Monday, July 02, 2012
When I first started here on sparkpeople in March of 2010, I did not really believe I could lose weight. I was going to "give it a shot".
I told nobody but my husband and my kids. But I told myself, when I lost 15 pounds, I would announce it. I had to prove to myself I could lose some weight and then I was going to tell everyone and I would have a head start.
I would be accountable.
I did lose 15 pounds. I told the top 3 F's...Friends, Family, Facebook.
Those first 15 came off so quickly, I was encouraged. I also knew that once I told everyone, people would expect me to keep going or they would wait to watch me fail.
I lost 50 pounds that first year. The 2nd year I lost 20 and got a total of 70 pounds off (keeping in mind, my original goal was to lose 111 pounds).
Then vacations happened. Life happened. Cake pops happened.
I lost the same 5-10 pounds over and over and over. But I was happy because I proved to myself that I could "maintain".
I decided this year (my 3rd year) would be about finishing.
Now that life is still happening, as well as vacations, cake pops, cookies, Captain Morgan, summer, winter, spring and fall, I have to face the truth.
I am gradually losing ground.
The glowing numbers on my tracker no longer read 70 pounds down. The truth is in Orange letters....55.
That means I have not maintained my weight. It means I have gained 15 pounds.
My shorts are getting tight. My muffin top is growing. I feel every one of those pounds.
I re-read some blogs to see where my head was at when I started. I am going back to read my trackers...what was I eating then? what was I not eating then?
I am determined to lose these 15 pounds and then keep going.
I didn't come here to be defeated. I came here to LOSE and by lose, I mean WIN.
So, I have confessed the 15 pounds, I am accountable, I am determined and I AM going to finish what I started.
Please hold me accountable. Please stay with me. I did not lose the first amount of weight by myself and I will need you to help me.
Here we go.....