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Sunday, August 21, 2011

I would like to suggest a new item for the Nutritional Tracker.

Let's just call it .....


We could have an additional button such as
"Began with a salad"
" Skipped the desert's"
"Has learned a lot and didn't go crazy"
"Just get a trough"
"Went completly insane"
"Good intentions went out the window at the *asian section or *italian section or *desert section or the *fried whatever section"
"Need a wheelchair to leave the place"
"Stayed in control but still had a few bites of everything that I wanted but could not possibly track every 2 or 3 bites I had of all the different things"

So what inspired this blog, you may ask?

Yesterday, we went to a RV show and headed to the races to watch our buddy's race. You know, how we roll. Anyway, we were early and didnt want to get there too soon so we stopped at this new casino because we have never been there. It was beautiful. Wide open, fun games, a few bars, live music. And a buffet. (Keeping in mind that I had made a fabulous healthy, turkey sandwich to eat later at the races so we didnt have to eat track food. A large Dutch Crunch loaf of bread, fresh sliced turkey, thin slices of Muenster cheese, fresh pickles and Romaine Lettuce leaves with a light spread of Light Mayo). I figured we would have a slice and then share what was left.

So we went to the Buffet. It was gorgeous. The food was beautiful and FRESH. I started with a healthy salad so I wouldn't freak out, had a reasonable amount of food, with 2-4 bites of the stuff I wanted such as tempura chicken, bbq pork, a small slice of pineapple and ham pizza, a taquito.

And then headed to the desert carousel.

OMG... my choices were carrot cake (had 3 bites of the end that has the walnuts on it, had a 2 bite lemon tart (fabulous!) some sort of sugar cookie with rasberry stuff in the middle (gonna attempt to make them for my christmas cookie extravaganza I do every year), a sugar free brownie which was about 2 bites and one of those chocolate chip-coconut-graham cracker-walnut cookie bars).

ALL in all, it was not a complete disaster but really, how would you possibly track all that? If Spark had the above mentioned button, I could select the bottom line and be content. Instead, I am not putting anything for dinner and just made a note that I ate at a buffet. Realistically, I probably had a 1000 calorie meal with a whole bunch of fat.

So, Jan, what happened to that fantastic sounding sandwich? I cut it up and walked around and gave it to the drivers after the races. They were so happy cause 1. They are guys 2. They are always hungry 3. They were happy that I was so thoughtful to them (teehee, I let 'em think it!)

And just out of randomness and because I know you want to see it, here is a recent picture of my granddog, Cortez....

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COMPASS_ROSE 8/30/2011 9:13PM

    We SO need a buffet button! That sure would make tracking meals from my cruise a whole lot easier. LOL Thank you for sharing the story and a few chuckles. The puppy is adorable. My little Libby says, "woof!"


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SCHENPOSSIBLE 8/28/2011 10:49PM

    This made me hungry!

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MKACILLAS 8/25/2011 8:27PM

    Love the idea of a buffet button. And Grandpup is too darn cute!!!!!!! emoticon

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NANCYLRAGS 8/24/2011 3:03PM

    I like the buffet tracker button! I am going to add an entry now for those unknowns. I always drive myself nuts trying to remember every ingredient in each item. Silly! Good for you!!!

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ERIN4771 8/24/2011 1:49PM

    i never would have made it past the desserts....oh wait, it;s a buffet? then i would have passed, germa phobe that i am....i know, issues, the new picture of the granddog, you can never have too many of those i do believe.... emoticon

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CAROLCRC 8/24/2011 1:43PM

    I have manually input "appetizers at cocktail party for 300", "buffet for 500" and "dinner at my mother-in-laws for 1000". Sounds like food jeapardy, but it beats driving myself nuts trying to track bites...

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CHAR1970 8/24/2011 9:49AM

    Sounds like a wonderful buffet. Not sure I`d have been so controlled lol. Cortez is adorable.

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ENDUROVET 8/23/2011 4:51PM

    Well, you explain in large part why I'm so horrible at tracking my food intake (too many days, even when I think it's been a good one, I see that I have underestimated AGAIN)...

So undoubtedly that's why I'm still teetering on my high plateau, but at least I can congratulate myself that I haven't GAINED over the past 16 mos!

