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sunday check in 4

Sunday, August 05, 2012

Hello my friends..happy Sunday. Just got back from camping for 4, cleaning, entertaining, drinking, eating...

Your homework for this week?

What are you NOT going to do this week?

I am not going to eat fast food or convenience food meals. Not one.

Check back in next Sunday and let's see how you did.

Now, what's your NOT thing?

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DAISY443 8/8/2012 9:54AM

    Not going to camp, going to stay home and catch up on work. The kind of work that gives me fitness minutes!

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    great idea. where did you camp? I got back last week and it sure was alot of work to clean everything up. What am I not going to do....hmmm. I am not going to overeat, not even once. Every once in a while I will eat myself into oblivion. I won't do that for a whole week! Thanks for the encouragement. emoticon

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    I will NOT drink wine at the end of EVERY night this week.

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GAELENEC 8/6/2012 7:46AM

    I am NOT going to deliberately eat sugar.

There. I said it out loud.

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BIGMAMAT 8/6/2012 7:16AM

    Hummm. My NOT thing. I will NOT eat my emotions. I will not go to sheetz and get my favorite junk to make me feel better .(it only works for a little while anyway). gotta go pack my lunch! :) Have a great week! emoticon

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THREEE 8/5/2012 10:22PM

    i am NOT going to miss anything on my food tracker ... and...

i am NOT going to list any ACTIVITY that i do not complete(i've been setting them up as goals and not always getting them all in...tho i can correct to what ACTUALLY happened, the fitness minutes do not back out of accumulated month minutes)

BR>i am NOT going to expect perfection, just persistence emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 8/5/2012 8:10PM

    Not going to stress! gong to take things a day-at-a-time . . . makes things more manageable.

Hope you had fun!

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GRACEISENUF 8/5/2012 7:33PM

    grumbling....praising God instead that I am able to move my body and exercise

Welcome back ... I have missed YOU.

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MAMA_CD 8/5/2012 7:06PM

    My homework is to get my brand new bike out on the trails.

Going to a gym is not my thing.

It's nature all the way for me, so I can see the glory of God's creation all around me.

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Sunday check in.....

Sunday, July 29, 2012

OK your homework was to make PROGRESS since Friday.

I will start. I made quite a few bits of progress and it started with knowing I would be accountable here today so Thank You for helping me move forward!
I bought a big bag of dark chocolate acai blueberries at Costco. I preportioned them Into baggies so I will only eat 1 serving
I am eating a good amount of protein at breakfast (22 grams yesterday!) Thanks Cannie!
When we ate dinner at the mall, I had 1/2 serving of my rice bowl and had grilled mandarin chicken instead of fried orange chicken, and I liked it!
I played tennis for the first time in a month and I was pretty good! I have made progress!

Your turn! Go!

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PJH2028 8/2/2012 8:07AM

    Love the consciousness. Love you.


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TKADEEPBREATH 7/30/2012 10:09PM

    Good job!! Love the discipline . . I'm having fruit smoothies for breakfast, taking a good lunch to work . . . eating a good dinner, getting on track again . . emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 7/30/2012 9:09AM

    Good job! Bits of progress add up. Those dark chocolate acai berries are awesome aren't they!!!! WHEN I get them, I do the same thing. . . portion them out. NO pigging out on them.

Hapy to hear about your progress. BTW, love the picture of you and FISH on your front page. Funny!

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SWEDE_SU 7/30/2012 12:31AM

    i have completed strength training every other day for over a week - including sunday when there appeared to be no time!

i survived a weekend of house guests without overeating or overdrinking - stayed within calories both days.

completed a 9 mile run - longest in 5 years - and felt really good about it.

all good. emoticon

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THREEE 7/30/2012 12:24AM

    i drank the REAL required amount of water yesterday...and without starving myself, and, unfortunately, not moving my butt very much, i lost a pound -- down to a svelte 343...will continue this week doing this
AND i set up 2 extra 'swimming dates' for this week...taking my schedule to paper and follow-thru...makes me PROUD...

and, m'deah, i am proud of, huh? good job emoticon

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MELLYBEANS0919 7/29/2012 6:20PM

    I made one homecooked meal - for someone who does not cook ever - this is progress :-) Way too many carbs, not enough protein. More water. Picked the healthier drink at Starbucks this afternoon. Not bad, but I can do better!

