Sunday, May 29, 2011
If I push real hard, I can feel my hip bones.
If I push real hard, I can achieve what I set out to do.
If I push real hard, I can see progress.
Here is what "Pushing really hard" won't do:
Pushing really hard will not change anyone else. It will only change me.
Lost 2 pounds since Thursday.
I am stronger than cookies.
When I have a goal, I am more motivated to work hard to achieve it.
Eventually, I wont have to push real hard to feel my hip bones.
Eventually, they will just be there, right below the skin.
By pushing hard now, I wont have to push hard later.
I can't MAKE people do what I want. I can only live my life.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Hey did ya hear the one about the fat girl, trying to lose weight? Yea, and while she was doing it, she kept baking stuff? For other people? hahahahaaha, yea. Its hilarious.
I will have you know, I stayed in range, ate 1 cookie and 1 cake ball. I am done eating for the night (you can even check my tracker! In fact, I wish you would cause I am brutally honest on that thing!) and I am done baking for the weekend.
Be gone, you damned BAKED GOODS! You may bring joy to others, but you? ARE. NOT. MY. FRIEND.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Hey guys, just thought I would post a little blog on what is up with me....
I am getting an epidural for my back today. I have been having horrible sciatica that has been making it hard to walk more than 1 mile and half and have a constant burn from my bootie all the way down to my knee so it is time. I have had them before, in fact, I used to get them every year and sometimes twice a year! It has now been nearly 2 years and I attribute that to my lifestyle changes with SP.
I am happy to be getting it and anxious to resume my walking and activities with less pain. In fact, I am really sad cause I cant go tonight and Stitchy is gonna be pretty mad about it. Maybe Frank will take her without me (like the olden days when I "couldn't" go for walks with them).
I am in the last week of the 28 day spring bootcamp and I have really loved it. I do 10 minute video's every morning and it really sets the tone for the day. I will measure and weigh after the weekend and do a progress report. I decided I am going to keep up some of that and will commit to 3 days a week of video's in the AM (more if I feel like it but I like to set goals I KNOW I can do so I can pat myself on the back instead of kicking my self in the butt!)
MY FIL has Myeloma cancer and lives about 2 hours away so we have been going up there pretty frequently and one of the things he likes is Cake balls so I have been making those for him. Since we are closest (in miles) to Frank's grandma, we are also visiting her once a week and she needs chocolate chip cookies every time so for some reason, I am placed in the situation where I am baking (MY KRYPTONITE) but since it is the least I can do, I do it and try to have some sort of control. (see my cookie situation from last week to see how good THAT is going!).
On top of that, Kady has been getting a lot of side work with cupcakes, cake balls etc. so that means enlisting my help, too. She just got a gig in July for a wedding where we will be providing chocolate strawberries, cake pops, dipped pretzels and truffles.
God, I am a glutton for punishment or is it just a glutton??? We shall see....
I am not happy with my weight loss progess so far in 2011 but I am not quitting and I will NEVER give up. I still have my goals and if it takes longer, then it does. I feel fabulous (which is my response when people remark on the change in my appearance because it is soo much more than how I look).
If you take anything away from this blog, please take away some commitment, some courage and some strength to keep going. Oh yea, take away the cookies and cake pops while you are at. I can only do so much.
You guys help me every day, you really do. See ya later! Jan
Friday, May 20, 2011
I was cookie free yesterday! Took that cookie monster and Smashed him like the Incredible HULK! Today, I feel much better and in control. Not gonna be a problem! But I am also not gonna get too cocky cause that is when I let my guard down. Day 2, here I come!
Thank you guys for all your humor, support and comments yesterday. You got me through.
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