Couldn't you just eat up that sweet bulldog face, yum yum!

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LINDAJ0621 8/23/2011 3:50PM

    I agree! I lose it at the Chinese buffet and think I will just create a button for it. Thanks for the idea!

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JOMAMA99 8/23/2011 2:54PM

    That is why I steer clear of buffets!! Sounds like you kept it under control-good job. I like the idea of the buffet button! So much eaiser to track the small bites that way. Absoultely love the grand-dog!

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TRULYVISIBLE 8/23/2011 2:34PM

  Like the buffet tracker idea. Mine would be started with a salad but lost it at the asian section. I stopped by because a spark friend has on his status that YOU are the best spark friend ever to have. Congratulations on that shout-out.

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GETFIT2LIVE 8/23/2011 2:10PM

    Love it! I'm thinkin' of making my own entry for 'stuff I dunno' with a value of 100 calories that I can use for those kinds of days . . . 'cuz they happen. Guesstimate on the total number of calories in all the bits and bites and enter that. 'Cuz I hate not tracking even one meal .. .

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SKINNYPOWELL1 8/23/2011 1:16PM

    Loved the "buffet button". Cortez is sooooo dang cute.

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    I feel your pain and I agree with ya! I have been to buffets and then I was the hell do I track all this shiz? You did good though yo, :) don't stress it. Your puppy rock btw :)

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KKINNEA 8/22/2011 1:09PM

    Agree! I want an open item called "I was bad" that I can just assign calories to...

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TEENY_BIKINI 8/22/2011 1:06PM

    LOL. "Buffet." That's excellent!

You are so darn cute.


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REBECCAMA 8/22/2011 12:58PM

  I have thought of making my own buffet buttons for the places we go to. I think I would do a "Food Grouping" and put a bunch of stuff on it. Then I would select the grouping and add it to my tracker. Then I could REMOVE all the things I didn't eat. That would feel pretty good, wouldn't it? "Well it could be worse... I didn't have the cheesecake or the roast beef...." etc...

Anyway sounds like you did great on portion control. Congratulations!

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    Great job at the buffet! And OMG - Cortez is so freakin' cute I want to rip his little face off! LOL! :) Seriously though - he is absolutely adorable!!!

- Michelle

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MRSMLBJ 8/21/2011 11:41PM

    Chelemia----LUV IT!!! are too cute. I can just imagine a nibble here a nibble there. Not me. I have to have the whole thing. That is why I just stay away from those places. And then I'd have the sandwich later, too. I'm doomed!!!

Stay cool!

Oh, and luve the pup!!! Darling baby!

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COUCHDIVA333 8/21/2011 8:29PM

    i heart cortez!!
i went to a fish fry at my aunt's house last night and sampled all the desserts, then went back and had a couple, lol. my family makes awesome desserts.

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ASHARON 8/21/2011 7:34PM

    You made me laugh so hard...I agree need the new buttons.

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KAMAPERRY 8/21/2011 5:29PM

    Buffet button= emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Adorable dog!

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CHELEMIA 8/21/2011 3:04PM

Has to be!!!
That is the home of the infamous 9000 calorie breakfast!!
The coconut bar, the chocolate covered strawberry and the black forest cake!!
The Asian section??? The steam buns!!!!! Eggroll and 2-3 bites of the meats.
I was exhausted after listing every single bite(turns out I forgot a few!!)
I went to every station!!
Instead of the Enter sign they need to say Danger, Danger, Will power stops here!!!!
There should be 4 selections under Buffet;
Saint, Salad clear soup 3 0z dry meat choice. 1 bite dessert = 500 calories
Sinner, Stayed in control & has learned a lot, didn't go crazy = 1000 Calories
Agnostic, Good choices went out the window but limited amounts of all =2000
Damned, Went completely insane and just get a trough =5000+

Please forgive any religious reference. This is said in pure fun!!!

Love the dog he is growing so fast!!

How did hubby feel to see all those sandwiches go??

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CANNIE50 8/21/2011 1:51PM

    So, now I am craving many little bites of delectable foods, a fast drive in a fast car, and a baby bulldog. Your blogs are a wee bit dangerous for me, I must say. PS I think you did pretty well, all things considered.

