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I wasn't gonna blog but...

Monday, August 08, 2011

I just read your comments from my status when I left for camping about behaving and it made me laugh. You guys know me so well!! We had a fantastic time! I got there Weds am early and met a few of my buddies and we were lu cky enough to score our favorite camping spot in this great little cove that is pretty private but with lots of space which we needed because I think we had about 50 people at the highest count.

Kady came and brought 10 friends, Kelly came with about 5, there was various tents, trailers, campers, family, friends, kids everywhere! Assorted mayhem and chaos. I love it.

I was a bit concerned about brining Stitch because last time, she was very overwhelmed with too many (friends) dogs so this time, I just told everyone to keep the dogs leashed. There was only 1 there when we got there, a sweet, fat lab named Bud. So I kept them away from each other and then we went for a walk with the two of them and when we got back, they were best friends. The wrestled and played and went on the boat. Then only 1 other dog came on friday so we had no doggie drama which was great and everyone had fun.

I drank (alot) of Captain but I kept away from the deadly conconcotions the kids were making (smoothies with vodka) and during the day, I just refilled the guys cups and kept myself busy.


I towed a mess of kids around the lake on the tube for hours every day and we had so much fun.

Evenings? Well, that was adult drinking time and we danced and laughed and had so much fun. It was a great time. Here is a picture of my neices, daughters and a few of the girl's friends. It kinda represents the weekend, rofl.

As we were packing up sunday am, we got a call that Frank's 94 year old grandma had fallen and was in the hospital. We are the closest family members so we came home and dropped off the RV and the boat and headed to see her (she is about an hour and a half away). She was slurry, and bruised and had started a new medication that they beleive is the cause of the problem and they kept her overnight. I will go back there this morning to be with her (Frank has to go to work) and so hopefully, she will be better and be able to go home.

By the time we got home at 9:30 last night, we were exhausted and just fell into bed. I HAD to come and check on you guys so wanted to update you with what was what. Yea, I am up those same 4 pounds I usually am after a weekend involving alcohol but I will get those off and move forward.

Hope you guys are all well and I will be back online more in the next few days. Love y'all!

  
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GRACEISENUF 8/13/2011 12:13AM

    Glad you had such a great time camping. You are right those pounds will drop off so fast. I picked up several at the lake and they are toast already.

Read your Gramma blog first and saw you'd already dropped a few. I sure loved that blog Jan.

Spark on Beautiful!

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 8/11/2011 11:10AM

    Sounds like you had a blast!

I hope Frank's mom feels better today.

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IMIN2GENES 8/11/2011 9:33AM

    I'm so jealous! Looks like everyone had a fabulous time. Sounds like you've found a perfect place for camping.

Hope grammy is okay! I'll keep her in my thoughts!
Chris


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DAISY443 8/11/2011 3:24AM

    Still jealous! Glad you had such a wonderful time! Hope grandma gets better soon! Hugs!

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KIMBANN 8/10/2011 8:46PM

    It sounds like a wonderful break - welcome back!

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BIGMAMAT 8/10/2011 7:47PM

    Glad your back! emoticon

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BADASSBLONDIE 8/9/2011 6:43PM

    I feel ya about those same old f8cking pounds.

WAY TO BE AWESOME AND NOT OVERINDULGE (too much)!!!! :D So proud!!!

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TEENY_BIKINI 8/9/2011 6:38AM

    Awesome! Sounds like a blast.

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CANNIE50 8/9/2011 12:35AM

    kids, chaos, camping, laughing, and "fat labs" - nice combo, how could you NOT have fun?

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CHAR1970 8/9/2011 12:34AM

    Looks like a lot of fun!

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AHEALTHIERME44 8/8/2011 9:19PM

    Those pictures are great! Looks like so much fun. Prayers going out to your grandma!!

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CULAINA 8/8/2011 7:46PM

    it sounds like you had an amazing time and really enjoyed yourself. great news. hope grandma feels better soon x

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RIGBY31 8/8/2011 2:58PM

    Love hearing about the chaos and laughter! (Hope grammy is ok).

