Saturday, June 23, 2012
Above is a weak moment for me on the night of December 31, 2009, 2 years after I completed a 187 lb weight loss and 3 years of 8 hrs a week at the gym. My inner strength was just beginning to resurface in this picture but 153 lbs too late.
Above is me in 2007 after the 187 lb weight loss and 8 hrs a week spent at the gym. At this time I had fully discovered my inner strength.
After 2 years of weight loss from 2005-2007, I knew what a strong, beautiful lady I was and just what I was capable of. The past traumas of life came back to haunt me as I was talking to my mother about trying new water adventures. She discouraged me from going kayaking when I expressed my interest. That is all it took to start binge eating to comfort my distraught emotions.
How is that someone was so strong for 2 years and did everything right for their health suddenly is self-destructing? The answer is the mind, unhealed trauma can take you to the lowest depths and you feel completely helpless. I sought Counseling and Reiki to get my emotions and healing in order. All the help in the world didn't stop me from gaining 153 lbs. I gained the coping skills and healed from my traumas but I didn't find that inner strength once again.
The one thing that changed my mind to get back to good health was I saw my dreams unfolding to truth. I met a man that I have been married to for over 2 years and this is a dream come true.
I dreamed of being married and having a family and a house, I am married and I have a new house. My work to have a family is in progress, I have to finish losing the weight to accomplish that. 102.2 has been lost, 50.8 to go.
The one thing that can get us through the bad times is realizing we have the inner strength to handle it. That inner strength is the tool that will keep you in good health.
We must believe that we are worth good health and we must use our inner strength.
Sunday, June 17, 2012
I competed in a Spartan Race with a 7 Kilometer trail through the woods running uphill through the forest, jumping fire, crawling under bobwire fence in the mud with tree roots and boulders.
I am not sure if I was panicked because of the extreme challenge of the event or my past traumas having an effect on me. Possibly both but I found myself hyperventilating when running and crying when I got stuck in the mud. I didn't care for getting the feeling of people in a hurry in the race almost trampeling other people.
I have never done a race before and 7K was definitely a lot for me to do. With 15 obstacles, it was more difficult and I didn't complete all of them but I did make it to the finish line.
A friend was the one who informed us about this race and told me she had done it when she was overweight in 1 hr 15 mins and she loved it. I thought, "Oh this won't be too bad".
This race left me scraped, black and blue and exhausted but it was great challenge of physical and mental health.
The thing that bothered me the most about this event was that I have done so much in 2 1/2 years by way of fitness and I have lost over 100 lbs. To see myself hyperventilating while running and being 3rd to last in the race was difficult. It is daunting to me to think that I have done so many things for my health and I was that bad off.
I discovered that if you want to partake in running, crawling in mud and swimming with fallen trees and boulders, you must train exactly the same. 4 days of Zumba a week for over a year, 8 months of Social Dancing, climbing stairs, walking 30 mins a day 6 days a week: doesn't hold up for this race.
Friday, June 15, 2012
Several months ago, a friend told my husband and I about a race her and her husband had completed a year ago. She said despite being highly overweight, she completed the race in 1 hr 15 mins. I thought to myself, I definitely wanted to take the challenge. My husband agreed that the challenge would be nice and we anxiously awaited for the day of the race to arrive.
I become a fan of the Spartan Race on Facebook to get a feel for what the race entailed and I must admit that I was a bit scared and anxious about the obstacles in the race. I was told it was a 5 K and there were 15 obstacles but when I saw the obstacles, it was a bit daunting to me to think I had to do those things.
Our friend was waiting for her sister to arrive and we missed the time we were supposed to race but made it to the next 30 minute start. I was getting more and more anxious as time wore on because I just wanted to start the race.
As we started to run off the start line, I was very excited and nervous at the same time.
The first obstacle was to jump fire, it was one of my biggest worries but I cleared it no problem.
The next thing I know, a woman with a cold hose was dousing me full blast, I didn't see that coming!
What was to come next had me in a complete panic and I was hyperventilating, it was one of the worst parts of the race. We had to run a long way through the woods up a mountain. I have never been a runner and I had to do A LOT of walking, I wanted to quit but the thought of finishing the race with a medal overpowered the exhaustion and soreness.
My husband stayed with me throughout the entire race to help me with encouragement to complete the race.
We crawled in mud with rocks and tree roots under bobwire fence, went through cold, muddy water with fallen logs and boulders, carried heavy sacs with weights around a path, threw spears at a target and made it 7 kilometers total to fight 2 guys hitting you with a weapon to make it to the finish line.
This is my 1st race and I made it 7K despite tearing up my knees, arms all black and blue and completely spent. I had 7 teammates and they were all so proud, my husband wasn't sure I would make it but I EARNED that medal!!!!
The day was an excellent test of strong mentality and physical capability and was worth the 3 hrs it took me!
Saturday, June 09, 2012
The above picture is me at 208.0 lbs on March 3, 2012, that was the day I reached 105 lbs lost!
My days after this were full of intense fitness and so many days of good Nutrition but it was a time that I was in a plateau. It took me three months to get out of that plateau, despite many efforts to get out of it.
I did level 9 resistance elliptical workouts.
I did a 2 hr Zumbathon.
I walked Downtown Montreal on St. Patrick's Day.
I line danced at a Social Event I spent 3 hrs at.
I went fishing with my family and husband, one of my favorite things.
I celebrated 2 years of marriage with my husband.
I have gotten prepared for school at 6:20 every morning for 4 months, preparing healthy meals for me and my husband.
I attended a Social Dance event, my husband and I have been taking classes for 8 months.
I walked downtown Burlington, VT with my family and husband to attend a concert.
I went shopping with my husband and family, came out with a size small shirt when I thought I was an XL.
I began using 1 lb weight at Zumba for 1 hour.
Another new shirt from the shopping trip in Petite XL, the smile tells it all.
I pushed myself to make it to the main road on my bike, victory.
I became confident and strong enough on my bike to do stunts.
Heading out for my 6 hr French School day, I walk 30 mins to and from my car and conquer 3 flights of stairs.
I attended a French School Reunion with my husband.
My husband and I walked 1 hr and 15 mins through mud, water, rocks and up/down hills.
The one thing that equals success is CONSISTENCY. No matter what the scale says, nothing can get you through the journey except PERSISTENCE!!
I had two things recently that were what I considered road blocks, which turned out to be the end of a 3 month plateau.
The 1st was a virus I contracted at School which left my joints painful for 2 weeks and I stopped exercising to try to recuperate. At that time, I put on 9 lbs despite following my regular Nutrition plan.
Next I had a root canal which left me unable to eat anything but soup and frozen yogurt.
I slowly built my fitness back up again, starting to walk half an hour at school, then, did 2 days of Zumba without weights, then the walk for 1 hr 15 mins through mud, rocks, water and hills.
In 4 days, I have dropped 9.6 lbs, I have 104.8 lbs off in 2 1/2 years and when I fall, I get back up. I believe in myself, my life is much better for it, and I look forward to CONSISTENCY for life!
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