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I can kinda see the appeal

Friday, January 20, 2012

Disclaimer: I do not advocate eating disorders. I recently lost a very close friend to anorexia so shut it if you have any criticism. Thanks:-)

Please don't take this wrong, but after losing 5 pounds in 3 days, I kinda get it. It takes me MONTHS to lose 5 pounds normally but then the flu sets in and you can barely sip water much less eat more than 1 saltine cracker. I was well under 1000 calories for 3 or 4 days, wasn't exercising or even barely moving except to go to the bathroom and voila, 5 pounds gone. When I saw that number I was kinda thinking it was worth it.

Then, I started thinking about how awful I felt. The dehydration made me exhausted, the best toilet paper was not soft enough to use that often, my breath was toxic, I didn't care about food at all (what the hell!!! Who wants to live like that!!!!), I had no energy, I couldn't even walk my dog! That ain't no way to live, people!!

If it takes me months to lose 5 pounds, that's OK. I can live with that. Really live.

And besides, I still love cookies!! We are not seeing each other right now but I know when I am ready, they will take me back.

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ERINBEAR1876 1/25/2012 9:41AM

    I completely understand your thinking. It's is SO frustrating sometimes when the number on the scale moves SO slow, in such SMALL increments, then a sickness hits and BAM you lose a chunk of weight. The same thing happened to me last year and I hit my lowest weight because of it. I was so proud of that number, until I remembered how CRAPPY I felt and how miserable I was the whole time.

It's almost easy to forget the miserable when you see a number you want to see, but thankfully you put that out of your mind and remembered :o}

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SALEX52 1/21/2012 7:59PM

    I have felt that way. We know we don't really want to loose that way, but oh, it can be tempting.

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LESLIESENIOR 1/21/2012 7:28PM

    That is so funny that I would come across your blog on SDJohn's Team page. My husband has lip cancer. Surgery is in several weeks. We are trying to find the humor in a not-so-funny situation. So we were joking that after surgery he will be on the lip cancer diet. He would like to lose 60 lbs. but NOT THAT WAY.

I totally get your processing. Glad you returned from the the grips of the flu. My friend saw a license plate that said "Come to the dark side, we have cookies". Hmmmmm. Tempting. LOL
Leslie in So. California

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TERRYT55 1/21/2012 1:25PM

    I understand! When I'm sick I keep thinking about the pounds I'm losing and wouldn't it be nice if it could be that easy all the time. Then I think of how crappy I feel and know it would be an awful way to live.

Happy you are feeling better!

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MAMADWARF 1/20/2012 10:22PM

    So glad I'm not the only one who thinks crazy sometimes!!!

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HEALTHYBARB1 1/20/2012 10:01PM

    Hope you are feeling all the not seeing each other right now about cookies...I think I will remember that funny statement for any foods I am staying away from. Have a restful weekend!
Smiles Barb

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CHELEMIA 1/20/2012 8:34PM

    There's Mama, the voice of reason! I don't like the flu but when Im in the middle of it,
the only thing getting me through is the thought that, "I am losing, I am losing."
But like Daisy said some may come back. God bless

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LORQUILTS 1/20/2012 8:20PM

    Good blog! I used to under eat many many years ago....I was thin, but it really screwed up my metabolism. So glad you're trying to be sensible. And glad you're feeling better too. emoticon

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LESLIES537 1/20/2012 8:14PM

    Is it bad that everytime I get the flu I think, 'Oh goodie, I'll lose a few pounds now!' LOL Glad you are feeling better! emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 1/20/2012 7:17PM

    Yep, being sick sucks.

too bad 5 lbs. can't go away by eating just cookies :)

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DAISY443 1/20/2012 6:16PM

    Some of that is going to come back when you get rehydrated! I want you well, who cares about the weight when you're sick. Get well, get back on track and be you again!

