Wednesday, August 08, 2012
Hello my peeps!
I have had an excellent week. We (Kady and I) made a menu plan so dinners have been very easy and healthy this week. I made the commitment on my Sunday check in 4 blog to NOT eat any fast food or convenience foods this week.
JUST because I stated it, it kept me out of the drive through Monday and today!
I did come home and eat a smart ones mini pizza (which is a convenience food but it was a healthy one so I am gonna let that slide) and all the rest of my meals have been with healthy, fresh food. It feels good.
Today I went to the grocery because I had no fruit at all and I always do better when I make a fruit salad and then eat it for 3 or 4 days. I have gotten out of that habit lately and I decided today was the day (Thanks Callikia for that nugget on your blog today) to do something better for myself.
I digress. Went to the store, and saw these adorable little cupcakes that were decorated like little pies. SO CUTE. (research and development, ok!????) so I got them. I told myself I wouldnt eat one. I told the clerk I wouldnt eat one. I told the bagger I wouldnt eat one. Came home and showed my girls and told THEM I wouldnt eat one. Had lunch and really wanted to eat one. Put it in my tracker. 300 calories. UM, NO! So had a fiber one 90 calorie bar instead and you know what? It was good.
Those cupcakes are still in the frig. I have not eaten one. I am not going to eat one and by not eating one, I feel strong. I feel healthy. I feel good. When I go to bed tonight, I am going to pat myself on the back for all the things I did RIGHT today.
It will feel alot better than going to bed kicking my own A$$ and feeling like a fat failure because I couldnt even keep a cupcake out of my own face. I mean, I TOLD she checkout lady I wouldnt eat it. How could I go back on my word. I have integrity, after all!
I also signed up for the free 2 week spark coaching thingy. I wasnt going to. I thought I would wait till next week maybe when I am more stable and not trying to get off my weekend camping weight but I clicked on it anyway and I am glad I did.
I think I need the focus. I think I need to get a little more serious. I have been COMPLACENT (thanks Holly for THAT little nugget of wisdom too!) and it is not enough. It really isnt what I want.
I want to be SMUG because it is so easy. I want to struggle to find something to write about that people can relate to becuase it is HARD to lose weight but for me it is easy. I want to be where I was the first year....so ready, so focused, so determined that I could barely contain myself and I couldnt understand why people were having such a hard time because all I had to do was follow the plan and the weight was FALLING off.
Or maybe I dont want to go back. Maybe I just want to keep going forward or downward, ....anywhere but sideways or upward.
This may bite me in the butt but I am going to say it anyway.
I feel the shift, the winds of change, blowing me back on my path to health, wellness and hotness. Oh yeah, Its happening. And Im running with it.