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GRACEISENUF 8/21/2011 12:39PM

    Jan you did fantastic at the buffet seriously....well at least if you compared to to how I would have been. LOL!

When I have gone to buffets in the past you would think I was Dead Woman Walking and it was my last supper...GEEZ. Even my husband looked shocked a few times at how many trips I made to the dessert bar. For some reason a buffet turns me into a hammerhead shark at dusk ready for a feeding frenzy.

Great idea to feed the those guys do get ravenous...when aren't men? tee hee

Have a good day Jan and enjoy your day off.

Love Ya!

emoticon Cortez and want to give him a big ole smooch. :)

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 8/21/2011 12:35PM

    Love that smushed face! emoticon

Buffet's will happen emoticon

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DAISY443 8/21/2011 12:15PM

    I don't care whether they add a button, I just want to go to the buffet you went too! Good thing I don't know where Cortez lives, or he would be living at my house with Daisy dog!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 8/21/2011 12:11PM

    They totally need a buffet button! It sounded like you kept it reeled in though. Cortez is so cute, I just want to squeeze his face!

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SparkOprah v2 says read this blog

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

It will make your day. Awesome observation written by a fabulous woman and writer.
Amazing Bodies

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ERIN4771 8/21/2011 8:25AM

    thanks for sharing this ink jan, it was an amazing read, and brought a huge smile to the start of my day...thank you....

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TURTLERASKIN 8/17/2011 8:44PM

    Ditto! Great blog, and great comment on it!

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KAMAPERRY 8/17/2011 2:56PM

    This brought tears to my eyes, that and your comment. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CANNIE50 8/17/2011 2:35PM

    You ARE Oprah. You surprised me and made me weep. Wait, are you going to give me a BRAND NEW CAR?! Just kidding. I do have tears in my eyes. You are the sparkliest of them all, my dear. I cannot possibly thank you enough. emoticonps I came to read your blog before I read the comments on mine so I hadn't seen your comment yet, when I posted the above. I cried when I read about your beautiful girl. I agree with the other poster - that was the best part of the blog - we are a good team, Mama! With love from me, to you.

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BADASSBLONDIE 8/17/2011 2:26PM

    That blog was beautiful. But I think it was your comment to it that made my day. *hugshard*

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Dinner was really yummy!!

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

I tracked it and all my food all day and I was golden, baby!
Even with lasagna, even with Garlic bread!!

Then MIL pulls a chocolate cream pie out of the frig (OJIBWEEQUAY, did you CALL HER???).

Yea, I ate it and yea, I went over my calories and fat. Who cares. I dont do that very often and I dont regret it.

Sorry I made you all crazy for lasagna. I bet you can all come up with a delicious recipe that wont even make you feel guilty!

I put the rest of it in the freezer so I can have some more in another 3 months!. God I hope I dont think about it till then!

You say I make you laugh, well you guys crack me up on a daily basis. I love that about us!

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CANNIE50 8/16/2011 11:02PM

    Oh great, now when I look at my kid I can only see a chocolate freaking cream pie where his cute little face should be. Gee, thanks for THAT, Mama - I am having sugar hallucinations.

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TEENY_BIKINI 8/16/2011 10:46PM

    Pie is one of my favorite 3-letter words.

Well done!


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KARIRDH3 8/16/2011 8:22PM

    YUM!! Glad you let loose and enjoyed. We DO deserve that every now and then. It's keeping those frequencies in check is what it's all about. You rock! emoticon

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KAMAPERRY 8/16/2011 3:08PM

    Fortunately I do not like chocolate cream pie, but I love lasagna!

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FANGFACEKITTY 8/16/2011 11:34AM

    You are so funny! I am glad lasagna & chocolate cream pie are not trigger foods for me or I'd be in trouble. It sounds delicious. Food is meant to be enjoyed; everything in moderation.

Just warn me if you ever start blogging about pizza though 'cuz moderation & pizza seem to be mortal enemies in my world lol!

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OJIBWEEQUAY 8/16/2011 10:43AM

    Oh chocolate cream pie!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dang I am coming over in 3 moths with Peanut butter cream pie(Paula Deans recipe of course) and we can chow!!! Yum! emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 8/16/2011 6:22AM

    Your lasagna blog was hysterical. Glad you enjoyed it!