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OJIBWEEQUAY 8/8/2011 2:05PM

    You are the most fun person I know! HA! Sorry about gram!! emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 8/8/2011 1:23PM

    Glad you had fun.

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KAMAPERRY 8/8/2011 1:20PM

    How fun!!

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VAMANOS 8/8/2011 12:46PM

    Would you adopt me? Your family has so much fun!!!

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JOMAMA99 8/8/2011 12:33PM

    Sounds and looks like you had a great time. That is my kind of vacation! Welcome back.

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SAMPSONPKA 8/8/2011 12:12PM

    Glad you all had a great time!

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DEBBIE19580 8/8/2011 11:40AM

    sounds like a awesome time. that alcohol gets me every time. love/hate thing with me. i hope your hubby's grandma is hanging in there. have a great day. emoticon emoticon

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CHELEMIA 8/8/2011 11:33AM

    I am so glad you had a sanity break!! It is so wonderful to see people loving life!! And if anyone needs to celebrate life it is you!!! YOu have had many traumatic things since June hopefully this fall things will settle down!! Weight is always there, moments of celebration of friends, family, and life isn't. Relax, enjoy what you have, to heal what is lost and fixed! Luv always!

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LADYJ6942 8/8/2011 10:50AM

    HOPE GRANDMA'S ALRIGHT. CAMPING TRIP SOUNDS LIKE IT WAS FUN. I KNOW THE SAME WEEKEND 4-5LB YO-YO, RIDE IT TOO, LOL.

GOOD LUCK

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TREASURINGLIFE 8/8/2011 10:38AM

    Looks like you had a GREAT weekend!! :) I too would love to go camping with you -- it looks like it'd be a blast!

I hope grandma is okay today...

- Michelle

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 8/8/2011 10:23AM

    I SO want to go camping with you! Glad you had an awesome time!

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Hey y'all (with pix)

Monday, August 01, 2011

I survived the weekend with Hubby's family which is usually a eating fest but it went great. I came home .2 oz less! I count that as a victory. I took lunch for saturday (tritip, pasta salad with fat free italian and lots of veggies and a huge fruit salad) but Friday night we went to Pizza at this fabulous, famous pizza place. I had a salad and 2 peices and the in the morning when we went shooting, I went for a 30 minute walk, all by myself.
and then sunday,I made breakfast and went for a walk with Frank and then we headed out to a bridal shower for my nephew's fiance. Someone called us the peanut gallery. Hmmmmmmm.

This is my neice Stacy, my SIL Ranee, my neice Monica, My SIL Dana, My great niece Sami and my MIL Tommie and me (of course).

We had a good weekend. Still reeling a bit from the passing of Frank's dad. There is a lot of emotion there and Dana is moving to Georgia with her boyfriend so there is a lot going on but we had a great weekend.

Got home last night and then Wednesday, we are leaving to go camping until sunday (yes I will have my laptop and be tracking. ).

Hope you all had a good weekend and welcome to AUGUST! My goal for AUGUST is to be 219. That is 5 pounds and will get me out of the dreaded 220's and get me closer to 75 pounds down and within striking distance of weighing less than my hubby! (He is between 208-213) so I am ready to rock this month!! Totally do-able!

Oh yeah. my blouse is BILLOWY, not my stomach! lol...

  
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IMIN2GENES 8/11/2011 9:35AM

    You look fabulous girlfriend! You and your family all have beautiful smiles. It looks like everyone was having a great time.

Your comment of weighing less than your hubby cracked me up... that's my goal too! LOL! I'm almost there!
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THESHELBSTER 8/5/2011 9:34PM

    You look FANTASTIC. Thanks for sharing the blog and the pictures. Wow. You lost pizza AND lost weight! You are my hero! :0)

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DAVIDPRESCOTT 8/4/2011 1:56AM

    Fantastic outcome from what COULD have been a major blow out weekend. You're rocking it:)

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CULAINA 8/3/2011 8:48PM

    welcome to august to you too. you look beautiful in the photo and i'm glad you are enjoying making really good choices in what could be very tricky situations away from home x

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BIGMAMAT 8/3/2011 9:39AM

    Lookin good honey! emoticon That's a whole lota walkin! emoticon Keep up the good work. emoticon

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MIQUEY73 8/2/2011 9:16PM

    Great job! That's a huge accomplishment!

