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If I push real hard

Sunday, May 29, 2011

If I push real hard, I can feel my hip bones.

If I push real hard, I can achieve what I set out to do.

If I push real hard, I can see progress.

Here is what "Pushing really hard" won't do:

Pushing really hard will not change anyone else. It will only change me.

Completed bootcamp.
Lost 2 pounds since Thursday.
I am stronger than cookies.
When I have a goal, I am more motivated to work hard to achieve it.
Eventually, I wont have to push real hard to feel my hip bones.
Eventually, they will just be there, right below the skin.
By pushing hard now, I wont have to push hard later.
I can't MAKE people do what I want. I can only live my life.

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CANNIE50 5/31/2011 6:23PM

    People are like the weather, they do change (sometimes for the worse, sometimes for the better) but not because we want them to. LOVE this blog. Amen, honey.

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LUVDOGZ 5/30/2011 8:19AM

    Love it! emoticon emoticon

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    GREAT blog!!!!!!!!!! :)

- Michelle

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BBGYRL4 5/29/2011 7:18PM

    Awesome blog! You're do right about only being able to change yourself. Thanks for this!

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KAMAPERRY 5/29/2011 5:36PM

    Amen!! emoticon

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COUCHDIVA333 5/29/2011 4:29PM

    congrats on the hard work!
your positive can do attitude is inspiring. thank you!

this made me think of that old diet pepsi commercial... how do you get a body in a pepsi bottle... push REAL HARD.. lol.

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DAISY443 5/29/2011 2:04PM

    Absolutely correct! Good for you!

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AUNTIELES53 5/29/2011 1:48PM

    love it :)

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 5/29/2011 12:39PM

    Ditto, when I have a goal I am more motivated too!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/29/2011 12:33PM

    Push it, sister! emoticon

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WOLFSPIRITMOM 5/29/2011 12:29PM

    Totally agree. You can only make yourself a better person.

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Didya hear the one about.....

Friday, May 27, 2011

Hey did ya hear the one about the fat girl, trying to lose weight? Yea, and while she was doing it, she kept baking stuff? For other people? hahahahaaha, yea. Its hilarious.


I will have you know, I stayed in range, ate 1 cookie and 1 cake ball. I am done eating for the night (you can even check my tracker! In fact, I wish you would cause I am brutally honest on that thing!) and I am done baking for the weekend. emoticon

Be gone, you damned BAKED GOODS! You may bring joy to others, but you? ARE. NOT. MY. FRIEND.

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TERRYT55 5/30/2011 3:52PM

    I LOVE to bake and cook but do very little baking anymore unless it's for and event away from home. If it's in the house I will eat it!

Good for you for stopping at one cookie & one cake have far more self control than I do.

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COUCHDIVA333 5/28/2011 9:46PM

    i totally miss baking. i don't even try it. i would eat it all. i used to make brownies weekly. my poor husband has gone without for almost a year, lol.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/28/2011 7:10AM

    Good for you! Jan 1 Cookie Monster 0!!!

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DAISY443 5/28/2011 6:52AM

    So, I was traveling and stopped to get a healthy breakfast at Subway. Did you know they have biscuits and gravy? Then the nice lady gave me a free cookie, because she said she broke it. When I got back out to the pickup, the sack was full of broken cookies! Did I do the right thing and turn down the biscuits and gravy for an egg white omelet? Did I save the cookies for my sons? He**, no, I ate the whole thing! Oh, well, better days ahead! The point of all this is to say, "I understand"!

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 5/27/2011 11:53PM

    You make me laugh!! Glad you stuck to just the one cookie and one cake ball! You are welcome to check my food too, I am brutally honest too.

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ALOFA0509 5/27/2011 10:58PM

    lol... I'm baking peanut butter granola with mini chocolate chips for my niece's road trip...Ummm lets just say I had to make another batch for.... Her!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

Good on you for only eating 1!!! Have a terrific wknd sista

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MOHAW54 5/27/2011 10:52PM

    confusing :(

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Commitment and remembering

Friday, May 27, 2011

This holiday weekend, I am
Committed to weighing less than I do today when I weigh in on Tuesday. (227.4)
Committed to NOT using this as an excuse to eat, but using it as a reason to MOVE.
Committed to Completing my 28 day bootcamp on Sunday.

