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Wednesday, October 10, 2012

The last few days have been crazy. 10-12 hour work days, running to one job while frank is at another (we are roofers) and I even drove the dump truck to the dumps today (havent done that in about 5 years! Once I had my knee replaced, one of our guys took over so I dont do it anymore). It is a good problem to have...having too much work. The rest of the month is going to be like this but it's ok. We are making money and making up for how slow this summer was. We are in overdrive. On top of all this extra stuff, I still have my office stuff to do and the billing still to do from our Nationals the last weekend in September so to say I am behind is an understatement.

Then, Thursday, we are going to Monterey for a few days for our friends 50th birthday (the friends from Utah) so that will be fun. I have a LOT to do tomorrow to get ready to leave but I have my cape cleaned and pressed and I will do it!

I have noticed in the last few days when the pressure was on, that I wanted a soda or some sort of pick me up. I didnt get one. Then today, when I kicked ass doing my job, I wanted a treat to reward myself. I didnt get one of those either but it was interesting to me how I felt.

I felt like I DESERVED it. I was stressed so I NEEDED something to get me through. I did a great job so I SHOULD have a treat to reward myself.

What the hell? Am I some sort of dog? A small child? Why do I have so much tied into putting something in my mouth because I did my JOB?

How crazy and complicated are we? I dont know why this hit me so hard NOW, I mean I have been here on spark for 2.5 years and on this earth for 51 years.

I think acknowleding the feelings regarding the urges is going to be half the battle. The other half is going to be not giving into it. Hence the human condition, eh?

If I come up with any other brilliant observations that you guys probably already know, I will make sure to blog about that too.

Hugs and stuff, Jan

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CELLISTA1 10/10/2012 2:10PM

    I identify with this, most definitely. It's a conscious decision/realization that an inappropriate food reward is counter-productive. Being human, though, I am not opposed to a nice, healthy and delicious food reward like fresh berries or a mocha-frappucino-light!

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CANNIE50 10/10/2012 12:22PM

    Such an interesting blog, as usual. My experience is that my compulsion to eat completely goes away when I am busy and productive and goes into overdrive when I am procrastinating, or after a particularly stressful event. Good for you for being aware and making a healthier choice. I think THAT is the big key - being willing, and being aware. I go into an auto-pilot mode where I don't really think, I just do (or eat) and that gets me into trouble. I admire your work ethic - you work SO hard. I hope you get some breathing room, too, though. I like when I am steadily busy rather than crazy-busy. Take good care of your busy self, Miss Jan.

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DAISY443 10/10/2012 11:24AM

    Why is it we think food is the only way to reward us?? I have two birthday brownies in the freezer calling my name!

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STRIVER57 10/10/2012 1:46AM

    good point. i need to try to think about that too.

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DIET_FRIEND 10/10/2012 12:45AM

    That is a good reflection. Why are so many of us compulsvie eaters and why do we use food for a reward just for doing our thing? Hmmmm...

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friday, weightloss and plans...

Friday, October 05, 2012

Happy Friday y'all.

I would like to announce that my funk was short lived and I'm back, baby,

Turns out, being 51. (And 1 week) can mess with a girl. It is not apparent what was going on since it is (sorry boys) that time of the month. I never know anymore because, well I'm going through menopause and things sneak up on me.

Anyway, I lost 4 pounds since my Wednesday weigh in so that tells me water weight and not true fat weight. I didn't really think I had eaten badly at the event last week, not stellar but not 6 pounds worth. But you know sometimes, you just go to that emotional place and seeing something like that just throws all logic out the window and you run to the peanut butter cups for comfort.

I am so thankful I could turn to you guys. You held me up and I needed that.

We weren't able to go to the wedding but it did give me another walk with my dog and an evening with hubby so m cool with that.

Today I go see my niece in a play and it will be 6 hours there and 6 hours back in a car so Sunday will defiantly be time for activity.

My plan for the nest week is to lose the leftover 2 pounds from last week and keep my little graph line heading DOWN instead of sqiggly and steadily UP.

You guys have a great weekend and thank you for being there with your wisdom, wit and support. Seriously.


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DAISY443 10/7/2012 6:09PM

    Being 73 and a week messes with your mind, too! Glad you are back at it! Hugs!

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JULIAMOONCHILD 10/6/2012 10:28AM

    Awesome! Awesome! Awesome!
Oh, wait, isn't there an emoticon for that?

I am so happy that you found out that it really wasn't the way it seemed - that dang deceptive 6 pounds and the cruelty it inflicted upon your soul. Thank goodness you have overcome the assault and are back on track with a vengeance. I LOVE it!

Hey, just wanted to tell you that I read your blog "Amberen Update" and I am so interested in your evaluation and progress. I, too, am on amberen and would love to send you a spark mail one day - a bit of sharing - when I actually get time to gather my thoughts. Anyway, I will stay tuned to your 2-pound- countdown and other blogs emoticon of your journey here.

