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Today's uninspiring little blog

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Hey guys, just thought I would post a little blog on what is up with me....

I am getting an epidural for my back today. I have been having horrible sciatica that has been making it hard to walk more than 1 mile and half and have a constant burn from my bootie all the way down to my knee so it is time. I have had them before, in fact, I used to get them every year and sometimes twice a year! It has now been nearly 2 years and I attribute that to my lifestyle changes with SP.

I am happy to be getting it and anxious to resume my walking and activities with less pain. In fact, I am really sad cause I cant go tonight and Stitchy is gonna be pretty mad about it. Maybe Frank will take her without me (like the olden days when I "couldn't" go for walks with them).

I am in the last week of the 28 day spring bootcamp and I have really loved it. I do 10 minute video's every morning and it really sets the tone for the day. I will measure and weigh after the weekend and do a progress report. I decided I am going to keep up some of that and will commit to 3 days a week of video's in the AM (more if I feel like it but I like to set goals I KNOW I can do so I can pat myself on the back instead of kicking my self in the butt!)

MY FIL has Myeloma cancer and lives about 2 hours away so we have been going up there pretty frequently and one of the things he likes is Cake balls so I have been making those for him. Since we are closest (in miles) to Frank's grandma, we are also visiting her once a week and she needs chocolate chip cookies every time so for some reason, I am placed in the situation where I am baking (MY KRYPTONITE) but since it is the least I can do, I do it and try to have some sort of control. (see my cookie situation from last week to see how good THAT is going!).

On top of that, Kady has been getting a lot of side work with cupcakes, cake balls etc. so that means enlisting my help, too. She just got a gig in July for a wedding where we will be providing chocolate strawberries, cake pops, dipped pretzels and truffles.

God, I am a glutton for punishment or is it just a glutton??? We shall see....

I am not happy with my weight loss progess so far in 2011 but I am not quitting and I will NEVER give up. I still have my goals and if it takes longer, then it does. I feel fabulous (which is my response when people remark on the change in my appearance because it is soo much more than how I look).

If you take anything away from this blog, please take away some commitment, some courage and some strength to keep going. Oh yea, take away the cookies and cake pops while you are at. I can only do so much.

You guys help me every day, you really do. See ya later! Jan

  
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DEBBIE19580 5/26/2011 12:59PM

    Hi jan, it's gotta be so hard to be around all that baked stuff. i know for me i can't even have it in the house. those video's sound great. you are doing soooooooo AWESOME with your weight loss!!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BAYBELIEVER 5/26/2011 9:11AM

    Jan, that is great news for Kady and I am sure you will surprise even yourself with your self control! No, you may not pass up all, but I bet you find a little will do ya... I am right there with you for the weight loss, but we still feel great, are looking better, and are living our new, improved lifestyle! No quitting! It just isn't in either of us I suspect! Keep up the great work! And congrats on the bootcamp! I did 2 weeks but had trouble fitting it in. First thing in the am is the way to go! Can't wait to see/hear your progress report!

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FRISBY0 5/26/2011 12:01AM

    well, I sure hope the epi brings you the relief you need to keep on your path to greatness! I mean, if you have to have an epidural & you don't even get a kid out of the deal, the consolation prize better be super sweet, is all I'm sayin'!

Good luck...with eall those challenges you're facing!



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LBTERRY1014 5/25/2011 10:24PM

    For about two years after my first failed fusion, I had to have epidurals about every two months. They are not fun at all. I hope this works for you and that you are feeling better soon. I enjoyed your blog. It is always good to know that "us" back pain suffering souls are not going it alone. Thanks for sharing!

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CELLISTA1 5/25/2011 10:04PM

    Jan, have you considered acupuncture for the sciatica? It worked for me, and I see someone else here mentioned it. Feel better soon!!!

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ATREAT4ME 5/25/2011 9:51PM

    You are such an inspiration! So glad to know you.

