sugar, sugar

Monday, November 28, 2011

I am really struggling with a sugar attack. I did great over thanksgiving and maybe it was because I was tired or not excercising (hey, theres a thought!) but I was weak.Sugar and me, well we go way back.

Sugar started sneaking in, whispering in my ear, calling and calling and calling until I gave in. Not just once. Many times. Mini packs of M&M's, cookies, pumpkin bread, chocolate covered pretzels.It has to stop and nobody hit me hard enough in the mouth to knock my sweet tooth out so I guess it is up to me.

Well, today was the day. I have gone all day sugar free. NOT ONE BIT has gone in my mouth. I know it will take quite a few more days of this to quit the cravings (and boy, are they intense) but it is not the way I want to go. It is standing in the way of my 219 that I am trying really hard to get to so it has to stop.

So that is where I am. One day at a time. NO excess sugar.

Back to walking (Stitchy got the ok as long as she doesnt chase any bunnies!) and we are starting slow. Only about 1 mile today and we will work back up. It felt good to eat well and walk today. Really good.

And eating sugar constantly, being exhausted, not walking, (you know, like my OLD life) sucks and I dont like it. It makes me realize how I am not missing anything by being like that. So good. No turning back.

Suck it, sugar! You dont own me.

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quick blog

Friday, November 25, 2011

Yesterday, I had 32 people at my house. We had 5 tables running straight through my house from the front door to the back for. I cooked 2 turkeys and my bil, brian, fried one. We also had an 11 pound honey baked ham and everyone brought rolls, desert and stuffing. Kady made real cranberry sauce. Everything was really good and my sweet sister who did all the deserts even made individual lemon pie tarts so they would be portion controlled for me! How sweet is that. Everyone of us, even the little kids said what we were thankful for. Everyone said family and friends and my daughter Kelly mentioned my weight loss and how proud they are of me and are so glad I set out to do this so i will be around longer, it made me happy. We had a really fun day and then at 11: 30 set out with my neices, sister and daughter and spent all night shopping and ended up at breakfast at 5:30 am and then came home and went to sleep! 3 hours later I was up again and we went the a craft store and to petsmart for more bargains. I wrapped the gifts I got and now 1 neice and I are going to Walgreens and CVS for a few more things and maybe a movie later with frank.

I think I will sleep good tonight! I hope you all had a great day and i held you in my heart yesterday fro things I am thankful for.

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Small Potatoes

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

This was originally posted in November of 2010. I think it's still good and I still want to be a potato!




I dont know why, but I woke up with this blog in my head. Im weird, I know.

I want to talk about potatoes. They are heavy for their size, we can do alot of different things with them, most people love them, they are versatile and delicious!

The potato skin is what we see when we look at them. The ugly, dirty, lumpy skin. But we still love them, still desire them, still want to consume them. And when you peel them, there is the lovely, delicious, shiny part that everybody loves, inside. Even if you don't peel it and you just scrub it, it looks better, shiny, clean, dark and lovingly holding the fluffy stuff inside. But the skin has all the good stuff:The vitamins and minerals that make the potato valuable.

We are kind of like that. We want to be the fluffy, yummy stuff that everyone loves but we have the skin on us, the weight, the fat. We want to peel the skin and just be the potato but we cannot separate it that easily. We forget that we are still loved even with our "skin" on us.

The skin is important. It protects that potato like our weight protects us. It keeps the yummy inside safe and clean. But if a potato is left alone too long, it becomes bad. It starts getting soft and green and rotten. Potatoes are meant to be consumed. That is what they are made for. If they are not used for their purpose, they have wasted their existence. If losing the weight is what it takes for us to use our lives and fulfill our purpose, then great. But dont hide behind it anymore.

Let's not waste our lives complaining about the skin. Let's scrub it up, make it as good as we can, let people see how important the entire potato is. Some people think the skin is the best part! I mean, have you ever gone to an appetizer section in a restaurant and NOT seen potato skins on the menu? No. Have you had the mashed potatoes with the skins mixed in? How much better they taste? How much better they are for you? And come on, who doesnt love Natural cut fries with the skins still on?

