Monday, May 14, 2007
Well, I'm not sure the exact spelling...somehow that doesn't look right...it's that Italian pastry, made from a waffly type cookie, rolled and stuffed with a sweet cream-cheesy flavored confection and this one was coated with dark chocolate. Well, it didn't kill me of course. I had done very well even since Friday, and this was the last temptation I faced and this one I yielded to. After all, I never buy the things, and they are seldom in my sphere, so I decided to enjoy it. I have continued my workouts faithfully, even going beyond the goal of calorie burning.
I'm planning ahead for the trip to Peru. I'll be bringing the one resistance band because of its portability, and at least one of the cardio dvd's (all 3 if Abi doesn't thnk she'll use them) I'm glad Foreman was blessed with a dvd player. He also got a refrigerator for Yeli for Mother's Day so he can keep my yogurt and fruit therein (and the cheese and chocolate I bring to hiim!)There's one kind of yogurt, from a fruit which looks similar to an avocado but its flesh is orange. I forget its name, something like Lucuma, VERY tasty...and Mango yogurt is good too. The yogurts there are all liquidy, drinkable, and I found them very beneficial when afflicted by travelers' diahrrhea. Fruits are more readily accesible than vegetables. Broccoli and carrots are expensive, but you can get tomatoes well enoough. And onions.
Chicken is very common, and of course fish - Iquitos is surrounded by rivers, and Lima is on the coast.
After the setback of the previous week I had finally worked my way back to the low weight. I grumble at myself occasionally for all the yo-yo-ing, but even now I consider that the skirt I have on I bought 20 pounds ago, and it was just a weeeeee bit snug, and now it fits just fine ("and soon, "she says by faith, "it shall be too large!")Getting there.
So, changed the pix AGAIN, to show some before and afters, as well as some of the fun of mission trips from last year and this, and family.
Monday, May 07, 2007
Okay, I had a bad week last week and the pounds just PILE on with such EASE, it's disgusting! Okay, I don't think I'll ever be THIN: skin loses its elasticiy, and I have years of extra-weight-stretched skin on belly and arms, so that'll just kinda stay...BUT I have touched down at 184.5, and I know I can get back - and go beyond. I will not let one bad week keep me from pressing on. I want to be able to keep up with the youth in Foreman's church when they're dancing joyfully before the Lord. Or as matt Redman sings, "I will dance, I will sing, to be mad for my King; Nothing, Lord, is hindering, this passion in my soul...And I'll become even more undignified than this." Let me be like Joshua and Caleb when they entered the Promised Land, their strength unabated by age. Hm, with the cardio and strength I've been doing (despite lapses in staying withing eating limits) I'm more fit than before (save for knees and ankles when on my feet too long - years of abuse from being overweight and at jobs on my feet hours at a time). No one said it would be easy...but it'll be worth it.
Friday, May 04, 2007
How's that go - "What you are is God's gift to you, what you become is your gift to God" - ? something like that. My daughter Abi asked me what I want for Mother's Day, and it was funny , I had to tell her I'd been focusing so much on what could I possibly give MY mother, that I hadn't thought about what I wanted. I tld her to write me a sappy letter. I'm very much into sentimental things. For one thing, i don't want any more "stuff' that I 'd just have to get rid of when I eventually move out of this house, especially if I'll be moving to Peru for part of the year. But a letter doesn't take much space. I also told her I wouldn't mind one of those Pepperidge Farm chocolate layer cakes - just once, get it out of my system!
There is a joy in giving that someone who is selfish and self-centered often cannot understand unitl and unless he is set free at least in part from that affliction (aka sin). Then giving can become such a pleasure that it is difficult to think about about what one wants to RECEIVE. Often when I get anything for myself it is with the thought of how I can give it. So many cd's have passed through my hands! I want a higher income so I can give more, not because I want more stuff. (yes I have a lot of debt with which I struggle - due to DH's helath and the medical bills they involve) As Chris Tomlin sings, "I wanna give like I have plenty." Not just materially. Giving of oneself is as important, if not more so. If I give of my time to you, I'm indicating to you that you have value to me. Giving my time in listening, writing, being with someone...
Lord, may I ever give You my most and best! With the self discipline I am learning through Spark, with the improved health and fitness, may I be a vessel that has ever increasing capacity to do those good works which You've prepared for me.
Which also leads me to the change in photos - one of the things God gave me is artistic ability. I've used it to earn some income for myself...and recently , voer the past few years, I've been offering it even more back to Him - using it as a form of worship. But what to do with the accumulated drawings? I didn't feel right just selling them as I do the other things I make and sell - that's my worship! BUT, if someone wants one because it touches his or her heart - well, let any income go to support missions. Again, giving back to God - this can benefit any otf the missions my church supports, including my own.
God so loved the world, He GAVE. I'll just follow that example.
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
I hadn't realized how much time had already passed since my last Blog!
Had been off track on my calorie consumption. I can guess that it has something to do with financial worries. I've told my friends in Peru the only way I am rich (in temporal things - because I am VERY rich in the things that last!) is in the ability to indeb myself. Haven't quite maxed out cards, but it's getting more difficult to make the minimum payments, with DH's meds and all. It is a blessing to have daughter and grands living with us, but it HAS put greater stress on my delicate budget. So, what do I do? I eat. The good thing is, I tried to keep it healthy. Salad. Whole grain cereal with skim milk! But calories are calories, and too many is still too many even if they are nutritious. So, by the grace of God, at least I've stayed under 190. I should be able to get back below 185 in a couple of days. I hadn't even exercised yesterday, beyond the walk to school, but at least I'd done extra previous days.
One thing that helps to get ones mind off of ones problems is hearing someone else's. I was chatting with Cesar last night - which in itself cheers me, to be able to cyber-visit with any of my spiritual kids - and after being able to tell him alittle about my petty woes, I turned my ears to hear his struggles, and to offer him counsel which left him feeling better. So, I also felt better.
In just a few more weeks I'll be back in Peru!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
We have our bad days. I know I have yo-yo'd so many times every five pounds. I was hoping to show a nice round weight loss of 75 pounds when I went Monday to the doctor who I mentioned in my intro. Okay, so instead of 187, I weighed in at 190, clothes on (no boots though!) But she was amazed and impressed and pleased, and wanted toknow how. Of course, I told her about Spark!
I still have a ways to go. i don't think I'll ever attain my pre-childbearing 145 - too many years of skin stretched past its elasticity. (And I'm neither vain nor rich enough to go for a "tummy tuck"!) But I'm getting these muscles in shape. I think I can say, aside from the bit of joint pain from years of abuse, I am actually more fit than I've ever been, because even at my lowest weight I was not as physically active as I am now. I have increased the size of the dumbbell by another 5 pounds; and I have increased the tension in the resistance bands. So, while the weight may be a bit slower in descending, it IS at least going in the right direction, and I feel good about that.
I expect that when I return to Peru in June, they'll see me at least 10 pounds less than Feb (those in Iquitos who didn't see me during my brief weekend there will actually see a much GREATER loss, since they saw me at 230 pounds last year).And I'll be able to keep up with the young folks in their energetic worship! Bring it on!
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