Wednesday, October 10, 2012
The last few days have been crazy. 10-12 hour work days, running to one job while frank is at another (we are roofers) and I even drove the dump truck to the dumps today (havent done that in about 5 years! Once I had my knee replaced, one of our guys took over so I dont do it anymore). It is a good problem to have...having too much work. The rest of the month is going to be like this but it's ok. We are making money and making up for how slow this summer was. We are in overdrive. On top of all this extra stuff, I still have my office stuff to do and the billing still to do from our Nationals the last weekend in September so to say I am behind is an understatement.
Then, Thursday, we are going to Monterey for a few days for our friends 50th birthday (the friends from Utah) so that will be fun. I have a LOT to do tomorrow to get ready to leave but I have my cape cleaned and pressed and I will do it!
I have noticed in the last few days when the pressure was on, that I wanted a soda or some sort of pick me up. I didnt get one. Then today, when I kicked ass doing my job, I wanted a treat to reward myself. I didnt get one of those either but it was interesting to me how I felt.
I felt like I DESERVED it. I was stressed so I NEEDED something to get me through. I did a great job so I SHOULD have a treat to reward myself.
What the hell? Am I some sort of dog? A small child? Why do I have so much tied into putting something in my mouth because I did my JOB?
How crazy and complicated are we? I dont know why this hit me so hard NOW, I mean I have been here on spark for 2.5 years and on this earth for 51 years.
I think acknowleding the feelings regarding the urges is going to be half the battle. The other half is going to be not giving into it. Hence the human condition, eh?
If I come up with any other brilliant observations that you guys probably already know, I will make sure to blog about that too.
Hugs and stuff, Jan