Have fun camping!! Any suggestions on food you'll be taking for camping? I'm going for a week long camping trip later this month. Would love some suggestions.

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MOONBIRD 8/2/2011 8:16PM

    You look great! I also can't wait to get out of the 220s and weigh less than my hubby (who weighs 187) :)

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DEBBIE19580 8/2/2011 11:34AM

    you did awesome jan!!! great pics too. 5 pds a month is what i shoot for too. that sounds like a great goal. god, i just wanna weigh less then my husband too!!! even tho he's 6'2 he weighs 243 pds. i hate being bigger then him!!! have a great day!!! its been so darn hot here, 110 degrees today, honestly i can't wait for this summer to be over!!, for real!! emoticon emoticon

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CELLISTA1 8/1/2011 11:15PM

    Glad it went well! And like everyone here has said, you look GOOOOOOD.
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(beauty contest winner trophy)

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KARIRDH3 8/1/2011 8:40PM

    NICE JOB!!! Glad you survived... but you did more than survive, you did AWESOME with planning ahead! Woohoo! emoticon

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CANNIE50 8/1/2011 8:23PM

    wowsa - you look GOOD - love the top (the billowy top, it is billowy, like a cape) and it is very cute on you. It's great to read about your successes. Your goals are so reasonable - they don't stand a chance against you - you will be knocking them down left and right.

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KAMAPERRY 8/1/2011 1:20PM

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OJIBWEEQUAY 8/1/2011 1:11PM

    oh you know what I noticed first??? your sexy shoulders!!! Love them!!! Your goals are achievable! woohooo!

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KRAWRS 8/1/2011 1:04PM

    You did great! Its always so hard to make the right choices when most of it is out of your hands... but you took control and found ways to still be healthy. Good for you! :D I'm looking forward to my own camping trip in three weeks.

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TURTLERASKIN 8/1/2011 12:32PM

    Sounds like a great weekend -- and congrats on getting your exercise in! Enjoy the camping, and good luck with your August goals!

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BBGYRL4 8/1/2011 11:58AM

    Love the pictures Jan, and you look FABULOUS!!! You got August and I can't wait to hear that you weight less than your husband!

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KIBAISREADY 8/1/2011 11:53AM

    GOOD JOB STAYING ON TRACK... LOOKS LIKE YOU LADIES HAD FUN! emoticon emoticon

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FANGFACEKITTY 8/1/2011 11:51AM

    Go you! Way to go on staying on track this weekend! Have fun camping.

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GRACEISENUF 8/1/2011 11:15AM

    Thanks for sharing the pics and I am glad you stayed on track over the weekend.

Have a great time camping and I hope you snap some pics there too. I love reading your blogs.

I am leaving Sunday through Thursday (just me and hubs this time), right when you get home. Going to the southern Cali mountains for some hiking, swimming and FUN. See ya when I get back.

LET'S DECIMATE AUGUST!

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 8/1/2011 11:07AM

    Wonderful pictures!

Love your August goal! emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 8/1/2011 10:58AM

    I can't wait for you to weigh less than Frank. That is such a huge milestone! Way to go.

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SLFRISBEY 8/1/2011 10:49AM

    Alright Mama! This is the month we both leave the 220s FOREVER! Let's do it!

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DAISY443 8/1/2011 10:47AM

    Daisy dog is jealous! She hasn't gotten to go camping nearly enough this summer. Labor day weekend is the next time she gets to go. The pics are great and am glad you had a great time!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 8/1/2011 10:41AM

    You look awesome! Glad you had a good time, enjoy camping!

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TREASURINGLIFE 8/1/2011 10:38AM

    You look freakin' awesome!!! Great job this weekend. Very, very, very impressive. :)

Have a great time camping later this week and let's rock August like it's our job!! LOL.

