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Recovery, Treatment and everything in between (warning guys: contains intimate discussion of female

Thursday, February 11, 2010

OK, Surgery. Went well. I guess. I hate having surgery, but then who does? (you said yes, please seek professional help) Alright, back to my surgery. Well, doctor reports to hubby right afterward, I get this translation: She said that she took care of everything and it went well". What does that mean? I wait a week, go back to see the doc and she shows me pictures of my fallopian tubes, my ovaries.. you get the picture. She says look here on the left, see those spots, that's the endometriosis, not much there, took care of all of that. Then I see the right side......yeah. That's where most of the little red spots were. No wonder 90% of my pain was on the right side. To this she tells me there was too much to cauterize. Yes, by this time, I'm shocked, what happened to Hubby's version of she took care of it all, and it's all done and fine??? (His defense later was, I said that she did what she could do when she was in there and it all went fine.) OK, move on to the pictures of my inside of my uterus. The ablation went well, lining all gone, no heavy periods for a while, if any. I can live with that, but what about the little spots that are still there??? Doc goes on to next page of pics, but can't find the one she wants to find. She is concerned with how my uterus looked when she applied pressure. Forgive me for not remembering the name she used for it (I'm still a bit flustered by the little red spots I still have inside me), but there is a condition in which the muscles of the uterus retain blood and that can cause lots of pain also. To put an absoulutely wonderful ending to this doctor visit, she removes my stitches, which I was told would dissolve in a few weeks. She sees no reason not to remove them, except they have grown into my skin just a bit. Ouch! the one at my pantie line she was able to get loose and pull out. The one in my belly button is another story, in fact, to this day, I still have a bit of "dissolving stitches" sticking out of my belly button. I need to show that to her next week when I am there.

So by now, you have moved on to a more exciting blog, or you're wondering what happens now? Well, on a side note, that doctor's appt. was on Dec. 23rd. I woke up Dec. 26th with a nice case of bronchitis which hung out with me well into the new year. Hurray! (note the sarcasm that just doesn't come out on the written page so well) Options now for those little red spots and now a possible blood retention in my uterus muscles? They call is Lupron. I get a shot in the rump once a month for 6 months, it causes me to go through menopause..... sorta. Sorta how? well, I will stop having periods, possibly suffer bone loss, have hot flashes, night sweats and all the other lovely symptoms that can come with menopause. Only difference is that 2 months after treatment ends, periods return, everything back to normal with the exception of the little red spots and the possible blood retention.

Now it's February and the only good thing to say is that due to the ablation and D&C while I was out and she happened to be playing around with my female organs, I haven't had a period since the week before my surgery, and I started the shots last month, so I don't think I'll be having another one for several months (yay for no periods at all this summer). So now, I wait to see if this works.

But what if it doesn't? (are you asking that question yet?) If things go back to the way the were pre-surgery, I go in to have the uterus removed. That's last resort for endomtriosis. I almost wish they would have just removed it instead of cutting my tubes 14 years ago.... sheesh, if I'd known the problems that organ was to cause me.... *slap's forehead*.

Since then I've had to get better from the surgery, deal with constant coughing for over a month, a sick son for about a week, and now the viral infection that sent me to the E.R. on Tuesday night during the big snow storm... well it was almost over by then.

I am still struggling to be motivated to get up and move around, although eating right and drinking my water are not an issue. I seem to be stuck with my weight loss. I do think that coming back to this website is keeping me at least pointed in the right direction, but I really just want to feel good for a while. I hate being sick, but it seems to be all I can seem to do right lately. Enough with the pity party, hopefully this snow will hurry up and melt, spring will come and I can get out and walk some more. I do at least do that once a week, if the temps stay warm enough that I don't get frost bite, that is.

Keep praying for me. I'll keep it up for you all. I think I've put all the words down that I can for now. (I'm not so good at this blogging thing.... but check out the adorable pics my sis posted on her blog =P.... gotta be proud of the gorgeous nephew) I also apologize for not posting an update sooner, just feeling down and wasn't sure everyone wanted to read about it.

