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Summer is trying to derail me

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

I love summer time. The boating, the swimming, the vacations,the peaceful nights on the patio, the fresh furit and great fresh veggies BUT, the activities are trying to get the best of me! I keep being in situations with family and friends and bbq and food and parties and events where I make the best choices I can but all that is getting me is maintaining and not losing. I have lost steadily since mid-march until the last 2 weeks. I hate whiny blogs so this is just me venting a bit of frustration and trying to work things out. I am also having an unusual hormonal thing that I am getting medical treatment for with another doc appt on Monday the 19th and I do think that has quite a bit to do with it.

I have loved losing weight on SP but some of my negative self talks has been creeping in goes like this: "Well you lost some weight, you made it very public and now you are gonna fail in front of everyone. It was a fluke. You have done this before and you always go back to the way you were. You cant change, you love that junky food too much to give it up. Just drive through somewhere for lunch and do the best you can.... and on and on"

So those of you who know me on here, know that if nothing else, I am positive. I find the good side of everything (it is the Libra in me!) and that I am very determined to hit my goals. So, just to make THIS very public, here is my plan:

Be prepared! (Have healthy food with me starting this weekend with 4 days at a race with crappy food everywhere!)
Stay hydrated with WATER (only 1 diet pepsi and 1 vitamin water, the rest of the day, water, water, water!)
Keep moving! (Walk 5 minutes for every hour sitting on my bootie)
Go swimming (and that does not include sitting and basting in the hot tub at the hotel)
Limit alcohol to 1 night of drinking (be the designated driver instead) of Captain Morgan and Diet Pepsi).
Tell people about Spark people (when they tell me how amazing I look!)
Show people how I have changed by representing. Let them see the new and improved Jan!

When I get home, I will have lost at least 1 pound and will feel stronger, better in control and back on my downward spiral.

So thanks for your support, thanks for reading, thanks for being here for me. You have made so much difference in this journey, I cannot tell you.

** PS. Last night when my hubby and I went jet skiing, he told me how amazing I looked and wished he had a camera because I looked so hot and so happy being out on the water. That the picture would have been my new icon for this site and my facebook page. Then he told me he wasnt going to let me go out on them by myself becuase I was so hot. LOL, that is so sweet but really hilarious because I still weigh over 250 pounds and he is the only one who sees me that way but how awesome is it that he does?????

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NEDERLUNG 7/17/2010 10:23AM

    This feeling of difficulty shall to pass. I've noticed that every time I log a weight loss, SP pops up and says adjust your calories, etc. etc. - Well, my point is - among all the foods are all the additional activities. Focus on them and not being the care taker of the food tables. Be SELFish for now and let someone else handle it. When you are in better control of your impulses, then you can hover with the food caretakers, but for now - be SELFish!

How wonderful your husband seems! I'm envious! Smiles

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MAMADWARF 7/14/2010 10:54AM

    I have struggled a bit in the last few weeks but I wrote on someones page the other day: its not always easy, but it's always worth it.

I want this really badly so I am jsut trying to stay on track and keep making progress! Thanks as always for you encouragement and support. It means the world to me!

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CLEVAGAL 7/14/2010 2:53AM

    Jan, I LOVE where you are at the moment!!!!! I have hit a plateau (mainly because I am on weight gaining medication that I HAVE to be on). The whole snacking thing for me is the downer- until today. From today when I get ravenous I have a low calorie soup or hot drink or rice snacks/vegs with salsa. You have just been so strong!!!!! Its not always going to be easy aye, its all in the picking up after the damage that will really count. I think youre managing really well. It sounds like real life and youre adapting!!!!! GO GRRRRRRRRL! Cleva xxx emoticon

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What does it cost?

Saturday, July 10, 2010

I started thinking today: What has it cost me to be fat?
Fast Food: 10.00-15.00 a day
Gym membership I never used: 85.00 a month
Bigger clothing: approx. twice what a "normal" size would cost
New furniture because I have worn it out sitting on my big butt: 1000.00
New Bed becuase the dip I made was too uncomfortable to sleep in anymore: 2000.00
Medical bills including knee replacement: 10,000.00 a year
Camping chairs built for bigger people: 100.00
New seats for my truck since I smashed them all down:2000.00
Loss of self respect
Loss of energy
Inability to move and do fun things with my family
Humiliation getting kicked off a roller coaster becuase the seat belt wouldnt fit
Humiliation asking for belt extender on airplanes
Causing my family undo stress and worry

Now what is it costing me to get healthy?
Fresh fruit and veggies and food to make healthy meals: 10-15.00 a day
Walking: free
More energy and an excitement to be alive: Free
Smaller clothes: Free because they were my "skinny clothes" I was going to wear again someday
Healthy dog and husband going for walks with me: free
An appreciative husband and kids: Free

(I know you know this is coming but it is so true!)
Getting healthy with SparkPeople: PRICELESS!

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INFLATED 7/11/2010 9:50PM

    Think of it this way, we are nipping it in the bud as Barney on Andy Griffith used to say. For me, I don't want to go on pills or insulin shots for diabetes. I don't want to always be saying to my family, "Go ahead without me, I don't feel up to it."