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CANNIE50 1/20/2012 6:00PM

    I think anorexia is to weight like gambling is to money - so seductive and really takes an enormous toll. SO very sad about your friend, and your grief for your friend. I am so glad the misery of the flu is behind you (excuse the awful pun).

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OJIBWEEQUAY 1/20/2012 5:49PM

    Oh Ialways wish for that dang flu! 5 pds woot! but i agree i love me some cookies! emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 1/20/2012 5:46PM

    I get it. When I started sp I would have days of eating less than 900 calories and the weight would come off so fast. It got addictive.

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Friday, January 20, 2012

Oh Lord, my friends..has the mama been through it! After a very stressful racing association meeting on Sunday where a few of our best friends quit in little boy temper tantrum crating a LOT of drama and upset. Had to take a tranquilizer to even be able to go to sleep. Then Monday, my cousins came over for a belated Christmas and I started feeling horrible. By 2, it was clear, I had the flu or something horrible like that. That was the beginning of three days of hell. The only g good that came out of it was I lost 5 pounds. I will take it.

I have been so weak I could barely type. It today, I got up, got dressed, went intoo my office which is at my house and went to the bank and the store. I am starting to be able to eat again and by this weekend I should be back to walking. I hate being sick so mush. I was forced Into immobility. I don't like being a sloth anymore. That's a good thing I learned but it feels good to be coming back. Thanks for caring about me!!

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ERINBEAR1876 1/25/2012 8:28AM

    You poor thing......I know it's hard to be "forced" into inactivity!

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HGSGUY 1/21/2012 12:24PM

    Glad to hear you are feeling better! Hope you have some smooth road ahead!

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JITZUROE 1/20/2012 6:04PM

    Ohhh I am so sorry! Good grief, for YOU to tupe that you 'hate being sick so mush", made me think you meant LITERALLY!
You love moving and shaking and dancing around to break up a sweat, so i know that mentally you are sooo over this mushy non working out season.
So hurry back my dear! Get those endorphins going
...and spark it up.

: )

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CANNIE50 1/20/2012 5:57PM

    Welcome back, Jan. I always feel extra grateful, and extra compassion for people who are chronically ill, after being as sick as you were. I am glad you are on the mend. Ramp up slowly, girl - you can't catch up in a day. Get extra sleep and fluids, okay? Um, fluids is water, by the way - not anything with Captain in the title emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 1/20/2012 3:17PM

    I have been so worried about you. My brother had it too and house bound for 4 days. Glad you are feeling better

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DEBBIE19580 1/20/2012 3:16PM

    Happy to hear you're feeling better!! emoticon

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BAYBELIEVER 1/20/2012 2:50PM

    So glad you are on the mend! And I know what you mean about not being able to stand not working out! Isn't it a great realization about ourselves?

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BADASSBLONDIE 1/20/2012 12:29PM

    *hugs* hope you feel better soon!

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KKINNEA 1/20/2012 11:23AM

    Glad you're feeling better.

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JOMAMA99 1/20/2012 9:13AM

    I am sorry you have been so sick, but very happy that you are starting to come around. Get well soon!

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EMMANYC 1/20/2012 8:31AM

    If you have been feeling like a sloth, this might cheer you up - these are a couple of video clips from the Sloth Sanctuary in Costa Rica:

Here's one for those of you who have considered trying pole dancing as an aerobic activity:

And here's one for those of us who love a nice massage after a hard workout:

I hope you feel better soon!

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FANGFACEKITTY 1/20/2012 6:59AM

    Oh boy, can I relate! Mine started the day after I got back from vacation and returned to work and knocked my out or a week. I finally started exercising again last night even though I'm not yet back to 100%. Here's hoping your recovery is faster than mine.

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DAISY443 1/20/2012 5:14AM

    Take care and get better. Don't try too much too soon! We need you healthy and sassy! Hugs!

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PJH2028 1/20/2012 3:12AM

    On the mend! You know I can relate.
Here's to February on the horizon! Let's both use the rest of January to build strength, center, spark, and take good good care of ourselves.