- Michelle

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KIMBANN 8/1/2011 10:36AM

    You are going to rock this month - I totally get wanting to weigh less than the husband (I thought that was just me - LOL!)

You go girl!!

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PJH2028 8/1/2011 10:36AM

    What a beautiful family. SO inspired by your going for walks, Jan! Shift happens, eh!!? xxxoo Have fun camping. And keep those fruits and vegetables coming !!

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MICKEYMAX 8/1/2011 10:29AM

    GREAT times and great goals! YOu go girl! LOVE THE PICS!

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For dinner, I went with....

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Chinese stir fry. Thanks for all the ideas. I am gonna make a bunch of chicken next week and use all your ideas for the whole week!

I had leftover rice so I chopped up carrots, broccoli, onion, mushrooms, celery and added the chicken with a little bit of slivered almonds and soy sauce. It was fabulous. I bought some spring rolls at the grocery store for frank and I ended up eating one too but it wasnt even that bad calorie wise.

Frank has lunch for work tomorrow, the girls had dinner and even Stitchy had a little bit.

Thanks again for all the ideas! Fajitas are definatly on my list and I decided to do a taco calzone that I used to make all the time with the premade pizza dough, chicken, black beans, corn and salsa and a little bit of cheese. Also the chicken and pesto with some veggies will make an appearance. Thanks everyone!!

  
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TEENY_BIKINI 7/30/2011 9:38PM

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MRSMLBJ 7/28/2011 4:23PM

    Everything sounds so good.

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GRACEISENUF 7/28/2011 2:56PM

    emoticon stir fry sounds good and calzone sounds super delish.

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BADASSBLONDIE 7/28/2011 11:54AM

    I feel like you and the other real adults that I know need to get together and make a book of easy recipes for me and the Boy to try. B/c we're laaazy and have like no counterspace and are sick of our cookbooks. :P

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MAMADWARF 7/28/2011 11:10AM

    Ok Taco Calzone:

Pillsbury thin pizza crust (makes 6 if you go by the directions on the package. roll it out so it will actually make 6 or just do 4 for a few more calories).
Ground beef, ground turkey, tofu, shredded beef, chicken, pork (basically any type of meat and if its leftover, ever better)
Black beans
corn
salsa
2% mexican blend cheese.

These are awesome cause you can pretty much put anything you want in them.

Cut the pizza crust into serving sizes.Layer your ingredients on half of each section of pizza crust, fold over into a triangle, and bake according to package directions.

SUPER EASY!

I think I actually posted this on the recipe site with calories etc.

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VAMANOS 7/28/2011 10:49AM

    OK, we need the recipe for the taco calzone. Get right on that, will ya? emoticon

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DAISY443 7/28/2011 4:02AM

    OK, now I gotta get the chicken out and make some of those great suggestions! Thanks for sharing!

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KAMAPERRY 7/27/2011 11:42PM

    Sounds wonderful! emoticon

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KRAWRS 7/27/2011 11:40PM

    Oooh taco calzone sounds good! I'm actually making a calzone of sorts for dinner tomorrow. Its pizza-ish, but not quite. Its kind of whatever I have in the house lol. So probably just ground beef, pizza sauce, (homemade! in the breadmaker now) pizza dough, cheese, and maybe if hubby will let me some tomatoes.

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LESLIES537 7/27/2011 10:05PM

    Sounds very healthy and yummy! Nice job! emoticon

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SKYHAWK195 7/27/2011 9:51PM

  Sounds good!

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Help with chicken

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

I have quite a bit of leftover chicken from last night. What should I make with it? (I had breaded it with flour and about a half cup of those crispy onion thingy's all ground up and cooked in a pan with a bit of olive oil).

Lay it on me (cant be red sauce- hubby's acid reflux says NO).

  
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CYNDERROSE 7/27/2011 3:33PM

    Toss it in a salad.

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CANNIE50 7/27/2011 2:05PM

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KIMBANN 7/27/2011 1:28PM

    I am going to go with a salad with a little crumbly cheese and some fruit (strawberry, raspberry or small oranges) with a light citrus based vinegarette.