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CANNIE50 10/6/2012 12:46AM

    You are one amazing auntie - 6/SIX!!!!!! hours one way to see a play. I am a huge road trip warrior, as you know, and even I am impressed by six hours one way. That is a lot of road time, honey, and your body will be a little mad at you, so just bear that in mind. A long walk and lots of water tends to help shake off some of the road soreness that sets in. I am thinking of you. emoticon

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BAYBELIEVER 10/5/2012 6:40PM

    Awesome. You are on track!

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PAMATX 10/5/2012 5:29PM

    Here's to the downward graph line! Yay!

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REMEMBER2BME 10/5/2012 4:18PM

    HUGS to you!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 10/5/2012 11:37AM

    I am glad you are feeling better. You are an amazing lady and I am so proud of you.

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WIFE2BOB 10/5/2012 11:15AM

    You'll get there. Menopause is the pitts. If you're having the hot flashes and night sweats, try Black Cohosh. You have to take it about 6 weeks before you see any improvement, but after that, once a day tablet, and you'll rarely have the hot flashes or night sweats anymore. emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 10/5/2012 10:52AM

    We're always here for ya babe! *HUGS*

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todays plan

Thursday, October 04, 2012

First I want to thank everyone for the support yesterday in my blog. Sometimes when things are not going well, I tend to retreat which always ends up NOT working in my favor. So thanks for being there when I reached out. I stuck to my plan yesterday and had a great day.

So today, here is my plan again. I have a wedding this afternoon so I will be designated drinkies for me!

Breakfast whole wheat toast and peanut butter
Lunch salad with chicken and black beans
Snack fruit salad
Dinner...not sure. Will be at wedding.

Exercise 10 minute cardio Kickboxing and hopefully, some dancing!

Tomorrow I will be driving 6 hours to see niece in a play. My plan will be to take snacks I know I can eat and just make good choices while I'm away. Will. Be back sat. On so its a quick trip....

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WILLPARKINSON 10/4/2012 10:24PM

    You do NOT retreat. You regroup. Big difference. :)

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HDHAWK 10/4/2012 9:33PM

    I'm glad today was a better one for you! Have fun at your niece's play tomorrow. Pack those snacks! emoticon

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PAMATX 10/4/2012 8:57PM

    Dancing! Yay!


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KIMPY225 10/4/2012 3:19PM

    Have fun at the wedding.
I am glad you are still moving forward even though times get tough sometimes!

Keep up the great work!

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Wednesday, October 03, 2012

I'm not whining, just stating some facts of where I'm at right now.

Last week I gained 6 pounds.

I have tried to run, starting at 1 minute at a time. It kills my knees. Can't do it.

I am going through a bad head space. I'm in "screw it" mode.

Got my annual blood work done. Everything was good but my cholesterol. It was 186 and now its 207. Not too high but defiantly need to get it back down. No eggs in the morning, back to eggbeaters.

I am not quitting, just continuing on. Gotta go back to my smaller steps so today, my plan is.....

Eggbeaters for breakfast
Salad for lunch with chicken and black beans and corn
Salmon for dinner with soy sauce and honey glaze and brown rice and broccoli
Make the fruit I have in the frig into fruit salad because I WILL eat it if I do that.
Walk stitchy tonight.
Do the 10 minute Kickboxing video this morning to jump start my day.

OK here I go.

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THREEE 10/8/2012 6:57PM

    i know you don't need my
'amen' to the chorus, but YOU, of all people, are so good about getting back at it...that's part of why when i come back after flailing for awhile, i check your posts first...whether you are doing well or not so much, you turn your 'rant' into a better attitude by the end of your blog...hopeful, encouraging, that would be my favorite 'ho'...i picture you with an ever-inviting smile on your face...always encouraging and positive(even if a little begrudgingly)...thank you, lady emoticon

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LISALGB 10/4/2012 10:26AM

    Jan, sorry you are going through this - I can relate, though!! Just like some of the others I'm in a "mood" too.
But, I know you are going to do great!! You have a great plan!!
Sending you hugs!!

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RANGERAMPS 10/4/2012 9:08AM

    I wonder if it's the change in the weather. I'm and a LOT of people I know are in that place.

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IMIN2GENES 10/4/2012 8:32AM

    You most definitely not alone in the "bad head space"... Sounds like you've got a good solid plan going. You can do this!

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MICKEYMAX 10/4/2012 7:53AM

    Sounds like a great day! I hope it is all coming together for you!

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STRIVER57 10/4/2012 2:50AM

    sounds like a good plan. bad (food/weight) weeks happen. they're ok, really. not to push you about running, but have you tried the galloway method-- walk 30 seconds, run 30 seconds, repeat. i discovered in recovering from tendonitis that it was much much gentler on my joints & muscles ... because they keep getting to recover. there's also power walking (i couldn't do that ... kept forgetting to go fast). videos? what Cannie & Cellista said ... one good choice at a time. you can do it (and i know that because i did. so it is possible).