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SARAWALKS 7/29/2012 6:10PM

    emoticon emoticon Keep up the great work, Jan! emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 7/29/2012 4:46PM

    Great choices!

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DAISY443 7/29/2012 3:00PM

    I made progress by not backsliding--does that count?

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CANNIE50 7/29/2012 2:29PM

    Nice work, Jan! I made progress by letting my family know that I needed to get more sleep and someone else would need to take over with my visiting cousin, in terms of entertaining and driving her around and just generally being "on". I was truly tired, physically and mentally, having the Ragnar relay prep and race being immediately followed by prepping for and having and entertaining and feeding, etc. houseguests. I have been feeling irritable (and mostly hiding it) and eating more and just wanting to lie down and sleep so I knew I could not ignore it any more. I have been a wonderful hostess but the fact is, tonight I have to drive her to the airport in Seattle for a midnight flight (a 4 hour round-trip for me, when you factor in traffic, etc) and there was just no denying my fatigue any longer. Sleep, or lack thereof, is such a big factor in weight gain/loss and eating patterns. This next week is all about routines, tracking, and REST! All the best to you, MamaGirl, all the best. Your friend, Cannie emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 7/29/2012 12:08PM

    Went out yesterday to get some items we need for healthy eating for the week. I need to think about how I can work sugar out of my diet entirely as I don't seem to be able to control it if I eat any. As much as I want to be able to eat just a little at this point it doesn't seem to be working.

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    I have cut down on sweets a LOT this week! I was craving some cake last night and I got some sugarfree ice cream instead (due to my new gestational diabetes diagnosis). I'm noticing better moods and less nausea since being on a less sugary diet :)

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And by the way,

Friday, July 27, 2012

We WILL be having Sunday check in. Your assignment?

I want to hear about some form of progress you have made in some area of your life from right NOW!

Be working on it today, tomorrow and Sunday and then stop in and post on my Sunday check in blog what you did.

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GRACEISENUF 7/29/2012 4:47PM

    I missed this one.....ooops

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DAISY443 7/29/2012 3:09PM

    OK, I missed this one, so didn't accomplish a thing!

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BECKYB73 7/28/2012 10:59PM

    So bossy!!! Me likey!!

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SWEDE_SU 7/28/2012 12:16AM

    yes, ma'am! emoticon

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THREEE 7/27/2012 7:51PM

    your 'pimp' approves...GREAT makes us accountable... emoticon

but, AHEM, what will YOU be doing for your change-up...or is it a surprise when you blog on sunday? emoticon

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MELLYBEANS0919 7/27/2012 7:09PM

    Planning out my meals for the week. I am trying to add a veggie or fruit to each meal.

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a shift

Thursday, July 26, 2012

I'm tired of doing the same thing and getting the same results. Up one down two, up five down three. I'm tired of being HERE. Its been too long. Waaaay too long.

I'm not going to quit. I will never quit but I have been a bit discouraged. As I told one of my sparkies today, I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE SKINNY BY NOW!

I am not whining. Oh no, I'm not because you KNOW I hate that!!

But what I did today was change my goal. Instead of having this HUGE starting point and this far away finish line and the same number of pounds lost blinking at me and the fact that it has moved north instead of south, I am starting from where I am right now. It no longer matters to me that I have lost 50, 60 or 70 pounds. I am going to work towards 199 by Dec. 31. Will I make it? I don't know but I will be closer than I am right now.

I'm also gong back to my original motto: Progress not perfection.

Watch me, cheer for me, support me, laugh at me but I'm moving on, starting NOW!

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STEPH-KNEE 8/4/2012 7:54AM

    I want to be 199 by December 31st too! We can do it, and if the stubborn scale doesn't agree with us on the 31st then it will be bound and determined to agree with us early next year! You so got this! :D

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CANNIE50 7/29/2012 12:21AM

    I think it is good to shake it up, Jan. I think it is a good thing to shift perspective. You know I know the feeling, doll. I am watching the Olympics (men's gymnastics - SO impressive) and one of the gymnasts has a tattoo that says "I deserve what I earn". That applies to us, right? I have a feeling we will have to be more (and I HATE this word, by the way) consistent. Consistent when we travel, when we entertain, when we are busy, when we are stressed.....It sort of sounds impossible, doesn't it? But it isn't impossible - weaker women than us manage to live their lives without consuming excess food and piling on excess pounds. We are STRONG women so we can conquer this beast. Your 199 by 12/31/12 sounds VERY do-able. I will cheer, celebrate, scold, push, hold your hand - whatever you need. emoticon