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KAMAPERRY 7/27/2011 1:13PM

    Salad, or fajitas?

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KRAWRS 7/27/2011 1:04PM

    You could probably whip up a casserole of some sort... chicken, noodles, veggies... yum!

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BECOMING_HOLLY 7/27/2011 12:57PM

    Use pesto! I love pesto + chicken!

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CHELEMIA 7/27/2011 12:21PM

    Chinese!!!! Lemon chicken, orange chicken, Teriyaki chicken!! You can buy noodle cakes for chowmein and there you go an healthy dish in 1 shot. Or on plain rice. I personally would use in both a main dish a a bit in with Add-the kitchen fried rice. Have an awesome recipe if you need it?

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VAMANOS 7/27/2011 12:17PM

    I'd scrape off the breading if possible and use it in chicken salad, stuffed in a tomato or with avocado (if the darn things didn't cost an arm and a leg!) Or what the others have said. It all sounds good. Hmm, I'm hungry...

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IRISHBEANERGAL 7/27/2011 11:59AM

    I like to take chicken that has been breaded and slice it very very thin and put it in spring rolls (not the fried ones, the ones made with rice wraps) along with veggies - or how about a chicken pasta salad? Or you could use it on top of grilled pizza - we use left overs on our pizza - use a white sauce (or no sauce -) and lots of veggies.

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SMILINGTREE 7/27/2011 11:49AM

    I LOVE leftover chicken. You could make a sort of taco soup out of it with black beans, you could eat it on a wrap or in a sandwich, you could top a salad with it or make chicken salad out of it, you could use it in a stir fry or put it on quinoa or rice with vegetables...I could keep going but I'll stop :) Enjoy your dinner.

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TREASURINGLIFE 7/27/2011 11:36AM

    Yeah, I'd probably put it on top of a salad of sorts.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 7/27/2011 11:31AM

    Chicken tacos? I find the only way my fiance will eat anything that is a leftover is if I hide it in something else. Like my beef satay that became fried rice with veggies last week lol.

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TURTLERASKIN 7/27/2011 11:25AM

    Hmmm.... as a vegetarian, I'll abstain from the voting! (But if I were voting, I'd say salad as well.)

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BAYBELIEVER 7/27/2011 11:25AM

    How about chicken parmesan? Just a little sauce and cheese and it is all good!

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DAISY443 7/27/2011 11:22AM

    I would have already eaten it cold for breakfast! Let us know what you decide! Hugs!

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BECKYB73 7/27/2011 11:10AM

    Sounds like something that would be good in a salad. or even use it to make a out of the box chicken salad


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I Lied.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

When I was 291 (or 304 depending on which scale was used), I always said I was happy with myself. I Lied. I was simply in denial. Proof of that is the devastation I would feel when I saw a picture of myself. The mirror was no help because I only saw what I wanted to see. Or I saw how my clothes hid my body not how I actually looked.

I didn't hide in shame or anything because I always felt good about myself (I have a healthy ego) but I just didn't really "see" myself for what I actually looked like. When something happened to throw my obesity in my face, it always shocked me. Like at my dr. appts or being kicked off a roller coaster in front of thousands of people because the ride bar wouldn't close or being told I was fat by a kid (that happened after I had LOST 50 pounds!!!)

When I said I was the "healthiest fat person I know", I Lied. I wasn't healthy. My cholesterol was heading skyward along with my triglicerides and my blood sugar. I could barely walk, took handfuls of prescription meds just to get through the day. Now, most of my medications is vitamins and suppliments. While I still have pain and do take pain medication, I have been tapering down my meds left and right and am taking the minimum to get by, not taking them just so I could function. When I broke into a sweat walking to the car or couldn't get a breath after the smallest amount of walking, I Lied and told myself it was hot or that everybody was like that.

I am no longer diabetic. So when I told people, including other health care providers, that I was "pre-diabetic", I Lied. I was diabetic. Period.

When I said to myself that I couldn't walk, couldn't excercise, couldn't do anything about my body, I Lied. To myself and to everyone else. Because when I tried, when I decided, I found out I really could do it. And I have.