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GRACEISENUF 5/25/2011 7:53PM

    May God bless you for taking care of your family like you do Jan that is so kind of you. It's the "little things" that make such a difference.

Found out today my Dad gets to come home from the hospital a week from Friday...so happy! It's been a long, tough journey for him but he is finally walking again (with a walker). He hasn't lost his sense of humor either.

I am not happy with my progress either as of late but like you said we will NEVER quit and we just kee pressing forward.

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hope the shots do the "trick"..I have had them and it hurts!

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DAISY443 5/25/2011 7:12PM

    Hope that epidural does its job, so you can get on with baking all that yummy stuff that you can't eat! Hugs!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/25/2011 6:21PM

    There's no way I could bake like that, I'd eat it all. I hope you're on the mend soon so Stitchy gets her buddy back :)

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VAMANOS 5/25/2011 5:18PM

    Good luck with that shot, sciatica is NO FUN!!! Fortunately for me I've never had it so severely that it required a shot, but I can still relate to your pain.

I love to bake, too, but have no one to give the products to. My advice to keep that Kryptonite under control is to give away as much as you can, freeze some if you must, and allow yourself to have a small amount every day if you want it. Two cookies a day easily fits into the food budget if you're being sensible and moderate. That's my story, and I'm stickin' to it!

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BADASSBLONDIE 5/25/2011 4:37PM

    It's awesome that its' been 2 years since you've needed these shots. I'm glad you'll feel relief soon.

I bet you can do those bootcamp videos 4x a week. :D Doooo ittttt!!!!

Wow, I cannot imagine being around those many baked goods. Heck, if I wasn't so lazy and low on cash, I'd be eating a LOT worse.

I feel ya on being frustrated w/weight loss. I expected to hit my goal by my birthday (1/23...) then by my friend's birthday (3/14...). Still got a quarter of the way to go but that's ok, just keep going. :D

XOXO

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KAMAPERRY 5/25/2011 3:05PM

    Prayers for you and the family!! I pray the shot works! emoticon

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BECOMINGJAMI 5/25/2011 2:54PM

    Definitely a glutton for punishment, friend. Good luck with everything. You're always in my thoughts.

Also, I know how you feel about not being happy with your weight loss progress in 2011. Mine hasn't been so hot either, but I'm working on it. Today's battle? End-of-year cupcakes that one of my kids baked for our music party. SAD DAY.

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TREASURINGLIFE 5/25/2011 2:47PM

    Oh man - you might have to invest in a bunch of gum, and suckers, to help keep your mouth busy while doing all this baking! Good luck and stay strong!

And good luck with the treatment for your sciatica. I hope you find relief very, very soon!

- Michelle

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MRSMLBJ 5/25/2011 2:43PM

    You are a stronger woman than I. And I do feel for you with that sciatica. So painful. If that shot doesn't help, check out an acupuncturist. It truly helps me . Hang in there kiddo.
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Cookie Victory!

Friday, May 20, 2011

I was cookie free yesterday! Took that cookie monster and Smashed him like the Incredible HULK! Today, I feel much better and in control. Not gonna be a problem! But I am also not gonna get too cocky cause that is when I let my guard down. Day 2, here I come!

Thank you guys for all your humor, support and comments yesterday. You got me through.

  
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RIGBY31 5/21/2011 1:17PM

    I didn't post on your cookie battle blog because that very day ...oops... I accidently chose 4 cookies at the bakery I accidently drove to. BUT that was then. I'm in the now, now. You've shown I can beat this!

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OJIBWEEQUAY 5/20/2011 9:01PM

    Cookies are over rated emoticon

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 5/20/2011 8:56PM

    Just say no! Easier said than done, I know. But you got one day under your belt. Let's make it two, mmmkay? One day at a time!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/20/2011 7:57PM

    You're awesome!