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JITZUROE 10/3/2012 10:15PM

    I'm shoving myself outta screw it mode too. I'm visualizing when I was moving more and not being attacked so much by Ethel way back when. I couldn't move as much as I wanted to this morning, but before I got p*ssed (like I have been doing often), I visualized that 'old me' and how I wanted to make that the 'new me', no matter how long it takes!!!

You'll get over this hurdle. You always do! And when your knees behave a bit better, you will move much more than right now.
BTW your meals sound yummy!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 10/3/2012 7:23PM

    I can empathize with what you are going through. I accepted running isn't for me either and it is ok. Keep doing all the walking you have been doing. I am proud of you!

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HDHAWK 10/3/2012 6:50PM

    Sounds like the bad knees are giving you a very hard time. What can you do to work around it? Hang in there!

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    Can definitely relate to "bad head space" (been there before and kinda there today), and also to the bad knees. It really sucks when you're ready to tackle something, like walking or running, or any kind of exercise, and some body part flares up and screams, STOP!!!
Like, who needs that?!!!

I have noticed that running is much harder on my own knees than walking and maybe that is true for you, too. It might be a temporary compromise, perhaps. In the past, acupuncture made all the difference in the world in alleviating, even taking away completely, pain in my knees for quite a long time, which allowed me to be able to run - I also found that supplements of Glucosamine Chondroitin were extremely helpful. For many of us, this kind of supplement has provided real joint support, giving a more comfortable range of motion and movement in areas such as the knees. It works for some and maybe not so great for others, but I say, never stop trying to find what might work for you.

Anyway, sounds like you have a plan of attack - a way to get back on track and that is fantastic! You can do it!!!

Hey, here's a suggestion: How about a 6 pound countdown, starting now? Maybe next week you can blog again and let us know where ya are in counting down last weeks wee upset. It's just a thought. No matter what, though, you have our support!

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MISSB8604 10/3/2012 1:20PM

    You're not alone in this, keep that head up!

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CANNIE50 10/3/2012 12:57PM

    I often feel like you do, after I have done an exhausting road trip (and I don't cook the equivalent of a dinosaur for hundreds of people, 12 hours a day, for days at a time!) I like your plan to keep it simple and break your day down into small simple healthy choices. I am sorry about your knees and your cholesterol, Jan. I am happy to hear other areas are good. Everything is more difficult when we are tired. Perhaps, just for a few days or a week or so, you can shift your focus off of weight, and onto getting some rest and recovering from last week - your body went through a lot and I think it is rebelling a bit. I am thinking of you, dear friend. emoticon

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REMEMBER2BME 10/3/2012 12:37PM

    Sounds like a great plan. You can do this!

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CELLISTA1 10/3/2012 12:25PM

    Jan, I am in that head space at some point EVERY day. I don't like to talk about it. But YOU do and you are honest and you are doing the right thing: you are committing to one day of healthy eating and a walk and 10 minutes of exercise. When you consider the alternative, I'd say that is absolutely right on the money.

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 10/3/2012 11:33AM

    I get that. It's hard to fight the "screw it" feelings. Glad you have a plan. Keep going. We'll get there!


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BAYBELIEVER 10/3/2012 11:29AM

    "I am going through a bad head space. I'm in "screw it" mode. "

Have been there too. We have to fight back. One step at a time. One day at a time. I know you can do it. I know I can do it. Feeling sorry for myself isn't making those pounds drop off, unfortunately. I have to find a way to start liking myself and feeling like I am important/good enough to do the work needed! Have a great walk with stitchy!

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TADTURC 10/3/2012 11:29AM

    aint that a kick in the arse. hate it when that happens, but I hear you loud and clear. going through the same feeling rights now. Dont quit, keep going.

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Sunday check in #12

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Hi everyone,

Got home a few hours ago. I physically worked from 9 am to midnight each day. I cooked and cleaned and organized and sold raffle tix, t shirts and whatever else needed to happen. Thank GOD for my sister Becky and her husband and a few other gals. I never could have done it without them. I didnt drink too much, just a few a day over a period of several hours.

I was in physical pain, so much so that I could barely sleep at night. I couldnt sit by the end of the night because I would be unable to get back up. My feet, knees, hips and back were screaming. When I lay down at night, shooting pains went down my body from back to feet. This is not to complain, only to say that as much as I do now, I did not expect to have it kick my butt as much as it did.

I operated on a good breakfast, 5 hour energy drinks and pain pills as needed.

The food was amazing, the people were grateful and we did fabulous job. We made good money for our club and everyone was happy. A very very good event, all in all.