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DAISY443 8/16/2011 6:20AM

    OH, right! You apologize for the lasagna thing, then you throw in chocolate cream pie! You are a very bad girl! Love ya anyway!

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Lasagna on my mind...

Monday, August 15, 2011

Last night, I made a lasagna so we can take it to Frank's Grandma today. We are going to see how she is doing and if there is anything we can do to make her safe since I do not think my MIL will be staying much longer and I dont think she is going home with her. I called the newspaper to have them deliver it to her door instead of up her 20' steep driveway and am working on getting the mail delivered to her door too, but ya know, these things take time.

Anyway, so I made a lasagna last night. Lean ground beef, lots of cheese (2% but still) and it smelled so good! I made it after I had eaten dinner so smelling simmer sauce for hours was setting me up! I made one for home too, since I cant make just 1 little pan of it). The kids were all gone all weekend (and it was sooooo nice!!!) but they both converged on us at the same time along with Kady's boyfriend and 17 year old sister right as I was cooking the lasagna. They were hungry (big surprise) so they ate some that I had made for our house.

"OMG, MOM, this is SOOOO good" (still smelling that shizzle!!)
"This is the BEST you ever made" (I am drooling now but still in my chair)
"Is this all there is? Did you make more for us??" (Ok I am up and in the kitchen now)
I had 2 bites. It was delicious!! So all night, I resisted to go eat some more. I woke up at midnight and I could still smell it (cause they were microwaving it for 2nds) and I woke up looking at it this morning.

All day I have been thinking about eating it. I had my usual Luna Bar for breakfast, had some fruit about noon, going in soon to have a sandwich but really, all I want is that stupid lasagna. It is ridiculous the power it has over me. It is crazy to be thinking about this in the back of my mind while I am working. I literally can NOT wait for dinner. It is haunting me!

I am happy I havent caved and eaten some but it is horrible that I am looking forward to it that much. I guess I need to accept the fact that I love food, I always will and that is the way it is. If it was cookies, I would never have lasted this long, so that is something I guess.

Did I mention how much I am looking forward to dinner tonight? Oh. I did? Sorry if I am repeating myself but I am just soo looking forward to dinner tonight... damn. I did it again. I hope you guys enjoy your dinner tonight as much as I am going to. Ya know, eating that lasagna I made and all. Yep, yep. Really gonna be good. mmm, mmm, mmm. Lasagna. ME. Tonight. We have a date. A dinner date.

Wherever you are, between 5 and 6 tonight in California, Jan is gonna be a happy girl. Cause I will be eating Lasagna. That I made. For dinner. Tonight. Yep. Tonight. Lasagna and Me. Together.

Have a good day. I will cause I know that later, at dinner, I will be eating Lasagna.

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KAMAPERRY 8/15/2011 11:32PM

    Slurp!! YUMMO!

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OJIBWEEQUAY 8/15/2011 10:18PM

    emoticonsuch will power you have!!!! AND you are such a wonderful person to make some for Gram! I hope you took her pie also! emoticon

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LUVDOGZ 8/15/2011 9:29PM

    Yummmmmm, enjoy! emoticon

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MISSMINDY6 8/15/2011 8:44PM

    LOL - great blog! Tho I agree with the above posters - you should've eaten more during the day to make u not feel so deprived! But AMAZING willpower! 'Cause a really good lasagna is one of my all-time fave meals!

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CANNIE50 8/15/2011 8:29PM

    Okay, I have to tell you, if I had only eaten a Luna bar for bfast and a piece of fruit for lunch I would be tackling Grandma and blocking Frank if they got anywhere near that amazing pasta extravaganza, and that entire pan of lasagna would be mine, all mine. You have shown amazing restraint.

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CHAR1970 8/15/2011 8:24PM

    You are too funny! Hey Jan, would you like some lasagna for dinner tongiht? LOL!

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TEENY_BIKINI 8/15/2011 8:22PM

    LOL. Resisting lasagna is a toughie. Pasta, cheese and sauce - like come on! I think you showed rock star resistance to yumminess. Well done.


