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Quilt of Holes

Friday, June 12, 2009

I have really been struggling lately with all the stuff that has been going on in my life as I know many of you are also. I hope that the following story that I found a year or so ago will inspire some of you the way that it did when I first read it. I decided that it was time to read it again to help get perspective on why some of the things are happening. Read and enjoy.

Quilt of Holes

As I faced my Maker at the last judgment, I knelt before the Lord along with all the other souls. Before each of us laid our lives like the squares of a quilt in many piles; an angel sat before each of us sewing our quilt squares together into a tapestry that is our life.

But as my angel took each piece of cloth off the pile, I noticed how ragged and empty each of my squares was. They were filled with giant holes. Each square was labeled with a part of my life that had been difficult, the challenges and temptations I was faced with in everyday life. I saw hardships that I endured, which were the largest holes of all.

I glanced around me. Nobody else had such squares. Other than a tiny hole here and there, the other tapestries were filled with rich color and the bright hues of worldly fortune. I gazed upon my own life and was disheartened. My angel was sewing the ragged pieces of cloth together, threadbare and empty, like binding air.

Finally the time came when each life was to be displayed, held up to the light, the scrutiny of truth. The others rose; each in turn, holding up their tapestries. So filled their lives had been. My angel looked upon me, and nodded for me to rise. My gaze dropped to the ground in shame. I hadn't had all the earthly fortunes. I had love in my life, and laughter. But there had also been trials of illness, and wealth, and false accusations that took from me my world, as I knew it. I had to start over many times. I often struggled with the temptation to quit, only to somehow muster the strength to pick up and begin again. I spent many nights on my knees in prayer, asking for help and guidance in my life. I had often been held up to ridicule, which I endured painfully, each time offering it up to the Father in hopes that I would not melt within my skin beneath the judgmental gaze of those who unfairly judged me.

And now, I had to face the truth. My life was what it was, and I had to accept it for what it was. I rose and slowly lifted the combined squares of my life to the light. An awe-filled gasp filled the air. I gazed around at the others who stared at me with wide eyes.

Then, I looked upon the tapestry before me. Light flooded the many holes, creating an image, the face of Christ. Then our Lord stood before me, with warmth and love in His eyes. He said, 'Every time you gave over your life to Me, it became My life, My hardships, and My struggles. Each point of light in your life is when you stepped aside and let Me shine through, until there was more of Me than there was of you.

May all our quilts be threadbare and worn, allowing Christ to shine through!

God determines who walks into your life....it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.



After reading this I feel that my quilt should be really full of holes. I have gotten through all the stressful times, with some struggles, and hope that you all do the same. We need to really put our faith in the good Lord and let him guide us through our tough times. Good luck to all you and may God bless you.

Thiry

  
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BRAVEONE92 10/20/2009 12:14AM

    I have read this story before on my email. It is a wonderful story. Like you, I have had lots of struggles in my life, and my quilt also should be full of holes. I am a Christian and I do depend on God for all of my problems. Thus far, God has gotten me through things that without His help, I absolutely would not have made it. I am happy to know that you put your faith in God and that you have Him to help you with all that you are going through now. He will bless you, and this too will pass. But we know, that as humans we will always struggle in some way. That is why we continue to depend on God, on and on.

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LOSETONEED 10/16/2009 10:14AM

    What a blessing you are. Thank you for sharing the story for us to read and remember who is in charge of our lives.

Terrie

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NO_SNOW_BODY 10/16/2009 9:57AM

    This is a wonderful blog and I plan on sending it to my daughter to read, she has been dealing with those holes too and has given them to God every time.

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MOM2474EVER 8/27/2009 8:23PM

    That story hit home for me today. Thanks so much for posting it. You have really been a blessing to me through it and I pray that my quilt is in the same condition, too!

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SUNNYGAL2011 6/12/2009 11:44AM

    I LOVE this story you share with us today here on your blog. I would also love to share it with my Gods Prayer Warriors Team IF it is ok with u...
What a wonderful reminder that GOD ALWAYS shines thru!!!
thank you again~
as i am struggling myself with some problems with my siblings and my daddys death...
YOU are my Angel!!
thanks!!
God bless you and yours~
Amy/Sunny
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HALOKITTY06 6/12/2009 3:09AM

    That's an awesome story! Thanks for sharing. It is incredibly motivating.

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I WISH YOU ENOUGH

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

I found this several years ago and kept it on my computer as I thought it was a really neat story.


