Thursday, July 15, 2010
I am up 2 pounds. Normally, that would send me into some type of upset but I understand why. I have been on a very strong hormone for 2 weeks (go back to dr. on monday) and after reading about it last night, I understand whats going on. Not that I wanted to put that number at my weigh in today, but I know I am on track with nutrition and excercise so I am just going to stick to the plan and trust my body to level out. I thought about not changing the number but that is cheating and I told myself I would track on Thursdays (the day I began) no matter what the number, although I also get to put a lower number in the tracker if I hit it before Thursday!
I am going away for 4 days to a race and I have set a plan for myself with food, excercise and hydration. I set a goal to be down 1 pound when I get back but it may be a challenge because of this medication, but am still going for it.
I will not lose sight of my goals no matter what obstacles get in my way. I am on my way to my next goal of 40 pounds lost. I have a visualization. I see myself looking down a road. There are mile markers and there is the destination. The mile markers are in 5 pound increments and the destination is my goal weight. Sometimes, I turn around and look behind me and I have come so far, I cant even see where I started anymore, so I turn back around and keep moving towards that next mile marker. I am walking towards it, even tho I would rather be in a Dodge Challenger speeding my way to where I am going (or maybe a Harley, depending on the day!) but I am still on the road.
I can picture when I am halfway there and when I get there and as I walk this road, I am getting smaller and healthier and smarter and stronger. So today's lesson, kids, is stay on the road and keep going!
(Im dropping fat behind me like a trail of bread crumbs! Kinda gross but I think it pretty much evaporates when it hits the road so I am not messsing up the environment or leaving anything for those following behind me to step in).
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Ok so when I started this little adventure back in March, the "girls" were uncomfortably entrenched in a 48C, wth the 1" extender. You probably dont know this about me but I have a hate-hate relationship with Bra's. When I was 18, I took my bra off, flung it at my husband in a drunken stripper type dance to Joe Walsh's "Rocky Mountain Way" song and I didnt put one on again until I was 24 and pregnant.
They never fit right, are always digging in or slipping off the shoulder and are basically my main reason for the end of the day so I can get OUT of wearing the bra. Everyone who knows me understands if you come to my house after 6 or 7 pm, I will be in pajamas and you are gonna probably gonna get an eyeful. I used to take it off at 5 but now that my hubby and I walk in the evenings, I have pushed it back till later in the night and it is often my motivation to walk becuase I cant take it off until I get back from walk.
Ok there is my history with bra's. Yesterday, I put the torturous device on and realized that my underwire was broken. I couldn't find my "spare" so I dug through my drawers and my extras were just not good options so I found a decent, not reveling long tube top shirt and wore it until I could get to Lane Bryant and buy a new one which was 4 in the afternoon. I knew my old bra was getting big but just put it on the smallest hook and was happy that it was not digging into my skin. So I have said all of that to get to this:
42c BABY! Thats right, quite a drop! So that has lead to a new goal for me which is to get into a Victoria Secret bra which goes up to 38c. Not that I think it will be any more comfortable but hey, it will at least look good! (and who knows, Joe Walsh and I may have a repeat performance!)
I promise to post pictures from that little shopping excursion! Progress, not perfection!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
I love summer time. The boating, the swimming, the vacations,the peaceful nights on the patio, the fresh furit and great fresh veggies BUT, the activities are trying to get the best of me! I keep being in situations with family and friends and bbq and food and parties and events where I make the best choices I can but all that is getting me is maintaining and not losing. I have lost steadily since mid-march until the last 2 weeks. I hate whiny blogs so this is just me venting a bit of frustration and trying to work things out. I am also having an unusual hormonal thing that I am getting medical treatment for with another doc appt on Monday the 19th and I do think that has quite a bit to do with it.
I have loved losing weight on SP but some of my negative self talks has been creeping in goes like this: "Well you lost some weight, you made it very public and now you are gonna fail in front of everyone. It was a fluke. You have done this before and you always go back to the way you were. You cant change, you love that junky food too much to give it up. Just drive through somewhere for lunch and do the best you can.... and on and on"
So those of you who know me on here, know that if nothing else, I am positive. I find the good side of everything (it is the Libra in me!) and that I am very determined to hit my goals. So, just to make THIS very public, here is my plan:
Be prepared! (Have healthy food with me starting this weekend with 4 days at a race with crappy food everywhere!)
Stay hydrated with WATER (only 1 diet pepsi and 1 vitamin water, the rest of the day, water, water, water!)
Keep moving! (Walk 5 minutes for every hour sitting on my bootie)
Go swimming (and that does not include sitting and basting in the hot tub at the hotel)
Limit alcohol to 1 night of drinking (be the designated driver instead) of Captain Morgan and Diet Pepsi).
Tell people about Spark people (when they tell me how amazing I look!)
Show people how I have changed by representing. Let them see the new and improved Jan!
When I get home, I will have lost at least 1 pound and will feel stronger, better in control and back on my downward spiral.
So thanks for your support, thanks for reading, thanks for being here for me. You have made so much difference in this journey, I cannot tell you.
** PS. Last night when my hubby and I went jet skiing, he told me how amazing I looked and wished he had a camera because I looked so hot and so happy being out on the water. That the picture would have been my new icon for this site and my facebook page. Then he told me he wasnt going to let me go out on them by myself becuase I was so hot. LOL, that is so sweet but really hilarious because I still weigh over 250 pounds and he is the only one who sees me that way but how awesome is it that he does?????
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
I have been inspired recently by some people doing visual before and after shots as well as in progress pix. Well, I am definatly in progress but when I lost 25 lbs. I posted this picture:
Now today, I was in Petsmart and I bought a 35 pound bag of dog food. This is how much weight I have lost since March 10, 2010
I dont know what this says about me using dog food as a gauge, but I do love seeing the progress I am making. It is really kind of amazing because for the first time in a long time, I dont cringe when I see a picture of me and I am excited to keep this journey going and be one of the spark people success stories, too! Keep up the hard work everyone, we are looking FINE!
Get An Email Alert Each Time MAMADWARF Posts