Monday, May 21, 2012
In my childhood, I used to think some people were crazy about health because they obsessed over Nutrition information on packages and were diligent about working out every day.
I thought why in the world would anybody be so obsessed with these things because it is unnecessary to stress yourself this much over health.
My Aunt and Uncle were Crazy Health Nuts to me, obsessed over not being overweight and working out every day.
At the age of 25, I finally started to understand this mentality of "those Crazy Health Nuts". I paid $1200 for a Weight Loss Program developed by dieticians. I weighed in 3 times a week, was counseled on my food intake and my weight.
In 2005, I tipped the scale at 348 lbs and I was embarrassed as I stood there with a counselor to take my before picture starting the Weight Loss Program. As I looked at the entire wall in the Weight Loss Center, the success stories abounded. I aspired to be on that wall of success stories and I worked diligently for that success.
I learned that it is vital to keep a food journal to KNOW WHAT you are eating and HOW MUCH. I became accustomed to stepping on the scale in the midst of many people. I became adept as using a food scale and having a counselor tell me what to eat and what not to eat. I learned that variety is key to Nutrition and getting in exercise no matter how small is a must.
In 2007, I became a success story on the wall of the Weight Loss Center, weighing in at 159 lbs. My weight loss totaled 187 lbs and my inches lost totaled 75. I drew immense pride and strength from this experience.
The grim realization that came after plagued me for 2 years, all the issues I had buried started to resurface. 3 water accidents I had been in were unhealed trauma inside me. The first at the age of 13, was a boat accident in which I lost my 4 year old brother off my lap, one of the biggest blows of my life to my self-esteem.
I regained all but 35 lbs and lost all hope of everything I had dreamed of attaining after my weight loss journey. My hope of finding a man to marry and having children faded away.
I sought counseling and realized the dynamics of what made me the way I was and the skills to cope to become well.
I discovered that emotional balance had to be attained and my emotional eating for self-sabotage had to change again.
In 2009, I met my husband and I made a comeback to the health I once knew. I started my Nutrition plan again and started my fitness.
Today, May 21, 2012, I have about 100 lbs lost and I am so happy that I found a man to spend my life with. I have managed to find emotional balance because I am seeing the hopes and dreams unveil before my eyes.
I have around 50 lbs left to lose and I seem to have hit a plateau for the last 2 months. I am struggling mightily to challenge myself and complete the journey a 2nd time. I added Zumba toning sticks to my workouts 3-4 times a week, riding my bike further every ride, etc.
If you never try, you will never know the true will power and strength you possess. Each and every one of you can be a SUCCESS! Get out there and show the world what you are made of!!!!