Friday, May 04, 2007
How's that go - "What you are is God's gift to you, what you become is your gift to God" - ? something like that. My daughter Abi asked me what I want for Mother's Day, and it was funny , I had to tell her I'd been focusing so much on what could I possibly give MY mother, that I hadn't thought about what I wanted. I tld her to write me a sappy letter. I'm very much into sentimental things. For one thing, i don't want any more "stuff' that I 'd just have to get rid of when I eventually move out of this house, especially if I'll be moving to Peru for part of the year. But a letter doesn't take much space. I also told her I wouldn't mind one of those Pepperidge Farm chocolate layer cakes - just once, get it out of my system!
There is a joy in giving that someone who is selfish and self-centered often cannot understand unitl and unless he is set free at least in part from that affliction (aka sin). Then giving can become such a pleasure that it is difficult to think about about what one wants to RECEIVE. Often when I get anything for myself it is with the thought of how I can give it. So many cd's have passed through my hands! I want a higher income so I can give more, not because I want more stuff. (yes I have a lot of debt with which I struggle - due to DH's helath and the medical bills they involve) As Chris Tomlin sings, "I wanna give like I have plenty." Not just materially. Giving of oneself is as important, if not more so. If I give of my time to you, I'm indicating to you that you have value to me. Giving my time in listening, writing, being with someone...
Lord, may I ever give You my most and best! With the self discipline I am learning through Spark, with the improved health and fitness, may I be a vessel that has ever increasing capacity to do those good works which You've prepared for me.
Which also leads me to the change in photos - one of the things God gave me is artistic ability. I've used it to earn some income for myself...and recently , voer the past few years, I've been offering it even more back to Him - using it as a form of worship. But what to do with the accumulated drawings? I didn't feel right just selling them as I do the other things I make and sell - that's my worship! BUT, if someone wants one because it touches his or her heart - well, let any income go to support missions. Again, giving back to God - this can benefit any otf the missions my church supports, including my own.
God so loved the world, He GAVE. I'll just follow that example.
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
I hadn't realized how much time had already passed since my last Blog!
Had been off track on my calorie consumption. I can guess that it has something to do with financial worries. I've told my friends in Peru the only way I am rich (in temporal things - because I am VERY rich in the things that last!) is in the ability to indeb myself. Haven't quite maxed out cards, but it's getting more difficult to make the minimum payments, with DH's meds and all. It is a blessing to have daughter and grands living with us, but it HAS put greater stress on my delicate budget. So, what do I do? I eat. The good thing is, I tried to keep it healthy. Salad. Whole grain cereal with skim milk! But calories are calories, and too many is still too many even if they are nutritious. So, by the grace of God, at least I've stayed under 190. I should be able to get back below 185 in a couple of days. I hadn't even exercised yesterday, beyond the walk to school, but at least I'd done extra previous days.
One thing that helps to get ones mind off of ones problems is hearing someone else's. I was chatting with Cesar last night - which in itself cheers me, to be able to cyber-visit with any of my spiritual kids - and after being able to tell him alittle about my petty woes, I turned my ears to hear his struggles, and to offer him counsel which left him feeling better. So, I also felt better.
In just a few more weeks I'll be back in Peru!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
We have our bad days. I know I have yo-yo'd so many times every five pounds. I was hoping to show a nice round weight loss of 75 pounds when I went Monday to the doctor who I mentioned in my intro. Okay, so instead of 187, I weighed in at 190, clothes on (no boots though!) But she was amazed and impressed and pleased, and wanted toknow how. Of course, I told her about Spark!
I still have a ways to go. i don't think I'll ever attain my pre-childbearing 145 - too many years of skin stretched past its elasticity. (And I'm neither vain nor rich enough to go for a "tummy tuck"!) But I'm getting these muscles in shape. I think I can say, aside from the bit of joint pain from years of abuse, I am actually more fit than I've ever been, because even at my lowest weight I was not as physically active as I am now. I have increased the size of the dumbbell by another 5 pounds; and I have increased the tension in the resistance bands. So, while the weight may be a bit slower in descending, it IS at least going in the right direction, and I feel good about that.
I expect that when I return to Peru in June, they'll see me at least 10 pounds less than Feb (those in Iquitos who didn't see me during my brief weekend there will actually see a much GREATER loss, since they saw me at 230 pounds last year).And I'll be able to keep up with the young folks in their energetic worship! Bring it on!
Saturday, April 14, 2007
It's the love of God...because the purpose of losing weight is to be able to serve Him (as my expression of love to Him) through missions...representing His love to others. This next batch of pix represents what Love makes you do - that AGAPE, divine love shed abroad in our hearts through Christ, the expression of God's love incarnate.
Friday, April 13, 2007
It's a song title. Don't know who wrote it. Have heard it sung by Hillsong, we do it in our church.Heard it in Spanish too (just as lovely!) One of the lines that especially ministers to me is "Lord, I've come to know the weaknesses I see in me will be stripped away by the power of your love."
His love is the motivating force to get rid of the excess weight. When my doctor exhorted me to lose, she wasn't the first. I'd pretty much resigned myself to a matronly (euphemism for FAT) figure, thinking I wouldn't ever be terribly active. But the same love that motivates me to want to make missionary ventures to Peru, that knits my heart and spirit with so many people there - especially spiritual sons and daughters - gives me the impetus (euphemism for kick in the pants) to want to work at it - to do the cardio, the strength, the tracking - lest I be disabled through stroke or other health issues resulting from obesity.
Love makes you do all kinds of things.
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