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PLANE changes and I want your opinion.

Monday, August 16, 2010

So. I flew to Utah. I dont like to fly, it scares me, but what the heck. It beat a 18 our drive!! In the past, I have sat down, tried to buckle the seat belt and have discreetly asked for the belt extender. On the plane ride there, I walked through the aisles with my hubby and found our seat, 14th row, middle seat, next to a lady at the window. I thought, oh god, she is probably thinking, "please dont sit next to me!" but when I met her eyes, she kinda just smiled and I sat down next to her. Not ON her, next to her. No part of my was overflowing. Then I put the seat belt on. It clicked and I had to pull the little end to make it tighter!! What the heck just happened????????

So I am pretty happy right now but just keeping it to myself like a little present. When Frank sat down, I nudged him and showed him the seat belt and he totally got what I was showing him. He smiled, told me good job and gave me a squeeze. GREAT FLIGHT!!

So flight home: We get on the plane and I see we are on a wayyyyyy smaller plane. 2 rows of 2 seats, instead of 2 rows of 3. I am having to walk sideways down the aisle so I dont rub on people sitting on the aisle. We are all the way to the back. You know those seats, least amount of room, no seat going back cause you are against the wall. Anxiety alert!!!

So I get in first up against the wall, sit down,and pull the seat belt out. I pulled it all the way out then clicked it into place. It did click but it was sooo much smaller. I said to Frank, "wow, good thing I recently lost 40 pounds of I wouldnt have fit!". The lady sitting in front of me turns around and asked me how I did it, so I told her about Sparkpeople. She was very intersted and wrote it down. So I got to spread the spark. It was not a comfortable flight but I had a good book so I just pretended I was not on a place.

Now, while we were waiting to board, I saw a very large lady wearing pink in a wheel chair, and they boarded her first. She met nobody's eye, weighed probably over 500 pounds and was obviously unable to walk and was alone. When we got on the plane, She was in the first row with a very uncomfortable woman sitting in the seat next to her, looking absolutely distressed. The Lady in Pink, was trying to sit as far to the other side as possible but there was nothing she could do. I could imagine how she felt. It made me so sad for her. On our way out, she was the last to leave the plane. As I passed I smiled at her and she just looked at me. She seemed to be unaccustomed to kindness and I sooo wanted to say something to her. I was forced to keep going and to tell myself that it is her journey to take and I sooo hope she finds Sparkpeople or someone to show her that she can do it, too. This does not have to be her life or her death sentence. She, too, could be writing this blog about the difference in that trip vs, the one where her seat belt buckled.

I am thinking about making some business cards with my spark name on it and the website for sparkpeople. I can just pass it on in those situations where it isnt really possible to have a conversation. I could put something on it like "I lost ___pounds with the support at www.sparkpeople.com" and then if they joined, they would automatically have a friend already. What do you think? Is it presumptuous? Helpful? What would you have thought if someone handed you a card like that?

I think if a "big girl" like me handed me a card like that, I would have checked it out at least.

  
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TEXWIFE 8/18/2010 10:49PM

    Jan you are so amazing. The things you think of, or the others you think about! That is why I wrote about you in our churhc newletter, you do show your love and support every day for others. I will take 20 cards to hand out with your name on it!!!!

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NEDERLUNG 8/18/2010 8:38AM

    I'm so proud of you! And your hubby is wonderful too, big hugs for both of you. I think your sparkcard idea is great (actually think I've read somewhere where they already have a sparkcard you can printout). Go for it!

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JACKKELL 8/17/2010 10:37PM

    Your first four paragraphs gave me a huge smile. emoticon emoticon Your next two made me think and I think the cards would be a great idea. You could put "I lost ___ pounds and still going!"
Congrats on your weight loss!

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TRACIEO3 8/17/2010 10:17PM

    Great way to spread the spark! I love it when somebody over hears my conversation about Spark or weight loss and then asks me the same, what a feeling!

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BECKYB73 8/17/2010 9:28PM

    What a wonderful NSV to have one of those seatbelts fit!!! When you go to the Invite Spark Friends, they already have business like cards made up for you to print out. I've given a few out to people I come in contact with and it always makes me feel good!