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TERRYT55 7/28/2012 12:32PM

    Jan......I just love your positive blogs and sunny outlook. I'll cheer for you, support you and laugh with you. You rock!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 7/27/2012 8:34PM

    I will definitely be watching you mama! If you don't make 199 by 12/31, you WILL get there. I'va had to change my "deadline" so many times, I may as well not even have one! My TT dream, may be just that, who knows. BUT, it gives us something to strive for. You've got it MAMA! Love you girl = )

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HEALTHYASHLEY 7/27/2012 6:54PM

    I couldn't agree more! We both can do it

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JOMAMA99 7/27/2012 4:21PM

    emoticon You can do this, and if you can, then so can I!! See you have motivated me emoticon Great job

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DAISY443 7/27/2012 1:46PM

    Watch emoticoncheer emoticon Laugh emoticon Encourage emoticonLuv ya! emoticon

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    Kick butt girl!

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    YOU CAN DO IT MAMA!!!!!!!!!!! :)

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CELLISTA1 7/27/2012 2:27AM

    For some reason, you got me thinking about my old stick shift 1994 BMW. When you shift from one gear to the next, it's not exactly like a continuous acceleration. You ease up on the gas, press down on the clutch, then shift to the next gear. Right? Then you release the clutch and off you go. Sometimes you stall and have to start again, but not necessarily from 1st gear; you can go from 2nd. Sometimes you're sitting in neutral, not stalling but not moving forward either.

Does the metaphor work?

I thought I would be at 144 by now, by last year, even. But I'm not. I'm stuck in neutral. It takes some energy to get in gear. I have a lot of empathy for your frustration. I don't have a lot of confidence in my own ability to lose the weight, but I have plenty of confidence in you! You already proved you can do it, so I have no doubt that after being in neutral far too long, you will get your a$$ in gear and become even more gorgeous than you already are!

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AAAACK 7/27/2012 12:59AM

    Sounds like you're as bored & disenchanted with the journey as I was. But don't forget to have some fun. This week has taught me that the biggest thing bringing me down wasn't how much weight I'd put back on, it was because I'd forgotten to enjoy myself by doing new things, and exploring my world. Yeah, yeah, I didn't have time. True. But, maybe you can find a fun new thing to do that is also healthy?

And here's a weird (barely related) thought, when I first typed disenchanted, I accidentally wrote disenchanged - now there's one to think on. I'd been feeling quite disenchanged, and I'd like to feel enchanged, please. emoticon

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MELLYBEANS0919 7/27/2012 12:00AM

    You can do this!

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SWEDE_SU 7/26/2012 11:53PM

    good for you - every now and then it seems to be necessary to take stock, re-evaluate, reset, and restart - and with your rekindled (re-sparked?) drive and motivation - emoticon

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THREEE 7/26/2012 11:43PM


i KNEW you wouldn't quit, but i'm sorry that you are consternated...

the new 'start' is a great way to attack your dismay...and revamping makes you more alert to your goals...I still need to do the visualization poster which i believe would be a constant reminder(rather than a 'nag')...i WILL do that within 10 days(will you hold me accountable?)

hey, young lady, your honesty about frustration you are feeling helps remind we, your fans, that you are human AND that we are not goofy for having those same feelings...

thanks, kiddo... emoticon

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PCASEY7 7/26/2012 11:37PM

    Good for you and good luck with your renewed program!

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JRFINLEY14 7/26/2012 11:32PM

    Every journey begins with the first step. I ask myself a lot of how long it took to get where I am, and if it takes me that long to get back, then I have completed a wondeful journey.

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BECKYB73 7/26/2012 11:32PM

    HEY!! Guess what? I just experienced a MAJOR mind shift too!!!

lookit us and our GREAT MINDS!!!!

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Why am I such a brat?

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

I am a brat. I am sure you guys are shocked and stunned to hear such a thing.

I know this about myself and I try to fight it. I was just telling one of my sparkies how I had to put my inner brat in time out.

I want what I want when I want it. I want to do what I want to do when I want to do it. Typical brat behavior.

