Thursday, February 11, 2010
OK, Surgery. Went well. I guess. I hate having surgery, but then who does? (you said yes, please seek professional help) Alright, back to my surgery. Well, doctor reports to hubby right afterward, I get this translation: She said that she took care of everything and it went well". What does that mean? I wait a week, go back to see the doc and she shows me pictures of my fallopian tubes, my ovaries.. you get the picture. She says look here on the left, see those spots, that's the endometriosis, not much there, took care of all of that. Then I see the right side......yeah. That's where most of the little red spots were. No wonder 90% of my pain was on the right side. To this she tells me there was too much to cauterize. Yes, by this time, I'm shocked, what happened to Hubby's version of she took care of it all, and it's all done and fine??? (His defense later was, I said that she did what she could do when she was in there and it all went fine.) OK, move on to the pictures of my inside of my uterus. The ablation went well, lining all gone, no heavy periods for a while, if any. I can live with that, but what about the little spots that are still there??? Doc goes on to next page of pics, but can't find the one she wants to find. She is concerned with how my uterus looked when she applied pressure. Forgive me for not remembering the name she used for it (I'm still a bit flustered by the little red spots I still have inside me), but there is a condition in which the muscles of the uterus retain blood and that can cause lots of pain also. To put an absoulutely wonderful ending to this doctor visit, she removes my stitches, which I was told would dissolve in a few weeks. She sees no reason not to remove them, except they have grown into my skin just a bit. Ouch! the one at my pantie line she was able to get loose and pull out. The one in my belly button is another story, in fact, to this day, I still have a bit of "dissolving stitches" sticking out of my belly button. I need to show that to her next week when I am there.
So by now, you have moved on to a more exciting blog, or you're wondering what happens now? Well, on a side note, that doctor's appt. was on Dec. 23rd. I woke up Dec. 26th with a nice case of bronchitis which hung out with me well into the new year. Hurray! (note the sarcasm that just doesn't come out on the written page so well) Options now for those little red spots and now a possible blood retention in my uterus muscles? They call is Lupron. I get a shot in the rump once a month for 6 months, it causes me to go through menopause..... sorta. Sorta how? well, I will stop having periods, possibly suffer bone loss, have hot flashes, night sweats and all the other lovely symptoms that can come with menopause. Only difference is that 2 months after treatment ends, periods return, everything back to normal with the exception of the little red spots and the possible blood retention.
Now it's February and the only good thing to say is that due to the ablation and D&C while I was out and she happened to be playing around with my female organs, I haven't had a period since the week before my surgery, and I started the shots last month, so I don't think I'll be having another one for several months (yay for no periods at all this summer). So now, I wait to see if this works.
But what if it doesn't? (are you asking that question yet?) If things go back to the way the were pre-surgery, I go in to have the uterus removed. That's last resort for endomtriosis. I almost wish they would have just removed it instead of cutting my tubes 14 years ago.... sheesh, if I'd known the problems that organ was to cause me.... *slap's forehead*.
Since then I've had to get better from the surgery, deal with constant coughing for over a month, a sick son for about a week, and now the viral infection that sent me to the E.R. on Tuesday night during the big snow storm... well it was almost over by then.
I am still struggling to be motivated to get up and move around, although eating right and drinking my water are not an issue. I seem to be stuck with my weight loss. I do think that coming back to this website is keeping me at least pointed in the right direction, but I really just want to feel good for a while. I hate being sick, but it seems to be all I can seem to do right lately. Enough with the pity party, hopefully this snow will hurry up and melt, spring will come and I can get out and walk some more. I do at least do that once a week, if the temps stay warm enough that I don't get frost bite, that is.
Keep praying for me. I'll keep it up for you all. I think I've put all the words down that I can for now. (I'm not so good at this blogging thing.... but check out the adorable pics my sis posted on her blog =P.... gotta be proud of the gorgeous nephew) I also apologize for not posting an update sooner, just feeling down and wasn't sure everyone wanted to read about it.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Well here it is, the morning after surgery. I slept most of the day after I got home, so now it's the before the butt-crack of dawn and I'm wide awake. I do admit a little bit of a haze from the meds, but I've spent more time n the bed than I can stand at the moment.