Going no extender is a HUGE VICTORY!

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ROBINSNEWNEST 8/16/2010 9:04PM

    You let your "spark" shine when you made eye contact and when you cared about her place in the world...

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BIGMAMAT 8/16/2010 12:08PM

    I just want you to know I think your awesome! This blog was amazing and I Know the whole" wonder if my seat belt will fit" anxiety. I find myself just wanting to tell everyone I see about sparkpeople. I cried when you were talking about the pink lady... I know what its like being the biggest person in the room... feeling defeated and alone( even when surrounded by people... ) Hopefully she was going to visit family. People who love her unconditionally regardless of her size. I think the smile you gave her and the eyecontact probably was the best gift you could have given her!
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XME501 8/16/2010 11:33AM

    This sounds like a great idea!! What a good way to share with someone else - and you just do not know what you might inspire in that other person. Go for it !!
Barb

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Did ya miss me?

Monday, August 16, 2010

Hey y'all, Im back! Got in about 10 last night and CRASHED! We had a great time riding through the mountains of Utah. We went on a group ride on Thursday about 30 miles and it was a bit mild for us, so we went on our own (3 vehicles, 7 people) for a ride Friday of 80 miles, all day long through meadows, mountains, past lakes and rivers. It was so beautiful. Then Saturday, same deal on a different side and went 90 miles and one part was literally down a trail that I think mountain goats made down the face of a mountain! It was scary but fun and I have a lot of trust in my husband and our machine!

There were BBQ's every night and the food was good but I did not feel like I did very well. I didnt eat bad, I just didnt eat great, like barely any fruits and veggies, no lunch on any of the days ( I did have snacks like apples but just nothing that was filling or nutritious). Oh well, my weigh in day is Thursday so it is what it is. I will upload pictures tonight and let you know so you can see our journey.

Feels good to be home and our dog is looking forward to our walk tonight!

I am going to post a separate blog about my flight....Jan

  
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BIGMAMAT 8/16/2010 12:11PM

    Sounds like you had quite a trip! Glad you had a good time.

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Im leaving...on a jet plane...

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

LOL, am leaving tomorrow am to go to Marysvale, Utah for a UTV Jamboree! No, it isnt something to eat, it is a huge ride through the mountains with hundreds of 4 x 4 riders. We are meeting our bestest friends there and we are going to have so much fun. There are live bands, BBQ's and long rides every day. It should be so fun and I am really looking forward to it. I promise to eat well, have lots of activity, take pictures and think about my sparky friends. I am bringing my daughters little netbook so I can track my food and stay on track with my program.
So I will be in touch and you all behave while Mama's gone!! Jan

  
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NEDERLUNG 8/11/2010 10:23AM

    I'm reaching for my ear plugs, are you?

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CSDAYS 8/11/2010 1:21AM

    Great!!

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1849HOPPY 8/11/2010 1:12AM

    enjoy your vacation. be safe.

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Hello? (tap, tap) Is this thing on?

Sunday, August 08, 2010

Yeah I thought you could hear me. I was having a conversation with _______ in my truck today. I began to tell about the new team I am on and how they are all dog lovers when _____ says:"Wow, the price of diesel fuel has really gone up". I stopped in the middle of what I was saying and considered A. Just shutting up and B. Saying "I dont know if you realize but I was just telling you something and you frequently cut me off and start talking about something else".

I chose B and got an "I apologize" in return which is all well and good, however, I realize ____was not interested in what I had to say since _____didn't say anything at all like
" Please, go on with your story" or anything of that nature.

Awkward.................................
..................... So apparantly, now I am doing choice A.

Thanks for listening.... (crickets chirping in the silence). I will be here all week, dont forget to tip your waitresses. BOMB!

  
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NEDERLUNG 8/11/2010 10:23AM

    If B was I, I'd think you were talking to my mom. Smiles.

I just throw in a "yup" now and then and a couple hours later (thankfully we have the same cell service) she finally gets tired and so we say our 'love yous' and we hang up.

Maybe next time just stop talking until they acknowledge you or when you hang up instead of saying 'nice talking to you'...say 'nice listening to you', after a few times, maybe they'll get the hint.

