Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I am in a bad situation here, kids. I have had iron will since I started this deal in March. I have lost 35 pounds. People cannot beleive how strong I have been. I have had a hard time believing it too! But today, the old me is trying to take over!! Im at a disadvantage. I am TTOM (that time of month) and I am so hungry and not just hungry, but craving sugar. It is the first time this has happened to me since I have been on SP.
MY hubby and I took the dog and went to the lake yesterday. Had a nice day. Then came home and my girls had baked a lemon cake (one of my top 5 favs). So I was ok about it, stuck it in the frig, out of sight, out of mind, right?
Uh no. This is one of the most powerful cakes I have come across. It has been calling me all day from my outside office. I have been thinking about that damn cake. So after lunch, went back to office then came through to run to the store. Opened the frig to check on supplies and there it was. It literally LEAPED into my hands, plate and all! I did not know a lemon cake could move so fast.
I understood then and there, I would be eating this cake, so I gave myself permission and cut a 2" by 2" peice. I got a fork and thought I will eat it nicely and slowly. Uh, again with the leaping,right into my mouth! So I stopped fighting it, gave in, enjoyed my peice standing in the kitchen with my purse and car keys in hand. Got into my car and thought "well, thats that. You better factor that in for the rest of the day. No problem, I have some wiggle room, so off to the store.
Came back, put some stuff away in the frig and WHAM! That SOB jumped right back into my hands!! Another square into the mouth.
Now I am starting to feel a bit crazy, weak and ashamed and I dont friggin like that one bit. So I wrapped that bad boy up in Blue saran wrap as tight as possible and shoved him so far down and back in the frig, someone will have to ask me where it is to find it. I think I have a grip now, after blogging this and realizing the cake had its moment in the sun but now I will have mine.
I have a stir fry planned for dinner tonight, very healthy and yummy. I am not afraid to open the frig since the cake is secure but damn, we had a moment there, didnt we? Sometimes maybe you have to go back to remember how far you have come. That cake? Would have won just a few short months ago. It may have got it's licks in (yea, that's intentional. Im funny like that) but I am the big winner. Cake 2 (pcs), Jan 35 (pounds). Progress, not perfection!