Remembering why I am doing this
Remembering how far I have come
Remembering who and what is important (and I dont think cheeseburgers make the list).

This weekend I am committed to being helpful, strong, supportive and inspirational, especially to my in laws who will be making some tough choices regarding my FIL and Hospice.

I want people to marvel at my self control and comment under their breathe that I am really starting to bug them.(teeeheeee)
I want my choices to be motivational to other people that they, too, can change their bodies and their lives.
I want people to see that my lifestyle is glorious and freeing and not a punishment or a sacrifice.
I want to be a Damn shining light to everyone who knows me.
I want to amaze myself

What do you commit to this weekend?

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KAMAPERRY 5/28/2011 7:45PM

    I commit to working out tomorrow and Monday and eating good the whole weekend!

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DONNACFIT 5/28/2011 9:50AM

    Great inspiring blog..I've been reading some blogs to get inspiration and thanks for a great one :)

Time to get back on track..

Have a great hoiday weekend..we had ours in Canada last weekend.

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    GREAT BLOG! :)

As for me, I commit to staying on track, hitting my calorie goals, getting in all my water, maintaining my 10-minute-a-day exercise streak, and enjoying every moment of every day!! :)

- Michelle

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BECOMINGJAMI 5/27/2011 2:50PM

    Well, Jan, you are a Damn shining light to me. :) And many others, from the looks of it. You're on the right track.

Sounds like an amazing set of commitments, and I'd do well to follow your example. Have a great holiday weekend! You'll be in my thoughts and prayers, like you always are.

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BADASSBLONDIE 5/27/2011 1:52PM

    I commit to continuing to track my food this weekend.

I commit to getting some things done this weeekend, especially regarding my school and work applications and cleaning the apartment.

I commit to not getting mopey about spending my weekend being productive instead of sleeping.

I do commit to getting some sleep, though.

I commit to rocking my swims.

I commit to batch cooking for the first time ever this Sunday.

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MOONBIRD 5/27/2011 12:55PM

    You are AWESOME!! I can't wait to do the same things! I am excited to complete the bootcamp and I haven't missed a day! We are going to be out some this weekend, but I am planning my food so I can stay on track. I might have to fit in an ice cream cone at the amusement park though! ;)

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VAMANOS 5/27/2011 12:45PM

    I am committed to finishing the weeding and digging in my garden space so I can plant the rest of my garden. I'm committed to cleaning out the last of the boxes in my sunroom so we can enjoy it, and getting the yard sale items ready to go the following weekend.

I'm committed to graciously consenting to do something my husband considers fun, even it it turns out to interfere with my own plans.

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DAISY443 5/27/2011 12:33PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon You are that shining light! Shine on!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/27/2011 12:06PM

    You ARE a shining light to so many of us!

I am committed to working out like I would any other weekend
I am committed to NOT eating my weight in hotdogs , so good, but SOOO bad!

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 5/27/2011 11:29AM

    Great! emoticon

I am committed to exercising and wowing people with my progress.
I am committed to continue cooking healthy using whole foods.
I am committed to smiling.
I also want people to marvel at my self control and to comment under their breathe that I am really starting to bug them!

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Today's uninspiring little blog

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Hey guys, just thought I would post a little blog on what is up with me....

I am getting an epidural for my back today. I have been having horrible sciatica that has been making it hard to walk more than 1 mile and half and have a constant burn from my bootie all the way down to my knee so it is time. I have had them before, in fact, I used to get them every year and sometimes twice a year! It has now been nearly 2 years and I attribute that to my lifestyle changes with SP.

I am happy to be getting it and anxious to resume my walking and activities with less pain. In fact, I am really sad cause I cant go tonight and Stitchy is gonna be pretty mad about it. Maybe Frank will take her without me (like the olden days when I "couldn't" go for walks with them).