When I tell people I am so much happier now, I feel fantastic, I am still going to lose 40 (or more) pounds, that you don't have to suffer to lose weight, I have never been more true.

The truth really will set you free. Free to live your best life, be the best you, find out things about yourself you never knew or would have imagined. There is so much freedom now.

The Lies held me back and kept me fat. That is over now and the truth is I have never been happier. Or healthier.What is your truth? What did you lie about?

  
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ERIN4771 7/31/2011 7:06AM

    great blog!

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SPIRALLING_EDGE 7/30/2011 11:10PM

    Nicely done; that kind of a blog takes time, courage and a lot of reflection. Be very proud of it - and very proud of yourself for setting the truth straight!

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TEENY_BIKINI 7/30/2011 9:37PM

    Fabulous blog. So true.

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CULAINA 7/28/2011 6:32PM

    what a brilliant blog!

i make so many excuses for myself, to myself and to friends. i have told people downright lies to get out of activitied i don't think i'd be able to do. i tell people i'll meet them at places so they don't see that i drive instead of walk or i take the lift instead of the steps.

i don't want to do it any more because i really am not happy and never really have been. i just smile and laugh because that's what people want to see and it takes my mind off it all for a moment and i feel worthy and liked.

thanks for such an insightful blog. you've got me thinking this evening. congratulations on your progress so far x

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JAMGIRL8 7/27/2011 12:35PM

    I love your blog, so true, I have been smacked in the face with photograhps and mirrors that tell me I am not some hotness that is in my head and I had to start doing something about it. Pure denial.

You have had a wonderful journey and finding yourself along the way.

Good job!

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 7/27/2011 12:05PM

    Funny the lies we tell ourselves when we're going through it and not until you have started your journey to good health that you can see something in old pictures you never saw before. That smile doesn't look quite so genuine anymore and that face that you thought didn't look "that bad" now looks so huge and uncomfortable that you wondered how you woke up in the morning and didn't die of sleep apnea.

Good for you for giving up the 'lying' trend and seeing your truth!

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MNGIRLIE 7/27/2011 11:49AM

    Boy can I relate!! I think I had the fat blinders on as well. I never actually saw myself as large as other people did until I'd have the unfortunate opportunity to see myself in a photo. I have a photo posted on SP that actually made me CRY... on many occasions. I just looked so terrible and huge and gross. It's hard to come to terms with it.

So proud of you for all the changes you've made. And no longer being diabetic? That's amazing and I don't know a lot of people who can say that. I probably would have punted that kid if he’d told me I'm fat, but I'm kind of a Grumpy Gus. :)

I lied about a lot of things. In college my girlfriends and I came up with "Fat girl rules." Stuff like, "Walk... never run into a buffet." There were others, but that was one of the only I can remember. I too said I was comfortable with myself, but deep inside I really wasn’t.


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GRACEISENUF 7/27/2011 10:20AM

    That I was okay with being fat...so "not true". Okay I have to vote for this blog because it's so true "The truth will set you free"...(God had something there didn't he?) :)

Missed you while I was gone...glad to be back.

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DEBBIE19580 7/27/2011 8:45AM

    i made every excuse in the book, i said i couldnt loose weight cause i have a under active thyroid, wich is true, but that isnt what got me to 324 pds. drinking kahlua and eating garbage did. i used to think i hid myself in my long sweaters, and i really beleived no one could tell how big i was!!! what a lie to myself that was!! great blog. emoticon

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DOODIE59 7/27/2011 8:30AM

    Great blog. Thank you.
Deirdre

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BAYBELIEVER 7/26/2011 10:02PM

    Awesome! Great blog! You lied then, but now you know the truth! You rock!

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CANNIE50 7/26/2011 7:25PM

    "I can't lose weight because of menopause." "I can't lose weight because of stress." "I can't lose weight because of insomnia." "I can't lose weight because my husband brings home so much junk food." "I can't lose weight."
Great blog, as per usual.