SO glad you're feeling better! xop

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CHELEMIA 1/20/2012 12:44AM

    Glad your becoming human again but take it slow .... Your body needs time to acclimate again.

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GRACEISENUF 1/20/2012 12:16AM

    emoticon emoticon

Glad I saw this before bed. Also glad you are starting to feel a bit better Jan.

emoticon ya,

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repost if a blog from a year ago

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

I'm still sick just slowly recovery from the gastro side of the flu. Hope you guys are all OK....miss you!

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ERINBEAR1876 1/24/2012 10:08PM

    Great blog post, and I seriously hope you are feeling MUCH better!!!

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CANNIE50 1/19/2012 6:26PM

    I am off to read your blog but, first, GET WELL SOON emoticon - that's an order. Ugh - you poor thing. PS I read the blog - I am so glad you reposted this because this was written and originally posted weeks before I joined SP. It is filled with wisdom, of course, just like you.

Comment edited on: 1/19/2012 6:30:40 PM

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SARAWALKS 1/19/2012 1:28PM

    Liked it last year, like it this year, hope you are getting better fast! emoticon

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CHELEMIA 1/18/2012 6:23PM

    I so needed this!! I had a 1/18/11 day! I just figured out I am grumpy partly due to lack of food. Part just life.
Get better and enjoy the weight loss from this.

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DAISY443 1/18/2012 5:50PM

    Hurry up! Get well! Are you listening to me? Take care of yourself!

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um, where is yoovie?

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Did I miss something?

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MYOWNHERO 1/16/2012 3:00PM

    I miss Yoovie! I'm sure we all wish her the very best....

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KAMAPERRY 1/14/2012 11:02PM

    Noooooooo!!!! I love Yoovie!!!

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SUCCESS44 1/14/2012 1:53PM

    I miss Yoovie!! I thought she also had a Tumblr page, but can't remember, and don't know if she is still on that.

That girl is a superstar!!!

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MAMADWARF 1/14/2012 10:02AM

    Thank you sassy. I appreciate you letting me know. I love that girl.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 1/14/2012 9:21AM

    It's been all over SP. I dont know if I think she is really gone since she quit once before and was back 2 days later. People need to let someone make a person choice and accept it.

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DAISY443 1/14/2012 5:19AM

    Hadn't realized it until you mentioned it! emoticon

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    She is having motivation problems and decided ton take some time fornherself to figure out how to get her own train a-rollin' again.

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WOLFKITTY 1/14/2012 12:56AM

    I KNOW!
I don't know. :(


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PEPIPOI 1/14/2012 12:29AM

    Not sure but love the dog.

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Throwing in the towel: 28 day bootcamp update

Friday, January 13, 2012

I know you guys think this is a tantalizing title where I say how I worked out and then do some snarky thing and tie in the throwing in the towel line but then overcome some obstacle and tell you how you can do it too and I end by wrapping it in rainbows and giggles.

Not this time, kids. I have done the 28 day bootcamp DVD 3 times and the first time, my back was sore but i didn't make the connection. Day 2, same thing and i started to wonder. Day 3! Today, and now I know. I can't do it. I could feel it tweaking while I was doing it and I tried to modify but for some reason, it aggravates my bulged discs.

It is dissapointing to say the least. I thought I was in better shape, I thought my back was better, I thought I could do it. I can't.

I am admitting defeat. I don't think there is anything wrong with the video, I just think my back is not healthy enough to do it. I am sending it to one of my sparkfriends and i know she will review it and tell you guys her experience with it.

So onward I go, on my little journey. Walking the dog, doing some strength training and doing Coach Nicole's Kickboxing DVD that's about 10 minutes long and eating right. But yeah, I'm kinda bummed about it.