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KARIRDH3 8/15/2011 8:04PM

    YUM! Enjoy! :) emoticon

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CELLISTA1 8/15/2011 8:01PM

    I hope you two (Jan & Las) will be very happy together.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 8/15/2011 7:57PM

    Wait.... what are you having? When? LOL!!! Enjoy every delicious, cheese filled bite!

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COLUMBINE2 8/15/2011 7:13PM

    Oh my gosh! I wish I could invest in tomatoes, lasagna noodles & cheese right now...I'd be a millionaire! You've got us all drooling. I LOVE lasagna and always croak when I track it. I guess a person could eat less than I eat though....if they had someone yank the fork of their mouth!!!!

Have a splendid evening with your lasagna! Suggestion: drink a couple huge glasses of water 1/2 hour BEFORE you eat to take the edge off your mania, I mean appetite! LOL. That was a low blow...I'm just green with envy!

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COOKWITHME65 8/15/2011 6:41PM

    Now I want lasagna! I would have had to duck tape my fridge with a sensor alarm to keep me a way from it till tonight. Good for you!

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KRAWRS 8/15/2011 6:39PM

    You are HILARIOUS! I loved this. Of course, it made me want lasagna. Gah! I bet it was super yummy. ENJOY IT! You're allowed. As long as you don't eat truckloads of it tonight, you're golden. :p

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CULAINA 8/15/2011 6:36PM

    Oh, you are excited about dinner? What are you having? Anything nice? *grin*

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DAISY443 8/15/2011 6:26PM

    I have some lasagna noodles, but now, because of you, I have to go the store for hamburger, tomatoes and whatever else because, did I mention how much I want some lasagna now?

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    ok when i saw your status about a new blog, i should not have gone on to read this! omg Italian food of any kind is my weakness. lasagna, manicotti, spaghetti, fettucini alfredo. i'm a pasta FIEND. oh, come on. talking about incredibly delicious, cheesy, mouthwatering pasta is totally off-limits. devote your next blog to talking about brussel sprouts! i hate those.

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This is Jan! emoticon

I made spaghetti last night, which is always better the next day, and I couldn't resist seconds at lunch.

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GRACEISENUF 8/15/2011 4:58PM

    One of my favs too. Yes....I LOVE FOOD TOO.

Have I told you I love you today? Cuz I do! Thanks for always making me laugh.

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JOMAMA99 8/15/2011 4:49PM

    Enjoy your Lasagna! I must go put that on my menu for next week cause now I'm craving it too!I am no where near California but I am imagining how good that smells!
Savor every single bite!

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SEESTARS 8/15/2011 4:28PM

    toooo funny Jan! there is something magical about the combination of bread/pasta, cheese, and tomatoe sauce! I love it in every form. And no kidding, over the last two weeks I slowly ate my way through a stovetop skillet lasanga which my husband kept forgetting was in the fridge. Alllll miiiiine!! Muhahhahaha! (but I use ground turkey and lots of veggies as filler to drop the cal/cup)

Enjoy your dinner tonight!

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WATCHMEGO2 8/15/2011 4:19PM

    So funny, I just finished eating dinner and then decided to check SP. Yep, we just had lasagna! It was awesome if I do say so myself. Enjoy!

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MNGIRLIE 8/15/2011 4:17PM

    You're stronger willed than I! I know how it is though. I made some damn kick ass zucchini bread the other day and brought two smallish pieces to work to have after I'd eaten my lunch. I was hungry come 10am so I let myself have half a piece. Well, any resolve I had immediately flew out the window and those two pieces of zucchini bread were gone by 10am.

You know... you might have to share that recipe now that you've made us all drool over lasagne.

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SLFRISBEY 8/15/2011 4:13PM

    Dang it! Now I want lasagna!!! :) Delicious roasted tomato lasagna... yeah this is going to have to happen, and soon!

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BECOMING_HOLLY 8/15/2011 4:12PM

    LOVED this blog! I am glad that you are resisting temptaiton and planning a good day so that you can enjoy your dinner tonight. I bet it will be good because now I am craving lasanga!

Thank you for making me smile this afternoon!

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94 vs 49

Thursday, August 11, 2011

This isnt about weight loss so feel free to skip it. It's about me and Gramma.