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SQUIRRELY_GIRL 7/26/2011 7:01PM

    Great blog! Congratulations on being truthful with yourself and for your successes!

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OPAL50 7/26/2011 5:05PM

    Thanks for calling me on my own "lies"!!! The biggest lie of all is that I want to lose weight, but I can't...because if I REALLY wanted to I wouldn't be so lazy and I would just do it! THANKS again. emoticon

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VINNIELOU 7/26/2011 3:14PM

    All of these lies and more. biggest lie is not even trying to find out who I am or what I am like for myself...becuase I am trying so hard to fit in, I thought I had to fit in because of being fat otherwise everyone would hate me.

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KAREBARE00 7/26/2011 2:09PM

    wow. i can totally relate.

the heaviest i've ever been was 165, but i definitely had this weird complex going on, saying "i'm not going to go on a diet, that's lame and too high maintenance for me" and "real women have curves", and constantly thinking that the media wanted me to be skinny.

i'd be shocked if a doctor or friend made a comment about my size or weight.

but then, i'd look at a picture of myself and be ashamed it, cropping out my butt, flabby arms, or not-so-tiny waist before sharing it with others.

i'm so glad i finally realized that being HEALTHY is what counts....getting fit is WAY different than starving yourself skinny!

thanks for this blog. it really hit home!

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KAMAPERRY 7/26/2011 1:46PM

    I lied to myself each time I looked in the mirror and thought "your not that big" But I was and I weas dying from it. NO MORE!!

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SEESTARS 7/26/2011 1:29PM

    My biggest lie was actually a joke about my weight, and I can't even guess how many times I've said it. Many people claimed they did not believe how much I weighed (some still claim this, HA!). and I'd tell them. "I only weigh that much because I eat rocks." I knew I was heavy and it was 100% fat, but I'd go along with these people. I'm sure they were just trying to be nice. and I was happy to claim I looked skinnier than I really was. Silly me.

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CREATING_SARAH 7/26/2011 1:03PM

    You are preaching to the choir! I would always say other than the weight I was perfectly healthy which was true but I used that as an excuse to not doing anything about it. Now I want to say I'm perfectly healthy and not have to say "aside from..." because then you're NOT perfectly healthy!

Great blog and good luck!!

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KRAWRS 7/26/2011 12:50PM

    In the past, I have lied to myself about how out of shape I really am/was. I can't run because I have running induced asthma/weak ankles/it hurts my feet, was (and still is) a big one. While all those things are true, that's not REALLY why I don't want to run. Sure, its why I don't LIKE to run. But more than that, I "can't" run because its too embarrassing. How slow I am. How quickly I get out of breath. How red my face gets after a short amount of time. All that. I've started playing around with the idea of running EVENTUALLY... getting used to the idea, I suppose. You know, giving it a second chance. But we'll see. Where was I going with this? ... Oh yes. Your "healthiest fat person I know" statement feels like me too. I think of myself that way because, tho obese, I don't have any problems with... anything, really. Nothing medically. However, my family having a history of high blood pressure and heart problems, I know I have to watch it. Years ago on birth control, my blood pressure shot up and stayed there, so I know I have the potential to have that problem. The same thing happened during my oh-so-brief pregnancy, so I know its hormone related too, but still. Scary. I really NEED to get my act together so I don't have to worry about these things creeping up on me!! Thanks for the fantastic blog. And congrats on telling the truth to yourself!! That's a very good thing.

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FANGFACEKITTY 7/26/2011 12:48PM

    Great blog! I found my way to SP after years of lying to myself about how big I was. I lied to myself saying I didn't look "that big" or I didn't eat "that much". The truth really does set you free to become the person you always knew you could be.

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BADASSBLONDIE 7/26/2011 12:11PM

    Love this, Mama!!! :D

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KATFOSTER11 7/26/2011 12:00PM

    I have been lying to myself too much lately. Thank you for this blog! It called me out. This is the kick in the butt I needed to get myself back in gear.