I am in the last week of the 28 day spring bootcamp and I have really loved it. I do 10 minute video's every morning and it really sets the tone for the day. I will measure and weigh after the weekend and do a progress report. I decided I am going to keep up some of that and will commit to 3 days a week of video's in the AM (more if I feel like it but I like to set goals I KNOW I can do so I can pat myself on the back instead of kicking my self in the butt!)

MY FIL has Myeloma cancer and lives about 2 hours away so we have been going up there pretty frequently and one of the things he likes is Cake balls so I have been making those for him. Since we are closest (in miles) to Frank's grandma, we are also visiting her once a week and she needs chocolate chip cookies every time so for some reason, I am placed in the situation where I am baking (MY KRYPTONITE) but since it is the least I can do, I do it and try to have some sort of control. (see my cookie situation from last week to see how good THAT is going!).

On top of that, Kady has been getting a lot of side work with cupcakes, cake balls etc. so that means enlisting my help, too. She just got a gig in July for a wedding where we will be providing chocolate strawberries, cake pops, dipped pretzels and truffles.

God, I am a glutton for punishment or is it just a glutton??? We shall see....

I am not happy with my weight loss progess so far in 2011 but I am not quitting and I will NEVER give up. I still have my goals and if it takes longer, then it does. I feel fabulous (which is my response when people remark on the change in my appearance because it is soo much more than how I look).

If you take anything away from this blog, please take away some commitment, some courage and some strength to keep going. Oh yea, take away the cookies and cake pops while you are at. I can only do so much.

You guys help me every day, you really do. See ya later! Jan

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DEBBIE19580 5/26/2011 12:59PM

    Hi jan, it's gotta be so hard to be around all that baked stuff. i know for me i can't even have it in the house. those video's sound great. you are doing soooooooo AWESOME with your weight loss!!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BAYBELIEVER 5/26/2011 9:11AM

    Jan, that is great news for Kady and I am sure you will surprise even yourself with your self control! No, you may not pass up all, but I bet you find a little will do ya... I am right there with you for the weight loss, but we still feel great, are looking better, and are living our new, improved lifestyle! No quitting! It just isn't in either of us I suspect! Keep up the great work! And congrats on the bootcamp! I did 2 weeks but had trouble fitting it in. First thing in the am is the way to go! Can't wait to see/hear your progress report!

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FRISBY0 5/26/2011 12:01AM

    well, I sure hope the epi brings you the relief you need to keep on your path to greatness! I mean, if you have to have an epidural & you don't even get a kid out of the deal, the consolation prize better be super sweet, is all I'm sayin'!

Good luck...with eall those challenges you're facing!

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LBTERRY1014 5/25/2011 10:24PM

    For about two years after my first failed fusion, I had to have epidurals about every two months. They are not fun at all. I hope this works for you and that you are feeling better soon. I enjoyed your blog. It is always good to know that "us" back pain suffering souls are not going it alone. Thanks for sharing!

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CELLISTA1 5/25/2011 10:04PM

    Jan, have you considered acupuncture for the sciatica? It worked for me, and I see someone else here mentioned it. Feel better soon!!!

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ATREAT4ME 5/25/2011 9:51PM

    You are such an inspiration! So glad to know you.

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GRACEISENUF 5/25/2011 7:53PM

    May God bless you for taking care of your family like you do Jan that is so kind of you. It's the "little things" that make such a difference.

Found out today my Dad gets to come home from the hospital a week from happy! It's been a long, tough journey for him but he is finally walking again (with a walker). He hasn't lost his sense of humor either.

I am not happy with my progress either as of late but like you said we will NEVER quit and we just kee pressing forward.


hope the shots do the "trick"..I have had them and it hurts!

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DAISY443 5/25/2011 7:12PM

    Hope that epidural does its job, so you can get on with baking all that yummy stuff that you can't eat! Hugs!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/25/2011 6:21PM

    There's no way I could bake like that, I'd eat it all. I hope you're on the mend soon so Stitchy gets her buddy back :)

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VAMANOS 5/25/2011 5:18PM

    Good luck with that shot, sciatica is NO FUN!!! Fortunately for me I've never had it so severely that it required a shot, but I can still relate to your pain.