My hubby's grandma is 94. I am 49 (for another month anyway). She lives alone and does pretty well. She fell on sunday and ended up in the hospital. We went to see her straight from coming off a 5 day camping trip and she stayed in the hospital for 2 nights. I went to see her again on Monday. There was nobody else to do it. One SIL moved across country last week, another SIL and MIL were camping (and were not going to give up their plans to come. I wont get started on THAT since it is Grandma's DAUGHTER!) and Hubby had a big roofing project we HAD to start on Monday. SO that left me.

Now see, I beleive in family. You do what you gotta do and when someone needs you, you GO. That is how I was raised. That is what we always did so it didnt seem weird for me.

I have been in this family for 25 years and I have known them for 35! Grandma and I have always been friendly but not close. She can be kind of, um, how should I put it? Mean? lol.

Anyway, she was hurt and vulnerable so I stayed with her monday and helped her out at the hospital, updating the family via texting. Tuesday they released her so I took her home (in my giant red truck!!) and stayed over night.

Frank kept apologizing for me having to stay and thanking me for doing it.

I took bottled water, a book, a few luna bars and figured I would be fine.

Let me just say this about old people. If we all ate like them, we would be super thin! I looked in the frig and the cabinets and said, "OMG! IM gonna starve to death here!" Then I texted Frank and told him to bring me a bottle of captain and a bag of potato chips.. He just laughed at me! Oh well, I was gonna have to get through this so at lunch, she wanted a sandwich.

Here is the recipe:

1 slice of Potato bread (been in the frig for at least a week) toasted (because otherwise you could not possibly eat it!)
1 slice of very thin deli, prepackaged turkey. (the kind you can see through!)
1/2 a slice of provolone
3 mini caramel rice cakes

(It was too much for her and she couldnt finish it and did not eat the rice cakes).

Anyway, I took care of her all day and saw things I can't share with you cause I dont want to give you nightmares but let me just say, I am changed forever.

I hope I am that "free" with my body at 94. Hell, I wish I was NOW! (I know I used to be at 19 but that was a different time).

Frank called me at 4 and said he was coming to visit and I was soo happy cause he said he would bring dinner. The thought of sharing a pepperoni hot pocket was NOT appealing. Good thing she has a sweet tooth cause she has a freezer full of the cookies I make her (she eats 1 a day) and I was gonna just sit down with a zippy bag and go to town on 'em).

He came and brought a rottiserie chicken and some mac and cheese ( I actually was looking forward to some sort of veggies but that was not to be) and we had dinner together. (she could not even finish a drumstick and she ate literally 3 peices of macaroni!). He also bought a lemon cream pie (her favorite). That little woman perked up like the sun had just came out and she asked for a "little peice". As I was cutting a tiny peice (based on how much she eats), she told me "well, make it a little bigger!" so she ate a normal slice of pie...hmmmm, seeing a pattern here. Real food, um no. Sweets? YES PLEASE!!!

So finally Frank left and I got her in her pajama's and she told me it was time to watch tv so we got settled in and she turned it on. NOPE. It didnt work. SO I tried. NOPE. There was no power to the TV. She starts telling to call the cable company and I was trying to figure out the problem. Anyway, long story short, I had to firmly explain that I was QUITE capable of handling the situation and since the tv in kitchen worked it was not a cable issue and they would not be able to help.

So she finally settled down and I went to work. Ultimatly, I called Frank and he told me to hook up an extension cord and he would fix it when he came back in a day or so and that is what we did. She was so happy we got it going.

So we could watch "little house on the prarie" till 9:00 when the news comes on and she could watch the weather. And then it happened.

Gramma: Are you tired?
Me: Not really, are you tired, Gramma? You have had a long day!
Gramma: well, I go to bed after the weather.
Me: Ok, well I can help you to bed
Gramma: Ok, turn off that light, the tv (blah blah blah)
Me to self: HOLY CRAP! She is making ME go to BED! I wanna get my laptop and spark! What the hell!?
Me to Gramma: Ok well lets get you in bed

When I got her settled, and I was in my twin bed with 14 blankets on it, I decided to just read instead and then Kelly started texting me and we were laughing about everything that had happened. She told me thought I was wonderful to do this and she loved me. I went to sleep happy.

Till 12:30 when I heard Gramma clumping around with her walker (after I gave her strict instructions to not get up without me!) took her to the bathroom and went back to bed till 6:30.