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MAMABLUEEYEZ3 7/22/2010 11:28AM

    I found i have endiometreiosis in march 2009. I had surgry, then april i got pregnant with my last child. So i had alot of pain for the frist three months. I am on birth control now. Doctors say it will control it. But i think it's back. And if i have to have another surgy (although i am only 26) they just can take it all. I don't want anymore kids. LOL. I hope you start to feel better.

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    UGH! Sometimes being a woman is such a pain. I'm glad to see you haven't lost your sarcastic sense of humor about it. I'm sure that your body will figure out it's new "norm" soon. I'll be keeping you in my prayers.

As far as the weight loss--this is all just a part of the journey. You could just throw in the towel and eat bon bons and watch tv all day. Or, you can do the best you can do right now-with what your body can do right now. I walk at the mall when I can, but like you, I can't wait to be able to walk outside! I am learning that my weight loss is just gonna be at a stall for the winter. I'm okay with it, for now. Maybe next winter, I won't be and I'll break down and join a gym. We'll see.

Keep up the good work and the good healing. Hugs, Jenn

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BUTTERCUP76 2/11/2010 1:14PM

    Great blog, glad to see you putting your thoughts out there to be read. It really helps. I have said many times maybe I should just have all my parts removed. LOL So I know what you mean there.
I'm sure everything will work out and yay to no period even if it is temporary.

Thanks for the plug about my blog, Matt was so cute. I had to get some pics.

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MARYMAC45 2/11/2010 10:34AM

    I am praying that you get through this quickly and in good shape. Good luck and feel well.

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LINDACHRISTIE 2/11/2010 8:53AM

    Get better soon. I never had any of the symptoms that goes with the menopause until I was put on a low dose of HRT for keeping away any of the breast cancer cells. See what happens when I come of the treatment in 2 1/2 years.

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LADYRAVEN1963 2/11/2010 6:35AM

    Keeping you in thought....that's rough, the Endo thing...I had it wrapped around my Appendicts...that hurt!

The sort-of Menopause thing is WONDERFUL (unless you're wanting kids)...I'm in it for almost 4 yrs and LOVE IT...even the night sweats..saves on heat at night! LOL..

Take care and do take care of yourself..

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    Hon, I am sorry that you are having to go through all of this. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers in hopes that you will soon be feeling better. Take care of yourself!

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Friday, December 18, 2009

Well here it is, the morning after surgery. I slept most of the day after I got home, so now it's the before the butt-crack of dawn and I'm wide awake. I do admit a little bit of a haze from the meds, but I've spent more time n the bed than I can stand at the moment.

Surgery was a success! She went in, took care of business and was able to clean up what needed clean out and I should be having a much easier time each month now. As soon as I heal that is. I'm hoping that I am moving around a lot easier in a few days, last time I had then perform a laporscopy on me, I was 26 and healing took place much faster. (when they did my tubal)

I did get a bit of humor yesterday, both when my mom called me after work and woke me and I spoke to my friend last night. My mom called when she got off work and of course I was sleeping, I asked her why she called so early, my clock said 6 and it was still dark... it took her a minute to explain to a very groggy me that is was 6pm! Then when I talked to my friend, who I had left a message on her cell when I came home, she got to tell me how cute I sounded when I told her I was home from sugery and was going to have me a bowl of sleep and go to soup.... LOL!!!

Thank you to all of you who prayed for me, keep it up, I am wanting the recovery to go fast, I can't exercise or do any walking until I heal quite a bit.


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BUTTERCUP76 12/18/2009 9:41AM

    I can't help but laugh, cause I talked to you yesterday too and you were just a bit grogy. I'm glad to hear your doing better.
Talk to you later, If you need any thing just call me I'm off today, Sat and Sun.

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STOPTHECRAVING 12/18/2009 8:06AM

    Take care. Hope you are up and recovered quickly.

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TEDDYTEDDY 12/18/2009 6:46AM

    Surgery is no fun...and I have had plenty...having some in about a week on my hand, then the other hand, then a 2nd knee replacement (1st was done 6 months ago)...That's just in the past year....

Get plenty of rest and don't watch too much t.v. (it is fattening, especially the commericals)...

