Monday, January 13, 2014
Wow, I forgot how bad my magnesium intake is. Namely, it's zero! So, started taking my magnesium pills again.
Spent a few hours today cleaning my bedroom. Counted that as my exercise so that I wouldn't be too sore for work tomorrow. This'll be the first time I'll be in to work with coworkers since Tuesday of last week because of my pain issues. Wish me luck! Lol, shouldn't be too bad though, they're good people.
Watching Almost Human before heading to read before going to sleep. Sleep has been much better the last two nights because I have made it a point take my Trazadone. Almost out though. Better go get it refilled!
P.S. I was bad for dinner and had Ramen. Gluten Intolerance will make my tummy unhappy, but was too lazy to do anything else. I know one of my goals is to cook more, but after working on the ground and bending over so much, there was no way I could stand at the stove to do more than boil something. Tomorrow is a new day though! Lots of pasta and carbs today. Tomorrow I REALLY need to focus on my protein.
Loki says Hi!!
Saturday, January 11, 2014
Today my parents took the BF and I out for a belated birthday dinner. Well, belated for me but today is my dads birthday. We ended up going to a really good steak house, Ruby River.
I was thinking that I was going to be millions of calories over. So much butter and cheese and numminess! Surprisingly, I'm not that bad off. All told, the steak, the two sides and the drink were less than 800 calories.
Grand total of calories over today: 57. WOOT!!!!
Now, to work on my protein. I can't seem to take in enough. Any suggestion? (No nuts or gluten please. )
Well, off to -not- snack for the rest of the night!
Friday, January 10, 2014
Well, I just did my first deliberate exercising almost since I was last active on Sparkpeople. It was the 11 min cardio chair exercise.
Good news: I'm not nearly as out of shape now than I was when I initially started in 2012. My breath and heart rate quickened, but not to the point it was painful or really difficult to breath. I was able to mainly keep up with the videos pace.
Bad news: omgosh! It hurt! A lot! Not my arms, or my torso or even the muscles in my legs. It's the nerve damage. I think this is one of my MAJOR excuses to not move around too much. And a lot of the time, it's a really valid excuse. However, the not moving = keeping the excess weight = the leg never feeling better anyways. It's a vicious, never ending cycle. I've got to crawl my way out of it. (although crawling isn't an option either, really)
So, here's another question I have. Okay, not really a question, more of an observation. Yesterday was my first day back on the food tracker. I did really good as far as what I did before. I Was right in the correct section for carbs, fat, sodium and the others. Yet, I was short on my calories. (My fault for not eating breakfast I think. I just have such a hard time eating in the morning!)
Yesterday I didn't have any trouble eating healthy. Even skipped some chocolate right before bed! Today is a different story. It seems like whenever I am on a diet and actually paying attention to what I eat is when I start craving all the bad stuff!! I could really use some bacon right now. Before the journal, I could happily not even think about breakfast and not want something fatty and greasy.
Is this simply because I am actually thinking about it and it is in the front of my conscious. I am forced to think about ingesting, so I automatically think about ingesting all the yummy for your tummy- bad for you food? I think that very well may be it.
So, my goal for the next week- Sleep!! I have some sleeping pills to help, but I push back my bedtime for so long, that it isn't feasible to take them anymore. I need to set an alarm, or maybe just take them when my son goes to bed. (We do make him keep to a pretty strict bedtime schedule) I know, and have known for a while, how important sleep is to weight management, depression and pain management.
The problem before was, I didn't care about taking care of myself. This is one of the things I am trying to change. For only when you can take care of yourself, can you take care of those whom you love.
Thursday, January 09, 2014
I hadn't realized how long it had been since I had been on here. I kept thinking "It's only been a little while." and "I'm doing okay with my eating."
But guess what! Nope, no I haven't been. Of course you don't when you don't journal. You always think you're doing okay but then you forget about that string cheese you had at work, and that juice, and those tortilla chips and salsa, and that handful of gummy bears.......
My weight has been up and even down a little, but fairly consistent until the holidays. But slowly, slowly, it's been creeping back. It's time to start doing something healthy for myself again. Some medical issues have been giving me a hard time. They always will, but the weight makes them all that more painful and prevalent. Exercising hurts like hell and kicks my ass, but I know I feel better when I do it.
This is not a new years resolution, nor something I'm making myself do, nor something that anyone else is expecting me to do. This is something that I want to do and need to do for myself. Something's gotta change cause where I am at right now is just not cutting it anymore. I'm tired, and sick, tired of being sick and just tired of things in general. I need to make this first step towards change cause no one else is going to do it for me. I've made this first step before and I will probably be making it again in the future, but for now, this is good enough for me.
Not necessarily satisfying yet, but it will be.
It will be.
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