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LOVE2BTHIN2 5/20/2011 3:07PM

    Congratulations! Every small victory is a step in the right direction to winning the battle! You Rock! emoticon

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MELLYBEANS0919 5/20/2011 2:13PM

  Way to go! :-)

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CAALAN23 5/20/2011 1:29PM

    Good for you! I'm trying to resist the bowl-o-sweets in the office as I type. Arrrgh.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 5/20/2011 1:28PM

    You are a rockstar. That is all.

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KAMAPERRY 5/20/2011 1:20PM

    Way to go, I don't allow them in the house!

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JOSIEISHEALTHY 5/20/2011 1:06PM

    Woohoooooo! Cookie monster is in jail :)

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HEALTHYASHLEY 5/20/2011 1:03PM

    You are a rockstar. That is all.

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FRISBY0 5/20/2011 12:55PM

    good for you! Don't go gettin' cookie cockie-lol!

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Hey, you were wide open for that one, who am I to deny the world of such a wonderful word combo just begging to be born?

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MISSB8604 5/20/2011 12:53PM

    Go you!!!!!

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TREASURINGLIFE 5/20/2011 12:52PM

    Yay!!!!!!!!! :)

- Michelle

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CCSCHOON 5/20/2011 12:51PM

  thats fantastic! I have a few of those "monster" myself. Way to go...keep up the good work!

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My battle today....a picture blog

Thursday, May 19, 2011


(diet-coookie.com)


(honolulugrubhub.com)


(sodahead.com)


(celebs.icanhascheezburger.com)

It's 2:00. That cookie monster has not won (yet).

  
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BIGMAMAT 5/22/2011 10:20PM

    hahaha. I laugh. emoticon

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KT-NICHOLS-13 5/20/2011 1:43PM

    My inner Cookie Monster escaped a few weeks ago and went on a wild ride eating cookie after cookie. It was clear she was making up for lost time and opportunity. She's now in a cookie comma - locked up tight.

I understand the struggle.

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JOMAMA99 5/20/2011 11:22AM

    Keep fighting that monster! Let us know how you did.

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TREASURINGLIFE 5/20/2011 8:39AM

    So...how'd you end making out for the rest of the day? :)

- Michelle

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TERRYT55 5/20/2011 12:47AM

    Hang in there! I had one of those days too!

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MELLYBEANS0919 5/19/2011 9:29PM

  Haha oh dear that is me.

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MOONBIRD 5/19/2011 8:54PM

    Hang in there! You can do it!

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NAPPILICIOUS 5/19/2011 8:27PM

    That was me with ice cream last night . Hang in there.

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SEEMAINE 5/19/2011 8:08PM

    Wonderful blog and awesome pictures! Hang in there! emoticon

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BBGYRL4 5/19/2011 7:39PM

    haha, I loved this!! Especially the cookie monster with the veggies.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 5/19/2011 7:15PM

    I love you Jan. So proud of you with no cookies!

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NEWSGIRL2177 5/19/2011 7:01PM

    Story of my life, sister.
Go, fight, win!

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LUVDOGZ 5/19/2011 6:00PM

    Mine is the candy monster today!

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ANDEENNATE 5/19/2011 5:56PM

    Thanks for this!

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KAMAPERRY 5/19/2011 5:46PM

    Hahahahahahaha! That was me yesterday!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/19/2011 5:23PM

    Hang in there, I know you can do it!

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 5/19/2011 5:14PM

    You will win!

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BECOMINGJAMI 5/19/2011 5:13PM

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That's really all I have to say.

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JENERIN01 5/19/2011 5:01PM

    I LOVE ME SOME emoticon Monster!!

Immediately I thought of Monsterpiece Theater, I wanted to link the "Upstairs/Downstairs" but I can't.

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CHARRI4251 5/19/2011 5:00PM

    Cute! Thanks for the humor.

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I refuse

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Today is my weigh in day. I have weighed in on Thursday every week since I started here 14 months ago. I told myself no matter what it said, I would put it in my tracker.

But today? Today, I refuse. I am up 3 pounds. I am not going to do it. I know it is not "real" weight but still. I refuse.




