Tuesday, February 26, 2013
I was "Sparking", with my Youtube playlist going, when this song came on. I had to pause and get the link and share it.
There are things I would like, would like to do, places I would like to go, goals I would like to accomplish. But things happen.
I'd LIKE to get to 160 pounds...but I'm older now, the skin isn't so elastic, I've had four pregnancies, I've been way overweight - obese - and I can't afford (if I WANTED it) to have surgeries to cut away the excess skin.
I'd LIKE to continue taking trips by "lancha" between Pucallpa and Iquitos, and by "peque-peque" to visit more remote churches in the jungles of Peru, but the arthritis and probable hip replacement would make such a venture unwise.Wouldn't want to knock the new hip out of joint in the middle of nowhere!
(This is a video I made with scenes from such excursions)
I am working at bringing my weight down, trying to be more fit, and shall always do the best I can.
But more than anything, I want more of Jesus. If I don't have Him, what do the other things really matter? We will all pass from this life, no matter how HEALTHY we are. Death is inevitable. But in Jesus, it's not the end. This is our glorious hope!
Matt. 16:25-27 "For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul? For the Son of Man is going to come in his Fatherís glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what they have done."
Sunday, February 24, 2013
"Surely the Sovereign Lord does nothing without revealing his plan to his servants the prophets." (Amos 3:7)
Since my salvation I have been active in churches - some denominational, others not so - where we still believe that God speaks through His prophets, and God uses His people to prophesy even though they may not hold the office of prophet. Speaking prophetically can be revelatory of what God is going to do, or can be as guidance. And it has to be examined by the person(s) to whom it is spoken - because there are those who speak out of the flesh, or who are mistaken in their perception/discernment. But I have received enough personal prophetic words to know God still acts in this way.
When Jesus the Messiah came to us the first time around, His coming was foretold by prophets, and the new testament points to His coming as fulfilling such prophecies. Just the first 2 chapters of Matthew, which I was reading today, pointed to four distinct prophets.
And the book of Acts and the epistles speak of prophecies. I was just discussing spiritual gifts withLevi. He'd had some bad experiences with people prophesying in the name of the Lord - for their personal gain, or to expose others' sins; and also encountered the attitude that if you don't speak in tongues you don't have the Holy Spirit. So I read to him from 1 Cor. 14 : Follow the way of love and eagerly desire gifts of the Spirit, ESPECIALLY PROPHECY [my emphasis]... . 3...the one who prophesies speaks to people for their strengthening, encouraging and comfort. 4... the one who prophesies edifies the church. 5 I would like every one of you to speak in tongues, but I would rather have you prophesy. The one who prophesies is greater than the one who speaks in tongues, unless someone interprets, SO THAT THE CHURCH MAY BE EDIFIED.[emphasis mine].
Anyway, we had a very animated conversation, and after a while he commented that his neck was really hurting, and he asked how long we'd been on the phone. My phone has a little display that tells how long a conversation lasts - over an hour! So, I let him go.
But it was good ...so good...to be able to discuss such things with him.
Saturday, February 23, 2013
I couldn't reach Levi last night - at 10 pm he still hadn't arrived hjome from work. So I tried this morning before he would leave. We talked for about a half hour. I told him a bit about my "grievances." But I concluded that I was still willing. And so is he. But we're going ahead slowly - made easy by the distance. When the Lord allows me to return to Peru, my focus will be the ministry of visitation and encouragement. If He allows, I'll go to Pucallpa to visit Levi and the family...maybe even minister (I'll certainly be visiting!). If Levi can get time off, maybe he can join me ministering. But I'm not going to sweat it. It may take several years before things are finalized - he may never get to come to the States. But I only want to be where God wants me, in whatever season. And I want Levi also to be in the center of God's will, with me or without me.
I appreciate my pastora's counsel, and my friends' prayers.
Friday, February 22, 2013
Okay, so, I've been in touch with my ex's parents - 'cause I love them so much. And I haven't STOPPED loving Levi...I have certainly been praying a lot for him, especially for his relationship with the Lord, which matters more to me than his relationship with ME. I spoke to his mom today - "Mamita" I still call her. And she said she had some good news. She spoke to him, and he told her that he still loved me. She suggested I give him a call tonight when he comes home from work. I didn't promise anything. I told her I'd be praying. I emailed my pastora and asked for her counsel, and I called my friend Sabina in Lima - like my own sister, a pastora herself, and a powerful intercessor, whom the Lord has used to cover me in prayer so many times, in fact constantly. And I asked for her prayers too. So...I know DD Glitterfairy has anger against Levi for having hurt me (not physically) the same as I have towards her boyfriend for what he puts her through. While I at least know her BF and can understand some of what she sees in him, she DOESN'T know Levi, and so has only seen the effect he's had on me. She's seen me giddy in love, and she's seen me crushed and broken- hearted in tears. Well...I've got prayer back-up. I'm not going to bust my buns to make things happen. But I am going to talk to him. We'll see if my status changes back to "in a relationship." And I won't be in a rush to get back to Pucallpa - because there is work for me to do in other parts. Business before pleasure. Kingdom first.
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Well, my young friend ended up developing a migraine a couple of hours before we were going to the class on baptism, so I took him home. But he did enjoy the few hours he spent at my home - he said it was peaceful ("No yelling and arguing and cussing"). He watched me make a few animals, and got on his facebook account, and we watched a couple of movies. One was Hardflip, about a skateboarder and his struggles, with his single mom in the hospital. The other was Beware of Christians, which followed four college students trying to live out their faith during a trip to Europe. Of course, both with Christian theme, just to feed my friend - stuff he probably doesn't get at home. He may not get in on this particular baptism, but that's okay. He has time to grow. And I gave him a "Jesus" Bible ( which has small studies showing how Jesus is revealed in the OT, plus some devotionals throughout) to keep at home. I'm going to start bringing a Bible to school with me - since my present assignment doesn't have computers in the classroom (love Biblegateway.com) - so when he stops by to see me, if he wants, we can cover some passages. If HE wants to. No pushing on my part - gotta respect the laws of the land.
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