Example: Frank just told me we needed to step up our walk. We are slacking according to him. We dont go as far or as long as we used to.
THEN he said that when we were walking farther, I was doing better at losing weight.
**Truth, we walk about 45 minutes instead of 55-60 minutes but a few weeks ago we were only walking about 30 minutes**

SCREECHING HALT: WHAT DID YOU SAY???? (brat in full effect)
My brain was like HELL NOOOO you did NOT just get involved in my weight loss situation! You know nothing about it!! YOU are not allowed to talk to ME ABOUT THAT!

But I (slightly snippy) said, " Well you know what? The first 3 months I lost weight I wasnt even doing ANY excercise! When we were playing tennis 2-3 days a week, I wasn't losing weight.

When I worked out at the gym for 2 years, 3 and 4 days a week, I only lost 20 pounds. You wanna know why? Because I was still eating whatever I wanted.

So really, it is not about the excercise for me, it is about eating clean, which by the way, I have had a stellar week in that department. ANd you know what? I dont want this to be all about "Let's excercise". I want to simply go for a walk with my dog and my husband. I dont want to feel like I HAVE to do this and that it is work. I want it to be nice. I want it to be stressless. I do not want to feel like I HAVE to do it.

That's when I realized I lost him.Tuned out. Probably about the first sentence. And I realized I cannot explain this to him. Because it doesnt make sense. It is childish, bratty behavior.

But it is how I feel.

I feel like if I look at our (nearly) every night walk as excercise, I wont want to do it.

I am the world's oldest living brat. Ridiculous.

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TKADEEPBREATH 7/30/2012 10:17PM

    Nothing wrong with "brat" in my book . . . the "she" brat was it full operation around my house tonight . . no "eye candy" views or roses in the near future . . . we all go through stuff . . I'm just saying . .

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VAMANOS 7/27/2012 8:08PM

    I don't think that's so bratty. Maybe because I feel the same way. I'm ok tracking food, and I'm ok moving more than I used to. But I want to eat what I like, and I want my movement to be fun, not a chore. I don't call that bratty, I call it knowing yourself and what you will be consistent doing. And that's what it's all about, weight loss or no weight loss. So there, emoticon (Now THAT's a brat!)

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AAAACK 7/25/2012 12:00AM

    I think I'm even more of a brat when it comes to my husband trying to tell me what to do to lose weight or be fit. I don't want him telling me anything. Today, when all my "fitweek" plans for today fell through, he tried to say he was going to bike ride with me. Well, no. I do not want to bike ride with him. My fit week is about me. Me me me, brat brat brat.

There are reasons, though, that I (we?) feel how I do. Part is brattiness (I'll do it mySELF) and part is resentment of how easy it is for him to drop weight, do certain sports, be stronger than me, probably thinner than me (I refuse to try on his pants!). I just don't want to go down certain roads.

I want our together time to be loving, fun, and pretty much anything but work! So you're definitely not alone with that thought.

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LISALGB 7/22/2012 10:46AM

    From one "brat" to another - my husband just tunes me out too when I go on a rant. You just keep doing what works for you - and just enjoy your walks together.

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THREEE 7/21/2012 3:41PM

    probably not THE oldest brat... emoticon

i love that you DO go the gamut from inital REACTION to calmer, shame on me for over-reacting to i DO have a right to wanting shared hubby time NOT to be a chore or HAVE TO...

you are a COOL brat(but DEFINITELY a brat!!!)

one of your biggest(and i DO mean BIGGEST) fans,
karen3 emoticon

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TEENY_BIKINI 7/20/2012 10:03PM

    I totally dig your perspective on exercise. I think you are right on target.


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1COUNTRY_GAL 7/20/2012 12:05AM

    I Like and appreciate your spirit and being a brat is okay in my book! You GO GIRL emoticonBrat it Up, emoticon emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 7/19/2012 12:27PM

    I don't think it's bratty really, especially if this is not designated "exercise time." SOmetimes you just want to go for a walk. I get ticked too, when my "normal" sized husband tries to "help" me with my weight, sheesh!

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CALLIKIA 7/19/2012 12:09PM

    You know what, though? Using your walk as a stressfree zone is not a bad thing. Soothes the mind and soul WHILE helping the body as well. And the dogs are probably pleased as punch too! Maybe try communicating it in a better way and you'll get more understanding from him. (Shhh...I'm a brat too! BRATS UNITE!) (I totally just read that as in Johnsonville Brats...)

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DAISY443 7/19/2012 10:47AM

    Totally understand the wanting to walk for the closeness with hubby and doggie! Wouldn't hurt to track it and take advantage of the fitness points, though! Enjoy your walks!