I am not going to pretend I dont know what happened or that I was perfect this week. I have done things right and I have done things wrong.

I have stayed within my range but have eaten cookies. That means there is no room for "good" foods when your calories are being consumed with cookies. I am also struggling with sodium and not eating enough protein. I have,however, diligently been following the bootcamp and am walking 5 days a week.

Here are some other things I refuse to do this week.

I refuse to eat any more cookies
I refuse to accept this 4 pound range I have been bouncing in for weeks
I refuse to give up
I refuse to kick my butt about it
I refuse to be distracted from my goals

And finally, I refuse to go back on my word to myself so I am going to change my tracker. Crap.



(picture 1 from clipartguide.com, picture 2 Charlesshulz)

  
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RIGBY31 5/20/2011 12:49PM

    Cookies were on my radar yesterday!
Fail... emoticon However, today I'm friday strong.

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RUNNER12COM 5/20/2011 2:06AM

    Love the thought process, and how you end up doing what you know is right for you. And those extra cookie-pounds don't stand a chance against your resolve.

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CANNIE50 5/20/2011 1:37AM

    Oh, I can relate. Thank you for taking us through your thought process. I agree - I promised myself I would be honest when I committed to SP, or there was no point in me being here. This is a turning point, I bet. And, I suppose, if all else fails, I will be swatting you with rolled up newspapers. Leave it, leave it, LEAVE IT! emoticon Good girl!

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MOONBIRD 5/19/2011 8:53PM

    Cookies are my weakness! I know you can bust through that 4 lbs! I made brownies last week and sent some home with my friend so I wouldn't eat them all.

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KAREN1924 5/19/2011 5:38PM

    I think we all can relate to your feelings on this. But you got it right IT'S ALL ABOUT ATTITUDE! And you got a bigger attitude than those dang cookies. You are on the right roll and hope to aquire the same attitude if I need to. Thanks for the blog, you will do this because you REFUSE to quit and have that keep on gettin' on attitude. Good for you and you WILL see results, I REFUSE to believe anything but!

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ALOFA0509 5/19/2011 4:49PM

   
COOKIES!!! I made some yesterday and said I'll only eat 4.. turned out I ate 4 every hr!! lol.. Love your attitude sista.. Rock ON emoticon

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BECOMINGJAMI 5/19/2011 3:13PM

    I love, love, and beyond love your attitude. You inspire me in so many ways, Jan. And even in the process of your brutal honesty, you still manage to make me smile. Thank you, friend, for helping keep my head in the game -- and still putting me in a go0d mood. I love reading what you have to say.

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 5/19/2011 2:58PM

    I did the same thing about a month ago! It is hard to be doing a lot of things right and not have the scale show a difference.

I love your refuse list!

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TREASURINGLIFE 5/19/2011 1:25PM

    Living and learning...that's what it's all about, right? I'm proud of you for keeping to your word and putting in the gain, even though it hurt. It just goes to show that where our calories come from really does make a difference. And when the week is all over and the cookies are all eaten and we have to look back and reflect on where our choices have brought us, it's good to be able to truly feel that our goals are worth way more than any more cookies!!

Keep on keeping on my friend. Choose wisely. As you can see, choices really do matter. ((((HUGS))))

- Michelle

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You have a great attitude!!!!! emoticon

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DAISY443 5/19/2011 1:05PM

    I refuse to believe that you cannot do this! You will do it. I found your blog this time, no idea what happened before!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/19/2011 12:53PM

    Oh, I get it sister! Things have been crazy lately, but you know it's not real, just like the Jabberwocki in Alice in Wonderland, "it just isn' real, it just isn't real..." Ha! We'll get through this too!

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BADASSBLONDIE 5/19/2011 12:21PM

    PEANUTS!!!!!!!

