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my day with hubby (pictures)

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Today frank and I went down to Monterey for the day. It was super windy but we found a little spot on the beach out of the wind and ate sandwiches on the beach. Then Later we drove around, went and played pool, had a couple glasses of wine then went to dinner. I had grilled snapper and it was delicious....then of course we had to go to ghiradelli and get a hot fudge sundae but I only had a few bites then went and got some chocolate bones (safe for dogs!) That I always get for Stitchy and we came home. Oh and I got one of those amazing candy peanut butter cup apples for KADY and I didn't eat it!

It was hard to relax today for me and as I sat by the ocean in the town where my parents met, fell in love and married, where the ghosts of my family enveloped me, I heard two things.

1. Be still, and known that I am God.

2. Let it go. Just let it go.

I am working on it.

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GRACEISENUF 5/26/2012 4:57PM

    Sounds like a wonderful day Jan.

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IMIN2GENES 5/25/2012 9:24AM

    Sounds like a lovely day! Oh and ending your blog with a pic of a cake pop... *shaking head* well that's just mean... LOL! Just kidding. It looks delish!

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BAYBELIEVER 5/25/2012 7:53AM

    I love hearing about your days with your hubby. Such a great relationship you have! So envious. I can only hope for something so wonderful someday!

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CANNIE50 5/25/2012 12:34AM

    Love your spiritual experience on the beach - good for you for being still and quiet so you could hear what you needed to hear. You and Frank are such a great love story. emoticon

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HDHAWK 5/24/2012 9:46PM

    What a fun day. The water looks fantastic!

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LISALGB 5/24/2012 9:14PM

    Yes, I agree - nie shot of your toes!! I love to take beach pictures like that.
Your day sounds lovely!! It is so nice for you and Frank to enjoy the day and each other. And, that apple look deliciously sinful!! OMG!! I am so glad that I can only see it in a picture and not in person or I would be in trouble with a capital "T". emoticon
Oh, and I wanted to tell you, my step-daughter and grandson are moving to Monterey in June. They are flying out there on June 22nd to join her husband who is in the Army there. You might be neighbors (of sorts).
Have a wonderful weekend - I hope you and Frank get to spend it together doing something fun.


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COOKWITHME65 5/24/2012 6:10PM

    So glad to hear you enjoyed this lovely day. Thankyou for sharing it with us.

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BIGMAMAT 5/24/2012 5:55PM

    Sounds like a wonderful day! emoticon I agree with cellista, nice shot of the toesies!!!

You are my hero for passing on that chocolate thingy!!! emoticon

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    Sounds like a really nice day. And holy shnit batman - that freakin' apple looks amazingly delicious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;-)

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DAISY443 5/24/2012 7:47AM

    Love the shot of your feet! I once saw a review of picture taken like that and it was great! If my toes were prettier, I would take all my pictures through my feet! So glad you had such an awesome day!

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WILLPARKINSON 5/24/2012 1:06AM

    Want that dessert. WANT! :)

And thanks for the beautiful pictures. I'm very glad you enjoyed your day.

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FITANDFIFTY2 5/24/2012 12:50AM

    Awesome Day you had! Your dinner sounds delicious as well! I am happy for you and your husband to have such an amazing relationship to enjoy each other and share your day in such a fantastic way. Hugs, Spark Friend! emoticon

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CELLISTA1 5/24/2012 12:40AM

    You know how rare it is for a husband and wife to always want to hang out together, have fun together, and enjoy each other? I've only known a few people in my long life that were even close to you and Frank. Maybe you should have a side business as a marriage advisor :)

Hey, nice shot of your toesies!

Letting go is good. It's a good thing to strive for. It makes life easier. I'm very, very proud of you.

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cake pops ( pictures ahead)

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

These are bananas foster...banana cake baked with rum with white amazing

This is the display with my customers colors requested. They were really happy with it. We made Kahlua and cream, triple chocolate, bananas foster, Malibu rum and white chocolate.

I had a request for pictures so here ya go!

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GOOZLEBEAR 5/26/2012 9:15PM

    You did a wonderful job on those cake pops. I've made them before and know how hard they are to make. emoticon

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VAMANOS 5/26/2012 1:41PM

    Get thee behind me! emoticon

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BIGMAMAT 5/26/2012 12:49PM

    Beautiful!!!! emoticon

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IMIN2GENES 5/25/2012 9:22AM

    Awesome! Those look great!