I wish you enough!

Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, "I love you and I wish you enough". The daughter replied, "Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom".
They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window
where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to
cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by
asking, "Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?"

"Yes, I have," I replied. "Forgive me for asking, but why is this a
forever good-bye?"

"I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the
reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral," she said.
"When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough'.
May I ask what that means?" She began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone". She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more. "When we said, 'I wish you enough', we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good
things to sustain them". Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much
bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

She then began to cry and walked away. They say it takes a minute to
find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them,
but then an entire life to forget them.

Send this to the people you will never forget and remember to send it
back to the person who sent it to you. If you don't send it to anyone
it may mean that you are in such a hurry that you have forgotten your
friends.

TAKE TIME TO LIVE.....

To all my friends and loved ones,
I WISH YOU ENOUGH


So to all my sparkfriends and everyone else: I WISH YOU ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  
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ADONVDO1 6/2/2009 5:45PM

    Thank you for sharing this story

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A GOOD FAMILY DAY

Sunday, May 31, 2009

My day started early on Saturday. I had to be up at 5 am to get a shower and be to work by 6. I helped with breakfast at the motel as there were a lot of guests in the motel. I got off about 11:30 and called home to let my husband and daughter know I was off work and ready to go next door to the DeVent Center for the US92 Fuel & Fire Truck show. US92 the local radio station sponsored a show where the truckers could polish up their trucks and show them off. In addition to this the guys from Trick My Truck were here also. They tricked out the semi that the radio station has for their promotional events. It has a complete setup for them to broadcast while out on location and a fold up dance floor. After looking around at the trucks I came home and decided to lay down as my back hurt and my feet hurt from being on them for almost 7 hours. My husband came and woke me just before 8 and the 3 of us went back out to see the band that was playing after the truck show. We sat and listened for a while and then my husband and I got up and danced a few times. We really struggled as we haven't danced for over 14 years (with the exception of a couple of songs at our wedding reception 3 years ago). We used to dance every weekend when we first met 16 or so years ago. We also became dance partners in a Country Dance club. We dance so much then that we both lost a lot of weight, felt good and sometimes helped the leaders of the club teach dancing lessons. We stopped dance when we broke up for a while and haven't dance much since we got back together as he was having trouble with his knee.

We got married in May of and he had his first knee surgery (partial knee replacement) in November 2006 and then when he broke that same knee the end of February 2007 and had to have a complete knee replacement and have the knee pinned so he wasn't able to do too much dancing for a while and then everything else started happening and we weren't able to pay our bills let alone have the money to go out dancing so needless to say it have been a long time. We had our daughter with us and we all had a good time. They kept "picking" on each other and at one point I made the comment that I needed to go to the other side of the table so I wouldn't be in between them and their goofing around. Almost immediately after I finished saying that they both reached over and kind of slapped my arm and both laughed. They are so much a like that they have trouble getting along so it was great to see them both having a good time, getting along and all of us laughing and RELAXING for once.

This is the 3rd year that the radio station has had this truck show but the first time we have been able to attend as every year in the past we have been in Lincoln for a soccer tournament. We didn't go this year as several of the girls on the team had other commitments this weekend so they didn't have enough girls to field a team for the tournament.

It was really great to be able to go out and have a good time as a family and have my husband and daughter getting along and not fighting or irritating each other. I am hoping that we can do more of this in the future, finances permitting. We really didn't have the money to do this today but decided that was something that we wanted to do and needed to do for relaxation. The cost for the truck show was only $3/person if you went to the show before 5 pm and then you could leave and get back in for the music for free which was a very reasonable and minimal cost. The thing that cost the most was our drinks at the dance as you had to buy them there (they don't allow any outside food or drinks brought in).

Well anyway a fun and relaxing day for once and everyone getting along. HOW GREAT. Hopefully it will be more frequent.

Needless to say my husband and I will have to practice our dance steps so we know what we are doing the next time we get a chance to go dancing again.

  
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MIMZY08 5/31/2009 9:46AM

    Great blog! Its great when our families can take time to relax and enjoy each other! I'm so glad you enjoyed the time together!

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HALOKITTY06 5/31/2009 7:28AM

    Sounds like you had a lot of fun! A truck show would've been cool to see.

