Thursday, March 15, 2012
When I started my spark journey here on March 10, 2010, I weighed 291 pounds. I found out later that in fact, my doctor had me weighed in at 304! I blanked that out becuase I always told myself, "well, at least you are under 300". Snort. The lies we tell!!
Anyway, my first year here, I was fired up. Determined. I had all the tools I needed. I used my tracker faithfully, even on vacation. In fact, my very first vacation, I came home and had only gained .6 pounds. I was so happy. My plan was to get my eating under control first, then add excercise. I have a replaced knee, the other one needs it and I have two bulged discs in my back. I took alot of pain meds just to get through the day. I did not walk nor do any kind of excercise for the 4 years prior to getting healthy. Before that, I went to the gym 3 days a week. In all that time, I only lost 20 pounds because I kept eating like it was my job. I knew I had to do both to be successful but I knew I would need to ease into it when I "tried" again to lose weight.
After the first 15 pounds, I announced I was in a program to help me lose weight. With every success, I posted it on facebook. I got a lot of "keep it up!".
That pissed me off. What if I didnt want to keep it up? What if all I wanted to do was lose 10, 20, 30 pounds?
I kept it up, lol, but because I wanted to, not to please or show off to anyone else.
Then I started walking with my husband and dog. We went 3 nights a week and gradually, I actually walked a mile. I cannot tell you how exciting that was. Now, we walk 4-5 times a week and average 2-3 miles. It is nice. We talk. We watch the dog chase critters that she has no hope of catching. I dont think of it as excercise. It is just a peaceful time of day for us.
By the end of that year, I had lost 62 pounds. Nobody told me to keep it up anymore. They were in shock and awe that I acheived that and I looked so much better and felt so much better and I was alot more fun to be around. I was very proud of myself and felt wonderful.
By the beginning of the 2nd year, I started to struggle. Every pound was harder to lose. I got to where I had lost 70 pounds and that was a huge milestone. Keep in mind, my original goal was to lose 111 pounds and then I was going to reasses how much more (if any) I was going to lose.
In that whole 2nd year, I lost 100 pounds. Unfortunatly, it was the same 5-10 pounds, back and forth, back and forth. But I learned something. I can MAINTAIN! So that gives me hope that when I do lose the rest, I will be able to maintain it. I am consistant. I eat about the same calories every day, still go on vacation and gain 5 pounds, then come home and lose it almost immediatly. I still walk almost every day. I do some occasional kickboxing video's or Frank and I play Kinect and kick each others butts virtually which is always fun and I do some strength training. We have an old weight machine that had gathered dust for years and I am happy to say it is back in working order.
But I realize, going into my 3rd year, that to see change, I have to change. I have to do something different to get different results. I can not go back to what I used to do. I can only move forward into victory.
I have to leave my comfort zone and I have to push myself. I need to step up my workouts. I have to perhaps eat less or calorie cycle. I need to discover what is going to work NOW to get where I set out to go.
I have a blog, way back, about my visual. I am walking down a 2 lane highway, in the desert. I am between 2 mountains. The mountain behind me is where I started. Every 5 miles is a marker and I keep going, getting closer to the mountain of completion. But I have been camped out so long at this marker, I am officially living there. It is time to move. I need to leave these markers behind and get closer to my new place. I am moving out and moving on.
So I am going to take what I have learned these last 2 years, tweak it, use it, apply it and change it. I am going into my 3rd year here at spark with deterimination behind me, consistancy beside me and victory ahead of me.
Through it all, you have been here with me, by me and for me. I seriously could not have done it alone.