*hugs* I see a lot of really awesome things you did this past week. Keep going and add to them and you'll see the results you want! *hugs*

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 5/19/2011 12:21PM

    Don't change it, Jan. Wait to see how you do next week and then take it from there. You got this!

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RUNBAREFOOTMAMA 5/19/2011 11:55AM

    Oh cookies......it's a love/hate thing for sure. emoticon
Next week, your tracker will go the right way.

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JENERIN01 5/19/2011 11:54AM

    I actually have posted the "same" weight rather than a 3 lb gain because I knew it wasn't real. The following week I ended up with a 5 lb loss and I knew that I didn't lose 5 lbs in a week, I new it was carry over from the "gain". Even if you change your tracker...you will probably lose it just as fast. No sweat.

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KESHIAG 5/19/2011 11:52AM

    lol love the illustration! Im glad you will track it because next week when you lose the three pounds plus whatever you will b realllll happy

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Yesterday's Crohn's walk (pictures)

Sunday, May 15, 2011

We had a lot of fun at the walk yesterday in Sacramento. Our team was the top fundraiser with over $4000.00 raised!

Kady works for a company who sells these "Volcano Splash" drinks at festivals and such and they donated the stuff for us to give them away. They were a big hit and it was fun seeing everyone's reactions to them! You cant really tell but they use dry ice and they smoke..it's pretty cool.


Here is Frank and Kady, giving away the drinks:



Here is a picture of my daughter, Kelly and her boyfriend, Art.(yea he looks like Vin Diesel and we tease him mercilessly about it all the time).

This is Owen: He is 9 years old and was the honored Hero this year. He gave a great speech and is a really brave kid:





This is the starting line for the 1.25 walk around the state capitol.

And a shot of our team (and others) getting ready to walk:


So then, my great niece, Sami and I had to do the Hokey Pokey:





And finally, my shirt from last year. A 3X.


And my shirt from this year: A XL.

  
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BAYBELIEVER 5/23/2011 7:14PM

    You are awesome, and so much fun! I want to do the hokey pokey!

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GRACEISENUF 5/20/2011 9:01PM

    Looks like fun...I wanna do the hokey-pokey!

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LOVE2BTHIN2 5/16/2011 12:25AM

    Fabulous pictures! Great job and wonderful enthusiasm shines through. You look like you guys could take on the world! Congrats on the smaller shirt size!

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 5/15/2011 5:37PM

    Somehow I am not surprised that you did the hoki poki!

Awesome pictures and thank you for sharing them!

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MKACILLAS 5/15/2011 5:01PM

    what nice pics! Big Congrats on the drop in t-shirt size. Great job on raising money for a good cause!

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ATREAT4ME 5/15/2011 5:01PM

    Two things, Jan:
1) Woooohooooo to you for going from 3X to XL!
2) Let me know next year's date. If all goes well this year, I'd like to help your team!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/15/2011 4:51PM

    Sounds like you all had a great day! Yay for smaller shirts!

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JBARSTOW 5/15/2011 3:00PM

    Great job on the walk....and CONGRATS on the size change! You have plenty to be proud of!

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RIGBY31 5/15/2011 2:47PM

    What a beautiful day, beautiful family. And you even got some hokey-pokey in!

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BECOMINGJAMI 5/15/2011 2:47PM

    Sounds like you had an amazing day, and for an awesome cause. My aunt has Crohn's, and so this topic is very special to my heart anyway, but still. I had to drop by and say brava! (And send many extra congrats for the drop in tee-shirt size.)

If I ever get down your way, I'm going to have to stop and see you. That's just the end of it.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 5/15/2011 1:48PM

    Good for you Jan! Looks like a truly special day. I am so proud of you! Hugs.

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BADASSBLONDIE 5/15/2011 1:46PM

    What a great walk and fantastic pictures! Thank you so much for sharing adn for all the hard work you guys put in! :D

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DAISY443 5/15/2011 1:30PM

    You are an amazing woman! Great job on the walk. Just think of all the people who will be helped by your efforts!

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