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CANNIE50 5/25/2012 12:37AM

    I have two confessions, and a victory, to share with you. Confession 1 - I actually like those colors. Confession 2 - I went to Starbucks today. Victory - I did NOT order two cake pops, and I did not even order one - I ordered NONE. I got a chai tea and a breakfast sandwich, though, because I was working in Paytie's classroom all morning and I mismanaged my time so I wasn't able to eat at home. Lame, I know, but when Mama has to eat, Mama has to eat. Anyway, gorgeous deliciousness, as usual - you food porner, you emoticon

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    Those look amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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DAISY443 5/24/2012 7:49AM

    What Alicia said! YUMMMMM!!!

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FITANDFIFTY2 5/24/2012 12:53AM

    Oh they look so delicious!! Wonderful!! emoticon

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NAHZEEJUNE 5/24/2012 12:25AM

    They are so pretty and the flavors sound so delicious. I'm sure your customers were so pleased with everything. Have a great day!!!!!

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DONNACFIT 5/24/2012 12:08AM

    Love the pictures and they all sound so delicious!!

I love collecting recipes on Pinterest for cupcakes and cake day I'll actually make some..yours turned out great!!

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KARENCRANER 5/24/2012 12:08AM

    Oh, my gosh! You've SO made me drool!

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Thursday, May 17, 2012

Here is a picture of me telling frank good luck before he went onto the track Friday. I have spent a lot of years leaning in and my final words are always, 'I WILL SEE YOU AFTER" .... it covers everything. Anyway, we had fun, he got wrecked ( not his fault) and still was happy for being behind the wheel again. Its been 5 years.

Things have settled here at home, kid had cleaned house and made dinner for mothers day and yes, Kelly came too. We have talked some and she has actively been looking for work. She is helping me do a big cake pop order tomorrow so she will have some money till she lands a job. She is staying with her boyfriend for now.

I gained 7 pounds while away but have lost 4 already. I made a commitment to lose 10 pounds by june 13 when I leave for Utah for 10 days. Its good for me to have a mini goal and I need to get ( back) out of the 230's and then past the 220's which the lowest I have been was 221. I started this year determined to be at 199 by the end of the year, its totally doable but I need to get on it and get past this stagnancy I'm at. Moving forward with determination, yep that me!

Thank you for all the support you give me on a daily basis. I'm blessed. And I do not use that word lighlty.

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IMIN2GENES 5/25/2012 9:15AM

    Nice! Glad things are going in a good direction. Glad you and your hubby were able to enjoy a race. Keep kicking booty on those 10 pounds.

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OJIBWEEQUAY 5/24/2012 12:16AM

    LOVE the photo!

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BIGMAMAT 5/18/2012 1:18PM

    Goals are gooooood!!!!! A must have. spark on MAMA. SPARK ON... emoticon

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HGSGUY 5/18/2012 1:12PM

    Great to hear that good things are taking place.

The picture almost looks like you are saying "NO, I am not getting in this thing"! Looks like fun though!

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CLOVER2 5/18/2012 11:35AM

    Loved the picture! Thinking about you and Frank being out there and doing this very exciting thing together makes me....happy for you, envious for me. Just a little bit, looong story! I'll tell it sometime...(Poor you guys!) emoticon
I am VERY happy to hear that Kelly was there for dinner. I am a bit surprised, but happily so that she is reaching out this soon, it is a good thing that it didn't take her long to realize that she does love and need to make sure you two keep that connection. I feel a lot of sadness that my mother and I have lost that, but it is what it is and I just try to remember what was, and that she is still alive and do the best I can.
I am certain that you will do what you have set out to do, you are one strong, marvelous woman. Can't see the results being anything but what you decide! DOWN, evil pounds!!

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JITZUROE 5/18/2012 11:16AM

    I think, that photo is sweet! It shoes your love for each other....awwwww...

And I KNOW you can lose those few lbs soon. You are definitely one determined Hal, I'll give you that!
Glad things are well on the home front. That covers the home business too of course. I hope that cake pop order and the work behind it is awesome - and filled with great music in the background so you guys can get your groove on while cake-poppin'!

Happy Friday! I loved your post about Friday eve. Made me laugh outloud!

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HEALTHYME229 5/18/2012 9:57AM

    Parenting isn't for sissies - that is for sure. I am so happy for you that you went ahead with Mother's Day and that both daughters were there. The road ahead will likely be bumpy for a while, but know you are doing the best for your daughter.


By the way - I understand your worries with your hubby getting behind the wheel. My fiancÚ is a volunteer firefighter and a storm spotter (we live in Oklahoma). I worry when he is out on a call or when severe weather threatens and he is out in it. He loves it and his passion for service is one of the reasons I love him. I like "I will see you after." I may have to use that myself the next time he goes out.

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BAYBELIEVER 5/18/2012 9:54AM

    Awesome! So glad your other daughter came!