Today, be the best "potato" you can be! Fry it, cut it, slice, dice, chop, shred, mash, bake it up, but use it. Don't let today go by shriveling up on a shelf. Be consumed!

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Thanksgiving repost

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

This is a repost from 1 year ago. I hope you enjoy it. I found a few other wise words that still apply that I am going to repost too. Here you go!

Twas the day before thanksgiving
and all through the house,
the Mama was working
for family and spouse.

The cleaning was done
and the meal had been planned
The Turkey, desert and
yes, even the Ham.

The table was laid
with some beautiful things,
in anticipation of a day
that being with family will bring.

As I look back on this year
and all that has transpired,
I have to be Thankful
for getting inspired.

I changed what I did
and I changed what I ate,
I started moving more
and putting less on my plate.

I added some friends
I never could dream
would have added so much
and what that would mean.

There is always an ear
when I need to speak
and a pat on the back
after losing weight in a week.

There have been things
that were hard to take
but I turned to my strength
and turned my back to the cake.

My husband and girls
are what spur me on
and how good that I feel
with all that weight gone.

For the next few days
whether with family or friends,
take a minute to imagine
how this journey ends

How well you have done,
how great do you feel,
how far you have come
that it's more than a meal.

It takes just a minute
to be grateful indeed
You are in it to win it
and you mean something to me.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving my friends. You are on my list of things I am grateful for and whether you have family or money or health or not, there is something that is worth being grateful for, something that makes your life better. Most of all, we have this one life. Make the best of it!

Love, Jan

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well, well i found some interesting items today

Thursday, November 17, 2011

I have been cleaning my house like a physco with the help of my girls and my sister. I cleaned off my dresser and i had this ugly box full of knick knacks and cards and receipts and paper. I went through all of it and tossed a bunch of stuff and put some other stuff in one of my drawers that used to have clothes in it that didn't fit.

I found a great poem my mom wrote about Christmas and it made me cry. I'm going to read it to the family this year and make them cry too. Lol.

Then I found a poem I wrote when we moved my dad out of his house, 12 years after my mom had passed. It made me cry. I read it to my sister and made her cry too. I'm going to read it to the rest of the family and make them cry. Lol.

Then I found a paper I wrote in march on 2010 when i started spark. It was my first assignment about why I wanted to lose weight. I wrote:
Be healthier
Breathe better
No more meds
Pain free
Move and walk better
Fit into normal sizes
Not be the biggest person in the room
Not be horrified by a picture of me
Look better
Smaller clothes
No suffering for huby and kids because of my health
Do not wait for a heart attack before I change
Walk stitchy
Fit into chairs
Fit on roller coasters
Fit in plane seats
Fit into restaurant booths
And finally,
LIVE.
I want to live

Extra weight keeps me separated, makes me tired, unhealthy, feel terrible, hides me.
I want to walk with frank and stitchy
Play with my grandkids ( that I don't have)
Have more energy
Excite my husband
Relieve my kids from worrying about me.

Now, lets talk about where I am now and what I have achieved.

I am no longer diabetic
I walk 4-6 times a week
I post pics of myself all the time.
I fit. In seats, chairs, booths, roller coasters
I breathe better, move better, and am happier, more energetic and just since we are talking, I do excite my husband.
My kids are proud of me and don't worry anymore.
I wear much smaller clothes( 5 sizes smaller in pants and shirts) and can wear an XL in most stores
I am not the biggest person in the room and in fact, not the biggest person in my family either.
I am not pain free but I am 90% better
I am living. Not just breathing and existing but baby, I am LIVING. I eat every day up and get the most I can out of it. Not that I don't have hard times but I appreciate every day that I have as a day to love, be loved and it is a gift. I take it as such.

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