I love to bake, too, but have no one to give the products to. My advice to keep that Kryptonite under control is to give away as much as you can, freeze some if you must, and allow yourself to have a small amount every day if you want it. Two cookies a day easily fits into the food budget if you're being sensible and moderate. That's my story, and I'm stickin' to it!

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BADASSBLONDIE 5/25/2011 4:37PM

    It's awesome that its' been 2 years since you've needed these shots. I'm glad you'll feel relief soon.

I bet you can do those bootcamp videos 4x a week. :D Doooo ittttt!!!!

Wow, I cannot imagine being around those many baked goods. Heck, if I wasn't so lazy and low on cash, I'd be eating a LOT worse.

I feel ya on being frustrated w/weight loss. I expected to hit my goal by my birthday (1/23...) then by my friend's birthday (3/14...). Still got a quarter of the way to go but that's ok, just keep going. :D


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KAMAPERRY 5/25/2011 3:05PM

    Prayers for you and the family!! I pray the shot works! emoticon

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BECOMINGJAMI 5/25/2011 2:54PM

    Definitely a glutton for punishment, friend. Good luck with everything. You're always in my thoughts.

Also, I know how you feel about not being happy with your weight loss progress in 2011. Mine hasn't been so hot either, but I'm working on it. Today's battle? End-of-year cupcakes that one of my kids baked for our music party. SAD DAY.

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    Oh man - you might have to invest in a bunch of gum, and suckers, to help keep your mouth busy while doing all this baking! Good luck and stay strong!

And good luck with the treatment for your sciatica. I hope you find relief very, very soon!

- Michelle

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MRSMLBJ 5/25/2011 2:43PM

    You are a stronger woman than I. And I do feel for you with that sciatica. So painful. If that shot doesn't help, check out an acupuncturist. It truly helps me . Hang in there kiddo.

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Cookie Victory!

Friday, May 20, 2011

I was cookie free yesterday! Took that cookie monster and Smashed him like the Incredible HULK! Today, I feel much better and in control. Not gonna be a problem! But I am also not gonna get too cocky cause that is when I let my guard down. Day 2, here I come!

Thank you guys for all your humor, support and comments yesterday. You got me through.

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RIGBY31 5/21/2011 1:17PM

    I didn't post on your cookie battle blog because that very day ...oops... I accidently chose 4 cookies at the bakery I accidently drove to. BUT that was then. I'm in the now, now. You've shown I can beat this!

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OJIBWEEQUAY 5/20/2011 9:01PM

    Cookies are over rated emoticon


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GRACEISENUF 5/20/2011 8:59PM

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 5/20/2011 8:56PM

    Just say no! Easier said than done, I know. But you got one day under your belt. Let's make it two, mmmkay? One day at a time!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/20/2011 7:57PM

    You're awesome!

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LOVE2BTHIN2 5/20/2011 3:07PM

    Congratulations! Every small victory is a step in the right direction to winning the battle! You Rock! emoticon

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MELLYBEANS0919 5/20/2011 2:13PM

    Way to go! :-)

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CAALAN23 5/20/2011 1:29PM

    Good for you! I'm trying to resist the bowl-o-sweets in the office as I type. Arrrgh.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 5/20/2011 1:28PM

    You are a rockstar. That is all.

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KAMAPERRY 5/20/2011 1:20PM

    Way to go, I don't allow them in the house!

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    Woohoooooo! Cookie monster is in jail :)

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HEALTHYASHLEY 5/20/2011 1:03PM

    You are a rockstar. That is all.

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FRISBY0 5/20/2011 12:55PM

    good for you! Don't go gettin' cookie cockie-lol!


Hey, you were wide open for that one, who am I to deny the world of such a wonderful word combo just begging to be born?

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MISSB8604 5/20/2011 12:53PM

    Go you!!!!!

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TREASURINGLIFE 5/20/2011 12:52PM

    Yay!!!!!!!!! :)

- Michelle

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CCSCHOON 5/20/2011 12:51PM

  thats fantastic! I have a few of those "monster" myself. Way to go...keep up the good work!

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