God gave us one mouth and two ears so we could listen twice as much as talk.

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CLASSACT911 8/9/2010 12:40AM

    LOL. I think we all have these moments in our lives where we think those around us should sit down, shut-up and listen to what we have to say. Sometimes, they do, and sometimes they don't. Don't worry about it Sister. After another 10 or so pounds your new clothes and energy will do the talking. You won't have to say a word.

Ask my friend, Teenybikini, she can tell you. Oh wait she's your friend too! LOL Yeah she said the girls at her work never really paid her much attention, or the people at the gym. She said they do now though.



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Surgery? pffffffffffttttttttttttttt

Friday, August 06, 2010

I was thinking today as I was getting ready for my day: Just think, I was actually considering weight loss surgery! And all I had to do was this? I am so happy I found Sparkpeople. I mean, I cant imagine living my life afraid to eat, not being able to go to dinner out, measuring tablespoons of food or spending my time puking becuase the food gets stuck in my tiny little hole. By the way, these are all experiences that a family member has after having lapband. He is thinnner, yes, but is he enjoying his life? NO!

But I am! I eat, I walk, I play, I enjoy food, I shop, I go out, I spend time with my family and my friend, The Captain (Morgan but just not as much).

I am LIVING my life and I am loving it. I am not suffering. In fact I feel better every single day. I feel powerful not weak. I feel satisfied, not suffering. I am losing weight because I am doing something about it and that transfers into every single thing I do.

Every day is a new opportunity to care for me, to choose wisely. Everything is not about food anymore. I can eat it, love it, enjoy it but it does not control me. I didn't need surgery. I just needed Spark! Oh yea, and I needed one more thing: All of you! This is why it works.. because of you and me, together!

  
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CLASSACT911 8/8/2010 2:00PM

    I have a friend who got the bypass done. He lost the weight, gained the weight and lost his teeth (the body can't get as much nutrients from the food due to the limited amount of stomach walls) His body lost calcium and he lost his teeth because he didn't take the multivitamin they told him to.

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 8/8/2010 12:37PM

    I am really happy that you can appreciate all of the hard work and dedication that you are putting into your life right now. I also know several people who have had gastric bypass etc. and they have regained or never lost it all. It may temporarily fix the physical symptoms, but for me it's emotional and spirtual and mental that needs the TLC to heal the outside. emoticon

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MUTANTQUEEN 8/8/2010 11:34AM

    I too considered weight loss surgery. So glad I found a better way. Glad to hear you're enjoying the journey!!!

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TEENY_BIKINI 8/8/2010 11:22AM

    I am so happy for you. It is crazy how things happen in life - but clearly, you were meant to find this amazing place. When I think back - I didn't know what I was looking for on the internet in January - I think I googled "inspiration" and I found this site. Wild, huh?

And look at you tearing this journey up and taking no prisons. You are a true warrior and you are rocking it. See you at the finish line, hot stuff.

Let's do this thing.

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JAZZII4 8/8/2010 6:08AM

    Wow, 40 pounds since March, that's amazing! You have truly been focused and working very hard, towards your goals. I have also seen a few people go through weight loss surgery, looking for happiness, and now they are more miserable, than ever! You're doing great, on your journey! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CLEVAGAL 8/7/2010 2:50AM

    OMG Jan I considered Lapband too......I got to the point that we scheduled surgery....I cancelled it 4 weeks before....it just didnt seem right. Not eating and spewing just didnt seem appealing. Im about to email you , stay tuned Cleva xxx

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NEDERLUNG 8/7/2010 12:40AM

    You really must take most of the credit, because if you weren't logging on, then we wouldn't be here to help. So you are the one making the fantastically smart decisions towards a better life for yourself. YOU are allowing us to help. YOU still control the choices, YOU are fantastic! Keep it up!

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NEWYEARME 8/6/2010 9:24PM

    Wonderful!!! You have changed your relationship with food and that is a big step.

You WILL reach your goal. You're worth it!!!

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GRACEISENUF 8/6/2010 3:17PM

    I agree, I have watched my FIL struggle with a stomach stapling years ago... only to gain it all back.

WE WILL REACH OUR GOALS!

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