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The good the bad and the blahs....

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Lately I have been really feeling blah. Yes, blah. I can't seem to get into an exercise routine, I don't eat enough, or not enough of the right stuff, so that is making me feel blah.

Ya see, it started with the fact that last week was horrible for me. I've been having problems with my oldest daughter, who is thinks I don't know anything about life in high school. (Like I've never been there before.... *sigh*)
It was not a good time for her to act up, since I was having my "bad week". I haven't shared about my problems to many, and now here are I publishing it on the world wide web, sorta weird. During the last year or so, every month I get worse and worse. (caution ugly details coming) The doc thinks I have endometriosis, which is causing me to have the worst time each month. Let me tell ya, I had two children without the use of pain killers and I am having a hard time just functioning with the pains I have each month. Put that on top of nausea, fever, body aches, depression and toss in an occasional migraine and that's how my life goes for one week each month. I haven't bounced back from this last one. I still can't sleep right and eat right. *sigh* The thing that is keeping me going now is that the doctor thinks she can fix my problems with a "procedure" (since when do that not call them surgeries anymore?), that will take place next month.

In the mean time, I have been sitting here reading blogs and posts several times a day. It keeps my mind in the right place. So keep blogging, keep posting, it really does help to have friends traveling the same road to a healthy living.

Oh, I did mention good in my title, that would be that I have lost 9 pounds so far! (there's always something good to find in every situation.)

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BUTTERCUP76 11/19/2009 8:14PM

    It must run in the family, I have had the same problems for years now. The Dr. wanted to do some "procedure" on me about 3 1/2 years ago, but added that he would not do it without doing a tubal first because I could not run the risk of getting pregnant again. (basically after the "procedure" your egg can still fertilize, but you can't carry the baby-big health risk for me) Well lets just say back then I was not ready to be in a situation of being told I could not have any more babies, even if at that time I had not planned on having any more babies. And as you know now we have Olivia who is almost 2. (So much for we're not having any more, LOL) After Olivia I had my tubes tied, but still have not been back to look in to having the "procedure" done. I every month go through pain and all that crap. Not to mention the flash floods I have (sorry to be so graphic, but that's where you can change your pad and were talking industrial size, and in 15 minutes your running for the bathroom cause your already soaking through, and forget tampons that's not even an option).
So honey I feel your pain, I have your pain.
I think pushing myself when I'm feeling this way to exercise, and eat better actually has helped me get through it better. It takes a lot of effort, and I really have to push myself hard just to do a little. But I always remind myself it is worth it, because I am worth it! And you are worth it too! Keep your head up it will get better.
Sorry I just wrote you a book to read! :P

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MAMAEAGLE 11/19/2009 11:37AM

    Thanks Jenn, I knew you'd be by to add some encouraging comments. Yes that is one of the things the doc is doing while she's "fiddling around" down there. She figures if nothing else, it will help. Of course it's gonna be a whole bunch of tests and stuff since I'm already gonna be asleep. I guess better than if I'm awake to feel it (she tried to to a biopsy while I was awake.... never again!)

As for it possibly being cysts, the ultrasounds show nothing on the ovaries, she says that the symptoms point the other way. Either which, yes, it will be dealt with and hopefully be better after this. BTW, it's happening on Dec 17th, so I have to be ready for Christmas early... ugh!

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STOPTHECRAVING 11/19/2009 7:09AM

    Procedure? Surgery? The name doesn't really matter as long as it helps! I have a few friends who have had some "stuff done down there". A couple had ablations. They laser your uterus so that you don't get your period anymore. They have loved it. I guess it's less invasive than hard core surgery. They had cramping for a few days after the "procedure", but have been pain-free ever since. I hope you feel better soon. It is no fun being on a "normal" period, but when it's worse than normal-watch out! Hugs to you, Jenn

CONGRATULATIONS on the poundage GONE!!!!! emoticon

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JCFENIM 11/19/2009 2:59AM

  Hmm... I had a similar problem a few years back (just miserable, really) and I'd suffered through it for a long time (my doc kept telling me I'd been spoiled by the light and easy times that the pill brought) but then one day I went to see someone who diagnosed cysts. I hadn't realized how miserable I was ALL the time until I had the cysts removed... It was unbelievable.