I had a medical scare with my left leg that set me on this journey and I don't want to go back to that kind of worry. If something happens to me now, I have taken some weight off and am doing better things for my body and would face a surgery knowing I have made changes for the better.

Don't look back except as a lesson learned, but look forward to having a future of participation in life and living it to the fullest.

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JMCADE 7/11/2010 1:36PM

    Wow we never really look at the difference in the costs. Thanks for making me think. Keep moving forward.

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TEENY_BIKINI 7/11/2010 1:25PM

    I agree. There is no price I would not pay for this new life. Well said, gorgeous.


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MISHKALA 7/11/2010 1:21PM

    You are blessed with the gift of writing. Thank you for the inspiration!! emoticon emoticon

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TEXWIFE 7/10/2010 9:19PM

    Jan you nevercease to amaze me in your writing. You always say I.m s4elf reflective but you do it in a positive way! It made me think about my own wieght battle, it doesnt have appeared to have cost me much so maybe thats why I dont work as hard as you. Thanks again for being such a delight to others. Love Becky emoticon

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 7/10/2010 9:03PM

    Nice job with this blog! You can do it!

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INFLATED 7/10/2010 6:49PM

    I agree with you.
My belly used to rub against the steering wheel making it uncomfortable to drive and difficult to make sharp turns.
I still have trouble finding wide width shoes, but my blouse size has come down a size.

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GRACEISENUF 7/10/2010 2:38PM

    Very good reminder of the ill effects of being overweight and very motivating at the same time!



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Mama's got a brand new bag!

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

I have been inspired recently by some people doing visual before and after shots as well as in progress pix. Well, I am definatly in progress but when I lost 25 lbs. I posted this picture:

Now today, I was in Petsmart and I bought a 35 pound bag of dog food. This is how much weight I have lost since March 10, 2010

I dont know what this says about me using dog food as a gauge, but I do love seeing the progress I am making. It is really kind of amazing because for the first time in a long time, I dont cringe when I see a picture of me and I am excited to keep this journey going and be one of the spark people success stories, too! Keep up the hard work everyone, we are looking FINE!

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MISHKALA 7/11/2010 1:19PM

    You're doing a fantastic job!!! You look fantastic!! I have to buy dogfood too, I'll have to pick up some bags to guage for myself! It's so hard not to get depressed when we hit plateaus - we have to remember what we've accomplished so far! Way to go!! emoticon emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 7/10/2010 2:39PM

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NEWYEARME 7/8/2010 9:26AM

    Great visual!!!!


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NEDERLUNG 7/7/2010 11:55PM

    I think this is an excellent visual. You have worked very hard to reach 35 pound loss, you should be very proud of yourself. Of course, I can see that you are proud by that huge smile on your face.

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SUSHIMAVEN 7/7/2010 11:31PM

    great idea to use dog food!

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MD300BOWLER 7/7/2010 11:27PM

    Thanks for sharing.
Donít forget to drink losts of water everyday and join the BOWLING TEAM for great Huddles. emoticon

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I just want to show off

Sunday, July 04, 2010

Here is a picture of me and my gorgeous daughters from this weekend. We went for an all girl cousin-sister-daughter-neice weekend and it was alot of fun. We watched some home movies, looked at photo albums, had great food and a wonderful time. I feel great and made fairly good choices and really enjoyed my time with the women I love. My girls (19 and 24) are so special to me and a huge part of why I want to get healthy and be here for them as long as I can. (I also want grandkids but hey, Im not nagging! Much) They are such strong, insanely funny people who take life by the horns and bend it to their will. I have learned so much by being their Mom. My youngest, the blond, Kady, has crohns disease and has suffered horribly for the last 4 years but she will not let it beat her and is currently doing very well. She reminds me to not let health get away from me. I am a proud mommy.

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NEDERLUNG 7/7/2010 11:54PM

    How fun, a girls weekend! You all look great and very happy.

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GRACEISENUF 7/6/2010 11:20AM

    I guess your blog answered my question of how the "girls time went". YEAH! So glad you had such a good time.

This pic shows how happy the three of you are is "written" all over your faces.

You are a proud Mom and that is a VERY good thing...they are beautiful indeed!

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LILABEL 7/5/2010 12:08PM

    That's lovely!

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SLEEPYDEAN 7/5/2010 12:17AM

    Awww sounds like you had a great time! That is the stuff that memories are made of.

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SELF-LOVE 7/4/2010 11:51PM

    Ya'll look like you stepped out of a 1940's magazine cover. Good Job I like this! emoticon

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ya we are sisters...

Thursday, July 01, 2010

here is my sisters blog about shorts on the ground (you can read my blog about pants on the ground). yea we are
On another note, I had a victory today. I drove my RV today and the arms on the seat actually fit down over my butt and legs...that is a first! It was an unexpected confirmation that I am indeed smaller!!!

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MISHKALA 7/3/2010 2:21PM

    Congratulations on your success!!! I think it's the little things that really make a difference to us. I noticed a smaller shadow and it was a really nice feeling!!! emoticon

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NEDERLUNG 7/1/2010 9:43PM

    Exciting that your realized the arms can now go down. Reminds me of the first time I realized my belly was not touching the steering wheel of my car.

The little things that please us, woohoo!

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