Wednesday, October 10, 2012
The last few days have been crazy. 10-12 hour work days, running to one job while frank is at another (we are roofers) and I even drove the dump truck to the dumps today (havent done that in about 5 years! Once I had my knee replaced, one of our guys took over so I dont do it anymore). It is a good problem to have...having too much work. The rest of the month is going to be like this but it's ok. We are making money and making up for how slow this summer was. We are in overdrive. On top of all this extra stuff, I still have my office stuff to do and the billing still to do from our Nationals the last weekend in September so to say I am behind is an understatement.
Then, Thursday, we are going to Monterey for a few days for our friends 50th birthday (the friends from Utah) so that will be fun. I have a LOT to do tomorrow to get ready to leave but I have my cape cleaned and pressed and I will do it!
I have noticed in the last few days when the pressure was on, that I wanted a soda or some sort of pick me up. I didnt get one. Then today, when I kicked ass doing my job, I wanted a treat to reward myself. I didnt get one of those either but it was interesting to me how I felt.
I felt like I DESERVED it. I was stressed so I NEEDED something to get me through. I did a great job so I SHOULD have a treat to reward myself.
What the hell? Am I some sort of dog? A small child? Why do I have so much tied into putting something in my mouth because I did my JOB?
How crazy and complicated are we? I dont know why this hit me so hard NOW, I mean I have been here on spark for 2.5 years and on this earth for 51 years.
I think acknowleding the feelings regarding the urges is going to be half the battle. The other half is going to be not giving into it. Hence the human condition, eh?
If I come up with any other brilliant observations that you guys probably already know, I will make sure to blog about that too.
Hugs and stuff, Jan
Friday, October 05, 2012
Happy Friday y'all.
I would like to announce that my funk was short lived and I'm back, baby,
Turns out, being 51. (And 1 week) can mess with a girl. It is not apparent what was going on since it is (sorry boys) that time of the month. I never know anymore because, well I'm going through menopause and things sneak up on me.
Anyway, I lost 4 pounds since my Wednesday weigh in so that tells me water weight and not true fat weight. I didn't really think I had eaten badly at the event last week, not stellar but not 6 pounds worth. But you know sometimes, you just go to that emotional place and seeing something like that just throws all logic out the window and you run to the peanut butter cups for comfort.
I am so thankful I could turn to you guys. You held me up and I needed that.
We weren't able to go to the wedding but it did give me another walk with my dog and an evening with hubby so m cool with that.
Today I go see my niece in a play and it will be 6 hours there and 6 hours back in a car so Sunday will defiantly be time for activity.
My plan for the nest week is to lose the leftover 2 pounds from last week and keep my little graph line heading DOWN instead of sqiggly and steadily UP.
You guys have a great weekend and thank you for being there with your wisdom, wit and support. Seriously.
Thursday, October 04, 2012
First I want to thank everyone for the support yesterday in my blog. Sometimes when things are not going well, I tend to retreat which always ends up NOT working in my favor. So thanks for being there when I reached out. I stuck to my plan yesterday and had a great day.
So today, here is my plan again. I have a wedding this afternoon so I will be designated driver...no drinkies for me!
Breakfast whole wheat toast and peanut butter
Lunch salad with chicken and black beans
Snack fruit salad
Dinner...not sure. Will be at wedding.
Exercise 10 minute cardio Kickboxing and hopefully, some dancing!
Tomorrow I will be driving 6 hours to see niece in a play. My plan will be to take snacks I know I can eat and just make good choices while I'm away. Will. Be back sat. On so its a quick trip....
Wednesday, October 03, 2012
I'm not whining, just stating some facts of where I'm at right now.
Last week I gained 6 pounds.
I have tried to run, starting at 1 minute at a time. It kills my knees. Can't do it.
I am going through a bad head space. I'm in "screw it" mode.
Got my annual blood work done. Everything was good but my cholesterol. It was 186 and now its 207. Not too high but defiantly need to get it back down. No eggs in the morning, back to eggbeaters.
I am not quitting, just continuing on. Gotta go back to my smaller steps so today, my plan is.....
Eggbeaters for breakfast
Salad for lunch with chicken and black beans and corn
Salmon for dinner with soy sauce and honey glaze and brown rice and broccoli
Make the fruit I have in the frig into fruit salad because I WILL eat it if I do that.
Walk stitchy tonight.
Do the 10 minute Kickboxing video this morning to jump start my day.
OK here I go.
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Got home a few hours ago. I physically worked from 9 am to midnight each day. I cooked and cleaned and organized and sold raffle tix, t shirts and whatever else needed to happen. Thank GOD for my sister Becky and her husband and a few other gals. I never could have done it without them. I didnt drink too much, just a few a day over a period of several hours.
I was in physical pain, so much so that I could barely sleep at night. I couldnt sit by the end of the night because I would be unable to get back up. My feet, knees, hips and back were screaming. When I lay down at night, shooting pains went down my body from back to feet. This is not to complain, only to say that as much as I do now, I did not expect to have it kick my butt as much as it did.
I operated on a good breakfast, 5 hour energy drinks and pain pills as needed.
The food was amazing, the people were grateful and we did fabulous job. We made good money for our club and everyone was happy. A very very good event, all in all.
When I got home today, I had my blood work results from my doctor last week. My LDL cholesterol was a bit high so I obviously need to work on that. Any suggestions? do not tell me to eat oatmeal because I hate it so its not going to happen.
What is my plan this week?
5 FRUITS AND VEGGIES EVERY DAY UNTIL FRIDAY (when I go see my niece in a play for 2 days)
STAY WITHIN MY RANGES
NO BAKED GOODS, COOKIES ETC..
What did you do this weekend? What do you find difficult to do still?
What is your plan for this week.
Oh yeah, Happy OCTOBER tomorrow! How did that happen????
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