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Dr. happy with results

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I went to the neurologist today for my 2 month checkup. When he came into the room he asked how I was doing. I told him fine until I pushed the lawn mower on Saturday and now I am hurting. He asked where and I showed him where my back was hurting. After looking at my chart he noticed that I had lost more weight since my last visit and commented on it. I told him it would have been more if I hadn't gained 7 pounds the week that my dad passed away. After explaining what happened and how my family acted he asked me what changes I had made that I have been "so successful in my weight loss" so he could tell some of his other patients that may be having trouble with their weight loss programs. I told him about SparkPeople and explained a little bit about it. I also told him that I was trying to eat 4-6 small meals a day instead of 3 large ones and that I have been trying to eat at least 1 and up to 3 servings of pistachios daily. I have noticed that when I was eating 1-3 servings a day I was losing weight faster than when I stopped. We talked a little more and then he gave me my B12 and cortisone shots. I told him that I had found a letter to take to the doctor explaining about SparkPeople and that I could get him a copy of it if he would like to see it. He said yes so I have been trying to find it now that I got back home and haven't been able to find the letter in SparkPeople anywhere. I don't remember where I found it and printed the one that I had taken to my general practitioner. I guess I will keep looking so I can get the information to him and "spread the Spark"!!!!

  
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NANA2THEMOON 5/21/2009 7:42PM

    I am so glad things are going better for you. Keep up the good work.

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SUNNYGAL2011 5/20/2009 11:45AM

    Congrats on your successful docs visit !!!
I am so happy for you!!!
Keep up the great work!!
take care
God bless
your friend
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Another bad weekend

Sunday, May 17, 2009

This is the second weekend in a row that hasn't been good. To start off, I left the house this morning to take DD to her soccer game and as I walked around my car to the driver's side I noticed that someone had spray painted my back door on the drivers side. I sent her to the house to her her dad as I called the police. He came out and looked at it and we sent our daughter to look at our other cars to see if any others had been vandalized. Luckily none had and we didn't notice that any of the other cars on our street had been hit either. He took her to the soccer field while I waited for the police to come take a report. After they made their report I headed to the soccer field. After her game and the game she had to referee we came home and fixed lunch. After eating I ended up going out to mow as my DH was at the garden planting and DD was too interested in what was on TV. She asked what I was doing and I told her that I was mowing as the landlord had just mowed (landlord lives next door) and since our yard was so high they probably would be mowing it for us and getting upset because we hadn't mowed. I went outside and mowed half of the front and along the north side before she decided to take over. I figure I had mowed for about 15-20 minutes. When she took over I came into the house and checked on my laundry. The load in the machine was done so I took it outside and hung it on the line. While I was downstairs at the washer I noticed water dripping. My DH came home and I told him to go downstairs and look at the mess. He came up saying that the sewer was backing up again. I told him that the landlord needed to be called. I also told him that the kitchen faucet needed to be replaced again also as it is spraying water everywhere. He called the landlord and she was busy getting ready for work so wasn't able to do anything about it.

I started supper then sat down for a while. Later after going to the basement, noticing that the water was dripping from above and hanging a couple more loads on the line I decided to check under the kitchen sink and found that everything under there was wet. Then I went into the bathroom and noticed water on the floor. Later while I was in the bathroom I heard a faint hissing. I started checking to see what was going on and noticed that the water intake for the toilet was spraying and that was where the water was coming from so I shut off the water supply. When I was outside I told my DH what had just happened. He called the landlord again and she said that she would send someone over tomorrow. So now we have to deal with the leaking toilet overnight and during the day tomorrow until she finally gets someone here to look at the 2 leaks.

I finished fixing supper and ate. After supper I fell asleep in the recliner for a while. When I woke up I could hardly move as I was in pain from doing the mowing earlier today. I decided to try some stretching to see about getting my back feeling better. I did about 10 minutes of stretching and a little more exercises and now have a headache in addition to being sore from mowing. Needless to say with my back the way it is pushing the lawn mower is not a good idea but had to get the lawn mowed so now I am feeling it. I still have to make my bed before I can go to sleep tonight

Hopefully tomorrow will be a much better day

  
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SUNNYGAL2011 5/19/2009 1:20PM

    ((((YOU))))) sending you hugs and prayers my friend...
seems like when it 'rains' it 'pours'......
I am hoping by now that your landlord has sent someone over to fix your leaks/pipes... and that you are feeling ALOT better and NOT sore from your weekend exercise of mowing...
Stretching was indeed a good move i think as it prolly relaxed your sore muscles somewhat...
again.. hope that you and yours are doing well and have a sparky week ahead
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