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BADASSBLONDIE 1/16/2012 3:13PM

    I think you were right to recognize your limitations and not injure yourself. *hugs*

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    Don't beat yourself up about it. There are tons of workouts you can do without hurting your back, right? Well, get to it!! emoticon

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CULAINA 1/15/2012 10:40AM

    it's not worth killing yourself over. those sorts of dvds assume good general health and capability for them to be able to work. if you've got a back problem, it's probably not advisable to do something that is going to knock your back out.

you know your body and you're not saying that you're giving up exercise, just that you're giving up THAT exercise and that's ok xx

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JITZUROE 1/14/2012 9:05PM

    oooooh, I am sorry that this one was not quite the right recipe for you. I am wondering that right now with the new workout dvd's I ordered. MURDER on my knees on day 1. Day 3 was today, and I don't see it getting anything but worse, so my bottom lip is sticking out as I pout for a bit (also because I am a cheapskate and they weren't cheap! What do I use the 4 dvd's for now, coasters????).

It's ok doll, we WILL find that perfect workout soon to not aggravate our bod's!


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TURTLERASKIN 1/14/2012 3:42PM

    Bummer, dude, but at least you were smart enough to figure it out and to take corrective action in time!

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MELLYBEANS0919 1/14/2012 10:36AM

    Nothing wrong with doing something/stopping something to help yourself feel better.

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GRACEISENUF 1/14/2012 10:31AM

    I had come to the same conclusion about running and it was a very difficult one to make. I am a speed walker and my back and knees are happy with that. The other day I was able to jog some but walking is still my forte along with cycling and hiking.

Don't feel bad just do what works for you.


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EMMANYC 1/14/2012 10:10AM

    You've made the right decision. Having certain physical limitations (like some lower back issues) doesn't mean you're not strong. You're just different. I have lower back trouble, too (including a near-paralytic episode two years ago this weekend), but I think of myself as strong. And I adapt my exercise efforts to a) strengthen my lower back; and b) avoid aggravating my condition.

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SWAYDE 1/14/2012 9:40AM

    As long as you keep on moving and doing what you can do and improving yourself, than you are a winner! It's okay to have to not do something that is not good for you. I'm proud to be a quitter... and I am healthier because of it and I'm sure you will be too! Keep working on that back, you definitely need it!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 1/14/2012 9:20AM

    Hugs. Part of being healthy is admitting something isn't healthy for us. Sounds kind of counterintuitive lol. I will let you know how it works out for me!!!

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CHELEMIA 1/14/2012 12:18AM

    IT just sucks when you have to admit that the body is not as advanced as our mind wants it to be.
For me it was Week 2 of the biggest loser.
I am not giving up BUT for now it is not something I can do!!

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CELLISTA1 1/13/2012 11:57PM

    Anybody who is strong and determined hates to be in a situation like this. It makes you mad. I'm suffering over this right now. I've been burning the candle at both ends and I just can't do it. Some people burn right on through til they actually get hurt or get sick from stress. Some people just give up. Some of us, on the other hand, have the wisdom to assess the situation and make an informed decision. That's what you've done and you get to be congratulated for being a wise woman!

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SARAWALKS 1/13/2012 11:39PM

    emoticon emoticon But you will find other things that you can do. Coach Nicole's shorter videos are plenty of challenge for me! I'm glad you realized in time so that you didn't hurt your back. emoticon

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CANNIE50 1/13/2012 10:57PM

    I'm sorry your back won't cooperate with your willing spirit. You gave it a good shot, and how very Sparkly of you to send it on to a fellow Sparkler.

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EWAMSLEY 1/13/2012 10:57PM

    I wouldn't beat yourself up over it. I know that it can be tough, but if its too painful it probably isn't beneficial. Continue finding other ways to work out and eat healthy and I'm sure you'll be happy with the results. I know right now it can be hard but you'll get to the point if you keep up the good work to where you can do the boot camp. Don't give up hope my friend.

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FOODIELOVER1 1/13/2012 10:50PM

  Boot Camp is not for everyone. I too find hard to do. I prefer to go for my walks, swim and tennis. I hate the gym too emoticon

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