Made coffee for her (instant) but I did it wrong cause I didnt use the kettle on the stove, I microwaved it (she had never done that in her life! But she said it was Then breakfast, one scrambled egg and 1 peice of toast and jam.

Then I got her dressed and we sat at the kitchen table and I asked what she usually does so we paid a couple of bills and then we talked and talked. I am sure it was refreshing for her because everyone else in her life has heard all her stories and I have fresh ears and was interested. It was really nice.

Her daughter ( my MIL) was coming that morning to take her to doctor on Thursday. In Gramma's words, "Finally, she is coming! I am mad at her. She didnt care to come when I was in the hospital. Camping was more important. I wish you could stay. You have taken such good care of me and you know just what to do. She wont do it right!!I will just be quiet and pretend my feelings are not hurt).

SO at 11, my MIL got there and I filled her in on everything. I got a weird vibe but too bad. I really dont care. A, I did it for Gramma and B, I was going home so booyah!

At 12, Gramma wanted lunch so I said I was going. She was so upset I wasnt going to eat lunch first and I kept refusing so she said I had to take a cookie at least! So I told her she was bad for me and we laughed. I hugged her goodbye, (it lasted for 5 minutes) and she cried and thanked me so much for being there and she loved me and she didnt know how she would get by without me).
I hugged her back, got teary, told her I loved her, would come anytime she needed me and that she was going to be allright) and then I drove away.

I went to taco bell, got 2 fresco taco's and a diet pepsi, ate it driving over the bridge and called Frank. I felt such freedom! (and a little sad. I am actually gonna miss her!!) and drove home. SOO happy to see my girls and of course, my Stitchy.

We are so worried about what is going to happen and Frank has been trying to have a conversation with his mom about her but all we get is "we will see" and other blow off comments so I am not sure what is going to happen. I know she should not be alone but I really dont have any say in the situation.

I learned alot about Gramma and she learned alot about me. No matter what ever happens, I am going to treasure my time with her. It was precious and special. I will have wonderful memories of her to look back on and I got to know her in a way that many others people in the family wont.

This is probably not the last time I will need to be there for her and that's ok. I will know better what to bring next time and maybe I can make her something for dinner she might actually WANT to eat. On the plus side, I lost all my weekend weight plus another pound so the GRAMMA DIET works!

And one final thought,

Little house on the prairie was a pretty good show, actually.

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SARAWALKS 8/15/2011 7:56PM

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GRACEISENUF 8/13/2011 12:08AM

    I need a kleenex now, shucks! What an awesome person you are Jan. I truly wished you lived in my neighborhood. I know we would be good friends.

What you did for Gramma touched my heart.

I LOVE THIS BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It felt like I was there in the room watching Little House on the Prairie with you and Gramma.

I found out yesterday a dear friend of mine who is in the hospital has more cancer than first thought. She is in her eighties. I may need to step up to the plate and help her as she will need rounds of chemo soon. She has a hubby but he has Alzheimers (early stage). This blog encouraged me Jan, thanks. Yesterday sucked...wish I had found this blog sooner.


May the love you share come back to you ten fold sweet spark Sista!

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CANNIE50 8/12/2011 1:22AM

    What a sweetheart you are. Imagine being 94 and sick and vulnerable and alone (and feeling abandoned) and, who swoops in to save the day? Our very own sparkly Superhero. Actually, I think you traded your cape for angel wings on this one, honey. PS Aren't you just feeling like the springiest spring chicken right about now?

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SEESTARS 8/11/2011 4:00PM

    What great quality time to spend with Grandma. Glad you got a little closer to her after 35 years. Always a surprise around the corner.

It is so amazing how little they eat. My hubby's great aunt is the same way. And still loves her sweets, but she is so silly even at 102 she still thinks she needs to wait until the end of the meal to eat dessert. I'm like, "honey, if it's the only thing you want to eat, just eat it first and enjoy yourself." LOL

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 8/11/2011 3:48PM

    You are awesome, but I knew that ; ) It's always great when you can spend time with older folks. They know and have been thru so much. You'd be surprised at wheat you can learn. LOVE the gram diet. I'd starve to death!