When I got home today, I had my blood work results from my doctor last week. My LDL cholesterol was a bit high so I obviously need to work on that. Any suggestions? do not tell me to eat oatmeal because I hate it so its not going to happen.

What is my plan this week?

5 FRUITS AND VEGGIES EVERY DAY UNTIL FRIDAY (when I go see my niece in a play for 2 days)

What did you do this weekend? What do you find difficult to do still?
What is your plan for this week.

Oh yeah, Happy OCTOBER tomorrow! How did that happen????

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BIGMAMAT 10/2/2012 2:12PM

    Glad to hear you had a very successful weekend emoticon
Time to rest and recuperate. Make some time for You. hugs. T emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 10/1/2012 9:54AM

    Hey mama! Forgot to check in , sorry = ) I'm glad to hear everything was AWESOME except for the pain of course. I hope that gets better soon. Yes, oatmeal is a great way to lower your LDL, but my doctor gave these suggestions... LOTS of fiber, in any source, fish with lots of omega 3's, I prefer Albacore tuna. Also, olive oil, orange juice, and unsalted nuts, (almonds are great). Of course, cutting back on trans fats, will help too. So you'r "no baked goods" is a great plan. For this week, I'll be starting my Supreme 90 workouts, so my goal is to make sure I get it done EVERYDAY! Good luck to both of us!

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DEE0973 10/1/2012 9:32AM

    Congrats on the successful event eventhough it created havoc on your body. My plans for this week is to stay within range and on track.

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MELLYBEANS0919 9/30/2012 11:55PM

    I am sorry you were/are in so much pain. It sounds like you did such a great job with the event. Hats off to you!
I am struggling a lot - doing the simplest things too. Baby steps.

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MT-MOONCHASER 9/30/2012 11:33PM

    This weekend I went completely off program which continued the actions of most of the week. There was a fundraiser for the trail system in a town near mine and I went. Of course, it was Ales and Trails... The function came with a dinner and four tickets for four mugs of micro-brews and dinner. Dinner wasn't too off program, and they served it, so the helping sizes were moderate. I actually only had three of the brews, and gave one ticket away.

I still find it difficult to control portion sizes and cut down on the at-work snacking.

This week I will continue to try to reduce my at-work snacking.

From last week's goals, I got the insulation and part of it installed. Didn't get anything more moved to storage -- must add that to this week's goals. And more insulation installed. And help with getting the dirt back in and packed down.


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CELLISTA1 9/30/2012 11:25PM

    Apples! I forgot to say this in my earlier comment. My Chinese doctor says apples are the best for reducing cholesterol. One a day minimum! Three is even better.

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CANNIE50 9/30/2012 11:08PM

    Oh, honey - that sounds awful. It is impressive but at the same time, it sounds too grueling. So, basically, you put your body through marathon after marathon after marathon after marathon......OUCH! Devotion and a passion to deliver are strong motivators, as you ably prove time after time. I am also very impressed that you just arrived home and you have posted this blog. I know nothing about cholesterol reducing foods but I am sure you will get some good suggestions. At least I know enough not to suggest oatmeal cookies!! I am hoping a hot bath with Epsom salts (natural muscle relaxant), a LONG night's sleep, and a hearty, protein filled breakfast are the only things on your agenda for the next 12 hours or so.

I am cutting back on some of my exercise, esp the 5:45 am sessions, adding sleep, and facing facts about how freaky I am about food right now. I have not eaten after dinner tonight, and I am heading to bed early, so I can feel good about that, and the fact that I ran a good 5k this morning. I am thinking of you, Jan. I am fighting the urge to kidnap you and make you rest because I know you would be a very difficult hostage, you stubborn girl you.

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CELLISTA1 9/30/2012 10:27PM

    Wow - you really put yourself through the wringer. I hope you have some time this week to rest, stretch, and recuperate. Maybe a massage would help your aching body.

My week was excellent, food-wise. I ate around 1400 calories/day six out of seven days, and the seventh was 1700. However, I didn't do any exercise beyond my two strenuous Pilates sessions.

Today I felt very whiny: oh, it's so hot; my knee hurts; nyah, nyah, nyah. So when it cooled off a little this evening, I took the dog for a 1/2 hour walk and I honestly do feel better now.

Thanks for doing the Sunday check-in even though you just got home!!!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 9/30/2012 9:53PM

    Pain has been my really big motivator as well. I recorded everything I ate this week and did better than I had planned. I am cutting out beer for the most part because it is just too many calories. I spent the last 2 days baking a boobie cake for my brother in law's 30th at his wife's request and I threw away the scraps from cutting the cake down to size instead of eating all of them so I was proud of myself for that. Small decisions. Once my back clears up which it is finally starting to do I am going to go back to the gym. Weight training does make a huge difference for me in how my body functions day to day. Glad you are back!

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