Friday, January 20, 2012
Disclaimer: I do not advocate eating disorders. I recently lost a very close friend to anorexia so shut it if you have any criticism. Thanks:-)
Please don't take this wrong, but after losing 5 pounds in 3 days, I kinda get it. It takes me MONTHS to lose 5 pounds normally but then the flu sets in and you can barely sip water much less eat more than 1 saltine cracker. I was well under 1000 calories for 3 or 4 days, wasn't exercising or even barely moving except to go to the bathroom and voila, 5 pounds gone. When I saw that number I was kinda thinking it was worth it.
Then, I started thinking about how awful I felt. The dehydration made me exhausted, the best toilet paper was not soft enough to use that often, my breath was toxic, I didn't care about food at all (what the hell!!! Who wants to live like that!!!!), I had no energy, I couldn't even walk my dog! That ain't no way to live, people!!
If it takes me months to lose 5 pounds, that's OK. I can live with that. Really live.
And besides, I still love cookies!! We are not seeing each other right now but I know when I am ready, they will take me back.