Saturday, December 15, 2012
I'm about to find out!! Lol, I have a colonoscopy on monday. I meant to do it last year when I turned 50 but somehow didn't get around to it. Tomorrow I will spend my day "prepping" then Monday have the procedure. Blehhhhhh. I'm not worried about it, i just hate losing a few days when I could be doing stuff.
You know what annoys me most? Not getting to go to the movies tomorrow and having to stay home all day! Such a waste of a weekend!!!
Tune In tomorrow for Sunday check in
Thursday, December 13, 2012
I have been baking like crazy. Every year, I give food baskets to some suppliers and business people. This year, I have 7 that I am doing. I always make pumpkin bread (family recipe), cookies, cake balls, candy... you know, all the STUFF I SHOULD BE STAYING AWAY FROM!
I am really feeling under the gun. All my energies have poured toward last saturdays party and now I feel like I am not ready for christmas or baking or winter or... anything. I am starting to stress out which is interrupting my sleep, I have a kink in my neck and Im starting to get crabby. SO I thought I would get a jump on the baking. I already decided to let Safeway do my cookie baking since that comes home with Kady from work and it will be good enough.
I got all the stuff and after dinner, even though I was tired, I made a double batch of pumpkin bread. When I put it in the pans, I thought it looked funny but went ahead and baked it.
As I mixed another double batch (pat on back, Jan! You are NAILING THIS PUMPKIN BREAD), I realized..... I had not put the oil into the first batch. Oh well, I would just see how it turned out. When I got it out and sliced it up, it looked a little fluffy but tasted good so I figured GREAT! I will label this LOW FAT pumpkin bread and give it away!
Next batch goes in, it, too, looks funny. When I took IT out, it was a massive failure. Really dense, didnt rise but again, tasted pretty good. Then I realized, no baking soda or baking powder! DOH!
That was not going to be ok to give away. I started thinking about what I could do with all this defective bread and wasted ingredients and more importantly, wasted time! I was NOT throwing it away. So I turned to the best Baker I know...
She brilliantly came up with about 4 things I could do...bread pudding, bread crumbs in meatloaf, and a couple of others.
So today, I had a few hours and I made the pumpkin bread again. Slowly, carefully, thoughtfully. It is baking now.
But as I cleaned up, and looked at those mistakes, I realized something.
This is just like life. I made a mistake. I hurried. I didnt plan properly. I rushed through without care. And now, Im making myself crazy trying to fix it.
You know what? I dont want to. I dont want to fix it. I don't want to try to make it better for me or for anyone else. I just....dont. I just threw it all in the trash.
IT WAS LIBERATING!
IT is OK that I messed up.
IT is OK that I can start over.
IT is OK that I had options but I still chose what worked best for me.
IT is OK that next year, I am NOT DOING IT! I am not baking for everyone and adding this to my already bursting at the seams schedule.
I am letting it go, one slice at a time.
Sunday, December 09, 2012
Well, last night was our big Christmas party. There were over 100 people here at one point! They were everywhere! Every bit of food was gone and I can assure you, I made a ton of it! We collected toys for underprivelaged kids and we have probably 200 toys! It was a great haul and will make alot of kids really happy on christmas morning.
My daughters Band played and we all gathered in my hubs garage and then in the middle of the set, her boyfriend asked her if she would spend eternity with him and gave her the ring he had picked out for her! It was very exciting, she cried, we cheered... It was just one of the best moments of our lives and one I will remember for a very long time!
We were all up till 3 or 4 this morning and there was a LOT of drinking and let me tell you, we are feeling it today!
Thank god for my friends and family who helped me prepare and clean up yesterday and today. I still have chaos but it is manageable now. We take our friends to airport tomorrow morning then back to day to day life and finishing up my Christmas shopping I suppose.
Here is a picture of Kady, Artie, and my oldest daughter Kelly, from last night. Everything else is video and very lengthy so at least you can see my kids.
THIS WEEK is all about getting and staying on track. I lost 2 pounds last week through sheer will and determination and I refuse to lose any ground. Thursday will be my weekly weigh in (which I have let slide lately and that is not a good thing).
Whats YOUR plan this week? Name something you can and will focus on! GO!
Sunday, December 02, 2012
What does it matter?
I KNOW I am going to gain weight, it is the HOLDAYS, there is just no way around it.
What does it matter?
I havent lost any weight in months.
What does it matter?
I will get plenty of excercise running around, shopping and doing errands and getting everything perfect for everyone else.
What does it matter?
It is DECEMBER. I will just restart in January.
You have alot going on. You are flying the cape, shopping, wrapping, baking, cooking, giving, helping. You are not taking care of you this month because there is just so little time. So you get less sleep, less excercise, your nutrition slips, hell- you probably figure you dont even need to track your food because you are eating cookies as you run out the door. You dont have TIME for a sandwich or a salad. NOBODY else can buy the stuff, bake the stuff, wrap the stuff, cook the stuff. IT is all on you!
Listen, kids. That is the OLD DECEMBER.
THIS December, it MATTERS!
You are not the same person as last year. I dont care if you started today or 4 years ago. THIS month, this crazy, busy month, is going to be different.
YOU WILL MAKE IT MATTER!
You are not gonna give up now.
You are gonna keep tracking
You are gonna plan your meals
You are gonna plan your excercise time.
You are gonna be flexible and fit stuff in as you can
You are gonna be kind to yourself
You are gonna be selfish about YOUR needs.
You are gonna succeed this month
You are NOT gonna gain weight and feel crappy about it come January.
JANUARY is not going to be a new start. It is going to be a continuation of what you began in DECEMBER.
It ALL MATTERS! Every meal, walk, strength training. Every cookie, cake pop and peice of candy.
But what matters the most is your friends, family, and please, don't forget, YOU.
YOU matter to ME and I want you to remember that, among the hustle and bustle of the holiday. Please be good to yourself for me. And for you. Because you matter.
Saturday, December 01, 2012
We left for Reno Thursday am for a racing meeting on Friday. I had asked for a room upgrade since I set up the meeting etc and they were unsure about availability so when I got there and asked what kind of room it was, they said a suite ...SWEET! Very nice too , comfy bed...then my friend checked in on some special and she got two tickets to a stage show that night (Alladin) so I asked for tickets too but they wouldn't give them to me. A few minutes later, the gal that sets up my meetings called me and said SHE could get them to me. So when I went to get them they were good seats but not with my friend do we went back to the show booth, he traded them for four 2nd row seats! So my girlfriend, sister, other friennd and I all went while the guys talked racing. Plus we got to drink wine so it made it much more fun and we laughed and got very involved in the show... so much fun!
Friday was the meeting which went well and by 2:00 we were all done. Stayed within my calorie ranges, didn't drink too much, and got a lot of rest.
I also hit a 400.00 jackpot! Then this morning as we were leaving, I had a hunch and hit a 500.00 jackpot on the machine right next to the other one! Came home with enough to pay for KADY's new laptop for Christmas! I am happy to send it to MasterCard on Monday!
I have a busy bee week ahead, hair appt., house cleaning, grocery shopping for party saturday and company n Friday. I also have to get blood work because I signed up for my first colonoscopy on Dec. 17. I put it off last year so now I gotta get it done. I do ask for pills instead of that gallon of glop so I'm happy to be able to do that. Gotta set my mammogram this month too...here is a naggy reminder to take care of yourselves people. Gotta be healthy to enjoy our new leaner bodies right? See you tomorrow for Sunday check in!
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