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HEALTHYASHLEY 7/26/2011 11:46AM

    I have talked about lying so many times on here. The lies make it easy to stay fat. I can't work out or eat right. I don't have time, it's too expensive. Blah blah. It's a choice and admitting the truth is huge. Good blog!

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LILIVW 7/26/2011 11:38AM

    Congrats on how far you've come! It's interesting that so many of us have had those same thoughts. I remember looking in the mirror and not really realizing how fat I was. Sometimes it's easy to lie to ourselves. No more here either. The truth truly does set us free.

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ZIPLOCK 7/26/2011 11:36AM

    This is such a great blog...and so very true!! Coming to truths with yourself is an amazing accomplishment!!

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TREASURINGLIFE 7/26/2011 11:25AM

    Hmmm...the biggest lie that I told myself was that I didn't eat "that much" and I certainly didn't eat enough to maintain a 250+ pound body.

My truth today is that I have the power to change things - I am in control - and I will reach my goals!! :)

- Michelle

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PJH2028 7/26/2011 11:16AM

    Ahh... yes.... the LIES told .... mostly to myself.... and the uplifting HAPPIER life of not-lying. So true. Love you, J. P

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TURTLERASKIN 7/26/2011 11:07AM

    My biggest lie was that I'm supposed to be fat. I know now I'm not!

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OJIBWEEQUAY 7/26/2011 10:59AM

    I love you Jan! So true! I totally lied about how much Food I actually eat(mostly sugar)! Tracking open and honestly helps me so much!! Oh there are days where I say SCREW it! I had to many hard lemonades and s'mores!!! But I try to be as honest as possible now! I swear, first time ever!!! emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 7/26/2011 10:46AM

    Great blog! My biggest lie was bout my food consumption. Who says that they can eat a whole pizza, a half a bag of Oreos and a mound of peanut butter cups? I NEVER thought about my food much, I just ate, and ate, and ate. I can know say, out loud, that I'm a binge eater. It was like a HUGE (pun intended) weight lifted off my shoulders the first time I said that out loud. My life is SO much better now!!!

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VAMANOS 7/26/2011 10:44AM

    Great post! I always lied to myself about eating healthy. I justified my fat by saying I just ate too much and didn't exercise. Of course, those were both true. But tracking my food has revealed the bitter truth. Even now about 300 of my 1600-1700 calories a day are cookies, ice cream or similar non-nutrient food. That's up from almost none when I started this journey, and is probably solely responsible for my weight loss slowing to almost non-existent. I've got to get hold of that, right now! Because I have about 25 lbs to go before I'll be happy with the number.

Thanks for the wake-up call.

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CHELEMIA 7/26/2011 10:41AM

    "Nothing is going to change. Whether I loose weight or not. It is age slowing me down."
"Can't afford the food to be healthy."
"It is cheaper to eat at fast foods!" It really is but the price you pay is expensive in the long run.
"Nothing is wrong with me."
And the Whopper, "I am physically fit. Look how busy I am. That's why I take naps daily."

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 7/26/2011 10:34AM

    Wonderful post! I use to lie about my smoking habit, I never told anyone that I smoked 3 packs a day till after I quit. I was very lucky in that I caught myself on the way to 200 lbs, never sure if I hit that number as I didn't weigh myself before starting to lose (didn't own a scale).

My truth is that I am worth all the effort in the world and that I come first. Right after Jake and Annie.

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IMIN2GENES 7/26/2011 10:33AM

    Same as you, my friend! I finally came to a similar realization. I'm down 30 pounds and no longer pre-diabetic (I actually was only "pre"). I'm changing my behaviours all for the better. I'm also chaning my perspective. It's a wonderful feeling! I still have a way to go; but I'm heading there with a better attitude and my eyes wide open.
Chris
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BECOMING_HOLLY 7/26/2011 10:32AM

    Thank you so much for sharing this blog. Sometimes it just seems easier to lie to people - to make yourself feel good, or so that others don't judge you as much.

There are days that I honestly feel better now than I did at 350, but most days I still feel like the fattest woman ever!

Thanks for the reminder to own up to life, even when it isn't all positive!!

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DAISY443 7/26/2011 10:32AM

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