I don't know if it's cysts with you, but it might be worth looking into.

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An awesome feeling!

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

This isn't gonna be a long entry, just a note to say how good I felt today after seeing a friend of mine. She asked me if I was on a diet, cuz "You look great!" I just stood there, like really? My husband tells me that all the time, but when someone else notices it, it means so much more.

Between that and all the wonderful comments I've gotten here the last few days, I'm feeling so much better than my last blog entry. Thanks everyone!!

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BUTTERCUP76 11/4/2009 9:33PM

    It feels good to have people tell you nice things. Especially when it's not family, You know they always want something so it may not always be truthful. LOL

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    Yea! What a great feeling! Keep up your great work.

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PAPRINIKA 11/4/2009 9:08PM

    I know that feeling! Having someone who you don't meet often to compliment you feels much more real, the impact is greater.

Keep it up!

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A new month

Monday, November 02, 2009

Here it is a new month and I am still struggling to keep on track. This weekend was horrible since it was both halloween and my anniversary, there were too many temptations. I also used the excuse of my computer problems to stop tracking my nutrition. The only thing I can say is that I am still drinking my water, one goal accomplished and keeping it up. I have avoided my scale, I just know that it's gonna tell me that I have slipped a few pounds back on. This sets me back into my depression and no matter how many people (I love them for trying) tell me "you are not fat", "you still are beautiful", and "why would you need to lose weight", they just don't understand that I still feel fat. No matter how others view me, I still have a picture of myself in my head that is not flattering.

So, new month, time to get back on track and utilize the tools I have in front of me.

I am setting a goal of tracking my nutrition, if I go over, I try not to beat myself up, but to learn from it and move on.
I am keeping up on drinking my water.
I will get motivated and get myself moving. Too often I get feeling down and start slothing around. I need to move!
I am pulling my family into this. Up until now, I have been watching what I eat and my family has been eating different meals... no more, they can eat healthier foods too.

It does look like much when I type it on the screen, but it is a whole lot for me.
It's a start that I'm praying will turn into a routine that sticks with me.


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BUTTERCUP76 11/3/2009 1:40PM

    Don't worry, I won't tell you "your not fat", I know you are! LOL just kidding, I have earned the right as your sister to tell you that! (And you know I'm kidding) I of all people understand exactly how you feel, I have been there done that. As you know I finally had enough and have said enough is enough. I AM TIRED OF BEING FAT!!! and that's what I said on July 6th, 2009 and that is the day I changed my life forever!!!
I am down 34 pounds, and I am not stopping there. You know I have struggled with my weight all my adult life and I am not gonna let it bring me down any more. I will admit I had a really hard time in my first month, I cried numerous times saying I can't do this. I got lucky enough to have someone in my life who told me over and over that I could do it and with his support (now he's lost 25 pounds too) and all the support of my spark friends I am doing it. Here I am rambling again, Well you know I am here to support you and tell your family to get off their butts and give you the support you need. Jac has also lost a lot of weight too, all because of the better meals we eat in our house now. Sure they still have things I wouldn't think of touching, but they also get the good stuff too.

When you get a minute go to Tubbyhubby340's page (he's on my friends list) read his blog about being allergic to fat, it's pretty funny I really like his way of thinking on this.
Chat with you later.

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IMREADYTODOIT 11/3/2009 12:02AM

    Great goals! Way to get the family eating healthier meals as well!

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GMACAMI 11/3/2009 12:00AM

    Congratulations on your first blog. Keep up the good work. The more you put into you program (blogging, huddling, tracking food and exercise minutes, posting on your team pages, earning spark points) the more you will get out of your program- besides weight loss, you will get emotional support, friends who understand exactly what you are going through, accountability, focus, dependability...and the list goes on...


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HISHANDS 11/2/2009 11:50PM

    Mama, be of good cheer! You are among friends here. Remember that this is not a temporary trip, but a lifetime journey. Some days will be good, some will be bad. We are shooting for more good days than bad ones and you still come out ahead!

We can do this! emoticon

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