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 7/19/2012 10:19AM

    I have an inner brat too and I'm not sure but I bet I'm older. emoticon

I'm working on that tho. Gotta get her to listen to me. She spends a lot of time in her time-out (naughty) chair. Sigh.

I so "get" your blog!


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PJH2028 7/19/2012 4:24AM

    The doing it for Sparkville (exercise and portion choices) is my in-between mode. Sparky=ness is not just about weight loss. It's about living well.

And...yeeesss... me f'g too, gal! Bratt-ola, moi. In many ways and on many days.

Integrating walking and moving my body for joy for life for beauty is a fabulous and important reset button. A walk doesn't have to be strenuous to be good for us.

Some people relish and are motivated by duration and distances. Some people by speed. I have a hard time walking werith my mom because it is all about the pace being fast and burning calories for her.


There are ALSO loads of times when for ME... I THRIVE on get-it-done exercise for exercise sake. And exercise for calorie burn.

So... Some of these issues are real and valid and morphing and changing as we grow!!! And, yeah... some of it is brats on parade.

The only brat I'm trying to keep out of my world is the one who won't play or move at ALL!

Love You, Jan!

I sure do.

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MELLYBEANS0919 7/19/2012 12:16AM

    I don't see it as bad to want to just walk for the sake of it....without looking it as exercise. It should be enjoyable to you. I don't call that bratty at all.

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CELLISTA1 7/18/2012 11:37PM

    Cannie and I had an exchange about "rebellion," which sounds a lot like you being bratty. We will do all the right things, we will be fabulous people, we will sometimes actually even do what someone else tells us to, but not when it comes to the weight. As soon as someone tells us what to eat or whatever, we rebel. Oh no you don't, mister! That's MY secret evil issue and you can't touch it. Nyah, nyah, nyah. Childish, stubborn, and ultimately self-defeating, ya know? I kinda hate that about myself. What is my rebellion doing for me? Nothing. Or maybe keeping me fat. I also want everything to be nice and stress-free and to do what I want at any time. (I think that is partly what is cool about us. We are generally pretty happy!) However, from what I read here on Spark, we actually have to experience discomfort from time to time in order to lose weight. I have a REALLY hard time with that! I'm rambling here, but I think you have to tell bratty-brat to shut up and be a grownup.

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STEPH-KNEE 7/18/2012 11:14PM

    I totally understand the mentality of labeling it exercise. Having a nice walk with your husband and dog sounds like something you want to do, and if labeling exercise makes it less enjoyable I can totally understand that! You got this, keep rocking it your way because you are doing great! :D

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CANNIE50 7/18/2012 11:13PM

    Okay, indulge me here while I play armchair psychologist for a second. Only a very small percentage of the adult population of our wonderful country exercises on a regular (5x per week) basis. Roughly 100% of the population could benefit by some sort of regular exercise on a regular basis, whether those exercises are performed while sitting, lying, standing, moving - whatever. An even smaller percentage of adult women 50 and over get regular exercise on a regular basis and probably about 90% of those who don't get regular exercise regularly feel some smidge of guilt about it. So, Miss Jan, Mama Girl, Miss Bratty Thing, why on earth would you NOT want to be part of a select group of people who is doing something that most people know they should do but, for a variety of reasons, don't actually do? And, on a personal note, do you know how much I would LOVE it if my husband would (a) exercise with me and (b) occasionally challenge me about my health? There is a charming old expression about friends/partners/spouses not calling each other out on important things - it's called "co-signing each other's bu!!$hit". I think you ought to give that wonderful blessing of a husband a big fat emoticon and visit him on his side of the bed. PS Tell me how you really feel, doll, I can take it and, I'll still love ya. emoticon PS I can be a big old brat as well, so feel free to call me out when I am "bratting out".

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GRACEISENUF 7/18/2012 11:08PM


I have to raise my hand and admit I am a brat too.

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 7/18/2012 11:05PM

    Just tell him to not turn something enjoyable into a chore for you, so zip it. (A one liner would at least make sure he heard you before zoning out)


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DIBANANA 7/18/2012 10:59PM

  Maybe brat isn't the word. You were upset and wanted to explain your feelings. Men don't get feelings. They try to solve our problems. I have learned that with my 42 years of marriage but I still try too. Sometimes it sinks in though.

At least he is noticing your loss and is walking with you. but, you need to give him a break and yourself.

It will be better tomorrow.

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