Surgery was a success! She went in, took care of business and was able to clean up what needed clean out and I should be having a much easier time each month now. As soon as I heal that is. I'm hoping that I am moving around a lot easier in a few days, last time I had then perform a laporscopy on me, I was 26 and healing took place much faster. (when they did my tubal)
I did get a bit of humor yesterday, both when my mom called me after work and woke me and I spoke to my friend last night. My mom called when she got off work and of course I was sleeping, I asked her why she called so early, my clock said 6 and it was still dark... it took her a minute to explain to a very groggy me that is was 6pm! Then when I talked to my friend, who I had left a message on her cell when I came home, she got to tell me how cute I sounded when I told her I was home from sugery and was going to have me a bowl of sleep and go to soup.... LOL!!!
Thank you to all of you who prayed for me, keep it up, I am wanting the recovery to go fast, I can't exercise or do any walking until I heal quite a bit.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Lately I have been really feeling blah. Yes, blah. I can't seem to get into an exercise routine, I don't eat enough, or not enough of the right stuff, so that is making me feel blah.
Ya see, it started with the fact that last week was horrible for me. I've been having problems with my oldest daughter, who is thinks I don't know anything about life in high school. (Like I've never been there before.... *sigh*)
It was not a good time for her to act up, since I was having my "bad week". I haven't shared about my problems to many, and now here are I publishing it on the world wide web, sorta weird. During the last year or so, every month I get worse and worse. (caution ugly details coming) The doc thinks I have endometriosis, which is causing me to have the worst time each month. Let me tell ya, I had two children without the use of pain killers and I am having a hard time just functioning with the pains I have each month. Put that on top of nausea, fever, body aches, depression and toss in an occasional migraine and that's how my life goes for one week each month. I haven't bounced back from this last one. I still can't sleep right and eat right. *sigh* The thing that is keeping me going now is that the doctor thinks she can fix my problems with a "procedure" (since when do that not call them surgeries anymore?), that will take place next month.
In the mean time, I have been sitting here reading blogs and posts several times a day. It keeps my mind in the right place. So keep blogging, keep posting, it really does help to have friends traveling the same road to a healthy living.
Oh, I did mention good in my title, that would be that I have lost 9 pounds so far! (there's always something good to find in every situation.)
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
This isn't gonna be a long entry, just a note to say how good I felt today after seeing a friend of mine. She asked me if I was on a diet, cuz "You look great!" I just stood there, like really? My husband tells me that all the time, but when someone else notices it, it means so much more.
Between that and all the wonderful comments I've gotten here the last few days, I'm feeling so much better than my last blog entry. Thanks everyone!!
Monday, November 02, 2009
Here it is a new month and I am still struggling to keep on track. This weekend was horrible since it was both halloween and my anniversary, there were too many temptations. I also used the excuse of my computer problems to stop tracking my nutrition. The only thing I can say is that I am still drinking my water, one goal accomplished and keeping it up. I have avoided my scale, I just know that it's gonna tell me that I have slipped a few pounds back on. This sets me back into my depression and no matter how many people (I love them for trying) tell me "you are not fat", "you still are beautiful", and "why would you need to lose weight", they just don't understand that I still feel fat. No matter how others view me, I still have a picture of myself in my head that is not flattering.
So, new month, time to get back on track and utilize the tools I have in front of me.
I am setting a goal of tracking my nutrition, if I go over, I try not to beat myself up, but to learn from it and move on.
I am keeping up on drinking my water.
I will get motivated and get myself moving. Too often I get feeling down and start slothing around. I need to move!
I am pulling my family into this. Up until now, I have been watching what I eat and my family has been eating different meals... no more, they can eat healthier foods too.
It does look like much when I type it on the screen, but it is a whole lot for me.
It's a start that I'm praying will turn into a routine that sticks with me.
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