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OJIBWEEQUAY 8/11/2011 2:04PM

    Awe I love gramma! I never had one and the girls live states away from any family! I hope I can be as kind and loving as you! Gram rocks! Oh and I agree with her on lemon pie! More please! emoticon emoticon

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CELLISTA1 8/11/2011 1:39PM

    Jan, I learned two things from this blog:
1. Being old is not fun.
2. You are an amazing, profound human being.

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KAMAPERRY 8/11/2011 1:22PM

    How sweet she sounds, sure made me miss my mom.

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SLFRISBEY 8/11/2011 1:19PM

    I love to spend time with people like her. She's probably only mean because she's scared and hasn't had a good support system. My husband's grandma was in her 90s when she passed but shortly before she came to Ohio for a visit, which was the first time I'd met her. She told me sotries of her life (she was always feisty! lol) and of my husband as a small boy and we talked all afternoon. Hubs and I both still talk about how it was such a wonderful time we got to spend with her. So glad you got to have some time like that too!

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BADASSBLONDIE 8/11/2011 12:41PM

    Heck YES Gramma diet! :D This is a really beautiful entry. Thank you for sharing.

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CULAINA 8/11/2011 12:40PM

    Family is the most important thing in the world to me so I fully understand why you felt that it was so important to look after gramma. You've done a lovely thing, a very kind deed and you've had a nod from the karma kings that your totals have just gone up, I'm sure. How lovely for your gramma to know that someone does care and that there's someone at the end of the phone who knows how she likes to do things. You are truly awesome xx

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LUVMYCRAZYKIDS 8/11/2011 11:43AM

    Love your blog! Love Gramma!

I, too, miss my Gram. She passed when she was 77 (the summer b/w my freshman and sophomore yr in college). I was about 15 when she began to get sick. My mom took care of her in our house. We had a hospital bed in our living room.
Before she got sick, she was always very "proper" and happy-go-lucky, had her hair "done" weekly at the salon (this involved a TON of aquanet hairspray and a bouffant looking hairdo). She always wore lipstick and NEVER washed her face with soap (God forbid!) She put Pond's cold cream on her face every night and wrapped her hair with toilet paper and clips (so it wouldn't get messed up!) She made tea and toast every night. I would sit with her at the kitchen table and relish the strawberry jam on rye toast. It was just her and I...

You are a great lady and a great example...Life is about doing good things for those in need!

Good luck for continued success on your journey!

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DEBBIE19580 8/11/2011 11:34AM

    that was a awesome time. you'll always remember it, and she will never forget it. it sounds like you bein there for her meant sooo much to her. at that age, there so happy with company!!! 1 scrambled egg!! wow, i laughed when i read that, i dont think i ever ate 1, i think once when there was just 1 left!! great story. emoticon emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 8/11/2011 11:28AM

    When my grandmother passed away in November let me tell you that I will be haunted forever by what I saw. She had lost all caring about what she flashed around to everyone lol. My uncles kept hiding and freaking out. She was a riot right down to the end. This blog makes me miss her. All she ate was toast and dove bars. Toast being pretty much a garnish. You are an awesome person to love Frank's family this way but I already knew that about you.

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 8/11/2011 11:21AM

    I had a similar thing happen. My MIL got diagnosed with a brain tumor many years ago, she has since passed away. I was without a job and I volunteered to stay with her. It was one of the saddest things in my life, but at the same time it was one of my most cherished times. We connected like we had not done prior.

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DAISY443 8/11/2011 11:20AM

    What a great story! How nice that you will always have such nice memories of grandma. Keep in mind that she has made it to 94 diet and all! I think I like her!

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TREASURINGLIFE 8/11/2011 11:10AM's nice that you had the opportunity to be there from Gramma. And it's really nice that you two were able to bond. You're lucky.

I hope things work out for her, with regard to her health and safety. She sounds pretty independent and if she's anything like Boyfriend's grandma, then she's staying put in her own house, come hell or high water. Her feeling is that if she falls or something and ends up dying, then she'll be happy because she'll have died exactly where she wants to die - not in a home somewhere. Oh - she's a character, I tell ya. LOL.

Anyway, great job on losing that weekend weight, plus one! Woo-whoo!

Have a WONDERFUL day!

- Michelle

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