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 5/17/2012 7:32PM

    Yes we have a 6/13 date to make it happen! good luck

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COOKWITHME65 5/17/2012 4:44PM

    So wonderful to se you and your husband can enjoy the racing together. Looks like so much fun.

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CELLISTA1 5/17/2012 4:33PM

    Can't wait to see you in the 100s. You are beautiful now, so you can only be more awesome then!

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LESLIES537 5/17/2012 4:06PM

    Totally doable! You got this! emoticon

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    This blog made me smile. Thanks...

- Michelle

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DAISY443 5/17/2012 1:34PM

    Glad you and Kelly can have a dialog. Probably some distance is good for now! Be happy!

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PJH2028 5/17/2012 1:24PM

    What goes around comes around. When we DO good things for ourselves... it comes around. I'm so glad to hear about the good things coming around in your life (Frank around the track... Kelly moving forward... you having a focus that you can carry proudly). I love and admire you my friend.

Let's have a great weekend! I know we can.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 5/17/2012 12:30PM

    I am so happy to hear about Kelly and the cakepop order! I am back to eating as clean as possible. It is the easiest way for me to not have to count calories and reach my goals. Love you.

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You are right, I am wrong

Tuesday, May 08, 2012

Thank you for the replies in many forms I recieved on my last blog. I didnt see it that way but you are right. It would be mean.

I will let her love me. I will allow someone to be nice instead of retreating. I will be open.

I told Frank and Kady and they both had huge smiles and we are arranging to be home by 3 or 4 that day so we can have dinner together. If Kelly comes too, then great. If not, that is fine too.

Thanks for the butt kicking. I really do appreciate it and feel a little straighter now.

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TERRYT55 5/12/2012 2:56PM

    Yay.......proud of you for being the very giving soul I know you are. Sometimes the best thing to do is let others do for you! Happy Mother's Day......

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STRIVER57 5/9/2012 1:29AM

    oh good, i can borrow more words: what Cannie said. i'm glad.

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BAYBELIEVER 5/8/2012 6:03PM

    Wasn't meant to be a butt kicking, just another point of view! Glad you are going to let them love you! Because the other DD does too, she just may choose not to show it this year, but that is her choice.

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DAISY443 5/8/2012 4:52PM

    I think you'll be glad you decided this. It will be Kelly's loss, not yours, if she ignores the day! Now no more, emoticon emoticon

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MELLYBEANS0919 5/8/2012 4:07PM

    Wonderful. I hope you enjoy the time together.

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  You have made the right choice. Kady wants to make you feel special and I am happy that you are giving her the opportunity. This year none of my children will be able to come for Mother's Day. I would switch places with you in a heartbeat just to have one child here. emoticon

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CANNIE50 5/8/2012 3:09PM

    Yay - I am proud of you. Blogging about feelings that aren't nice and shiny is not the easiest thing to do. Listening to advice we have asked for is not easy either. You did not take the easy route in any of this, you took the healthy route - nice work, Jan.

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    I am really glad you made this choice. I thought what most other people mentioned but wanted to let you feel however you wanted. You deserve to be honored regardless of what is going on!

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is it wrong?

Tuesday, May 08, 2012

Is it wrong that I don't want to celebrate mothers day this year? I have told my family I don't want to.
I told my husband we will be driving home and we could maybe go to breakfast.
My youngest, KD, asked me about it today saying she was going to make a special dinner for when we got home and I said no. I don't want to!
I'm not going to have mothers day with one kid while my other kid is gone. It just feels so wrong. Can't we just skip it this year? KD said, you still have 1 daughter and my reply was, no I have still have 2 daughters and I do not want to celebrate this year. It feels so phony!

I think that if they want to honor me, they should start by honoring my feelings and wishes....if I give in, it will be so THEY feel better which is just not what it should be about. discuss.

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FANGFACEKITTY 5/8/2012 10:10PM

    To me it is just a Hallmark Holiday and I don't care one way or another. Why can our children only celebrate us on a specific day of the year? In any case I don't think it is wrong for you not to want to celebrate and your daughter should respect your wishes. The day - Hallmark holiday though it is - is supposed to be about honoring our mothers, not guilting them into making us feel better.

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BECKYB73 5/8/2012 3:06PM

    I think you gotta do what you, in your heart feels is right. There WILL be other Mother's Days for you, LOTS MORE.

