despite everything, I know my "worth" is far beyond what anyone may realize. Although my husband does understand and value me much more than anybody else.
The world would be a far better place to live if we could accept each other for our differences. Just by looking at someone, we cannot know a person's worth. The totatily of their personality, their beauty inside and out and their experience is their "worth".