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CANNIE50 5/8/2012 2:29PM

    This will be my 5th Mother's Day without my eldest son acknowledging my existence, basically. The first couple mother's days during this estrangement were a bit harsh for me - lots of tears and sadness. However, I do have other children, I am indeed a mother no matter how one of my children chooses to treat me, and so I make my wishes known (I detest going out to eat on Mother's Day - way too crowded and more effort than I want to expend) and then I accept with appreciation anything that my husband or the other kids want to give me. I also still have a mother, and I know to be very grateful for this fact, believe me, so I do something to honor her as well. But mostly, honestly, Mother's Day for me is setting aside chores, and other people's wants, and mainly, setting aside guilt. If I want to lay in bed reading newspapers for a couple hours, that is what I do. If I want to lay around like a dog, on the couch, with a remote, that is what I do. So, search your heart and follow your instincts. WHen there is a conflict between two family members, the fall-out hits everyone in the family. Perhaps you can imagine being in KD's shoes - how would you want to be treated in this situation? You have a big heart, and you are a wonderful mother - one difficult Mother's Day won't change any of that. Be cautious of resentment, my dear friend, it is like fire - it can grow bigger very quickly and destroy things in its' path. I am thinking of all of you. emoticon

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STRIVER57 5/8/2012 12:11PM

    what mslovely, baybeliever, and Judy said! i do get how you feel ... but if i were KD i'd feel you were rejecting me too.

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DAISY443 5/8/2012 11:28AM

    Let them do for you! It will make them happy and might relieve some of your pain! If you need to cry, let them cry with you, Hubby and KD may be hurting, too! It IS NOT wrong for you to feel anyway you actually feel!

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CELLISTA1 5/8/2012 11:01AM

    I just deleted everything I wrote and I'm gonna put it in a goodie because it's too harsh and too personal... Listen to what people are saying.

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MELLYBEANS0919 5/8/2012 10:59AM

    Personally I'd let your daughter do something special for you. She really wants to show you she cares and loves you.

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JUDYAMK 5/8/2012 10:35AM

    It is not phony to your one daughter at home.Yes it will make them feel better as you stated. Did you ever think maybe the daughter that is home is remembering all the things you did for her.Mom's are always doing for their children, let this one day be their special day for you. I think in your daughter's heart it would make her feel bad if you do not grant this wish for her to make this special dinner for you. How about it ? Oh come on say yes !!! I bet it will be good & tasty!!!

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SARAWALKS 5/8/2012 10:34AM

    I like MSLOVELY's suggestion. emoticon

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BAYBELIEVER 5/8/2012 10:34AM

    Jan, I understand how raw your feelings are right now. But, I also can tell you that with 3 kids who normally don't celebrate Mother's Day, that I would welcome the attention of even one kid! If KD wants to celebrate you, let her! I know that this will feel awkward, but, we all know/hope that the trouble with your other daughter should be temporary. KD should be allowed to GIVE YOU the gift of her attention and honor. You are a great mother and she wants to show you that. Of course, I am not in your shoes. I am in my own. I don't have a mother to celebrate anymore and it hurts me a lot. God forbid, but what happens if something were to happen and this was KD's last year to celebrate you and she was asked not to? I say, live for the moment! Today is what you have. The situation is what it is. But don't miss out on the opportunity to create an awesome memory with your other daughter. That's just my two cents. Love you and that won't change no matter what you decide of course.

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PJH2028 5/8/2012 10:30AM

    I'm so glad you're blogging, Jan. I love to feel connected with you.
Holidays are so weird -- to me they always have a duality of genuine:phony. I mean, it's arbitrary on the one hand... and... ? on the other. My family has had and continues to have wrinkles of disrelation at times that confound the idealized snapshot. My mother is particularly disappointed by this.

Mother's Day is the most meaningful and the least phony, I think, for the little kids. You remember... when the week or more before the date prompts preschool and grammar school teachers to come up with special Mothers Day Gift projects for the kids to bring home.

So- Here's my suggestion for you and kd and frank this year... a suggestion that implicitly includes and does not exclude. Have a 'regular day', as you have asked for. And yet... make room for some memories of past tributes to you. KD is kind and giving to you on many days of the year, yes? So... maybe you can make room for her to do 'something nice' -- remind her... that you prefer a small gesture this year?

Showing Love. A gift to all, yes?

Also-- I am believing in my heart that, with patience and fortitude... and time... you will see progress in daughter #2. "Tough Love" is soo hard to execute. I know this from my own experience. It is real, too.

On Mothers Day THIS YEAR --- Let's Celebrate the Feminine -- Woman energy and love throughout the world.


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MSLOVELY87 5/8/2012 10:25AM

    I would say this is kind of torn, I completely understand where you dont want to, but remember your daughter KD wants to show how much she really appreciates you. Do it for her, it sounds like something that she really wants to do for you and seems a little hurt that you would not be happy that she wants to do something for you.

Maybe you should both just relax on the couch and watch a movie together, instead of her making dinner,possibly even just taking a walk. Quality time can be a gift in its own :). Suggest to her that you would not like her to cook but just watch a movie or take a walk :) Quality mommy time for mothers day. Priceless

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